Many things are much better to be spoken out than kept in the mind.
Su Xiaoling could speak openly to her about the words that she couldn't say to Zhao. Even if nothing could be changed, talking to her could ease her mood.
In the past, when Su Xiaolu entered the palace, he had to avoid the patrols of secret guards and imperial guards, but now that he has the palace card, he can go smoothly.
The east palace was quiet, and Su Xiaolu met Dou Fu.
Doufu took her to the dormitory. Su Xiaolu asked Doufu: "Dofu, how is my sister's mood recently? Tell the truth and don't hide it from me."
Dou Fu pursed her lips and said in a low voice: "Miss Fourth, the young lady came in feeling gloomy. Please try to persuade her."
"Because of what?"
Su Xiaolu frowned. Did Zhou Heng change his mind in just a few months this year?
Dou Fu's eyes showed sadness, and he hesitated before saying: "The courtiers have said that they hope that the crown prince will accept a concubine and marry a princess from outside the court. People say that she will be the crown prince's concubine."
"Although the prince and the young lady have said that they will never break their promise, the young lady still took the words outside into her heart."
After finishing speaking, Dou Fu lowered his eyes.
Su Xiaolu also frowned slightly, this was an emotional test and change.
Zhou Heng is a prince and will be an emperor in the future if nothing happens. How can he only have one woman in his harem?
Knowing this is one thing, but when it is really coming, how to accept it and how to adjust your mentality is another matter.
When you don't really face it, all your previous imaginations and mental preparations are just a kind of self-deception.
People are not as fragile as they think, nor are they as strong as they think.
What's more, Su Xiaoling gave birth to twin daughters just this year. After giving birth, the woman became more emotionally sensitive. In ancient times, people would say she was suffering from madness, which was later called "postpartum depression."
Su Xiaolu quickened her pace. She just wanted to see her sister Su Xiaoling quickly and see her.
When entering the bedroom, Su Xiaolu heard Su Xiaoling's voice. She was instructing the maid: "Pass the hot handkerchief."
Su Xiaoling is taking care of the child herself and changing the child's diaper.
The maids carried water basins and handed Su Xiaoling what she needed.
Fennel stood on the edge, holding a sword.
After Su Xiaoling finished changing her diaper, she straightened her back and sighed.
Su Xiaoling stepped forward to support her and said gently: "Sister, sit down and I will give you a squeeze."
Su Xiaoling paused, then turned around and held Su Xiaolu's hand in surprise: "Xiaolu, you are back."
Su Xiaoling looked at Su Xiaolu and her eyes suddenly turned red. She quickly raised her hand to wipe her tears and said apologetically: "Xiaolu, I don't know what's going on. I've been crying a lot lately."
Su Xiaolu hugged Su Xiaoling, she smiled slightly and said: "It's okay, sister is happy to see me. You want to cry, but I still want to cry. I'm sorry, sister, I wasn't with you when you gave birth to the baby.
Thank you for your hard work when you are facing such a difficult time alone."
Su Xiaoling couldn't hold back her tears. After listening to Su Xiaolu's words, the tears immediately fell out. She sniffed and shook her head: "No, sister, it's not hard."
Being a mother is not hard work.
As a mother, she can better understand the difficulties of being a woman and understand the bond between flesh and blood. She is always concerned about her, fearing that something might happen to her two children.
In her heart, she always thinks about too many things for no reason.
She wanted to tell Su Xiaolu that she was so tired, but when the words came to her lips, she just choked and swallowed. She pursed her lips and smiled bitterly, shaking her head and saying, "I'm not tired."
"How can it not be hard? Raising children is very hard, not to mention you have two children. My sister is the greatest mother."
Su Xiaolu said seriously immediately. She hugged Su Xiaoling tightly. Her sister had lost weight.
Mental fatigue is difficult to relieve.
Su Xiaolu waved his hand and asked the maids to retreat.
Doufu and Fenxiang also retreated to the door to guard, leaving space for the two sisters.
The two children were very well-behaved. They were awake at the moment and both looked at Su Xiaolu obediently.
Su Xiaolu pulled Su Xiaoling to the bed and sat down. She asked Su Xiaoling to lie down and massaged Su Xiaoling's shoulders and back. Su Xiaoling was a little embarrassed: "Xiaolu, I'd better say goodbye. How can I ask you to massage it for me."
Su Xiaolu smiled: "Why not? You didn't press me enough when I was a kid."
She injected some spiritual energy into Su Xiaoling, allowing Su Xiaoling to relax slowly.
"Sister, tell me about the time when you gave birth to your baby. Was the third brother there at the time?"
Su Xiaolu led the conversation.
Su Xiaoling pondered for a while, she smiled helplessly and said: "It's really painful to give birth. Brother Heng couldn't go in to accompany me due to etiquette. He brought my mother in to accompany me."
"With my mother here, I don't feel so worried. Apart from the pain, everything went smoothly. Weiwei and Xuanxuan are both sensible children and they didn't make me suffer too much."
When Su Xiaoling said it, her mood was also dull, but Su Xiaolu still caught the slight fluctuation.
"Are the etiquette in the palace so complicated? Among the people, although some people believe this, there are also many men who accompany you personally. If the third brother is not a prince and does not have so many shackles, he will definitely be willing to accompany you."
Su Xiaolu asked lightly, she thought this might be the reason.
Su Xiaoling sniffed and said a little unnaturally: "Yes, I should."
The grievances and regrets welled up in her heart, and Su Xiaoling almost shed tears. She was worried that Su Xiaolu was worried about her. She took a breath and said quickly: "Although Brother Heng is not with me, after the two children were born, he will
They came to me immediately, Weiwei and Xuanxuan, they are also the fastest children to go to Yudie since the beginning of the dynasty, and they are also the first princesses to have titles."
Thinking of this, Su Xiaoling felt a lot more relieved. She felt that it was just pretentiousness that was causing trouble. It was already so good, she should be satisfied.
But whenever she remembered that when she was in so much pain that she longed to see him, he was no longer there and she couldn't find him anymore. Whenever she thought of this, her heart felt better.
Sad and filled with grievances, she wanted to lose her temper and make a scene, but her rationality would pull her into reality. Being rational, she could not do such an ignorant thing.
Therefore, she suppressed her crazy mentality again and again. She didn't know how long she could suppress it. She only had one thought in her heart, she could only hold back and suppress it.
"Xiaolu, I am still important in his heart."
Su Xiaoling swallowed her throat. She didn't know what was going on. She couldn't pretend in front of Su Xiaolu. When she said these words, she felt bitter in her heart.
"Of course, if he doesn't think so anymore, I will take you to explore the world."
Su Xiaolu climbed onto the bed and leaned against Su Xiaoling. The two sisters hugged each other, and Su Xiaolu burst into tears.
"Xiaolu, my sister feels so uncomfortable. Why didn't he come in at that time? Why, in his heart, am I not as important as his position as the crown prince? Wuwu... He will have other women in the future, and he will gradually not like her so much.
I'm here." This was the source of her pain. She thought she was prepared, but when it was about to happen, she realized that people's hearts are too small.