The two of them sat there without speaking, and the atmosphere was too awkward. Xiao Muyou couldn't stand it, so she had to find a topic. Lei Yan nodded.
"Brother Feng doesn't want his wife to suffer."
Hearing this, Xiao Muyou smiled slightly, full of envy. It seems that the relationships between the brothers and sisters are going smoothly, but she is the only one who cannot love her so far. Of course, Xiao Yichen is not counted. That guy has been abroad. I heard that
It was also a time of chaos.
"It's great. Sometimes I really envy Xiaodai. Although she and Feng Beichen also suffered some hardships, at least they got together in the end. The key is that Feng Beichen is really good to her."
Xiao Muyou said with emotion.
Lei Yan was quiet for a while, and then spoke.
"Mr. Qiao is very kind to you. I heard that he has liked you for many years."
Hearing this, Xiao Muyou smiled bitterly and said.
"You know quite a lot?"
"I just heard it from others. I don't mean to pry into your privacy."
Lei Yan explained with an indifferent expression.
At this time, Xiao Muyou raised his head and looked at Lei Yan. After looking at it for a long time, he felt a little hairy when he saw Lei Yan. At this moment, Xiao Muyou asked.
"how about you?"
After asking this, Lei Yan was stunned, and the atmosphere condensed again. Fortunately, the restaurant owner brought up two bowls of small wontons.
"You two have been waiting for a long time, please use it slowly."
Xiao Muyou took the wontons, glanced at Lei Yan, and smiled coldly.
"Look, I've been stupid again. I know I won't get any response from you, but I still have illusions."
After saying that, Xiao Muyou stopped talking and lowered his head to eat wontons.
However, the food that I loved to eat in the past has no taste at all when it comes to my mouth. I don’t know the taste of the food.
As for Lei Yan, he didn't seem to be very hungry and ate very little. He would look up at Xiao Muyou from time to time. However, the woman kept her head down, but she missed Lei Yan's reluctant expression several times.
After finishing the supper, the two of them returned the same way without staying. The two of them walked side by side. Xiao Muyou lowered his head, not knowing what he was thinking.
"careful."
Suddenly, Lei Yan's deep voice came to her ears, and when Xiao Muyou reacted, she had already fallen into Lei Yan's arms.
"You can walk without eyes."
At this time, Xiao Muyou heard a harsh voice, and she frowned slightly, realizing that she probably didn't look at the road just now and almost bumped into someone else. Just when she was about to apologize, Lei Yan spoke again.
"Feel sorry."
When the other party heard Lei Yan's apology, he didn't say anything else. After that, Lei Yan pulled Xiao Muyou and continued to walk forward. Xiao Muyou was confused along the way because her eyes kept falling on her hand held by Lei Yan.
On hand.
Yes, after he was almost hit just now, Lei Yan held Xiao Muyou's hand all the way. I don't know if he didn't notice it or if he couldn't bear to let it go. In short, the two people's hands never let go.
It wasn't until they returned to the parking place that Lei Yan let go of Xiao Muyou, but his expression didn't change at all, as if everything was so natural.
"Get in the car, I'll take you back."
"etc."
Xiao Muyou called out to Lei Yan, who stopped, turned around, looked at Xiao Muyou, and waited for her to speak.
"Lei Yan, I love you."
"I know."
Lei Yan spoke calmly. He had never thought about avoiding this point. In fact, he also wanted to have a good chat with Xiao Muyou.
"You know? Then what?"
"Mu You, I'm sorry, I can't love you."
This seemed to be the first time Lei Yan had given such a direct answer, but when Xiao Muyou heard this answer, she felt it was ridiculous, and she murmured repeatedly in a state of confusion.
"What does it mean to be unable to love? To be unable to love means to not love me or to be unable to love me?"
At this time, Lei Yan sighed heavily.
"Mu You, I don't want to lie to you. I admit that you are different from other girls, but we are not suitable. Do you understand? Why should we waste time when we know there is no result?"
"If you don't try hard, how will you know there is no result?"
Xiao Muyou cried. Obviously many people had said this to her, but when she heard Lei Yan also said the same, she couldn't help but cry. Didn't he want to go over and try his best? Who can guarantee that it is true?
There will be no results. Don’t you even have the courage to fight for it?
Lei Yan didn't expect Xiao Muyou to cry. He was confused for a moment and wanted to comfort her, but when he got closer, he didn't dare to hug her. In the end, he could only say helplessly.
"Mu You, some results are already determined. Do you know where those injuries on my body came from?"
Lei Yan was cruel, made up his mind, and spoke.
Xiao Muyou was stunned for a moment. When she looked up at Lei Yan, she felt that Lei Yan's whole aura had changed. He was no longer the taciturn and cold man, but more like a bloodthirsty Yama in the darkness.
Exuding the aura of death, at that moment, Xiao Muyou panicked for a moment, subconsciously stepped back and leaned directly on the car.
Xiao Muyou was scared. At that moment, she didn't dare to look into Lei Yan's eyes, as if she would be on the verge of death if she looked for a second longer. However, seeing Xiao Muyou's change, Lei Yan gradually calmed down the dark aura on his body, and then his voice slowly
, said in a low voice.
"This is the real me. I carry countless blood on my body. In my world, there is only death. For a person like me, feelings are just a burden to me. I am destined to be alone in this life.
You can't love anyone, you can't have any vulnerability or weakness, do you understand?"
At this time, Xiao Muyou also recovered from the panic just now. When she heard Lei Yan's words, she only felt heartbroken. She didn't understand.
"But you are now the president of the Feng Group. The country you are in now will not have those evil things."
"Mu You, you are too naive. You have lived in an ivory tower since you were a child. You don't know that darkness is everywhere. Otherwise, how could I have been injured that time? In the past, I had too much blood on my hands.
There are too many enemies. Once my identity is exposed, do you know what the consequences will be? Do you think your parents will let their daughter be with a dangerous person like me?"
"But that's all your past. If you don't tell it, no one will know."
"No, in fact, your family knows me better than you do. Okay, get in the car and I'll take you back. We'd better try not to meet each other in the future. Mr. Qiao is a very good person and he is more suitable for you.
"
Lei Yan was extremely calm, as if this matter had nothing to do with him.
Xiao Muyou couldn't accept such a reason, she took Lei Yan's hand and said.
"But I'm not afraid. I don't care what kind of person you were in the past or what you did in the past. Lei Yan, after you said so much, didn't you just want me to give up? Then let me ask you,
Do you love me or not? Have you ever loved me in the past or now?"
Facing Xiao Muyou's question, Lei Yan was stunned. How should he answer, lie, or tell the truth.
Just when Lei Yan hesitated, Xiao Muyou spoke again.
"Look into my eyes and answer me."
"Loved."
Lei Yan answered. He didn't lie, but he also lied. He didn't love, but always loved. But he knew that if he told the truth, this woman would fly into a flame and pursue him desperately. This is not
The result he wants.
But he didn't expect that with his answer, he still didn't persuade Xiao Muyou to retreat. He only saw Xiao Muyou step forward, directly grab Lei Yan's collar, and then said stubbornly.
"Since we have loved each other, it means that you have feelings for me. Since we have feelings, why don't we be together? Lei Yan, I want to work hard, don't you even have this courage?"
Lei Yan never expected that even after he reached this point, this woman would become more and more courageous with every setback.
"Xiao Muyou, please wake up. Since you are so stubborn, let me tell the truth. If you are with me, you will become a burden to me. Do you understand? I don't want my life to be in the hands of others one day.
What’s in your hand, do you understand?”
Lei Yan didn't want to say this, after all, he had deeply hurt this woman, but in order to make this woman give up completely, he had to say such harsh words.
"What do you mean? You think I will drag you down, don't you?"
Xiao Muyou was stunned when she heard this. She didn't believe that Lei Yan would say such things.
"Isn't it? Do you know who the people I face are? They do all kinds of evil and are ruthless. Anyone who can threaten me will become their target. Do you think you can deal with those people?"
At this moment, Xiao Muyou had nothing to say, or it could be said that she gave up completely.
Yes, she is a helpless woman and has no ability to even protect herself. What if one day someone threatens Lei Yan with her? Sure enough, they are not from the same world. Instead of torturing each other,
It's better to just let it go.
Thinking of this, Xiao Muyou suddenly calmed down. She put away the tears in her eyes and looked up at Lei Yan, her voice extremely calm.
"I understand. I'm sorry for causing trouble to you. Don't worry, I won't bother you again in the future."
After saying that, Xiao Muyou opened the passenger door, got in the car, fastened his seat belt, and closed his eyes quietly, with tears slowly falling from the corners of his eyes.
Hearing the sound of the door opening, Xiao Muyou turned her face to the outside of the car. She didn't want to use her tears as a weapon to win Lei Yan's pity. In this way, the two of them remained speechless and drove towards Jinxi Garden.
The school is still quite far from Jinxi Garden, and it took almost half an hour to drive to Xiao Muyou's residence.
After parking the car, Lei Yan was still thinking about how to say goodbye to Xiao Muyou. He turned around and saw Xiao Muyou asleep leaning on the car.
Lei Yan opened his mouth to wake up Xiao Muyou, but the next second, he took back the words he almost blurted out, then carefully flattened Xiao Muyou's car seat, and took a blanket from the back seat to cover her
, he sat quietly in the cab, leaning sideways, and just looked at the woman next to him quietly.
Lei Yan wanted to indulge one last time, and wanted to take a good look at this woman. Maybe after tonight, he and Xiao Muyou would return to their original parallel lines, living two lives that could never overlap.