A month ago, Gu Nianxi asked Lin Wei to help her with some psychological counseling. Before starting, Gu Nianxi was worried that Lin Wei would curse after listening to her words. After all, she was He Jianchen's cousin. What she was going to say would not make her happy.
Have an opinion about yourself.
Facts have proved that her worries were unnecessary. Lin Wei is a very professional psychiatrist. Not only is he very patient with patients, but he also does not take personal emotions towards her.
That day was a Saturday, and in the same room, Gu Nianxi was wearing a blue floral dress and standing in front of the window, waiting for Lin Wei.
When Lin Wei first saw Gu Nianxi, she was attracted by her unique temperament. Her eyes always had that pure and clean look, and her whole body exuded a sense of freshness, and she also felt like a spring breeze.
At that time, Lin Wei didn't know what Gu Nianxi was thinking when she looked at the yellowing sycamore tree. In short, her melancholy expression told her that she was hiding something in her heart.
After she sat down on the sofa where the patient was sitting, she asked her nervously.
"Dr. Lin, can hypnosis bring back lost memories?"
Gu Nianxi sat on the sofa, pinching her fingers nervously and shyly. It took her a long time to ask this question. She must have been mentally building it up for a long time. Before Lin Wei spoke, she continued.
"I was in a car accident and lost seven years of memory. I only remember the people and things before I was nineteen. I don't remember the years after that." Gu Nianxi looked lonely and her tone became very serious.
Frustrated.
Lin Wei nodded and said softly: "He Jianchen told me about your situation."
Gu Nianxi hummed, and continued with a slightly sad tone, "Actually, I have always kept a secret in my heart, and I have never told anyone."
After saying this, she paused for two minutes and opened and closed her mouth several times before she mustered up the courage to speak.
"After I woke up, I always felt empty in my heart. I seemed to have come to a strange world. Although my family and friends were still around me, I felt that everyone had changed. I couldn't find a sense of belonging in this world.
I feel like I don’t belong here.”
When Gu Nianxi was talking, Lin Wei noticed that she had been picking her nails hard. She looked very nervous and her shoulders were stiff and hunched.
She, Lin Wei, remained silent and continued to give her time to talk. Gu Nianxi talked a lot about her feelings after waking up, and her heart became heavier.
"I feel like I have loved someone."
Hearing this, Lin Wei's heart skipped a beat. She was very surprised why Gu Nianxi said this.
"How do you feel?" Lin Wei asked.
"I have never told anyone about this, because I don't know if this feeling is right. I will often ask myself, who is he?" Gu Nianxi's eyes were far away, and her eyes were empty and lifeless.
Focus, "I don't remember his appearance, his name, or who he is, but I remember his back." Gu Nianxi raised her eyes and looked at Lin Wei, with tears in her eyes, "I remember loving someone
Human feeling.”
Gu Nianxi cried silently, and Lin Wei was surprised when she heard this.
"I often dream about a man's back. I know he is not He Jianchen, and he has never appeared in my life. I have doubted whether there is someone I love in my lost memory, so I was with He Jianchen in the first place.
Sometimes, there will always be a voice in my heart, it's not him... it's not him..."
"These are just your feelings and guesses. If you want to find answers, you can only perform hypnotherapy. Are you sure?"
"Um."
"Have you talked to He Jianchen about wanting to get your memory back?" Gu Nianxi said, "He told me not to force myself."
The reason why Gu Nianxi wanted to retrieve her memory was also related to He Jianchen. She obviously felt that He Jianchen did not want her to retrieve her memory, so she became suspicious as to why he was so opposed to her doing this.
Afterwards, Gu Nianxi frankly told Lin Wei about her relationship with He Jianchen, which was unable to develop further. Lin Wei frowned after hearing this.
"You have always subconsciously believed that there is such a person, so you are repelling He Jianchen. This rejection is both psychological and physical. If you want to get your memory back, do you also want to let go of the baggage in your heart and fully accept He Jianchen?
"
Gu Nianxi nodded vigorously, "Yes, I want to accept him wholeheartedly. I don't want to let him down again and again. I care about what he thinks."
"Are you trying to please him?" Lin Wei noticed that Gu Nianxi had a somewhat inferior attitude when talking about He Jianchen, and was trying every means to make He Jianchen happy.
"Are you happy that you and He Jianchen are together?" Lin Wei asked.
"Happy." Gu Nianxi replied without thinking.
"Can you describe how you felt when he touched you?"
What's your mood?
Gu Nianxi thought for a while and said, "Nervous, very nervous. I feel like I'm going to suffocate with nervousness. And... ashamed. I'm afraid to take off my clothes and face him. I'm afraid that he will see my body and that he will dislike me."
, and... I don’t like to be controlled by others, I don’t like to be grabbed by the wrist, and if the other person is too proactive, I will be so scared that I want to run away, and I have no intention of doing that kind of thing.”
Lin Wei's heart tightened. The psychology she described was very complicated, including low self-esteem and trauma. Could it be that she had suffered something bad before?
"Every time he failed, he looked so disappointed. I felt very guilty. I was worried that if we were really together forever, what should I do if I have a problem like this?"
"Have you ever tried to imagine the scene where you two are together? He Jianchen should be the ideal type of a woman. Aren't you curious about whether he can do that?"
"..."
Lin Wei was too direct, which made Gu Nianxi a little embarrassed. She blushed and nodded, "A little... curious."
"Then have you tried it on your own initiative?"
Gu Nianxi shook her head violently, "No, I am a very passive person, and he respects me more and will not force anything."
"Okay, then you try to adjust your mentality, imagine what He Jianchen looks like at home, try to understand the other side of him, and see if you feel moved."
"You want me to live with him?"
"It's not that you live with him, it's that you need to have further contact, rather than always dating in public. Some people look one way in front of others, but they look different at home. You need to have a deep understanding of a man.
, you must see how he looks at home, maybe his home appearance will make you feel something."
"Okay, I understand."
After being prompted by Lin Wei, Gu Nianxi began to go to He Jianchen's house frequently. The two of them often made food at home, watched movies together, and petted the cat together. Gu Nianxi would occasionally spend the night at his house, but they still slept in separate rooms.
He Jianchen never forced her, never. This was what touched her the most.
Their thoughts were brought back, and the two returned to the topic of subway tracking. Lin Wei asked her again.
"Do you still feel that you have forgotten the person you love?"
This time, Gu Nianxi had a different answer to the question, she said firmly.
"No, I think my previous feeling must be wrong. I asked many people, and they all said that I have never had any unforgettable love in the United States. The only one I had was a casual relationship that lasted for half a year." Gu Nianxi spoke very fast.
He continued, "Before, I didn't accept He Jianchen's pursuit because I was affected by this illusion. But now my relationship with He Jianchen is getting deeper and deeper, and that illusion has disappeared. It was he who allowed me to find my true self and also allowed me to
I feel that I am really very happy.
In fact, I have also imagined that if there is such a person, why doesn't he come to me? The answer is that he doesn't love me, or he doesn't exist, then I would rather choose that person not to exist at all." Gu Nianxi smiled freely.
Say these words.
It could be seen from the look on her face when she talked about He Jianchen that she liked him very much, at least much more than when she last talked about them. But Lin Wei had a question in her heart.
Like is liking, but what about love?
Lin Wei looked deeply at Gu Nianxi and nodded. She agreed with her explanation. In fact, she had a third answer in her mind. Could it be that that person has passed away?
She didn't dare to say it out loud for fear of affecting Gu Nianxi's mood.
Lin Wei has always had such doubts.
Why does she keep her memory at the age of nineteen? What special significance does that year have to her?
The memory she lost must have caused great harm to her, so she had selective amnesia.
That's why Lin Wei has always been troubled about Gu Nianxi's hypnosis. She was afraid that helping her regain her memory would affect her current life and relationship.
If such a person really exists, how should Gu Nianxi face the future, and what should He Jianchen do?
"What would you do if that person really existed? Will you give up He Jianchen?"
Lin Wei's question surprised Gu Nianxi. She thought about it seriously, "Of course I will not separate from He Jianchen. Where can I find such a good man if I miss him?"
"Hey, if He Jianchen heard this, he would be so happy. Tell the truth, did you sacrifice your life to repay your kindness and be with He Jianchen? "
"No, I'm very superficial, mainly because Dr. He is handsome, haha!" Gu Nianxi said with a playful smile.
When Lin Wei rolled her eyes, Gu Nianxi smiled and put on her high heels. She walked to the window and opened the curtains. The strong light hurt her eyes. She quickly closed her eyes, and her eyes were filled with tears.
Seeing that she was in a better mood, Lin Wei asked without giving up, "Are you really not considering accepting my guest?"
Gu Nianxi tilted her head and thought about it. Since Boss Lin exchanged a patient for treatment time, it would not be a loss. Gu Nianxi thought about it and nodded, "Okay, give me all his information."
"I love you." Lin Wei expressed her heart to Gu Nianxi, "I'll give it to you this afternoon, but now there's a tricky thing."
"how?"
"I forgot to tell you that he has given up treatment. We may need to contact him again to encourage him to continue treatment."
After hearing what Lin Wei said, Gu Nianxi was dumbfounded, "Wait, what do you mean? You don't want me to ask others to come to me for treatment."
Lin Wei squinted her eyes and smiled, raising her eyebrows slyly, "Smart, maybe he prefers a doctor like you, so be bold and give it a try."
"I -" Just when Gu Nianxi was about to refuse, Lin Wei turned around and ran away. When she went out, she turned back and said to Gu Nianxi, "I believe you! You can definitely do it! I will send you the phone number later."
"Hey! Don't send it to me! I can't handle this!"
Lin Wei obviously didn't hear what she said. It should be said that he pretended not to hear. Gu Nianxi sat on the sofa and sighed silently.
Why did she hesitate to agree? What psychiatrist needs to recruit patients to see the doctor himself?
This Lin Wei is really a psychiatrist with a wonderful brain!
How charming is this person that makes Boss Lin so persistent?