Jiang Qinian felt a little guilty in his heart, but he also knew that nothing in this world was perfect. The path he chose was destined to be alone, and maybe even Ying Chumei would leave him one day in the future.
(Watch it with confidence, it won’t happen)
As for the clone in front of him... To be honest, although he felt a little bit unbearable, he had no other choice. So many people had died along the way. To put it bluntly, this clone was no better.
Admittedly, some of him think this way because he doesn't feel back pain when he talks while standing, but most people are like this. If the incident doesn't happen to him, then everything is easy to talk about.
So he thought for a while and continued:
"Well, I don't want to kidnap others morally. Although I sometimes have double standards, my double standards are not too obvious, so I won't advise you to sacrifice yourself to fulfill me. To be honest, such a disgusting person
I can't even say it.
I'll give you a chance. You and I have a fight. If I'm the loser, then you can continue to live. I'm not as skilled as others, so I won't blame you. If you're the loser, then
I will refine the shrine as usual, how do you do with it?"
After finishing speaking, Jiang Qinian mobilized the little spiritual power left in his body, as if he was ready to fight at any time.
But what surprised him was that the clone didn't move at all. He just raised his head and looked at Jiang Qinian, with a slight smile in his eyes.
Seeing this, Jiang Qinian was a little confused, so he couldn't help but frown and asked:
"Um...what's wrong? Is there any problem?"
Hearing this, the clone shook his head.
"Okay, sit down. In your current state, even if we fight, you will never be my opponent. You will definitely be the one who dies in the end."
"I'm not pretending, I'm telling you seriously.
When most people encounter something, they always advise others to be more generous and negotiate with each other. That is because the matter does not fall on them, but if you think about it carefully, there is nothing wrong with it. Seek good luck and avoid bad luck.
This is an instinct possessed by every living thing, even me.
But to be honest, I don't like myself like this many times, because if I think about it in another person's shoes, I'm not willing to sacrifice myself to help others. I'm not that generous.
The reason why humans are called humans is not only because we are more intelligent than other animals and can use tools, but also because we can control our own instincts.
As a person, I have always been self-centered. I can do whatever I can, no matter what happens, my own safety comes first.
But after seeing you today, I seem to have seen my past self, who could only be at the mercy of others. I could only watch as my relatives and friends died in front of me, unable to do anything.
I didn't have any choice at the time. Many times I knew it was a trap set for me, but I could only jump in obediently, and then struggle to survive like a desperate beast.
Maybe, I have indeed grown a lot along the way, and I have a choice when I encounter anything.
Although you are a separate clone of me, you are still of the same origin as me. You are just a clone. You were created to exist in this world with a certain purpose. When your mission is completed, you will
disappear automatically.
But I am willing to give you a choice, a choice that you can see and touch, and that can really get you out of this predicament.
I still won't give up refining the shrine, but I won't say that as a clone, you should sacrifice yourself to fulfill a disgusting person like me.
Just like the battle between Zhang Fin and me just now, whether we can achieve our goals and survive depends on our own abilities.
If he really dies, then his skills are inferior to others, and no one can blame anyone."
"I know, I can feel what you are thinking in your heart, but there is one thing you guessed wrong. Maybe...maybe I don't want to continue to live in this state?"
Hearing this, Jiang Qinian's tense body suddenly relaxed. He lowered his head and looked at it carefully.
The expression on the clone's face, but at this time, except for the smile, there is no other expression on the clone's face.
In the end, Jiang Qinian sat down helplessly and looked at the clone with complicated eyes.
"You're upset."
"Um."
Jiang Qinian did not deny it. He still lowered his head, not wanting to look at the clone, but the clone didn't care and continued to say:
"But you shouldn't be like this."
"But no one stipulates that I have to be like this, right?"
After saying that, the clone seemed a little dumbfounded, but then he continued to laugh and nodded at the same time.
"Well, that's right. You only live for a few decades. Instead of being bound by the rules of the world, it's better to live the way you like.
But it's a pity...that's not the case in many cases. Although I have never been in contact with the outside world, I have learned a lot about it because of my contact with shrines.
Those who work from 9 to 5 every day are very hard. Faced with never-finished work and a boss who often scolds them, they also want to turn over the table and leave, living unfettered and free from anyone's criticism.
But there were elderly parents above and babies waiting to be fed below, so they had no choice.
Just like us, you were just a mortal in the beginning. Even if you are now a strong man in the half-body realm, many times you still have no choice. You still have to kill people you don't want to kill and do things you don't want to do.
To be honest, I may not understand the twists and turns of people's hearts, but I also know that if you keep doing things you don't like, cannot look back, and have no one to accompany you, you will never be happy in this kind of life."
"Well, I know what to do, and I didn't say not to do it. I just feel a little tired. Really, I'm not that strong most of the time, but I can't show it. I'm carrying too many things.
Those divine attendants, as well as the gods hiding in the darkness and struggling to survive, are like wild dogs with a keen sense of smell. Once I show any signs of fatigue, they will rush up to me with barking barks, tear off my flesh and blood, and tear me into pieces.
It is true that Zhang Fin's death made me feel a little confused. Although I will not regret killing him, and it was his own choice, I still feel a little uncomfortable in my heart.
You know, I always think a lot. After Zhang Fin's death, I stood in front of his tombstone. I was thinking, if God didn't love to tease people so much, if those godly servants didn't target me.
, then he may be enjoying life in the company of his family at the moment.
He will not die, nor will he become a lonely ghost, and his wife and daughter can live happily. Although the divine servant is the culprit, the destruction of Chun City has nothing to do with me.
I want to try to welcome a new life and get rid of these things that trouble me, but I can't get rid of them no matter what. I stride forward towards the things I least want to face, but now,
Those divine servants were living well, and the great nightmare was also living well, but Zhang Fin was dead, and the people of Chun City were still at the mercy of others like puppets on strings.
Everyone says that I have great talent and am the best among the young generation, but to be honest, I haven't killed anyone who should be killed now, and those who don't deserve to die have fallen in front of me one after another.
Sometimes I feel like a waste. Really, if I could do it all over again, I would rather not have this talent. I just want to live a stable and ordinary life in that small, not prosperous city."
"Yes, I can understand your thinking, but there is no if in this world, right?
Up to now, our choice is still pitifully small, and we still have to do things we don't want to do.
But our inability to choose now is so that we can have choices in the future, instead of going all the way with negative thoughts and not wanting to make progress.
As I just said, many people have to work hard, endure the reprimands of their bosses, and endure the pressure of life because they have to support their families.
It is true that such a life is not happy, but if you think about it from another perspective, this kind of life is not happy.
Is life really sad?
No, it's not.
The reason for working is to support our family. When we see our children growing up day by day, when we see our parents living a carefree life because of our own efforts, when we see our wife smiling because of your gift, this
Isn't it a kind of happiness?
You killed Zhang Fin, but it was not a painful thing for him. At least he got to know a close friend like you before he died, and he recognized your path. He no longer has to endure the torture of despair and loneliness.
This is a relief for him.
Zhang Fin's name is engraved in the shrine, so I didn't just say it out of hand, I just really felt what he was thinking before he died.
Although he still has unfinished things, he does not regret it. He entrusts the unfinished things to you and firmly believes that you can do what he cannot do.
The moment he was defeated by you, he was actually relieved. He did not admit that his path was wrong, but he believed that your path was the most suitable at this moment.
He has been alone for so long, but you were by his side before he died.
Zhang Fin has no choice, he is dead, but he hopes that you can have a choice. Isn't it a happy thing to be trusted by someone so unswervingly? "
"I understand the truth, I just... I just want to find someone to talk to."
"I know that sometimes it feels better to speak out what's on your mind.
You have to know that all the people who were killed, including me, have never blamed you, so keep going. With everyone’s trust and trust, go on unswervingly, walk in front of those gods, and put them to death.