The next day was a cloudy day, the sky was gray, the sun was completely covered by dark clouds, leaving no gaps, and it was so gloomy that people couldn't lift their spirits.
On such a rainy day, Lin Zhi got up early in the morning uncharacteristically, put on clothes and shoes for Shen Shu himself, took her to dinner, and got into the carriage with her and went out.
He rarely went out, so Shen Shu was inevitably a little curious, so she turned to ask him, "Azhi, what are we going out for today?"
Lin Zhi lowered his eyes and was silent for a moment before speaking, "Go and pay homage to someone."
"A very important person."
Shen Shu felt the loneliness around him and subconsciously grabbed his hand. Then she realized that his hand was colder than usual today.
As the carriage was moving, the wind suddenly began to blow outside. As Shen Shu listened to the wind outside, she suddenly thought that Lin Zhi had never mentioned her past.
From the moment she met him, he was alone.
She suddenly felt a little uncomfortable and couldn't help but tighten her hold on Lin Zhi's hand.
Lin Zhi felt her nervousness and thought she was afraid, so he held her hand to comfort her, "It's okay. That person is very nice. He is nice to everyone."
Shen Shu said "hmm" and tried her best to smile at him, "I know."
Lin Zhi felt relieved.
It happened that at this time, it started to rain lightly outside, and the sound of rain reached his ears. He suddenly remembered that the day he learned about the death of that person was also such a rainy day.
The carriage drove for a while and then stopped. Shen Shu took an umbrella and got out of the carriage with Lin Zhi.
The weather in early summer is always so unstable. Yesterday it was extremely hot, and today it is windy and rainy.
Shen Shu carefully walked through the mud and came to a tombstone. She took a closer look and saw that the name on the tombstone was Lu Shifei.
She had heard of this name when she asked Jingning Hou Lin Zhi about his past. He was Lin Zhi's uncle, a high-spirited young general, but he died on the battlefield six years ago.
She subconsciously looked at Lin Zhi's expression, but saw that he was already looking at Lu Shifei's tombstone in a trance.
Shen Shu knew that he was feeling uncomfortable, so she just stayed with him quietly.
The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and she was afraid that he would get wet and cold, so she tilted the umbrella towards Lin Zhi again, but Lin Zhi noticed her movement and suddenly held her hand, "Go back."
The two of them returned to the carriage together, but Lin Zhi had no intention of going back and just sat quietly in the carriage.
Shen Shu rested her head on his shoulder to accompany him. She had never experienced the pain of the death of a loved one, so she didn't know how to comfort him. She could only find his hand, interlocked with it, and tried to warm it with her own. Warm hands, to convey some small strength to him.
Lin Zhi lowered his eyes and watched Shen Shu squeeze her fingers into her own. Her hands were tender and small, but his hands were not only big, but also had many thin calluses. He suddenly remembered that there was also a person when he was a child. Use such rough big hands to hold his delicate little hands.
He used his big hands to teach him martial arts, led him to climb walls, and even cooked a piece of roasted sweet potato for him, although the sweet potato was burnt to a crisp.
His uncle always tried his best to be kind to him, but he felt so sorry for him.
He remembered that when he was a child, that woman and his brother always treated him very badly, so he always looked forward to his father visiting him more often.
However, the father was not only busy with affairs, but also had many children. Every time he could only see him in a hurry, he would be taken away by concubines or princes from other palaces.
So, he gradually stopped expecting his father to come, and instead looked forward to his uncle coming.
His uncle was ten years older than him. Not only would he bring her many toys when he came, but his mother would always treat him better every time he came.
They visited every corner of the palace together, and his uncle always told him, "Azhi, you are very talented in martial arts."
My uncle was always happy until he was ten years old.
That year, his uncle suddenly asked him, "If I die one day, will Ah Zhi be sad?"
The "death" he understood at that time was that a few days ago, the concubine poisoned a palace maid to death because the palace maid combed a lock of her hair when she was combing her hair.
He saw the body of the palace maid. It was very big and soaked. People around her were very scared, and several palace maids who were familiar with her shed tears.
Perhaps because he was born without a lot of emotions, he was standing next to a few people at that time and felt nothing.
He thought that it should be death, and death should be something he was numb to, so he did not answer what his uncle said.
It wasn't until many years later that he learned that on that day, a senior monk told his uncle's fortune, telling him that he was destined to have a calamity and that he would not survive until the age of twenty-five.
Later, when his uncle went to the border, he saw his uncle riding on the beautiful bay-red horse and looking at him, "Azhi, if I die, you must live well for me."
The uncle was full of hope when he said this, but he was suffering from poison every day at that time, so he did not answer.
Later, when the woman died, his eyes widened when he saw her body oozing blood. He stood in the pool of blood. He thought he would be very happy, but he didn't expect that a wave of pain would grow from his heart.
, but it is not the emotion of "happy".
He didn't know what that emotion was at the time. It wasn't until a year later, when news of his uncle's death came from the border, and he saw his body being brought back with his own eyes, that he knew that that emotion was called "pain."
.
Being abused by that woman was very painful. In order to prevent himself from the pain, he suppressed his emotions and made his body and mind numb. Because of his numbness, he was unable to solve both of his uncle's problems.
answer.
As Lin Zhi thought this, his body became colder and colder. Shen Shu felt his coldness and raised her hand to tug on his sleeve.
He was pulled back to his senses, and then Shen Shu hugged him.
He felt the warmth of her embrace for a while, thinking that the other party would comfort him, but unexpectedly, Shen Shu suddenly called him solemnly, "Azhi..."
His eyelashes trembled slightly. Because Shen Shu buried her face in his chest, he couldn't see her expression clearly and could only focus on her back.
Because she had tilted the umbrella toward him just now, a small patch of water got wet on her clothes. The wet patch was much darker than other areas, which was unusually obvious.
But then, the small piece disappeared in front of his eyes, because Shen Shu stood up and was looking into his eyes with her gentle peach blossom eyes.
"Did you know? The more you love something, the heavier the meaning of death will be, and the deeper the pain will be. Love and death are not two different things, they are two sides of the same thing."
Lin Zhi lowered his eyes to carefully chew on what Shen Shu said. He felt dull. He thought about these words for a long time before he understood them. Then he raised his eyes to look at Shen Shu.
"So, the reason why you are so sad is because you have been loved passionately by others, and you have also loved others passionately."
Lin Zhi felt his heart suddenly tremble.
Shen Shu felt the trembling of his body, but she did not continue to speak and just hugged him again.
She was a bystander and could see much more clearly than Lin Zhi. He had always felt that he was a numb, gloomy, emotionless, cold-blooded and abnormal person.
Actually no.
His emotions are extremely passionate, so intense that they can burn a hole in a person's heart.
However, people with passionate feelings will always be hurt more than others.
Thinking of this, she felt even more distressed, and called him in a low voice, "Azhi..."
Lin Zhi said "hmm" and went to reply to her, waiting for what she would say next, but couldn't wait.
He then hugged her whole body onto his lap, and Shen Shu buried her head in his neck again, feeling the coldness of his body.
At this time, the rain outside had stopped, and he said to Chang Lan who was driving outside the door, "Go back home."
Chang Lan responded immediately, and the carriage moved forward with a clatter.
Lin Zhi hugged the person in her arms tightly to prevent the carriage from knocking her over, and then lowered her eyes to look at the features of the person in her arms.
In fact, he is not as good as Shen Shu thought.
In the year after his uncle's death, his illness became increasingly serious and he could not find a cure anywhere. He simply could not live a good life in his uncle's place.
He felt lonely for the first time, and every dark night when he was sick, he could feel the utter loneliness.
So, when Shen Shu took the initiative to approach him and hugged him for the first time, he had very despicable thoughts in his heart.
He thought that it would be great if someone could hold his hand at the moment of death, and it would be great if someone could hold him during the days and nights when the pain occurs.
She wanted his power, and he wanted her companionship and warmth. After his death, the two became separated. This was supposed to be a relationship of mutual use. Neither of them expected that the relationship would develop to this point and become what they are now. It's a dire situation.
He lowered his head and kissed her hair, feeling the softness of her hair, and then said softly, "Arao..."
Shen Shu heard him calling her, so she raised her eyes to look at him.
Then, Lin Zhi kissed her lips. His lips were cold and trembling, but he was full of piety when he kissed her.
She is his god, a god that he has desecrated but still needs him to look up to.
Shen Shu felt his kiss and hugged his neck. After the kiss ended, she moved down to kiss his neck.
Shen Shu's breath hit his neck, making his body tremble a little, and she kissed his Adam's apple and chin.
Feeling her kiss, he suddenly hugged her neck and called her over and over again, "Aluo... Aluo..."
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When the two of them arrived at the palace, it was already noon. As soon as Shen Shu returned home, Chang Sheng came forward and said, "Miss Shen, the wife of the Minister of Household Affairs is here."
As soon as he finished reporting, Shen Ci came out to greet him. She came early this morning and had been waiting for Shen Shu here all morning.
When Shen Shu saw Shen Ci, she subconsciously raised her eyes to look at Lin Zhi's neck.
It was summer now, and Lin Zhi's collar was a little short. When she raised her eyes, she could see the bright red hickeys on his neck.
Those were the kisses she had just made in the carriage.
Her face suddenly turned red, and she felt like a child caught in early love by a parent. She wished she could immediately go forward and wrap her arms around Lin Zhi's neck, or find a crack in the ground to crawl in.
As expected, Shen Ci was stunned for a moment when she saw the hickey on Lin Zhi's neck. Then she quickly regained her composure and said to Shen Shu, "Aluo, I have something to come to you for today."
Shen Ci glanced at Lin Zhi secretly, and the meaning was obvious. Shen Shu then looked at Lin Zhi and said, "I'm going to talk to my sister. You go back to your room first, okay?"
Lin Zhi nodded, looked at Shen Ci again, then turned and left.
After that, only the two sisters were left here.
Shen Shu took her sister's hand and pulled her into the front hall of the palace. After the two sat down together, Shen Ci wanted to ask about the relationship between Shen Shu and Lin Zhi, but then thought of what she had just seen, so she He swallowed what he wanted to say again.
She felt sad that her younger sister had followed someone else without a name or status. If it were under any other circumstances, she would have scolded Shen Shu from the very beginning, but...
She knew in her heart that Shen Shu had no choice but to do so, and there was no better way than this.
She couldn't bear to blame her sister, and remembered the purpose of coming today. She talked to Shen Shu for a while, and then said, "I saw Xiao'er yesterday."
Shen Shu was stunned for a moment subconsciously, and then asked, "Where did sister see Xiao'er?"
However, Shen Ci suddenly raised her head and looked at Shen Shu with burning eyes, "In the Taifu's house."
"I saw Taifu talking and laughing with Xiao'er, and he obviously admired him very much. The two walked together for a long time."
"I know that Xiao'er has always only liked dancing and playing sticks, and doesn't like studying, nor does he like talking with those who talk nonsense. But that day, I heard him and the Taifu talking about "Governance Policy"."
Shen Shu knew that Shen Ci had already guessed a lot, and sighed in her heart.
In her impression, her sister and her husband were two people with little ambition and a quiet life. She didn't want to tell them this, but she didn't expect...
"Yesterday I went back to Jingninghou's Mansion and asked my parents, but they all refused to tell me. A'luo, I know that you and the King of Bei'an are close now, and you must know a lot of news. Please tell me, is Xiao'er... Want to fight for the throne?"
Now that the matter has come to this, there is no point in hiding it anymore. Shen Shu finally said, "Yes."
When Shen Ci heard this, he immediately lowered his eyes, picked up the cup of tea, took two sips, and used the tea bowl to cover the expression on his face. He didn't raise his head until the expression on his face had calmed down a lot.
"Although my husband's official position is not high, if Xiao'er wants to fight for the throne, there is no way I won't help."
Shen Ci looked directly into Shen Shu's eyes and said, "Aluo, you know, Xiao'er has known since he was very young that he is not from the Shen family, so he doesn't want to cause trouble to us. If you know what kind of trouble he has encountered, come directly. tell me."
Shen Shu thought for a moment and nodded.
After sending Shen Ci away, Shen Shu felt her heart tremble a little.
Even though she has traveled through time and become the daughter of Jingninghoufu, her previous feelings for Jingninghoufu were not particularly deep. What she misses more is her modern parents.
But now, after she gradually integrated into Jingninghou Mansion, she suddenly realized that she had not dreamed of modern parents for a long time.
Jingninghou Mansion is a very good home. Jingninghou, Mrs. Jingninghou, Shen Ci, and Shen Xiao are all very good family members.
And Lin Zhi was also a very good person to her.
After she lowered her eyes and thought for a moment, she suddenly made a very important decision.