"...At that time, my mother didn't like me very much because I was a girl." Looking at the sky, Su Tan'er said softly after laughing, "She has always hoped...
My father also thinks that I can give birth to a boy in the future, but he is at least a little warmer to me. He said that I am smart, and I will definitely be smarter if I have a younger brother in the future. My father always looks at me to see what my future brother will look like. My mother didn’t even want to look at it. At that time, I always tried to cling to my mother, but she ignored me.
Sometimes I do something wrong and annoy her, but she doesn't hit me, she just waves to the nanny to take me away. My husband, this is the biggest contempt in the world...
Later, I found out that my mother always wanted a younger brother. At first, I even hated my younger brother. I didn’t understand what was different about the baby girl..." The wild flowers on the hillside were dotted with flowers. Su Taner Putting his hand on his lower abdomen, he watched the white clouds disperse in the evening. Ning Yi closed his eyes and smiled, then opened his eyes: "It's okay, they don't like us, and we don't like her either." "Oh, I can do that." If you don't like your mother, then your husband is not good enough, otherwise he will be scolded and said that your son-in-law is unfilial." Ning Yi turned his head, looked at her for a while, and said seriously: "They can't scold me." "Pfft." Su Tan'er couldn't help but cover her mouth. After the well was carved, she looked at the sky and spoke again.
"I am quite strange among girls. Later, after I studied some books, I did not feel that this is human nature like those ladies in the upper class. Instead, I felt that my father and mother did not treat me well and it was not fair at all. I was there Growing up with the nanny in the big house, on the one hand, I felt that I wanted to be a boy that my father and mother would regret, and that I wanted to take over the family business. On the other hand, I felt that I was a girl, and I must be a girl. Learn everything you learn well, otherwise you will prove that you actually envy those boys, wouldn’t you lose?"
Ning Yi stretched out his hand to pick up a withered grass stem for her. Su Tan'er's voice was melodious: "Growing up in a home like that, my nanny was kind to me when I was a child. She always said that we are a big family and I am everyone. Women are envied by everyone. But when I became sensible, I realized that there was nothing to envy. My father didn’t like me, and my mother didn’t like me either. If we were a small family, we wouldn’t have such troubles. In fact, I also understand. If the family hadn't been too big, if there had been an older brother above me, and my father and mother wouldn't have been under so much pressure, I wouldn't have been left out. I didn't like my father and mother during those times, and later I found out that I didn't like them either. I have become just like them, that family... there is no human touch..."
"I... I am not a lady. I just follow others and learn from others. In fact, I am not like that. I like poetry, but I can't write well and I don't know how to read it, so I told myself that I will do it at that time. I'm studying, there are too many strange things in business, and I don't have time at all. Actually, I don't like poetry at all, I just like the feeling of being sought after. Sometimes I think of this and see my father and mother looking so close, I just want to stop having children in the future. If I give birth to a child and cannot raise it well, she will be like me and blame me as a mother. What should I do..."
"The standard is too high. No one will be a good mother if you just like poetry." Ning Yi interjected.
Su Tan'er shook her head and smiled: "When I was fourteen or fifteen, I didn't want to get married, so I kept putting it off, and then when I couldn't put it off anymore, I chose my husband." She tilted her head and looked at it.
Ning Yi, who was lying next to him: "But I didn't mean it at that time. Let Xiao
Chan went to take care of her husband, ran away on the wedding day, and came back several days later. Although they lived together later, she didn't respect or care about her husband..." "Isn't it already very good?" Su Tan'er
Shaking her head on the grass, her expression had become calmer, with just a slight natural smile: "No." When she said this, her voice had become slightly softer, "It's not very good, that's just me pretending, pretending."
She acts like a lady, pretending to be well-informed, just like she pretends to like poetry. I... I am just thinking about myself, thinking about stabilizing my husband, making this house look like a home, and not being disturbed by others.
Just poking the backbone is enough. I never thought about my husband..."
"Women are so troublesome..."
"…………, but now I think about it."
The two people's voices rang together, Ning Yi muttered in boredom, and Su Tan'er whispered slightly.
After finishing speaking, he couldn't help but chuckle at his words. Ning Yi closed his eyes and put his palm across his face, his fingers almost hitting Su Tan'er's cheek. Su Tan'er tilted her head, closed her eyes slightly, and leaned her cheek against it.
On his hand, he felt the touch of his fingers.
The two of them have always been decisive people and don't like to be pretentious. When they were together, they had night conversations in Xiaolou that seemed romantic in this era. But in fact, Su Tan'er had a sophisticated temperament.
During the heart-to-heart conversations, they were all spoken as naturally as possible, with not many sweet words. Later, the Su family suffered a catastrophe, and their relationship developed by leaps and bounds, and then Su Taner burned down the building and consummated the marriage, although there were occasionally a few words
Sweet talk, but it's basically between the beds.
Su Tan'er's youngest daughter is not very coquettish. They are both powerful people. Even if they are really flirting, they always understand each other. It's just that in the past two days, they learned about her pregnancy and Ning Yi's.
After the injury, although she stayed by Ning Yi's side silently and didn't say much nonsense, it was only now that she really vented out these things that she thought she didn't need to care about.
"Now that I know that my husband is very concerned about what happened at that time, I can't possibly hide the twists and turns in my wife's mind from my husband. It's really embarrassing to think about it... At that time, I thought my husband was a stupid scholar.
I read a few stupid books, I don’t know how to think about things, I can’t deal with people well, I just think...as long as I can control my husband, how can a stupid scholar like my husband be my opponent?"
Ning Yi smiled: "Not now."
"My husband is open-minded, and maybe I think that is human nature. But now I think, if only I could do this again, I would treat my husband well. I... I want to learn to be a real lady, and I want to marry you."
My husband is raising his son. I don’t want to marry my husband-in-law until I am eighteen years old. Let others say that my husband-in-law married a shrewd old girl. It would be better if I married my husband-in-law when I was fourteen or fifteen. That way...that way
Once...everything is different, I won't drag my husband to Hangzhou willfully..."
Although Su Tan'er choked a little when she said the previous words, she was still calm. It was only when she said the last sentence that she finally really cried. She clenched her fists with both hands and put them by her side, trembling slightly and crying hard.
.This woman has always been arrogant. Although she is restrained under the gentle appearance, her outlook on life developed in the shopping mall is almost as sharp as Ning Yi's. Once something happens, she first only seeks a solution and regrets.
The emotions I felt could only be called summary or introspection at best. But at this time, knowing that the journey was difficult and that my husband's injuries were likely to be caused by the long journey, I actually felt guilty for these emotions.
Ning Yi sighed, moved and moved closer to his wife. Su Tan'er grabbed his clothes and gritted her teeth as she sobbed.
"You guys will still have a chance to go back." Ning Yi said.
Su Tan'er had already started crying: "Now I want to have a child for my husband. I don't want to be brave anymore, I don't want to do business anymore. I don't miss myself anymore, but now I want to be able to live without this child."
Well, it will be different if we don’t have it now. I saw my husband doing those things in the past two days, trying hard to think of how to get out. I know that my husband is burdened by responsibilities. Although my husband will be like this without the responsibility of children, I am really scared.
The doctor said that my husband’s injury requires peace of mind, he needs to rest, and then rely on his own body to push through it. My husband, you have worked so hard to escape, how can your body survive...
I have some persuasion, but I know I can't do it at all..." She cried hard next to Ning Yi and was so depressed that her body was shaking violently: "In the past two days, my husband has been asking those people about things and planning those things.
, I was by my husband's side... I was holding back from speaking when I was by my husband's side. There were many people telling me in my heart that it was useless to say it, it was useless to say it, it would just make you more troubled, and I couldn't let you worry and do things at the same time.
Annoy me.
But I also thought, if only I were like those ordinary women, I would just cry and shout that you are not allowed to do this, and then I would not have to worry about anything..." Ning Yi patted her shoulder: "You too
I know it’s useless to say it…”
"When I couldn't bear it anymore..." Su Tan'er sniffed, "When I couldn't bear it any longer, I went to hide in the tent, sit for a while, and tried not to let myself cry. Chan'er and the others all cried.
Several times, they wanted to come over to persuade you, but I blocked them. I didn’t want you to have to work hard to talk to them or persuade them. I didn’t say useless words to you, and I didn’t want you to have the energy to speak.
Spend it... I didn’t want to tell you this at first..."
After she said this, she cried softly, but she was finally better than before. Ning Yi waited for a while and said, "I will get better."
Su Tan'er wiped away her tears, but they still kept falling. She leaned on his chest and nodded: "You must get better. If you don't get better, I won't be able to meet such a husband, and I won't have any more children.
I don’t want a family anymore... I was never a good mother, and I have done things that ruined other people’s families... My husband, please remember, I have your child in my belly, you are very tired now, but
You can't complain about being tired, you still have to push through. But it doesn't matter if you can't push through, we will go down to find you..."
She stared at Ning Yi with her eyes open, her gentle face, and her lips pursed tightly. She walked around the mall as a woman, and she always had a quiet style, because she had a delicate appearance and was only a second-year-old.
The girl in her early teens was not like the decisive businessman who was waiting for the sofa, but at this time, only the big eyes that had just cried showed the stubbornness that had been cultivated in the shopping mall for a long time but had been restrained, mixed with the gentle face.
Being together only sends a more heart-warming message to the person in front of you: This is your woman.
Ning Yi smiled: "Don't underestimate your husband-in-law, no matter what, I will survive. You are destined to have this child."
Su Tan'er touched her belly and then leaned against Ning Yi. She held Ning Yi's skirt with her other hand and closed her eyes. She seemed to be mumbling something or praying, but the mountain wind blew over.
, can’t hear the specific words clearly.
The clouds were flowing in the sky, and the setting sun was burning all over the sky and the mountains and rivers. As night fell, the army began to operate busily in the camp of the escapees. They broke out of camp again the next day, and the pursuers from behind were actually not far away from here.
, as noon approached that day, they began to get news from the lone refugees. Just in front of them, the largest escape team began to fight among themselves...