Some children from highly controlling families will obey their parents' arrangements throughout their lives and live like obedient parasites; others will work hard to break free from the shackles of their parents' control and live the life they want.
Looking at his current status, it is obvious that he is the latter.
He has no weak side at all, and the aura he exudes is enough to overwhelm everyone. His strength is a weapon for children who have been controlled for a long time to resist. He uses powerful force to defend his rights and ideas. When he stands at the top
, he can get rid of the constraints given to him by his original family.
"Are your parents very strict with you?" Gu Nianxi asked.
Su Yuheng was stunned for a moment and nodded.
"My parents divorced when I was very young. I don't have a deep relationship with my mother because she left me when I was six years old. And my relationship with my father... is actually not much better. I
When I was eleven years old, I was sent to a boarding school, so... I saw her three or four times a year."
Gu Nianxi's heart twitched when she heard the word "boarding school". She didn't know why, but she felt a little uncomfortable.
"Your father usually doesn't care about you?"
Gu Nianxi was a little curious. If his father was very busy at work, how could he feel his father's high control? Is it the shadow of childhood?
Su Yuheng put his legs down and adjusted his posture. He leaned on the sofa and looked at the white wall opposite without focus.
"My father donated a lot of money to the school. The principal would always report to my father about my situation at school. I had just arrived in the new environment and had no hobbies. I didn't participate in any club activities. At that time, I just wanted to study because I was bored.
, so I studied well. After that, I participated in many competitions and won many awards for the school. The school treated me more specially, but this made many people jealous of me. In addition, my personality is not to talk to others, and my popularity is not very good, so
...I was bullied."
The pen tip in her hand paused, and Gu Nianxi looked up at him. His expression was very calm, as if he was talking about a stranger, without any emotion. Although he concealed it very well, she still noticed that his pupils trembled twice.
Down.
It was very shocking to hear the word bullying from his mouth, and no one would believe that he would be bullied.
"So... is your depression related to the bullying incident?" Gu Nianxi's eyes became softer and softer. She asked cautiously, fearing to touch his wounds, "Can you tell me what they did to you?"
Su Yuheng had never told anyone the details of this incident. Even if they knew about the bullying, he had never told her about it. But today, he wanted to tell her all his secrets.
"At first, they put glue on my chair, put dead mice in my locker, sprinkled water on my dormitory bed, took pictures and posted them on the school website saying I wet the bed."
"How do you deal with this?"
"I remained silent and did not resist them."
"Why?"
"It's not necessary, because I think their behavior is childish, but..."
"But what?" Gu Nianxi asked anxiously. It seemed that things were about to turn around.
"During the winter vacation of fifth grade, they stole the principal's wallet. Several people insisted that I stole the wallet, and the principal's wallet was found in my classroom drawer."
"Then how do you solve this matter?"
"I beat the person who took the lead and sent him to the hospital because I hate others who wrongly accuse me the most."
"..." Gu Nianxi looked at him with a confused mood. She couldn't help but wonder if he was often wronged?
"Then the school called my dad to school. To be honest, I haven't seen him for a semester. I still missed him a little. I thought he was here to support me, but unexpectedly, he beat me in front of the classmates who bullied me.
He slapped me and asked me to apologize to them. Oh, if it hadn't been for that slap, I don't think they would have dared to bully me even more in the future. In their eyes, I was just a poor person with no one to protect me.
After that, their bullying methods escalated and they started to use violence against me. They often blocked me in the bathroom and beat me, and even used the faucet to wet me all over. They..."
When he stopped talking, Gu Nianxi had a premonition that there would be something worse, and her whole heart twitched. She bit her lower lip tightly, not wanting him to think of those painful things again.
"They tied my hands with a tie and tried to take off my pants. I knew what they wanted to do. This time, I resisted and broke one of them's legs."
That person was Jiang Yi who hurt Gu Nianxi a few years ago.
Su Yuheng sighed and spoke slowly, "My dad came to school again and beat me indiscriminately. I didn't resist or explain. I'm used to it. When they bully me, I never
Resist."
"Why don't you resist?" Gu Nianxi asked in a hoarse voice with tears in her eyes, "Why don't you explain?"
"Because... no one will believe me, and no one will protect me."
He smiled.
His smile was full of helplessness and bitterness.
Gu Nianxi stared at him blankly, seeing through his calm demeanor a heart riddled with holes.
She was so shocked that she couldn't speak, her heart beat faster, her hands couldn't stop trembling, and her whole body seemed like she had lost her soul.
Su Yuheng raised his eyes and saw that she was full of tears, and his heart clenched together.
"It's all over. I have forgotten these things." Su Yuheng was most afraid of her crying, so he quickly comforted her. In fact, how could he forget these things? Even now he often dreams about returning to his student days.
Gu Nianxi lowered her head, wiped the tears on her cheeks, and quickly controlled her emotions.
"Dr. Gu, do you think maternal love can make up for it?"
He quickly changed the topic, and Gu Nianxi listened and analyzed it in her mind.
"People who lack maternal love while growing up will be extremely insecure. Their behavior and psychology in adulthood will be affected by childhood. The lack of maternal love in childhood is difficult to make up for. It can only be replaced by other loves, such as those around you.
Friend or future partner.”
After Gu Nianxi finished speaking, she suddenly realized something. Could it be that his ex-wife was the replacement?
The love and tolerance given to him by his ex-wife made him strongly dependent. She healed him, but her death dealt another blow to him.
"No one can replace you...because it's easy to lose."
He lowered his eyes and his mood hit rock bottom. Gu Nianxi's heart tightened and she wanted to comfort him, but she restrained herself from saying those hypocritical and nice things.
"Your father has always been like this to you?" Gu Nianxi wanted to know if his father's love was satisfactory in his childhood. Often for children from divorced families, if one parent has enough care and companionship, the child's childhood will be a little happier.
When the word father was mentioned, an expression of disgust appeared on his face. It seemed that the relationship between him and his father was not very good.
"I have lived with my father since I was a child. My father is a man with a bad temper. He has extremely strict requirements on me. Growing up, I never heard him praise me in my memory, no matter how many trophies I won and scholarships I received every year.
, even when I got first place in every skill I learned, he never praised me." At this point, he frowned and looked a little angry.
"Are you working so hard because you want his recognition and affirmation?"
He nodded, and the light in his eyes gradually dimmed, "I worked so hard just to hear him say, son, you are great." He took a deep breath and continued, "I remember when I was in the first grade, I took the exam.
I got all A's, and the teacher rewarded me with a commemorative badge. I happily put it in front of him. I thought he would praise me, but he looked at a pile of information without raising his head, and didn't even look at me. I remember
At that time he said to me...
What are you doing? The whole house cannot fit the certificates your father received when he was a child. You have to get an A every time you take an exam.
Okay, I followed what he said and got straight A's in every exam, but he also said that your ability is only considered if you can get a scholarship..."
"Your father is probably a wolf father who has high demands on his children."
"No, I said last time that my wife said I was a devil. In fact, my father is the real devil. I am the son of the devil at best." He chuckled, as if he was joking, "My father is a controlling person.
As a person with strong desires, I cannot go against his wishes or reject his decision, and even my marriage must comply with his arrangements."
"Then when you and your wife started dating..." Gu Nianxi didn't finish her question, but he understood what she meant.
"My father likes my wife very much. She is my ideal daughter-in-law. Elders will like girls like my wife. She is beautiful, sensible, simple and kind."
Gu Nianxi listened carefully to his narration. Her waist felt a little painful when she sat down. She frowned slightly and adjusted her sitting posture. The pain in her back was an old problem left over from the car accident. Sitting for a long time would cause pain and bone-piercing pain.
As Su Yuheng spoke, he picked up the pillow next to him and placed it on her lap. His movements were very natural, as if he noticed her discomfort when she frowned.
Gu Nianxi stared at the pillow and was stunned for a long time.
His ability to observe people's emotions is so strong. If she hadn't just met him, she would have felt that they had such a tacit understanding!
"What?" He saw that Gu Nianxi was a little distracted and stopped asking. He didn't notice anything wrong with his behavior just now.
"Oh, it's nothing." Gu Nianxi shook her head, "Then you should be a couple blessed by your elders."
She thought that the story of him and his wife was another tragic idol drama plot about being opposed by his parents, but it didn't seem to be the case.
He paused, picked up the water glass and took a sip of water, and then spoke after a while.
"If I had been obedient at the beginning, we should have gone smoothly, but I chose to be rebellious." He sat up straight and turned his eyes to Gu Nianxi from elsewhere, "Because she was chosen by my father, so I am not willing to be
Arrangement, I designed a relationship with another woman."
"..."
Gu Nianxi didn't expect it to be so complicated. There was a third party between him and her. She guessed that his so-called design was intentional.
"You mean you rejected your wife in order to go against your father, and you chose to fall in love with another woman?"
"Um."
"Then you got together again later?"
"She has always been by my side, but I didn't make our relationship public."
"..." Gu Nianxi became more and more confused as she listened, "Wait a minute, you said before that you fell in love with each other at first sight. Don't you like each other?" Gu Nianxi felt that there was some contradiction in his words, why did he involve another woman.
"Yes, she fell in love with me at first sight, and I fell in love with her at first sight. No, to be precise, my love at first sight for her was the surprise of a wild beast that fell in love with its prey."
"prey?"
"My wife is very beautiful. She is especially like a ragdoll cat I had when I was a child. Sometimes she would be docile in my arms, and sometimes she would be a little naughty and scratch me. She is very warm and will always help me when I collapse.
My most comfortable companionship.”
Gu Nianxi felt warm in her heart, but also a little sad. The girl had given her warmth to him, but what was left for her?
His eyes scanned her face, causing Gu Nianxi to blush. She quickly lowered her head to avoid his gaze.
Why was he looking at her like that? It made her feel embarrassed.
"Then you are stepping on both sides - uh... are you dating two women at the same time?" Gu Nianxi lowered her head and bit the tip of her tongue. She almost said the word "stepping on two boats" and quickly changed her words.
"Do you want to say that you have two boats?" He guessed what she wanted to say and answered her without thinking, "I don't."
Gu Nianxi was a little surprised that he answered so simply and firmly.
"You are dating another woman and you are with your wife at the same time. Doesn't that count?"
Su Yuheng was speechless by Gu Nianxi. He bit his lower lip and said hastily, "No, how should I say..."
He was momentarily at a loss for words and didn't know how to express it. After thinking for a long time, he opened his mouth several times but couldn't make it clear what he meant.
His expression and language organization skills were not very good. Gu Nianxi added a new label to him. No wonder he said that he never liked to explain misunderstandings. Maybe he couldn't explain it clearly.
"It's okay." She sat there calmly, calming his anxious mood, "Speak slowly."
He looked at her, feeling calmer.
Gu Nianxi nodded and saw him calm down. She smiled at him and said, "Don't worry, I can understand."