In the past, Qianxing never thought about what his future would be like.
Later, after getting together with Huo Jinbei, she thought about it, but it was just a fleeting thought, and she didn't dare to think about it in detail.
First, she is still immersed in the joy of love, and subconsciously avoids things that will make her unhappy;
Second, that kind of future is too vague and vague, or she simply can't imagine it.
But now, Huo Jinbei told her that she could live to be 80 years old and that she still had more than fifty years to live. He said that it was not too late to do anything now.
Qianxing actually knew what he meant. She had already noticed what he meant from the moment he took her to the library center——
He felt that she could take the college entrance examination again. This time, she would no longer be affected by the living environment and shadow events. She could focus on her studies, go to college again, choose her favorite major again, and thus do what she wanted to do.
.
This kind of development is too idealistic for Qianxing.
She has long been accustomed to facing the reality of Chi Guoguo. For her, the future that Huo Jinbei refers to is beyond her dreams.
So she escapes, she retreats, she is cowardly.
She didn't have the courage to go back to ten years ago and start from scratch - even if she had nothing in her life during these ten years.
Because starting from scratch, what we face may not be success. What if it is another failure?
If she fails once, she can still live in this world in confusion. But what will happen if she fails a second time?
"Even if you fail again, you can do it a third time or a fourth time." Huo Jinbei suddenly said, "Even if you fail, it's just one more year of hard work and one more year of waiting. Your future life will still be saved.
There are decades, what can’t you wait for?”
Huo Jinbei seemed to have seen through her inner thoughts, but even so, Qianxing still had a deep uneasiness buried in her heart.
After a long time, she finally whispered: "I want to think about it."
Huo Jinbei stretched out his hand, rubbed her hair, and said in a low voice: "Okay."
After breakfast, Huo Jinbei went to the hospital on time to go to work, while Qianxing didn't go out until the afternoon. This morning, she mostly sat in her room in a daze.
If the phone hadn't suddenly rang at two o'clock in the afternoon, Qianxing would have been able to post until dark.
When she heard her cell phone ringing, she suddenly came back to reality, picked up the phone, and saw an alarm clock.
The note on the alarm clock is - Get ready for work.
She had never set such an alarm, and the only one who could choose to set it on her phone today was Huo Jinbei.
He probably guessed that she would be in a daze all the time, so he set this alarm to remind her.
Qianxing looked at the phone interface quietly, and tears suddenly fell unexpectedly.
No one was so kind to her, and no one had ever been so kind to her. He was the only one who thought about everything for her, even thinking about her future life.
In fact, what else is there to consider? She clearly knew in her heart what the right choice was, but she still wanted to find a little courage——
A trace of courage to fully face yourself, fully recognize yourself, and be completely responsible for yourself.
…
At half past two, Qianxing boarded the bus to the Art Center on time.
There were not many people on the bus at this time, so she found a seat in the back row by the window, sat down, lowered her head and sent a message to Zhuang Yibo.
Such a thing is a bit difficult even for Zhuang Yibo, but Qianxing has no choice.
Sure enough, after Zhuang Yibo knew the outline of the matter, he immediately said: "This is a good thing. Huo Jinbei has really thought carefully about you. What is there to be afraid of? Just give it a try."
After Qianxing read her reply, he couldn't help but raise his head and exhale slowly.
However, before she could finish her breath, her eyes suddenly fell diagonally forward——
Near the aisle, a man of about thirty years old sat there, and on the aisle next to him, a young girl in a short skirt stood holding a hanging ring.
Both of them held mobile phones in their hands. The difference was that the girl's mobile phone was sending messages, while the man's mobile phone was dangling under the girl's skirt.
In an instant, Qianxing's heart burst into flames.
"Please give way." She said to the passenger sitting outside her, then got up and walked out.
She walked straight to the girl, and when she passed her, she bumped her arm lightly. The girl looked at her, seemingly unaware of anything, and continued to look down at her phone.
Qianxing walked in front of her, then turned around, her eyes fell on the man, and stayed there for a long time.
The man's gaze originally fell outside the window. He probably noticed something. He turned back to meet Qianxing's gaze, paused slightly, and then continued to look out the window.
However, he turned around several times and found that Qian Xing was looking at him.
After all, he had a guilty conscience. He immediately put away his phone, stared at Qianxing and said, "What are you looking at?"
"Look at you." Qianxing smiled slightly and said.
"You..." The man was stunned, "Do you know me?"
"We know each other." Qianxing said, "Don't you have a sex name and a wolf name?"
After a few seconds, the man and the other passengers around him reacted at the same time. The man's expression instantly changed, while the people around him looked like they were watching the show.
"You fart!" The man became furious in an instant, "I'm sitting right here without moving, so don't slander me!"
"Really?" Qianxing said, "Then do you dare to let everyone see the photos or videos you just took on your phone?"
"That's my privacy!" the man said, "Why do you just want to see it?"
"Oh, it doesn't matter." Qianxing shrugged, raised the phone in his hand, and said, "The videos on my phone are not private. You can share them with everyone to see what your phone was doing just now."
The man's face instantly turned the color of pig's liver. At the same time, the girl standing in front of Qianxing seemed to realize something and pulled her skirt uneasily.
"You don't have to be afraid." Qianxing looked at her and said, "This kind of wretched man who only dares to secretly take pictures of people's skirts on the bus will become honest as soon as he is sent to the police station."
"Don't fucking fart!" The man jumped up instantly, "Why do you think I was secretly filming! I accidentally put my fucking phone next to her skirt and took secret photos! What about her? She came out wearing such a short skirt.
Didn't you expose your flesh to men on purpose? I also said that you two teamed up to frame me on purpose!"
As soon as he jumped up, the girl flinched again and stood forward again with a red face.
"Don't be afraid." Qianxing gently pulled her and said, "Don't listen to his nonsense, I will help you testify."
Ahead was the bus stop, and the bus was slowly pulling over. When the girl saw this, she hurriedly broke away from Qianxing and said: "Forget it...forget it...I don't have much to lose anyway..."
"Did you hear that?" The man suddenly became proud, "People wear such short clothes just for others to see. They don't even have any objections. Who do you think you are, minding your own business!"
When the girl heard this, her face seemed to turn redder, even her ears and eye sockets turned red, but she just gritted her teeth and did not dare to speak.
Qianxing was instantly irritated. She turned to look at the man and sneered: "Who am I? When I send you to the police station, you will know who I am -"
She was used to staying in smoky nightclubs and seeing all kinds of gangsters. Once her eyes sharpened, she immediately became a bit sharper and more intimidating.
The man was stunned for a moment when he saw this, then stood up suddenly and said, "I'm too lazy to argue with you! I've arrived at the station and am about to get off -"
As soon as he finished speaking, the car door opened. The man was walking slowly, but when he saw the car door opening, his eyes suddenly changed, and he suddenly jumped out of the car quickly, joined the crowd on the platform, and quickly ducked out of the way.
Qianxing was about to jump out of the car and chase after her, but the girl next to her suddenly pulled her, looked at her with red eyes, and said, "Don't go, don't chase..."
"Why?" Qianxing was surprised.
"This kind of person is very scary..." the girl said in a low voice, "You can do anything, forget it, forget it..."
Qianxing listened to what she said, and when he turned back, the man had already disappeared behind the stop sign, and he didn't know where he went.
At the same time, the car door in front of her was slowly closing.
Qianxing couldn't help gritting his teeth, but in the end, he just said: "It doesn't matter, I captured his appearance on my mobile phone, and the bus is also monitored, so I don't believe he can escape - of course he wants to forget this kind of person.
But...it doesn’t matter."
…
That night, Huo Jinbei worked overtime until midnight before finally returning home.
As soon as he entered the door, he saw Qianxing sitting at the dining table, with short wet hair, eating a bowl of noodles.
"Are you back?" Qianxing raised her head to look at him, "Have you eaten? Are you hungry? Do you want some noodles?"
"No need." Huo Jinbei walked to the dining table, pulled out a chair and sat down, and then said, "Why are you eating at this time?"
"I have something to deal with. I just came back not long ago." Qianxing replied.
Huo Jinbei's eyes fell on her head again, and after staying for a moment, he slowly said, "Have you cut your hair?"
"That's right." Qianxing tugged at her short hair, "I just cut it myself in the bathroom."
"Why do you remember cutting your hair?" Huo Jinbei said.
"Because cutting my hair short will make me look smaller." Qianxing said, "This way, I can sit in the library and perfectly pretend to be a high school student——"
Hearing these words, Huo Jinbei raised his eyes again, his eyes staying on her face for a long time.
"Does it look like it?" Qianxing asked.
"Like." Huo Jinbei said.
"Okay." Qianxing stroked his hair again and said, "Then I'm going to stop pretending shamelessly——"
Huo Jinbei sat back in his chair, stared at her quietly for a long time, and finally laughed slowly.
Qianxing met his gaze and her eyes flashed twice.
She wanted to tell him——
She began to feel that the future was not so uncertain, and that it was not difficult to face herself calmly.
She finally determined what she wanted to do and what she could do.
She wants to regain her dream, and she wants to help some people.
There is nothing to be afraid of if you fail. The worst thing is, as he said, just wait another year.
She still has a long future ahead of her.
Their future is still very long.
…
There are so many things to think about, I don’t know where to start.
But she knew that even if she didn't say a word, he would understand.
So, maybe she really doesn't need to say too much.
So when he spoke again, Qianxing just said: "Huo Jinbei, in addition to the tutoring materials you bought, I also need a complete set of high school textbooks... For mathematics, maybe junior high school textbooks as well."
Huo Jinbei smiled and looked at her with deep eyes. Hearing this, he just said: "Okay."