"Well..." Chi Feichi thought about it carefully and determined that the original consciousness and him had never had such strong hatred in this life, but there had been in the previous life. "Yes, looking back now, it should be the first time."
It's more painful when I have strong hatred. Half of the pain comes from the harm I suffered, and the other half is probably from my own powerlessness. After I completed my revenge for the first time, I didn't feel such strong hatred. Now if I
When I meet an annoying enemy, I will kill him on the spot if I can. If I can't kill him on the spot, I will immediately start making preparations so that I can kill the person one day in the future. My attitude towards the Holy See is also the same.
To destroy, then develop your own strength first, probably because I have been preparing for revenge, so I no longer feel that hatred will cause me pain or suffering."
"Aren't you taking revenge directly, or are you preparing for revenge?" Koshizui Nanatsuki was a little dumbfounded. He recalled his past experiences filled with hatred, "I thought about it carefully. The most painful and entangled time for me in the past was when I found out that my friend was dead.
I was very wronged and I didn’t decide to take revenge. After I really decided to take revenge and carried it out, I got rid of that pain and became full of fighting spirit every day... But this means that before Mr. Chi
It’s not that I’ve never had hatred, it’s just that most of the time I don’t debate whether to take revenge or not. When faced with hatred, I firmly choose ‘I want revenge’, so that’s why I haven’t experienced the torment of hatred like today, right?”
Saying that, Koshikoshi Nanatsuki thought of what Chi Feichi said before about 'revenge is not guilty', and said thoughtfully, "Mr. Chi seems to be the kind of person who is not easy to hate anyone, but when he is angry,
In fact, sin has always existed deep in your heart. Although you have probably not experienced the entanglement and pain caused by hatred for a long time, when it comes to the behavior of 'punishment because of hatred' represented by the sin of anger, you should be very determined
executor."
Chi Feichi thought for a while, nodded in agreement, "You are right."
He originally thought that he lacked the sin of anger, but now it seems that he is almost a human apostle of the sin of anger, and everything he thinks and does promotes the sin of anger.
However, he always believes that it is a good thing for humans to have an appropriate amount of the "Seven Deadly Sins". Those desires give humans the motivation to develop themselves or serve others.
Just like people who like fame will be willing to give away some of the things or energy they own in order to gain a good reputation, lazy people will also think about how to make their lives more convenient, and it is easy to find a lot in life to make life easier.
A simple little trick... As long as human beings' inner desires are not excessive, what they end up bringing to themselves, others and the larger group may not be harm, but may actually be helpful.
Of course, what Sanwu Golden Finger gives him every time is an 'excessive version' of the original sin. His subconscious will also have a rejection reaction because he detects the intrusion of 'foreign objects', and wants to clean up the emotions that do not belong to him.
, so every experience will make him feel uncomfortable.
"Actually, it's understandable," Koshimizu Nanatsuki suddenly clenched his fists and raised them in front of him, saying seriously, "My God cannot be offended. Those who offend the gods should go to hell!"
Chi Feichi was silent as he looked at Yuesui Nanatsuki, who was suddenly possessed by Chuu Er's soul.
Does he want to cooperate with Yueshui Eryi now?
Is it okay not to cooperate? Will it appear that I am cold and not at all cooperative with my lover?
Keshui Nanatsuki hit the mark a bit, looked at Chi Feichi who was looking at him, and smiled sheepishly, "That's pretty much what it means. Actually, it's because you don't usually show happy or sad emotions.
, I used to be a little worried that you didn’t have human emotions, that you didn’t understand the meaning of male and female lovers, and that you just regarded me as a cute little pet or something. Although this is not good, but now I know that you also have it.
The feeling of hatred makes me want to breathe a sigh of relief for no reason. If gods can hate things, it means that there will also be love in your heart..."
"Why do you think gods don't know the existence of love? And why do you think humans really understand what love is?" Chi Feichi asked calmly and seriously, expressing his opinion, "In my opinion, everyone
Almost, many human beings don't understand love either. What they think of as 'love' is just the obsession brought by desire, and 'love' itself is an abstract definition. Everyone understands love differently. I just want to make sure that you are very important in my heart.
It’s important, that’s all.”
Koshizui Nanatsuki thought about the incidents he had experienced and the stories behind the cheating couples he helped investigate. He had to admit that Chi Feichi's statement that "many human beings don't understand love" was true. He even felt that he was a little confused about love.
What was it? It wasn't until he heard Chi Feichi say the last thing that he smiled with relief, "That's right, many human beings don't seem to know how to love, but I can also confirm that Mr. Chi is also a very important person to me!
"
Chi Feichi: "..."
Yueshui can now speak love words to him without blushing or heartbeat. He has made great progress. He is improving like a rocket. He is not used to it.
Koshizui Nanatsuki reacted: "..."
Wait, was what she just said considered love? It's embarrassing to say it so directly.
It must be because Mr. Chi always said nice things calmly, which caused her to be infected too...
…
The two of them paused the philosophical discussion in a tacit understanding and continued to eat their almost cold breakfast.
After a while, Koshizu Nanatsuki couldn't help but talk to Chi Feichi about the topic of metaphysics again, "Actually, I used to misunderstand that gods don't understand love. It was also because when I discussed gods with Hongzi, Hongzi mentioned the gods.
The soul is likely to come from a higher dimension, which is different from us. The time in your eyes is different from ours. Maybe this is the reason, so I am wondering, in your eyes, are we just...low-dimensional beings?
"
Chi Feichi: "..."
This time Hongzi was right, his soul did come from a higher dimension.
And Yueshui's statement is not wrong. Although as his inner acceptance of the world becomes higher and higher, the number of times he dances is less and less, but now that he sees the corpses of the dead, he still doesn't feel that way.
Those were the corpses of his own kind.
For most human beings in this world, he still subconsciously thinks that those are backgrounds of paper people, and he does not feel sorry for the disappearance of paper people in his heart.
However, if he said, "My soul comes from a higher dimension," I always felt that their morning meeting today looked like a mental illness exchange meeting.
And he didn't want to cross the water and doubt whether he didn't know how to love, hate and hate.
In fact, for a small number of people in this world, he also thinks these low-dimensional beings are very cute, and wants to keep them with him forever, and does not want them to disappear.
Koshizui Nanatsuki's original intention was just to share his and Koizumi Hongzi's conjectures with Chi Feichi. He did not think that a certain infancy god would know his situation. He did not ask Chi Feichi whether this was the case. After sharing, he curiously asked, "
By the way, Mr. Chi, I mentioned hatred before, why did you hate someone for the first time?"
"Because of betrayal," Chi Feichi said after taking a sip of the cold millet porridge, his reaction was still very calm, "that person betrayed information that is very important to me."
Koshizui Nanatsuki nodded and asked curiously, "What happens after that?"
"After that person died," Chi Feichi simply said straightforwardly, "I no longer hated him."
Koshizu Nanatsuki: "..."
No problem at all, this is indeed Mr. Chi's style.
Koshimi Nanatsuki felt that this was not a happy thing and did not ask for details.
Chi Feichi didn't mention it again, and the two of them talked about the 'hate' in the previous cases, which distracted a lot of Chi Feichi's attention and diluted the anxious feeling caused by the hatred in Chi Feichi's heart.
After breakfast, Xiaomei happily cleared the table and applied for the right to use the computer to Chi Feichi, saying that she wanted to use the computer to play games for a while in the morning.
Feichi heard Xiaomei talking about computer games, looked at the pale winter sky outside the window, and began to hesitate whether to go out today.
Chi Feichi saw Feichi's hesitation, and took the initiative to give Feichi a day off, letting Feichi and Xiaomei stay at home to play games, while he drove Keshui Nanatsuki to the TV station.