The attending doctor didn't stop him, because he had already reached this stage, and there was no difference between being in the hospital and at home.
"Okay, take medicine and stabilize your condition!"
Chen Zimo has been away from this "home" for a year and has not come back for a year, but it is still so clean.
Grandma's portrait is still decorated with incense, and there are still fruits on the table, which are spotless.
He looked at every corner of the room, and vaguely saw Bai Xiaofei's figure busy every day.
He first offered a stick of incense to Grandma Cao, then knelt in front of her. Suddenly he couldn't help crying and covered his mouth——
Bai Xiaofei hugged him, her eyes were red, and she said, "We're going home... We're going home, it's okay!"
He couldn't control it anymore and cried loudly, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry——"
I'm sorry...I've made you suffer so much. I'm sorry...I know clearly that you are trying your best for me, but I still make things difficult for you again and again...
Their eyes met with each other, their eyes filled with tears. They hugged each other and cried. It took a long time before they came back to their senses...
He said, "Thank you!"
The two of them haven't kissed for a long time. The most they did was touch their heads when the caregiver left.
Because Chen Zimo is too weak, Bai Xiaofei has to wear a mask and gloves when in contact with him.
This time, he didn't want to endure it anymore, so he dressed roughly and asked her, "Xiao Fei, is that okay?"
"Can……"
Two lonely and tired souls who had suffered for a year merged together again.
Although they were not able to do as much as they did a year ago, both of them had a taste for food. Although the sound insulation effect of the semi-basement was very good...the two of them were still very careful -...but no more safety measures were taken.
Although Chen Zimo was discharged from the hospital, the doctor in charge still told him that the medicine should not be discontinued.
But even so, he lasted for a year and became resistant to a large number of drugs.
A large number of them have been replaced in this year. In the words of the doctor, they are almost at their limit.
It is possible to switch to better medicines and continue to maintain it, but the price is not something that ordinary families can afford!
Therefore, the drug became resistant again, and the price of the new drug doubled, forcing the two of them to a desperate situation again——
After being discharged from the hospital, Chen Zimo fell ill in the second week.
This is the most serious episode he has had one year after diagnosis and treatment.
The attending doctor has given up hope, "The last resort is bone marrow transplantation!"
In fact, we were matched just over two months ago, but the other party asked for 1 million in cash and would not accept any other method.
It makes people despair.
This is also the reason why Chen Zimo committed suicide. He was really afraid that Bai Xiaofei would do something stupid...
After being out of danger, Chen Zimo wanted to go home again. Bai Xiaofei said, "There will be a way. I have found the contact information of your biological father - I will ask tomorrow, and then I will sell the house or transfer it to
them!"
When Chen Zimo was eight years old, his mother died in childbirth, leaving one dead and two dead. In the same year, his father married another woman, and he was driven to the countryside to live with his grandmother. When he was eleven years old, his grandmother also passed away, and the elder of the family
The house was sold by his biological father because there was a second child in the family. He originally had a stepmother and a stepfather. He lived a very hard life at home. When he was twelve years old, he was kicked out -... he had no relatives to support him.
He supported him, but he didn't understand, so he could only beg for food all the way from the outer suburbs to the imperial capital - it was also in that winter that he met Grandma Cao...
He said, "Xiao Fei... I really don't want to be treated anymore. I know... we don't have the money anymore. Even if the transplant is successful, we can't afford the subsequent treatment costs at all. Don't beg them. I'll never do it again."
I was kicked out at the age of twelve and now I have survived the year when I was about to starve to death and freeze to death, and I didn’t even ask them, so let’s not get treatment, okay?”
"We won't take this medicine, okay?"
His eyes were always pleading.
"I'm afraid that once you leave, I will never see you again...
I have no other wishes, I just want... I just want to see you again in the last period of my life..."
After this time, they really couldn't afford the medicine anymore. Bai Xiaofei didn't give up and took him to see a Chinese medicine doctor. He also cooperated with the treatment. As long as Bai Xiaofei didn't abuse himself, even if the room was filled with the smell of medicine, the medicine would be gone again.
Bitter and heart-burning, he was stunned and didn't say a word.
The two of them stayed at home during the day, and he accompanied Bai Xiaofei out to the stall at night. Occasionally, when his mental and physical conditions improved, the two of them would linger for a while. He smiled and said, "This is the happiest day since I got sick..."
Three months after being discharged from the hospital, Chen Zimo fell ill for the fourth time.
Sitting in the ambulance, Chen Zimo was in a daze, holding her hand and saying.
"Xiao Fei, one day...will I be dragged out of the ward and lie in the morgue like Grandma Cao?"
"If you can, let me die in our home...?"
We were in a hurry and had to rush to the nearest hospital.
The moment Chen Zimo was sent to the emergency room, Bai Xiaofei stood at the door, numb and hesitant. He didn't know how long he lingered.
The pungent smell of disinfectant from the hospital hit her, accompanied by a cold wind, just like that night two years ago, when unreasonable fear eroded her heart - she looked around in a daze, desperate and terrifying, she seemed
Hearing the cry of death, he seemed to smell the joy of new life.
She huddled in the corner and finally realized that she might... no longer have any relatives.
After struggling desperately for a year... her dearest person will finally leave.
After four hours of resuscitation, the doctor issued a critical notice——
"Who is Chen Zimo's family?"
"I am."
"Are you his wife?"
"I am his fiancée."
When the doctor heard this, he looked at the skinny man on the bed, who could only rely on an intravenous drip and an oxygen tube to hold him up. Then he looked at Bai Xiaofei, who was in extremely poor mental condition. He was silent for a long time and asked, "Are there any other family members?"
Gu Xian
"No, my fiancé is an orphan, and I am the only relative left!"
"Okay, you can sign here after reading it - it will only take... a day or two."
"good!"
She was in a daze, her bloodshot eyes seemed to twitch for a moment, but she finally managed to hold on for a breath and signed the critical illness notice.
"Thank you, doctor!" she said with a forced smile.
It was around one o'clock in the evening when Chen Zimo woke up, suffering from vomiting and diarrhea. The hospital had already made arrangements for him, and his bed was reserved by another patient after the notice of critical illness was issued.
On the contrary, he became more and more awake. At about three o'clock, he suddenly took off his oxygen mask and nutrient solution bottle, changed into regular clothes, patted Bai Xiaofei who was standing by and fell asleep from exhaustion, and forced himself to smile at him.
Said: "Wake up, Xiaofei, let's go home!"
He didn't know how warm his smile was, and how pale and desperate it was...
He seemed to be in peace along the way, but only Bai Xiaofei knew that every step he took was extremely difficult, as if he was stepping on a steel needle, and every move was overdrawing the little life he had left...
Several times, if she hadn't supported him, he would have thrown himself directly to the ground - he fell on Bai Xiaofei so lightly that Bai Xiaofei didn't expect that he could already support him. This man who had always played a "giant" in her life
An average man.
Bai Xiaofei secretly wiped the tears from his eyes several times.
In the past two or three months, even if I usually go to the hospital to get medicine, I have to take the bus or subway.
But where are the buses and subways coming from in the middle of the night?
The two took a luxurious taxi ride.
Back home, four o'clock.
The basement was dark and humid, but the house was clean and tidy, and there was a strong smell of Chinese medicine that lingered.
"I want to eat the breakfast you made again. Do you remember the noodle shop we had in front of the school? Many people go there to eat, but I think the noodles they make are not as delicious as my wife's..."
His face and eyes were full of pride.
It was in that noodle shop that he couldn't help but become obsessed with her...
"Okay!" Because of these words, Bai Xiaofei hurried out of the house, carefully prepared, fearing to disturb the neighbors, and finally made two bowls of chicken noodles - but when the noodles were half eaten, Chen Zimo couldn't hold it anymore.
, I vomited out half the bowl of noodles I ate.
There were streams of blood vomited out from the face, which was shocking.
Bai Xiaofei had already picked up the phone and wanted to dial 120, but looking at Chen Zimo's pleading eyes, she gave up. With only one sentence left, she managed a tearful smile, "Don't worry, I won't leave...
I won’t send you away, but I’ll stay here with you!”
He was becoming more and more conscious and could speak, but his eyes became increasingly blurry and cloudy.
"Actually, I really don't want to die. My wife is so good-looking, and I'm not bad either. I also want to... build a new home with you. Our home -"
"It's not enough to give birth to one, we have to give birth to three, four, five or six... Don't have so many girls, one is enough. The two of us and her brothers are doting on her -"
I hope our daughter can have a happy childhood and a happy life for her mother.
He closed his eyes, and after saying this, he could only breathe out, not in, but he still wanted to say it. Bai Xiaofei looked aside. She also wanted to hear the video recorder she saved up to buy when they first got together.
, didn’t cry either, smiled from time to time——
"These brats... must be very naughty. We have to beat them a few more times while they are still young... otherwise... they won't be able to beat them anymore when they get old."
"The two of us will work hard and raise them well... There is no need to wait on us. We all have pensions, but they can't chew on us..."
"Neither of us has officially gone to college, which is a big regret in our lives... Therefore, we have to bite the bullet and have to give them up. We can't... we can't let them... be like us... and suffer the disadvantage of not going to university...
…”
"good!"
Her voice was trembling, but full of determination, and her eyes held a hopeless and helpless smile.
At 5:35 in the morning, Chen Zimo left. In just one night, he seemed to have lived the life he imagined.
"It's nice to get to know you..." He lay on Bai Xiaofei's lap, holding Bai Xiaofei's hand, and his thin, shapeless face was finally filled with a happy smile.
Bai Xiaofei also smiled, but his tears couldn't stop flowing.
Suddenly, Chen Zimo stopped talking, and the thin palm in his hand "fell heavily".
She lowered her head suddenly, and the tears that had gathered in her eyes fell on Chen Zimo's face one drop after another.
She put her palms on her forehead and opened her mouth slightly two or three times. Her eyes were dull and numb at first...
She didn’t know how long it took, but the emotions of collapse suddenly surged in her eyes——
Pain, panic, collapse, despair, hate...
At this moment, she should have burst into tears to vent her inner collapse and helplessness, but she didn't.
She sobbed silently, picked up Chen Zimo's still warm but slightly cold hand, and touched her face. She shook her head slightly, and a bitter and nostalgic smile suddenly appeared on her face, "... Go to sleep, fall asleep
It won’t hurt anymore.”
After more than a year of struggle, Chen Zimo is still gone...——
It's been a cold winter just like when we arrived.
More than two years ago, they organized Grandma Cao's funeral together. This time, she handled it by herself and had experience.
She wiped his body and changed into the shroud she had prepared long ago. Instead of going to the funeral parlor, she directly contacted the crematorium - his body was cremated early the next morning, and she took his ashes with her.
Went to the cemetery and was buried in Grandma Cao’s cemetery.
she said.
"Grandma, Zimo and I haven't come to see you for a long time. Don't be angry. We have been too busy this year. It doesn't matter... From now on, Zimo and I will always accompany you..." She stayed in the cemetery for a whole day
All day long, the staff urged her, and she numbly got on the bus home.
She didn't do anything when she went back. She just held Chen Zimo's relics and the SLR she gave him. She looked at them all night, crying and laughing. But at this moment, her chest suddenly twitched, and her stomach
Feeling sick!
She suppressed her nausea, got up from the bed, and walked to the bathroom like a zombie. She lay on the sink and retched. But after retching for a long time, her eyes were numb and desperate, and suddenly she felt in a trance...——