Volume Three, Chapter 22, Confession with Xiaoqing
Lu Sheng quietly felt Xiaoqing's embrace.
Happy and beautiful!
The sky above my head has become extremely bright without knowing it. The big sun seems to have climbed up already.
The vast majority of the sky is blue, with only a few medium-sized clouds, like the ugly scars left by the sky being burned.
Scars will accompany a person's life. Except for children's skin, scars can be recovered to a certain extent, but adult scars, once left, will never fade away.
No matter how much time passes, as long as something has been done, it will always leave traces in my heart.
Xiaoqing was in Lu Sheng's arms. She knew that Lu Sheng must be hiding something from her. She raised her head and looked at him, asking about what she had been worried about, "Can you tell me now, what exactly happened?"
Lu Sheng looked at Xiaoqing's big confused eyes, thinking about the recent bad experiences, Bai Longqiang's deliberate revenge, Zhao Shi's appearance day after day, and the fire that seemed to never go out. These had already made him
exhausted.
Maybe now is the time to explain the truth to Xiaoqing.
"Xiaoqing, you have to be mentally prepared for what I'm going to tell you next." Lu Sheng kept looking at Xiaoqing's eyes, and Xiaoqing kept looking at him.
Lu Sheng took a deep breath and said, "The burning man just now, his name is Zhao Shi, and he is the murderer who killed you."
Hearing this, Xiaoqing's eyes widened in horror. She couldn't believe what Lu Sheng had just said. Xiaoqing just repeated word for word, "Kill me?"
Lu Sheng did not speak, but nodded silently and sadly.
"Then I am a human or a ghost now. Is he a human or a ghost? Why can Zhao Shi survive so long in the fire?"
"Actually, in the real world, he is already dead."
"What did you say? Reality? Also, he is dead?" Lu Sheng's explanation plunged Xiaoqing into deep confusion.
More and more white clouds gathered in the sky, covering the sun, and the earth was still hot.
Lu Sheng said, "On the night of the 14th day of the eighth lunar month, I went out alone to Handan Road. On my way home, I passed Heping Street and was knocked to the ground by an oncoming car. I have been in a coma ever since.
If you don't wake up," Lu Sheng glanced at Xiaoqing and smiled bitterly, "Maybe this is the fate of us husband and wife."
Then Lu Sheng emphatically emphasized, "I am sure that my current coma is at this moment. In reality, I am probably lying on the hospital bed."
Xiaoqing listened to Lu Sheng's words carefully. Lu Sheng thought she would not believe it, but he didn't expect that she listened so seriously and was still waiting for him to continue what he had not finished.
"When I discovered that I was in a coma, the consciousness of my brain did not stop moving, which made me fall into my own dream world, and I can also control this dream. Here, many things are done according to my wishes.
in progress,
Xiaoqing, it has been ten years. I really missed you so much, so I resurrected you and my father. But unexpectedly, Zhao Shi also came back to life, and he kept appearing in the car accident on Heping Street.
on site."
Xiaoqing was not completely confused. Her thinking was clear and she immediately caught the most noteworthy part of Lu Sheng's narration, "But how did Zhao Shi die? Why did you let him live in your subconscious mind?"
Come here, and why does he keep pestering you?"
These questions will come sooner or later. Lu Sheng will face such questions sooner or later. He has a long ideological struggle in his brain. He wants to explain everything to the woman he loves most. The crimes he has committed seem to be
I have to confess to Xiaoqing.
In fact, Lu Sheng has always understood that there is no Xiaoqing, everything is just his thoughts, he is just selectively forgetting, forgetting this fact that he has always known.
Now, there are only the couple left in the world, and no one will disturb them. Lu Sheng pulled Xiaoqing aside, took off his coat, and spread it on the roadside. He sat next to the clothes, and then
He motioned for Xiaoqing to sit on his clothes.
Xiaoqing sat over and leaned on Lu Sheng's shoulder.
It may have been noon, but the streets were always deserted. Not a single person, not a single car, or even a bird flew in the sky. The entire Huangzhou was like an empty city.
Lu Sheng finally told Xiaoqing exactly what he had done in reality.
Xiaoqing was almost in tears as she listened to Lu Sheng's story from beginning to end. But she really couldn't understand why Lu Sheng took such an extreme approach.
"Lu Sheng, you said you killed someone? And two more? And you still have a plan, do you want to continue killing?"
Xiaoqing understood Lu Sheng's pain and his despair and helplessness, but she never expected that Lu Sheng would become like this.
"No, I won't do that again!"
"For me? Even if it's for me, you can't kill anyone."
Xiaoqing hugged Lu Sheng tightly again, tears rolling down her eyes and soaking his clothes.
"Now that things have come to this, let's stay here together forever, okay?"
"Are you going to evade responsibility? Are you going to sleep forever?"
There is a thought that overwhelmingly dominates Lu Sheng's heart from beginning to end. He believes that every person who is killed has an unforgivable fault.
"I shouldn't kill people, but they deserve to die!"
"Then why do you feel guilty? Why do so many uncontrollable situations appear in your subconscious?"
Xiaoqing's words reminded Lu Sheng of what had recently occurred in his consciousness. Bai Longqiang was committing murder crazily, and everyone who died was, without exception, someone Lu Sheng felt guilty about.
If he is always trapped in a dream, if he is willing to be imprisoned in a difficult situation, he will never have a chance to make up for his mistakes. Is this the consciousness of regret that has already awakened in Lu Sheng's heart?
And Zhao Shi, he keeps appearing in the form of car accidents, and then disappears in the fire. Time and time again, lingering. If Lu Sheng has been keeping in his dream, it seems that Zhao Shi will keep appearing, forever.
Sticking to Lu Sheng's conscious world.
Lu Sheng had been thinking quietly, but he didn't know that the day had turned into night again.
The clouds in the sky were still there, but it was no longer clear whether they were white clouds or dark clouds. They covered the almost complete full moon. Although it was covered, Lu Sheng knew that this was another night on August 14th.
Some things are bound to happen, soon, soon.
This time, there were no extra people on the streets of Heping Street. There were only Lu Sheng, Xiao Qing, and Zhao Shi, who was about to speed over.
The red light comes on, the car crosses the line, rolls over, slides, and comes to a standstill.
Thick black smoke, and people appearing in the fire!
Zhao Shi walked straight towards Lu Sheng and Xiaoqing. Lu Sheng was still sitting there, but Xiaoqing stood up.
"Teacher Lu, it seems you still haven't figured it out? Or, you still haven't made up your mind?"
Lu Sheng knew what Zhao Shi was talking about, and he also knew what he had to do to get rid of all this.
Before Lu Sheng could say anything, Xiaoqing walked between Zhao Shi and Lu Sheng and said to Fireman Zhao Shi:
"Zhao Shi, you hit someone with your car and killed me and my child. I will never forgive you. You may have brought your own fault for your current fate, but I still want to say sorry to you and represent my husband.
Lu Sheng, I want to say sorry to you. No matter what you did, there will be laws to punish you. We were wrong to lynching you."
The fire is still burning on Zhao Shi's body, showing no signs of weakening. The fire has not yet taken away Zhao Shi's eyes. His eyes widened with anger, staring at Xiaoqing fiercely.
"What the hell are you talking about? You just want me to stay away from you forever. I tell you, it's useless. I will show up tomorrow, on time."
Zhao Shi stretched out his finger that had been separated from flesh and bone, past Xiaoqing, and pointed behind her.
"Your good husband, your student's good teacher, Lu Sheng, he actually always knows what to do. He knows how to save me from this kind of torture. I still say the same thing, this is his bullshit dream, no
If you had this bullshit dream, of course I wouldn’t appear. Do you really think there are ghosts in this world?"
Zhao Shi's angry emotions caused the flames to burn rapidly, and his skin was once again taken away bit by bit by the fire. Against the backdrop of the fire, each skeleton was clearly displayed in front of Lu Sheng. This scene was like
Just like the skeleton I saw in the school's medical school.
Every scene in the dream is a projection of reality in Lu Sheng's mind. No one or thing appears out of thin air. It's like he has never handled a case, but he has experienced every detail of private investigation and evidence collection; he has never done this.
He was a policeman, but in order to seek justice, he went in and out of the police station building more than once; he had never seen anyone die in front of him and turn into bones, but he just knew what a bone should look like.
Dreams are reality. You think about it every day and dream about it at night. Reality is just like a dream. If you can’t live a realistic life, how can you manage a good dream? Similarly, the wanton behavior in the dream is clearly caused by reality.
The truest expression of human nature that is suppressed.
Xiaoqing turned around and looked at Lu Sheng, who had been sitting there.
Lu Sheng also stood up and faced Zhao Shi.
Zhao Shi was right. Lu Sheng knew what to do to make Zhao Shi disappear, especially after confessing to Xiaoqing, especially after hearing what Xiaoqing said. He now knows better what he should do.
.
"It's not your turn to teach me what I want to do. Zhao Shi, I don't regret killing you, but I'm sorry!"
Lu Sheng turned around and took Xiaoqing's arm, and said softly to her, "Let's go and take you to a place."
Lu Sheng has made up his mind, and he has made the final preparations, but now, he has to leave this miserable couple some time that belongs to them.