Because of my identity and situation, Master Jiu and the Bo family will not accept me at all. They will directly take Yaya away and won't let me accompany her to grow up or meet her.
And Yaya is my life, the child I almost died and gave birth to, and I really can’t bear to let go.
I gritted my teeth, apologized to Yaya in my heart, comforted myself that I could survive, and then tried my best to take care of Yaya.
I think many mothers have experienced the sadness of raising a child alone. It is probably that they cannot just eat or go to the toilet. Even doing housework has to be held in one hand or carried on the back.
Regarding raising children, the most profound memory I have is when Yaya was one year old and fell ill. She kept crying. I calmed her down patiently, and then went home to make soup and porridge. Because I was lost in thought, my hand was cut with a knife when I was digging a bone, and the blood continued.
I was very strong at that time. After simply bandaging myself, I continued to cook and then sent him to the hospital.
However, the meal that was finally prepared was knocked over downstairs of the hospital. At that time... a string collapsed in an instant, and I squatted in the corner and cried for a long time.
Seeing the girls passing by being cared for by their parents for medical treatment, or coming to the hospital to visit friends with smiles on their faces, I couldn't help but think, I am only 20 years old, why do I have to suffer so much? Suffer so much?
It's a pity that I don't have the right to cry or complain, because there was no shoulder for me to lean on at that time, and there was no one to comfort me and say, "Xixi, leave everything to me, it will be fine."
I carried Yaya with such difficulty, day after day, year after year.
It wasn't until I met Jiu Ye three years later that the world changed dramatically.
The first time we met, it was a coincidence. Master Jiu mistook me for Lan Jiao, which led to a misunderstanding.
I know that there is a huge disparity in status between me and him, and I don’t want to get involved with a man who can’t even recognize his wife, so I keep staying away.
But I didn't expect that Xiao Mo didn't like to talk, and he couldn't bear to let me go when he saw me. Only then did I realize that I was not only sorry for Yaya, but also sorry for Xiao Mo.
So, I became Xiao Mo’s nanny, taking care of Xiao Mo’s food, clothing, housing and transportation.
During this period, because Xiao Mo was in contact with Jiu Ye, but I can swear that I don’t have any covetous thoughts towards Jiu Ye.
Otherwise, I would not fall in love with Mr. Tang, nor would I help set up Lan Jiao.
Jiu Ye and Lan Jiao returned to the Imperial City to get married, and we had no contact with each other.
But I never thought that Yaya would be misdiagnosed as blood cancer, and I would have to come to Imperial City to seek medical treatment. After that... maybe there is something I shouldn’t say, but I still want to tell everyone that Lan Jiao fell into the water on her wedding day.
I became a vegetative state, and because I went to see Mr. Tang, I was mistaken for Lan Jiao and pushed ahead with the wedding.
I got married on behalf of Lan Jiao, and got along with Master Jiu as Mrs. Bo on behalf of Lan Jiao.
Although we didn't do anything physically transgressive, during that performance, we kept in contact and got along with each other.
As for being tempted, I have been tempted before. After all, Master Jiu is so aloof, excellent and perfect, I believe there will be no girl who will not be tempted by him.
But, for me, in addition to having so many advantages, Jiuye also has many shortcomings.
For example, he is boring, coquettish, cold, and unpredictable. He makes me afraid to get close to him. I also suspect that his love for me is just a temporary interest.
And his biggest shortcoming is that he is Lan Jiao's husband. Therefore, I kept telling myself in my heart that he was just playing around. After playing, he could escape unscathed, but I would die miserably.
Therefore, even if Mr. Jiu flew back to the Imperial City from the United States for me, even if Mr. Jiu treated me with every possible care, even if Mr. Jiu confessed to me, I would still reject him for a long time.
Why did you finally agree to date?
It was because I tested whether Master Jiu was sincere and asked Master Jiu to leave me when he was disappointed in me that I realized that he was like a gentle spring breeze, moistening things and falling silently into my heart, firmly entrenched in my heart.