Xie Ru refused to tell Zhang Tan about Bai Yuxin, but Zhang Tan was not angry or discouraged. As long as he knew the direction, there would always be a way. He did not ask any more questions, but still thanked Xie Ru, and took Meng Guangxin with him
Cheng Cheng left.
He came again in the afternoon. Seeing him again, Xie Ru said, "Why are you here again? I told you that I would not reveal customer privacy."
Zhang Tan smiled and said: "I know this is professional ethics, but I did it for a reason. This is Officer Ding Jiamin, the police officer in charge of our area. When Bai Yuxin died, she was also a case handler. She can testify for me.
Please do me a favor."
Ding Jiamin showed her police card, and Xie Ru looked at it carefully, gave it back to her, invited them to come in and sit down, poured two glasses of water, sat across from them, and asked: "Why do you want to know about Bai Yuxin? There is a reason for everything.
What’s the reason?”
Ding Jiamin looked at Zhang Tan. Zhang Tan hesitated and said, "I met Bai Yuxin back then, and I only found out about her death not long ago. I want to know more about it. After all, she is a good friend of mine."
Xie Ru: "Is it because of this?"
His observational skills in studying psychology are amazing, and he actually saw that Zhang Tan was not telling the truth.
Facing her eyes that seemed to see through her soul, Zhang Tan said awkwardly: "Bai Yuxin left a child back then. I want to know who her biological father is."
Ding Jiamin was surprised and looked at Zhang Tan with his mouth wide open...
On the contrary, Xie Ru was not too surprised. After staring into his eyes for a while, she nodded and said, "That's pretty much it. What do you want to ask?"
Zhang Tan had too many questions to ask. He sorted out his thoughts and asked, "When did Bai Yuxin start suffering from mental illness?"
Ding Jiamin hesitated for a moment, left silently, and sat far away to look out the window. Although Zhang Tan didn't ask her to avoid it, she took the initiative to avoid it. Obviously, these matters were very private to Zhang Tan.
It's not easy for her to listen.
Zhang Tan glanced at her and didn't say anything else. He was actually relieved. To be honest, Ding Jiamin was listening, and he was under a lot of pressure.
Xie Ru said: "I don't know when Bai Yuxin got sick, but when she came to see a doctor here, it was winter. I remember it was December, and there was a rare snow in Pujiang River, so I remember very clearly that at that time she
I’m pregnant, more than three months old.”
"Were you depressed when you were pregnant?" Zhang Tan asked in surprise. He originally thought that Jiang Ping's death hit her and caused her depression, but he didn't expect that she was depressed when she was pregnant. "Why?"
Xie Ru looked at him meaningfully and said truthfully: "Because the child she is carrying is not her husband's, she feels very guilty."
Zhang Tan's expression was stiff, extremely embarrassed and guilty.
Xie Ru continued: "Her husband was very good to her, but the better he treated her, the stronger the guilt in her heart became. Over time, she developed psychological problems. Coupled with prenatal depression, it began to affect her normal life.
She came to live with me for the first time, and it was her husband who accompanied me."
Zhang Tan felt that his throat was blocked, and his voice was hoarse when he spoke. He almost didn't speak out. He coughed twice before he recovered and asked: "Her husband knows this?"
Xie Ru nodded: "I know, drink some water."
She pointed at the glass in front of Zhang Tan, and through the glass, she saw Zhang Tan's fingers refracted and twisted.
Zhang Tan said thank you, picked up the cup, took a sip of water, put it down, and looked at Xie Ru.
Xie Ru said: "I know a lot because she has been treated here for nearly two years. I can tell you everything, but not because of Officer Ding's guarantee, but because I hope Bai Yuxin's daughter can find the right home.
"
Zhang Tan nodded silently.
Xie Ru told Bai Yuxin's story in detail.
Bai Yuxin started seeing Xie Ru for mental illness treatment when she was pregnant with Xiaobai, because she felt guilty about Jiang Ping. Over time, she put too much pressure on herself, which led to prenatal depression.
Jiang Ping knew all this.
Later, after giving birth to Xiaobai, Bai Yuxin gradually recovered until she recovered. She didn't come to see Xie Ru again for more than half a year. Just when Xie Ru thought that Bai Yuxin had completely recovered, she came again one day. That was when Jiang Ping passed away.
time.
Because of Jiang Ping's sudden death, Bai Yuxin was overly sad, and her psychological problems recurred again. In addition, Bai Yuxin went to Jiang Ping's company to ask for an explanation, because she was single and weak, with Xiaobai as an orphan and a widowed mother, and she didn't understand the law.
, there was no way, the company gave her 5,000 yuan as a consolation payment and sent her away, which made her mentally unstable even more.
When Xie Ru saw her, she was in a very bad mental state. Xie Ru tried her best, but there was no effective way to help Bai Yuxin until Bai Yuxin found out that she was pregnant again.
At that time, Bai Yuxin was already three months pregnant. Xie Ru seized this opportunity and told her to take good care of herself and let herself go. She should not only think about herself but also the child in her belly. This was the last trace of Jiang Ping's blood.
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As expected, Bai Yuxin listened, and her mental state gradually stabilized and improved, and everything was moving forward for the better, until Bai Yuxin had a miscarriage.
Since she was pregnant with the child, her body has not been well taken care of, and her mental state is very poor. Three meals a day are not on time, and even come and go. Xiaobai eats and eats after following her, and dresses like a wild child
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Although she tried hard to save the child, she failed in the end.
This time, it almost cost Bai Yuxin his life.
Her inner self-blame and guilt reached its peak, and she often complained that she had killed Jiang Ping's only bloodline in the world, and eventually she committed suicide due to depression.
Speaking of this, Xie Ru's face was full of sadness, she wiped her eyes and said: "A few days before she committed suicide, I went to see her. She was basking in the sun in the corridor, and the hungry child was eating carrots at home. When he saw my
The first sentence is, Auntie, I'm hungry."
Zhang Tan clenched his fists, feeling extremely complicated.
Xie Ru continued: "I packed some food and came back, fed her, and chatted with Bai Yuxin for a long time. She was in a very bad state of mind and couldn't listen. I didn't leave until it got dark. I didn't expect to come back a few days later.
, I was told that she was dead and her daughter had been picked up. This is all I know. Is there anything else you want to ask?"
After Zhang Tan heard this, he sighed heavily in his heart and fell silent.
Xie Ru waited patiently until Zhang Tan asked again: "Do you know who her daughter's biological father is?"
Xie Ru shook her head and said she didn't know, "Bai Yuxin never mentioned it."
Zhang Tan: "Then do you know that before she died, she changed her daughter's surname and date of birth?"
Xie Ru shook her head and said she didn't know. She suddenly opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but in the end she said nothing.
Some words cannot be said and can only be understood by others.
In fact, what she just said has already told Zhang Tan the fact that Bai Yuxin doesn't care much about her daughter. Bai Yuxin can blame herself for committing suicide for the sake of the aborted child in her belly, but she can't commit suicide for the sake of happiness.
My 2-year-old daughter is still alive and well.
Don't encourage others to do good unless they have suffered.
She could only think about these words in her heart. A person who is forced to commit suicide must have experienced too much suffering. It is difficult for every living person to truly understand it.
But one thing can be inferred, that is, Bai Yuxin probably had no feelings for that man, or maybe he had feelings at the time, but they disappeared quickly.
She couldn't say such words, she could only feel it for herself, and she believed Zhang Tan could feel it.