When Gu Nianxi received the call from the nurse, she rushed to the hospital as if she had lost her soul. She didn't understand how a good person could go crazy even when he said he was crazy, nor did she understand what happened that made him lose control of his emotions.
Gu Nianxi pushed open the ward and saw Jin Huaiqian standing beside the bed accompanying Su Yuheng. Jin Huaiqian made a shushing gesture to her. She nodded uneasily and walked to the head of the bed with her feet unruly.
At this time, Su Yuheng was lying on the bed with his eyes tightly closed. On the phone just now, the nurse said that he would be calmed down by injecting a sedative. Gu Nianxi held his hand tightly, feeling as if her heart was blocked by something.
Lifting his eyes, tears flowed down his cheeks like broken beads.
"Are you okay?" Jin Huaiqian looked at Gu Nianxi, whose face was pale and colorless, and was a little worried about her, "Are you feeling uncomfortable somewhere? Sit down quickly, don't worry, it's okay."
Jin Huaiqian said and went to pull Gu Nianxi, but she squatted motionless beside the bed, staring at Su Yuheng. He knowingly let go of her hand, knowing that even if ten cows came to pull her, they probably wouldn't be able to pull her away.
Su Yuheng pulled away.
Gu Nianxi looked at Su Yuheng's bleeding hospital clothes and the red spots on his cheeks where blood vessels burst. She gently stroked the back of his hand sadly. She cried softly, fearing to wake him up. She kept her voice low in her throat and did not dare to make a sound.
The atmosphere in the ward suddenly became a little depressing.
Jin Huaiqian held her twitching shoulders and wanted to give her some comfort.
"Actually, Ah Heng has been working very hard." Jin Huaiqian sighed after finishing speaking, "If he loses his temper with you, don't blame him, he can't control it."
Gu Nianxi nodded while crying, tears falling on the back of Su Yuheng's hands, "It doesn't matter, I will take care of him, and I will definitely cure him."
The firmness and simplicity of her words made Jin Huaiqian startled. He stared at Gu Nianxi's thin back and couldn't help feeling a little distressed. She must have suffered a lot of grievances over the years when she and Su Yuheng were together, and she fell in love with such a man.
, she suffered far more pain than a normal couple, but did she really never think about giving up?
"Nian Nian, forget it. You are still young and can find someone better. A Heng is not suitable for dating."
Jin Huaiqian tried to persuade her, but as soon as he finished speaking, when he looked at Gu Nianxi's big, aggrieved eyes that looked at him intently, he began to regret it.
How could he add fuel to the fire when she was most sad?
"Forget it, just pretend I didn't say it."
Gu Nianxi looked at Jin Huaiqian hesitantly. His words just now completely defeated her. Suddenly, a strong sense of frustration surrounded her. She realized that no matter how much psychological knowledge she learned, she could not help him because
Su Yuheng would not tell her what was on his mind, nor would he show his bad emotions in front of her.
"Let's go out and talk." Jin Huaiqian patted Gu Nianxi on the shoulder and walked out of the ward first.
In the corridor, Gu Nianxi and Jin Huaiqian stood face to face. Gu Nianxi lowered her head sadly and washed her face with tears.
Gu Yanzi sobbed and said: "I know his depression is not cured, and I want to help him, but he never tells me what is on his mind. I don't know what to do. I came to the United States just for him, and I also studied psychology."
In order to help him, but he never let me know his thoughts and feelings. I don’t know what I should do to make him better. I don’t know what happened to him to make him like this, and I don’t know how I can still
Can you cure him?"
Gu Nianxi cried helplessly. She pulled Jin Huaiqian and prayed, "Young Master Qian, you have known him for the longest time. You must know whether his thoughts are right or not. Has he said anything to you? Please tell me,
What can I do to make him better?"
Jin Huaiqian bit his lower lip and said nothing. He turned his face and couldn't bear to look at Gu Nianxi's tears. He lowered his head quietly, took a deep breath and spoke.
"I'm sorry, I don't know either." Jin Huaiqian was in a dilemma. He promised Su Yuheng not to talk about the past, so he endured it again and again. Seeing Gu Nianxi crying sadly, he couldn't stand her pleading.
Jin Huaiqian made up his mind and decided to speak out, "You know that A Heng was bullied when he was in school. Maybe you thought it was just a brief conflict between classmates, but it actually lasted for three years, and their
The methods are far more cruel than what I told you before."
Gu Nianxi stared at Jin Huaiqian blankly, her mind suddenly going blank.
Bullying…
Gu Nianxi couldn't believe what she heard, her legs went weak and she staggered a few steps, "There's something else...I don't know..."
Her face was so pale that there was no trace of blood. Jin Huaiqian did not dare to say anything when he saw this. He was afraid that she would be even more sad after hearing this. He pressed his lips tightly and shook his head at Gu Nianxi.
"You don't need to know this. It's all over. In fact, his biggest worry is still his relationship with his father."
"Tell me, what has he experienced?"
Gu Nianxi questioned and asked. Seeing her resolute attitude, Jin Huaiqian thought that she had said it all and there was nothing to hide. If she could really help Su Yuheng after knowing it, that would be the best thing.
Jin Huaiqian took Gu Nianxi to the rooftop where the air was flowing. He sat the lost Gu Nianxi on the steps and warned her seriously.
"I'm telling you today to help you understand A Heng better! I hope you can cure him with your professional knowledge!"
Gu Nianxi nodded frantically, "I promise you, I will definitely do it."
"Okay." Jin Huaiqian let go of Gu Nianxi's shoulders and spoke slowly, "Do you remember that I told you before that I became friends with A Heng because I helped him fight. In fact, I didn't make it clear. He
I experienced a lot of things like this in boarding school." Jin Huaiqian smiled bitterly, looking at Gu Nianxi with a trace of sadness in his eyes, "My classmates said that A Heng entered that ghost school when he was eleven years old, because he was too good.
He was isolated and bullied by a group of jealous bastards. They spit in his food, sprinkled ink on his school uniform, locked him in the storage room while he was delivering basketballs overnight, and forced him to kneel down and bark like a dog.
Let him eat chili."
"..." Gu Nianxi couldn't stop trembling. She couldn't believe what Jin Huaiqian said was true. With tears in her eyes, she grabbed his hand and asked, "Why doesn't he fight back? He knows Taekwondo. He
He never eats chili peppers, why doesn’t he fight back?”
"You should know that A Heng has a bad stomach and never eats chili peppers. That's because he was fed chili pepper water by those bastards and was sent to the hospital for gastric lavage."
"No...this is not true...how could he be bullied by others..."
Gu Nianxi couldn't believe what she heard. She closed her eyes in pain, remembering that every time she asked him to eat hot pot with her, he said he didn't like spicy food, and she even complained that he didn't understand the joy of eating spicy food.
.
What on earth is she doing to him...
What pain she called pleasure to him!
"Why did they do that..."
"It's nothing. Those scumbags often beat him in unmonitored areas of the school. Just like the first time I saw him blocked in the men's bathroom, each of them would give him a kick or hit him.
A moment, but Ah Heng never resisted, so I was angry about why he didn't fight back. He couldn't beat me! He was so fierce in front of me! He was willing to be tortured by those bastards! Do you know why?"
Gu Nianxi stared at the floor in despair, muttering to herself, "Why...why? It's not his fault that he is excellent, why do they treat him like this! Why...why no one protects him...why Uncle Su didn't protect him...
"
Gu Nianxi suddenly thought of something and her heart twitched violently.
A loud slap flashed through her mind, and the aggrieved and melancholy look in eleven-year-old Su Yuheng's eyes as he looked at her lingered like a nightmare, as well as Su's father's roar at him at that time.
"You have really embarrassed me! Go to boarding school for me when you get back! If you don't want to go, you have to go! There will be someone there who can take care of you!"
"Liar! I will come back to settle the score with you."
"Gu Nianxi, you are the one who pushed me into hell."
It turns out that all the hurt he experienced was caused by her.
"Do you know why A Heng didn't fight back? Didn't he tell Uncle Su these things?"
When Jin Huaiqian asked her this question, Gu Nianxi quickly thought of the answer. At the same time, she only listened to Jin Huaiqian's depressed voice.
"Because he was numb to these injuries. He said he wanted to use this pain to stimulate his dead heart. He wanted to know if he was still afraid of pain. Haha... When I heard him say this, I thought he was making excuses for his cowardice.
, who is not afraid of pain, how can anyone not fight back after being beaten like this, until..." Jin Huaiqian choked up and couldn't speak anymore. He sniffed and continued to speak, "until I found him cutting several times on his wrist with a knife in the dormitory.
Only then did I know that what he said was true, and only then did I know that he was sick. He gave up seeking help and gave up on himself because he felt that no one in the world cared about him."
Scenes of Su Yuheng's several illnesses swirled in Gu Nianxi's mind. His helplessness, his tears, and the scars on his body were all like countless needles piercing her heart. She felt that her heart was full of holes.
The pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe.
"So... please heal him! Please heal him, I don't want to lose him." Jin Huaiqian cried and told Gu Nianxi. Gu Nianxi also cried into tears. She was immersed in self-blame and couldn't extricate herself.
Back in the ward, Gu Nianxi lay on the bedside crying in pain. She blamed herself and apologized over and over again to Su Yuheng, who was still awake.
"Why are you crying?"
Suddenly, Su Yuheng's hoarse voice came from above her head. Gu Nianxi lowered her head, not daring to raise her head to face him.
A big hand fell on her head, he gently rubbed the broken hair on her forehead, and said in a feeble voice, "Don't cry, I'm fine."
Gu Nianxi raised her eyes and met his bloodshot gaze. She held his hand tightly and held his palm in her palm, trying desperately to keep it warm.
"A Heng, I listen to you, let's leave. I promise you, we can leave here and go anywhere, as long as you are happy."
Su Yuheng didn't understand why she suddenly changed her mind. He was silent for a moment, with a look of guilt on his face.
"I'm sorry, I--"
"It's okay, it's not your fault." Gu Nianxi stood up and hugged him. She cried and comforted him and comforted herself, "You are not wrong, it's me who is wrong. I don't understand you. I don't understand you."
Difficulty, no matter what you want to do from now on, I will do it with you, as long as you are happy."