After dawn, the attending doctor came to work and gave her mother a comprehensive examination. When her mother woke up, she was not very emotional, but she became dull again, with no light in her eyes, like a puppet. The doctor asked her
She did whatever she was asked to do, looking completely dejected.
Shu Tinglan leaned outside the door and watched silently, holding the bag of documents tightly in her arms. She knew that her mother had seen her father's relics or that the suicide note had brought back sad memories. And she did not have the courage to open it and read it.
, faced with their father's sudden death, they could only rely on hating him to relieve the pain in their hearts. It seemed that with hatred, they could accept his death openly, because he deserved his death.
For so many years, she never thought about her father's kindness. She just hated him with all her heart, so she didn't care about losing him.
But on the island, Wen Jian just brought her father on the other side in front of her. The past events of her childhood and her father's love for her all came to her heart.
At this time, she was leaning in Zhuo Yu'an's arms, holding her father's belongings and suicide note in her arms, and her tears kept falling down.
She cried silently, making Zhuo Yuan's clothes wet, but he didn't care and gently patted her back to comfort her.
The attending doctor said: "The current examination result is that there is no recurrence, but the mood is unstable. It is recommended to continue hospitalization for observation. When it returns to its previous state, it can be discharged."
After listening to the doctor's words, Shu Tinglan breathed a sigh of relief and wanted to stay with her mother, but the doctor refused. Having relatives around was not conducive to controlling the disease.
Shu Tinglan squatted next to her mother before leaving,
"Just listen to the doctor. When you get better, I'll take you home."
Shu's mother nodded, and tears suddenly came out again. The mother and daughter hugged each other and cried, their hearts hurting so much.
On the way home, Shu Tinglan still hugged the document bag tightly. In fact, she knew in her heart that her mother's illness had never completely recovered. A small stimulus would amplify her emotions infinitely. This was something her mother herself also felt.
Uncontrollable.
After returning home, she locked herself in the study. She thought the light was too bright, so she closed the curtains and only turned on a lamp in front of the desk.
The outer cover of the document bag says: Transfer to Zhang He, Ting Lan. Zhang He is her mother's name. This document bag was probably given to Wen Lan by her father before his suicide, but Wen Lan kept it and never took it out.
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Inside is a diary written by her father and two letters, one to her mother and one to her.
in the letter,
He said, Lanlan, please forgive dad for leaving without saying goodbye. Dad has done something wrong and has no face to face you;
He said, Lanlan, you are my father’s most beloved daughter. You are excellent, upright, and kind, and you are the pride of my father’s life.
He said, "Lan Lan, it's dad who is sorry for you and mom. If there is an afterlife, we must be a family again. Dad will spend his whole life to make up for you."
Seeing this, Shu Tinglan's eyes were blurred by tears. Her nose and heart were blocked, and she seemed to be suffocating. After so many years, her father suddenly passed away without leaving a word, leaving only a mess for her.
Being with her mother is something she has never been able to let go of. Over the years, she has always wondered, does her father love Wen Jian or her more? Is there any guilt at all? These questions that were swirling in her heart suddenly got the answer.
This belated confession and apology was the salvation for her and her mother.