Chapter 182 The meaning of being careful (two in one)
Jing Hao frowned, confused: [For example?]
But she fell silent.
Been waiting for a long time.
Lin Yoona: [For example...]
Lin Yoona: [In the face of some things, I may not be able to stay rational, I may not be able to restrain myself, and make wrong choices. 】
Yes, just like before, without thinking about those things, I straightforwardly chose to break up with Jing Hao.
And Jing Hao has gradually taken root in her psychology, and has even become a dependence, stationed in every corner of her body.
Jing Hao lowered his head and touched the screen of his mobile phone with his fingers. The light was blocked by his body.
Broken hair hangs above his dark pupils, and his eyebrows are handsome and cold.
He was in a state of deep confusion at the moment, as if he had entered a misty forest that he had never been before.
He didn't know what was going to happen next.
When he felt that he was about to understand something in his mind and about to truly capture some emotions.
Her words carried a force that forcefully pushed him back.
But Jing Hao was unwilling to give in.
Unwilling to live up to her full expectations, she pushed her out of bounds in this forest.
Jing Hao sat quietly for a few seconds with a complicated look on his face: [But you are fine now!]
After sending it, she suddenly felt that it might be okay if she put it in someone else's hands.
But what he said at this moment didn't seem very convincing.
Lin Yoona: [Just because it’s good now, doesn’t mean it will always be good.]
Lin Yoona: [Although we have been in love before, during that time, our understanding of each other was not that deep. As the desire and relationship increase, we will want more. ]
Lin Yoona: [People change, and I am no exception.]
The room was silent, and no one spoke on either end of the phone.
Jing Hao's eyes were locked on these few words of hers, from the literal meaning to interpreting them one by one.
The more he looked, the darker the darkness shrouded his heart.
Jing Hao said carefully: [I don’t quite understand.]
Jing Hao didn't understand why Lin Yuner suddenly lowered his favorability.
Is she telling him not to have high expectations for her?
Lin Yoona's tone was serious: "I haven't thought it through yet, give me some time."
Jing Hao was nervous for a second, then pretended to be relaxed and said: [Okay, I have confidence in you and myself. 】
Lin Yoona quickly replied with a free and easy tone: "Don't be so sure."
Jing Hao raised his eyebrows and smiled: [I have this confidence.]
Lin Yoona leaned on the back of the car's back seat, the hot air outside the window blowing on the side of her face.
Her expression was very pale, her gaze was faint, but the corners of her lips were slightly curved upward.
The person opposite me always looks personable and confident.
When Jing Hao faced Lin Yuner, his gentle character made Lin Yuner admit defeat.
She looked out from the corner of her eye. The streets were brightly lit and vehicles were flowing continuously, making it a complicated scene.
Just like my own state of mind at this moment.
Lin Yuner rubbed her eyebrows and said clearly: [Okay!]
Just when she was hesitating whether to end the topic so that she could completely sort out her thoughts.
The news from the other side immediately fell into her eyes.
Jing Hao: [You suddenly said these words to me today, do you want me to lower my expectations for you? 】
Lin Yoona pursed her lips and was silent for a moment: [Expectations will not affect my mood when meeting you, but you need to understand that I may make mistakes in my bones. 】
Lin Yoona: [There may be some mistakes that you cannot accept.]
Jing Hao: [I don’t know what happened to you today, but please don’t talk about yourself like that in the future. 】
Jing Hao: [Everyone will always have moments when they are depressed. If you are in a bad mood or sad at the moment, I will not advise you to be stingy with your tears. ]
Jing Hao: [But, you must always remember that after wiping away your tears, I will always be there.]
Jing Hao: [Besides, whether it is the position you occupy in my phone or the weight you hold in my heart, it is very important. You are really very good, don’t doubt yourself. 】
Lin Yuner's heart suddenly tightened, and she felt like she was being strangled and suffocated.
But it only took a few seconds for that feeling to be released.
The relationship between the two people now has a kind of ambiguity that is hard to explain, but it is indescribable.
But in this relationship, so far, both parties have been very restrained and rational, and will not let it go any further casually.
It was hard for Lin Yoona to tell what kind of existence Jing Hao was in her life.
Before she met Jing Hao, Lin Yoona had always felt that she could be a wise person in relationships because of the influence of a broken family since childhood.
However, after interpreting a series of events that happened in the front-end time from her own perspective, and from Kim Ji-won’s perspective as a bystander, Lin Yoon-ah discovered that she was not at all as rational as she imagined.
In her own eyes, she is more like a clumsy and vulgar woman, unceremonious but self-righteous in defending her own territory.
without considering other people's feelings.
Does she love Jing Hao?
like!
Lin Yoona could say this answer immediately, without hesitation and with confidence,
But while she loves him, Lin Yoona doesn't want to think about the way she did before, being unclear about things with Jing Hao, and getting together without sorting out everything.
The occurrence of the scandal is more like a warning to Lin Yoona.
Now the two of them love each other very much, both mentally and behaviorally, and they are very sure of this fact.
But there is no guarantee that if we get back together at this point in time, we will break up again if something like this happens again in the future.
This time, it is within a controllable range. After both people adjust themselves, they can continue to be together.
But what if something like this happens again next time?
Next time, it may not be the same as now.
It is even very possible that there will be no possibility of getting back together.
This is a fact that the two people at present know very well in their hearts.
The car was driving on the street. Lin Yoona slowly lowered her head, closed her eyes and straightened her body. I was in the car seat.
Her vision was pitch black, but in her mind, Jing Hao's clean facial features could clearly be seen.
That time on the Sunshine Coast, and later at the night market, we had a few rare contacts.
But only today was the first time that they got closer and spent time alone in the same space for a long time.
Jing Hao's face is white and smooth, his facial features are sharp and angular, and there is always a faint warmth between his eyebrows.
However, Jing Hao's relaxed and relaxed manner and conversation are a little different from the Jing Hao Lin Yoona knew before.
He became less cold, and his whole person became more friendly.
The long eyelashes of her tightly closed eyes trembled in the breeze blowing in through the car window.
The mobile phone held in the palm of my hand suddenly vibrated, shattering the images in my mind.
Lin Yuner slowly raised her eyes, sat up straight, and looked back at the chat box on her phone.
Jing Hao: [Let me take a look]
Jing Hao:【Picture.】
Lin Yoona touched it with her finger and opened it.
It was a portrait of her drawn by Jing Hao.
A very three-dimensional rendering, lifelike, as if there really is another Lin Yoona in the world on the phone.
Jing Hao: [Does it look good? You are the first person to see it, you are very lucky.]
Jing Hao: [(Be good, be happy.jpg)]
Lin Yun'er was stunned for a moment, then her lips curved up from the corner of her eyes, spreading into a smile.
At this moment, she looked at the portrait calmly, and suddenly a bright light shone in her heart.
Lin Yoona's smile deepened, and the pear dimples at the corners of her mouth were also beautifully revealed at this moment: "Good-looking."
Jing Hao: [Aren’t you going to compliment me? A perfect person like me can go into the operating room to treat illnesses and save lives, go into the kitchen to show off my talents, and occasionally draw beautiful things. You have to know that a perfect person like me can
There are not many people left.】
Lin Yoona laughed softly.
Well, since he came to Athens this time, he has become more and more narcissistic.
However, she doesn't hate it.
On the contrary, I feel like I like him a little more.
Lin Yoona: [I can interview you. Why do you want to add something special in the upper right corner? 】
Jing Hao: [Are you being careful?]
Lin Yoona:【Yes.】
He sent over an emoticon.
Jing Hao: [(Damn it, you discovered it.jpg)]
Randomly, he continued to send it almost unconvinced: [Would you like to draw a picture for me to see? 】
Lin Yoona thought for a while: [But my makeup is not very good, and my photography skills are also quite bad, even a bit eye-catching. 】
Jing Hao deliberately teased her: [I guessed it, otherwise why don’t you post the photo on kakao. 】
Lin Yoona was successfully amused by him: [Well...can you tell me now? 】
Jing Hao:【What?】
Lin Yoona: [The date is written with deep meaning.]
It was quiet for a few seconds, and there was a vague feeling of having a bad idea.
Jing Hao deliberately said in a vigilant tone: [What do you want to do?]
Jing Hao: [(You bad old man is so bad!.jpg)]
Lin Yun'er's eyes were clear and she smiled: [I want to know you better.]
Jing Hao:【This is a secret.】
Lin Yoona hesitated for a while, and suddenly felt a little embarrassed: [It's okay, if it's inconvenient, you can just pretend I didn't ask.]
The next second, Jing Hao compromised: [Okay, do you have to listen?]
Lin Yoona paused with her fingertips on the phone: [Just, if it’s convenient.]
In fact, for Lin Yoona, no matter how much she knew about Jing Haodi, she felt it was not enough and wanted to know everything about him.
Just like his habit of writing, it didn't mean anything when she thought about it, but she just couldn't help it and wanted to know.
Jing Hao secretly organized his thoughts: [Only you know this secret, so you will be happier in the future. 】
Lin Yoona responded to him quietly: [Yeah.]
Jing Hao: [Actually, my favorite major is not doctor, but photography. 】
Jing Hao: [But I studied medicine for my sister. When she was a child, she admired those uncles and aunts in white coats and wanted to become a doctor when she grew up. 】
Jing Hao: [But it’s a pity that when she was sixteen, she had an accident, and her dream went with it. 】
Jing Hao: [So, I didn’t draw the clothes, but I used the heart symbol at the back because my sister likes that little symbol the most. I think it allows me to remember her forever. ]
Lin Yun'er's eyes darkened, and she felt a little regretful because of her curiosity and questioning of him.
She never knew that a big boy like Jing Hao, who was cold on the outside and hot on the inside, could hide such heavy things in his heart.
Moreover, every time he performs an operation, he will probably think of the person he left.
She couldn't relate to this feeling.
However, he knew that it must be very painful.
Lin Yoona immediately responded to him: "She must be able to feel your warm love all the time."
The world seems to be standing still.
Lin Yoona understands that the most fragile forbidden area in the human heart, every time it is mentioned, a biting cold wind will penetrate into it.
This has nothing to do with men and women, and has nothing to do with gender.
The darkness in her eyes disappeared, and Lin Yuner asked him cautiously: "Are you going to sleep?"
Jing Hao: [What about you? What are you doing?]
Lin Yoona looked at the hotel not far away, and the taxi was about to stop there.
Without any consideration, I replied directly: [I just arrived at the hotel, ready to wash up and rest first.]
After pausing for a few seconds, Jing Hao replied to her: [Don't be too tired, adjust your sleep well.]
Lin Yoona didn't care: [Well, good night.]
Jing Hao:【Good night!】
After saying that, I put away my phone and the car stopped at the steps in front of the hotel.
Lin Yoona took the clothes, opened the car door, and walked slowly towards the hotel door.
The secret exchanged with him suddenly made Lin Yuner feel something.
When she reached the hotel lobby, she didn't go straight up. Instead, she bought a cappuccino, turned around, and sat on the sofa in the coffee shop.
She opened her phone and found the photo at the bottom of the photo album that she had torn into pieces and then reassembled with tape.
The four fragmented and blurry people inside appeared at the bottom of her eyes.
The faint bitterness of coffee fills the nose, with bursts of sourness.
Lin Yoona's fingertips lightly touched the phone screen, as if she was feeling the breath of the person in the middle of the photo.
Time flew by with the precise night, a cup of coffee was finished, and the photo that appeared on the screen of her mobile phone was no longer there.
It's a number.
It was a string of numbers without any notes, but imprinted in her mind all the time.
After a long silence, she sighed and finally did not dial the number.
The family of four in the photo left alone when Lin Yoona was very young.
The string of numbers that Lin Yoona remembered was the phone number of her mother who left.
At the very least, it's the phone number from that time.
But in all these years, Lin Yoona has never dialed that number, not once.
Get up and put away your phone.
Lin Yoona has always known in her heart that from the day that woman, the person she should have called "mother", left them.
Lin Yoona, no matter when you dial that number, there will never be any blood ties.