Chapter 49: Only ruthlessness can defeat the situation
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"I want...I want..." Yu Guming was stared at by Xue Hengzhao's eyes like cold stars, and he stuttered even if he didn't.
"Do you want to take it as a souvenir for me?" Xue Hengzhao asked as he lifted up the cloth bag.
She shook the bag gently, and the sycamore seeds inside made a thin sound.
"Yes." Yu Guming nodded.
"Ha!" Xue Hengzhao snorted and turned away. The sun shone on her cheeks, as if the first snow might melt at any time.
She is too weak, but she has extremely hard bones.
"My home has been confiscated. I don't know whether my parents or relatives are alive or dead. What's the use of this thing?"
"I..." Yu Guming has never hated himself so much for being so stupid.
It was on his own initiative that he brought this thing to Xue Heng to take a photo of.
He only thought that these were things in the Xue family's house, but he forgot how heartbreaking it was to see things and miss people.
This is like a wound on someone's body that has just scabbed over, but I just go up and uncover it for them.
He didn't blame Xue Hengzhao at all, he only blamed himself for being reckless and conceited, and having good intentions but doing bad things.
Xue Hengzhao glanced at Yu Guming again, and she knew that he should give up as soon as possible.
The greatest wish of a woman in the world is often to be with one person for the rest of her life, but Xue Hengzhao is just the opposite. She believes that the last thing a woman should get into in this life is love.
She has too much to do, and love will only make her weak and stupid.
So she put on a smile and asked Yu Guming: "Your Majesty, you broke into the sealed house without permission, isn't it a good idea both emotionally and rationally?"
Yu Guming pursed his lips and said nothing, but his eyes betrayed him.
He looked at Xue Hengzhao unconsciously, but did not dare to look at her.
"Are you doing it for me?" Xue Hengzhao came closer and asked.
This time Yu Guming nodded simply, even though his face was red.
"Are you afraid that I will miss my family, and you want to use this to make me feel better? Do you care about me?" Xue Hengzhao asked again.
Yu Guming nodded again.
"You... worked so hard, condescended to me, and even took risks to do this for me," Xue Hengzhao caught his gaze playfully, and when he caught him, he asked directly, "Is it because you like me?"
Yu Guming really didn't expect that she would be so bold to say this, but he was a person who would never lie.
He either doesn't say anything, but he never tells lies when he speaks.
Faced with Xue Hengzhao's question, Yu Guming's heart beat like thunder and he solemnly nodded: "Yes."
"Your Majesty, please take back your love! There is absolutely no possibility between you and me."
Yu Guming came out holding a heart, but Xue Hengzhao pushed it back mercilessly.
She stopped laughing and her voice became colder.
"Why?!" Yu Guming blurted out. He didn't care about being sad, but wanted to know the reason.
"What do you think?" Xue Hengzhao stopped calling him by his honorific title.
"You...are you afraid of causing trouble to me?" Yu Guming knew that Xue Hengzhao was in a difficult situation, "Afraid that others would say...that you have bad intentions.
None of this... it doesn't matter. I will definitely find a way to let you... you regain your freedom.
If...if not, I am willing...to keep...to wait."
"There's no need to talk about the disparity between our statuses," Xue Hengzhao took a big step back, "I know that based on your status, this is not a dead end.
Even if the Xue family is not raided and my father is still in his original official position, I will still not be with you."
"Then...why on earth is that? Do you...you already...have someone you love?" Yu Guming only felt his heart sinking.
Yes! He was wishful thinking and fell in love at first sight, but he forgot that maybe Xue Hengzhao had already secretly promised someone else.
"Do you think you have to like someone in life?" Xue Hengzhao rolled his eyes unabashedly, "I am not only ruthless to you, but also to everyone.
You don’t understand me, you are just fascinated by my appearance. You think about me for your own sake.
I'm not at all what you think I am. For an innocent person like you, it's better to stay as far away from me as possible."
"You...why are you so...so self-destructive?" Yu Guming frowned. In his heart, Xue Hengzhao was so beautiful, and he couldn't bear to hear such words.
Even if these words came from Xue Hengzhao himself.
Xue Hengzhao sneered unabashedly: "Your Majesty, in your eyes, I am weak and a pitiful person, am I not?"
"You are still smart... perseverant... and self-loving." Yu Guming hurriedly added.
He considers himself to be truthful and never exaggerated.
"That's nonsense!" Xue Hengzhao sneered, "I advise you to wake up!"
"I believe what I saw." Yu Guming's determination also came up, "You are better than... better than them all!"
"Then let me tell you, the first time we met in Jianwuyuan, it was a trap set by me.
You can also think that I am protecting myself, but I will only tell you one thing.
At that time, I swore in front of everyone in front of the portrait of Sanqing that if what I said was untrue, Sanqing would be abandoned forever and people and gods would be disgusted with it.
In fact, everything I told was a lie, but I could still swear it without changing my face.
Because I don’t believe in my oath at all and have no conscience.
I can harm innocent people for my own benefit, or I can risk death to protect myself.
The benevolence, justice, etiquette, wisdom, and teachings of sages that you firmly believe in are not worth half a cent to me.
I am such a freak, not the lady you think I am."
Xue Hengzhao talked too much in one breath and couldn't help but feel short of breath and cough.
She held her hand on the wall and steadied herself, knowing that what she just said had set off huge waves in Yu Guming's heart.
However, she felt that it was not enough, so she slammed the bag of sycamore seeds on the ground and said: "This thing is extremely ridiculous in my eyes. I grew up in my old house in Dongdu and don't care about anything in the capital. p>
I heard that the Crown Prince is a very nostalgic person, so you must be particularly concerned about friendship.
And I am heartless and ruthless, a person who would never harm myself for others.
After all, you and I are not the same kind of people, so take your heart back as soon as possible!"
After Xue Hengzhao finished speaking, he turned around and prepared to go into the house.
She doesn't like to be sloppy, especially when rejecting others.
Yu Guming was stunned for a moment, then caught up with her, opened his hand and intercepted her in front of her.
He did not avoid Xue Hengzhao's eyes like before. His eyes were red, his lips were pursed tightly, and his expression was a bit scary.
"Why, has the prince finally seen clearly what I am? Are you unwilling to be teased?" Xue Hengzhao asked with a cold face, "You still want to twist me and send me somewhere?"
"I do!" Yu Guming said these three words almost through gritted teeth.
He was like a stupid cow plunging into a swamp, sinking in desperately: "No matter how bad you...are, I...I'm willing too!"