Nakamori Akina turned her head and met his eyes openly.
It had been a long time since I wrote that letter, and Iwahashi Shinichi suddenly asked this question again, which was quite presumptuous. However, when hearing him mention this matter again, Nakamori Akina, rather than being surprised or thinking that he was inquiring about something, actually first
Feel relieved.
After the news preview of "Friday" came out, in the past two days, what she was thinking about, the questions she wanted to answer and confirm, subtly overlapped with the questions suddenly raised by Shinichi Iwahashi.
She originally wanted to talk to Shinichi Iwahashi, but didn't know how to speak, but because of his question, she could ask it so naturally.
She didn't know how to make an origami kitten, which was not the question she really wanted to ask.
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"Friday" published the gossip about Kondo Masahiko and Fujishima Keiko's blind date. After Nakamori Akina heard Omoto talking about this incident, her first reaction was to buy a gift for Iwahashi Shinichi. This approach has already changed her innermost thoughts.
Exposed.
For Masahiko Kondo, from the inner vacillation on the eve of the Grand Prize, to the doubts about him after the Grand Prize, to the cold war and alienation, he finally rejected his proposal to buy a house, and also rejected the meaning behind the purchase of a house.
The matter of buying a house made Nakamori Akina completely see through Kondo Masahiko's hypocrisy, and finally shattered even the last illusion in her heart. The expectations and imagination she once had for this man were gone.
And now she feels confused about the breakup, not because she still has feelings for Kondo Masahiko, but because she is confused about the breakup itself.
"What is the so-called breakup?"
Rather than asking Iwahashi Shinichi, Nakamori Akina seemed to be talking to herself, "I will no longer meet, call, eat and drink together, and no longer care about each other. I will treat this person as someone who will not exist in the future. Is that so?
?”
"If this is the case," Nakamori Akina murmured, "if you break up with a friend after an awkward moment, wouldn't it be the same as breaking up?"
These words are a bit childish. If you tell others, you may be laughed at and ridiculed.
Iwahashi Shinichi didn't understand when he heard this.
However, after hearing her last words, which seemed even more out of tune, my mind started to turn, and I suddenly caught some clues, and I could more or less guess where her confusion came from.
…
Perhaps, in her heart, she has been imagining her love affair with Kondo Masahiko.
Among a group of male and female idols of the same age, two people who seemed to be relatively well matched were constantly being teased by the people around them, and they gradually took it seriously. So, they imagined that the other person also liked them, and then they got closer to each other, and they really became
couple.
After becoming a couple, the outside world began to expect them to become the second couple of Momoe Yuka.
However, Akina Nakamori’s idol is Yamaguchi Momoe, and her origin and the trauma caused by her original family have made her have excessive expectations for marriage.
Therefore, she imagined that Kondo Masahiko could understand her and offset the wounds caused by her native family, and she hoped to marry him, then follow the example of Yamaguchi Momoe and retire, and have a perfect family.
As a result, she did not think she was Yamaguchi Momoe, and Kondo Masahiko was not Miura Tomokazu. Instead of her imagination coming true, it collapsed. The relationship between the two was clearly written in the magazine as "factual breakup" and hung on the notice page.
It is said that things can come to an end at this point, but the "imagination" thing does not only exist in love, but also in breakups.
Seeing how confused she was, Shinichi Iwahashi suddenly came up with a guess, that is, in Nakamori Akina's mind, there might be some imagination about the breakup.
Although he didn't know what Akina Nakamori imagined breaking up to be like, at least she probably didn't expect that it would end up being as ordinary as it is now, like a stone being thrown into water and being swallowed up immediately, in such a silent way.
Or it should be said that the breakup with Masahiko Kondo was not what she imagined.
…
It's not that I can't understand her mentality.
Because love that begins with imagination is a particularly special kind of love. What's special about it is that the process of love is both weaving dreams and destroying dreams.
What Kondo Masahiko did during her relationship made her physically and mentally exhausted and saw her imagination destroyed. At the same time, it may also have intensified her new imagination about breaking up.
When her patience reaches its limit, it will explode. The breakup she imagined should probably be an extremely violent way.
However, no one expected that the Grand Prize incident would happen.
The despicable personality of Kondo Masahiko exposed in this matter made Nakamori Akina shaken. Step by step, she first questioned him, then saw through him, and finally actively rejected him.
Originally, she put herself on the passive side, but in the end, she took the first step.
It was impossible to build a perfect family with a person with a despicable personality. The despicable personality completely conflicted with the perfect family she imagined. Seeing through this matter allowed her to fundamentally break her previous imagination of love.
Broken.
However, in this way, although she kept her mind clear and calm, her initial imagination was useless, which resulted in such confusion.
What happened to the breakup? Akina Nakamori really didn’t understand.
She lacked experience in love, and she was in such an "imaginary" love. She never thought that a relationship could end so peacefully, without getting angry or arguing.
Because of this, she couldn't understand for a while, where was the boundary of breaking up?
Akina Nakamori has remained silent all this time and is in a state of "de facto breakup", not because she still has any nostalgia for Kondo Masahiko in her heart, but because she feels confused in this ordinary breakup.
After seeing the "Friday" report, her subconscious reaction further proved that she had no nostalgia for Kondo Masahiko. It was precisely because she had no nostalgia for Kondo Masahiko that she felt even more confused.
Nakamori Akina told Iwahashi Shinichi about this matter. After finishing speaking, she looked at him silently, wanting to hear what he had to say.
…
"That's different."
Iwahashi Shinichi accepted her gaze, and after thinking about it, he spoke.
He looked at Akina Nakamori and told her seriously, "It's normal for people who break up to no longer see each other or call each other. However, there are also people who can still see each other after breaking up, and the people who call them still keep in touch.
, but the breakup is serious."
"So, the real manifestation of the breakup is somewhere else."
Iwahashi Shinichi thought for a while and said to her, "I think the so-called breakup should be about my life from now on, and I will have nothing to do with the other person anymore."
From now on, life will never matter again.
Iwahashi Shinichi said this calmly, and when Nakamori Akina heard it, she suddenly remembered her refusal of Kondo Masahiko to buy a house.
She refused to buy a house and no longer had any hope of marrying him and starting a family. Instead, she developed fear and disgust for his character. Isn't this just a matter of drawing a clear line between her and him in her life?
Then, she thought that before the Grand Prize incident, she had doubts and waverings about Kondo Masahiko, so she chose to see Iwahashi Shinichi, and finally attended the Grand Prize.
Refusing to give up the prize is pushing Kondo Masahiko away from her life. Then all kinds of things happened. Every doubt and every rejection she made was pushing this person away. And refusing to buy a house was the last push from the edge of the ring.
Bundle.
She didn't break up because she stopped seeing and calling Kondo Masahiko, but because he was pushed out of her life, so she stopped contacting him.
From the moment she rejected Masahiko Kondo, Akina Nakamori's life had nothing to do with Masahiko Kondo.
"You also said it in your letter," Shinichi Iwahashi spoke again, "You refused something that I never thought I would refuse in the past. If it was a breakup that meant we could see each other again the next day, there would be no need to come up with something like this.
It takes a lot of courage.”
In other words, her seemingly unremarkable ending was not due to a lack of "boundaries" for breaking up, but because the intense outburst she imagined happened in another form.
There are thousands of ways to break up, but no matter which one you use, the fact is: she has broken up with Kondo Masahiko.
After saying this, Iwahashi Shinichi closed his mouth.
Nakamori Akina's eyes never left him, listening to what he said, and watching him finish. She stared at him for a while, and then suddenly said to him: "Thank you, Iwahashi-san."
"Thank me?"
However, Akina Nakamori did not say a reason to thank her. Instead, she changed the subject and said: "Thinking about it this way, it's incredible that I got to know you."
"Are you talking about 'accident is inevitable'?" Iwahashi Shin was half joking.
Nakamori Akina smiled at his words, but shook her head slightly, "Since 'accident is inevitable', it's not unbelievable." When he spoke like this, he returned to his childish and naughty tone.
"Yes." Iwahashi Shinichi agreed, liking what she said quite a bit.
Since she didn't say what she was thanking for, she probably wouldn't ask.
However, something that happened to settle an old score after a long time probably happened, and Iwahashi Shinichi's curiosity became stronger than before. He did not choose to let it go, and asked: "Then, what are you thanking for?"
"Variety……"
Nakamori Akina listened to the vague words, and finally looked away from his face, looking at the origami kitten in her hand with a smile, "Before, I only knew about origami stars, paper cranes and the like. After reading the origami book,
Only then did I realize that the art of origami is so profound and profound.”
Is this a way to change the subject?
But Shinichi Iwahashi vaguely felt that this seemed like he was embarrassed after answering "all kinds of things."
…
The two stood up from the bench and walked back.
On the way back, Akina Nakamori seemed more relaxed and lively than before. This change was probably related to the conversation.
"I don't know what kind of reasons Omoto-san came up with..." Thinking of Omoto having to worry about her, Nakamori Akina showed a smile of successful mischief.
Iwahashi Shinichi said of her, "It seems that she really wants to make things difficult for Omoto-san."
He wasn't worried at all that the editor couldn't come up with a good reason. If he couldn't do the basic skills of an agent, he might as well resign and go back to his hometown to grow carrots.
"Just a little bit." She did not deny it.
Omoto just pulled Shinichi Iwahashi and kept talking, as if he wanted to stand between her and Shinichi Iwahashi. Because of this, Akina Nakamori wanted to play a prank on him.
However, if Omoto hadn't tried to prevent her from talking to Iwahashi Shinichi, she might not have taken the initiative to invite him.
Iwahashi Shinichi also felt the guard from Omoto just now, but he didn't take it to heart. As an agent, there is nothing wrong with doing this. However, if Taopu Shida wants to play a prank on him, he is happy to watch the fun.
.
Walking back to the intersection of the boulevard, Iwahashi Shinichi looked around and said, "We're back to where we were. Tour guide Sang is still very reliable."
Nakamori Akina smiled slightly when she was teased like this.
"correct."
Before leaving, she said to Shinichi Iwahashi, "I bought you a gift yesterday."
"Gift?"
Nakamori Akina told him that it was to thank him for the treat before. However, she did not tell him about her journey of buying a gift after hearing what Omoto said about "Friday".
After she had spoken clearly and listened to his answer, she had already made a decision in her mind as to what she should do.
Shinichi Iwahashi smiled after hearing this, "Such a thing..." He smiled but thanked her seriously, "Thank you for taking so much trouble."
In an era where it is normal for men to pay the bills, she remembers such a small thing and goes out of her way to buy a gift. Such Akina Nakamori may be regarded as old-school by some people, but she has her old-school cuteness and value.
However, when Shinichi Iwahashi heard what she said, he felt that there was one thing that he still needed to explain to her.
"That's right." He said, "I was born in 1966, so Nakamori-san doesn't need to be so polite." Although he looked a little older, he was actually a year and a half younger than her.
"Huh?" Nakamori Akina couldn't contain her surprise.
Iwahashi-san, turns out to be younger than her???
She stared at Iwahashi Shinichi's face, as if she was counting rings on his face. She looked again and again, suddenly smiled and said to him: "But, you are really reliable."
Suddenly I realized that she couldn't change her words for a while, and she was still speaking with honorifics. However, the reason why she had an impression of him as an older person was precisely because he was a very reliable person.
Iwahashi Shinichi heard this and joked with her with a smile, "If that's the case, I'll feel much better."
"I'm sorry." Nakamori Akina narrowed her eyes, but looking at the smile and expression on her face, she knew that this was not a true apology.
The two of them laughed at each other on the streets of Karuizawa because of this small misunderstanding.
Iwahashi Shinichi said goodbye to her, "Well, see you next time."
"see you later……"
After saying goodbye, Nakamori Akina paused for a moment, looked at his face, and suddenly suggested: "From now on, can I call you Shinichi-kun?"
