Chapter One Hundred and Ninetieth: Talking About the Year
After making the call, the saint didn't say anything else. He just said that His Majesty was in Huating and would be here soon, and then left Li Xi's ward.
As Li Xi wakes up, whether she leaves or stays is not actually what Saints cares most about. After sitting in the nursing home for nearly two years, he is really a little tired of it. As Li Xi wakes up, his mission also changes.
Almost done.
The deputy palace master of the East Palace sits in Tiannan, spends a certain amount of time completing the handover with the military advisor, and is in charge of the intelligence and secret power of the East Palace with the assistance of the military advisor.
This is the future he looks forward to more than sitting in a nursing home.
He walked out of the ward and closed the door.
The moment the door closed, he glanced into the ward through the gap.
In sight, Li Xi sat up, stretched out her hands to hug her knees, and looked quietly at the night outside the window, not knowing what she was thinking.
The saint shook his head and smiled.
The door closed and the whole world seemed to become quiet.
The night outside the window is quiet and deep. Although it is cold in winter, there is no wind, frost, rain or snow tonight. The street lights in the nursing home are on, blending with the moonlight, reflecting light in the night, quiet, soft and empty.
Everything in sight is like an oil painting completely frozen in darkness.
A little heavy, but with a touch of indescribable ease.
Li Xi sat blankly on the bed and looked out the window.
It seems that she has not yet fully awakened from the coma of more than two years. She is a little confused. There seem to be two personalities in her mind. One is recalling in disorder, and the other is thinking in a daze. The scenes of the first few decades of her life are in her brain.
The constant flickering in the story is not a coherent world, and the imagination is about the father who will no longer meet, about the daughter, about Kunlun City, about the Li family...
Those may all be very exciting stories, some of which bear humiliation, some of which are heart-warming, some of which are at a loss, some of which are high-spirited, and some of which are despairing.
The pictures that were shining in my mind began to be arranged bit by bit, arranged in order.
Li Xi thought quietly and recalled her life.
She did not lose her memory and remembered many things. In her memories, she looked at the people who played an important role in her life, but she could not find her own place.
Muddle-headed, walking dead...
What have you been doing for so many years?
Or, what did you do?
The past is like the wind, but the memories are like the tide. Her thoughts have only begun, and the endless past events have completely submerged her in the next moment.
She saw Gu Xingyun and the Gu family who had been forbearing back then.
I saw the arrogant and unruly Li Kuangtu back then.
I saw the taciturn and somewhat dull Wang Tianzong back then.
I saw Li Honghe who stood at the top and guarded Zhongzhou and the Li family wholeheartedly.
Everyone exists vividly in memory.
Everyone has meaning.
As for myself...
After more than fifty years of life, apart from being a tool used by others to achieve certain conspiracies, what is the meaning of my life?
This question may have been answered as early as after the treason case that year.
More than twenty years have passed by in a hurry, and until today, Li Xi finally realized that the only meaning of his life may be to pierce the sword into that man's chest.
Countless laughter, beauty, longing, expectations and promises all vanished with that sword.
Blood flowed from the sword's edge.
He laughed wildly and fell down.
Everything after that until now is a pale thing that she doesn't want to think about.
Li Xi took a deep breath, seeming to feel a little cold, and subconsciously hugged herself tighter.
"Your emotions are a little confused."
I don't know how long time passed. In the extremely quiet room, an indifferent voice suddenly rang in Li Xi's ears.
Li Xi, who had been completely immersed in memories, was suddenly shocked and subconsciously raised his head.
Li Tianlan stood beside the bed and looked into her eyes.
His expression was calm: "How do you feel?"
Li Xi looked at him blankly for a while, then shook her head and said, "It's not bad, it's not very good either. It still needs some time."
Li Tianlan nodded and did not choose to sit down. He just said in a calm voice: "Go ahead."
He stood beside the bed, motionless.
A black windbreaker wrapped his body, and the complex golden patterns on the windbreaker shone under the light, soft and slight, but every ray of light was like the sharpest sword light.
Li Xi quietly felt the aura, laughed to herself, and said softly: "I know the East Emperor's Palace, but the East Emperor's Palace has become the East Palace. Now you are really qualified to be called His Majesty."
Li Tianlan said nothing.
"How is she?"
After a moment of silence, Li Xi continued to ask.
This question is a bit abrupt.
But Li Tianlan was basically sure who the other party was talking about.
The corner of Li Tianlan's mouth twitched: "You care?"
Li Xi hugged her body tightly and leaned against the wall. This posture might look a bit delicate and pitiful on other people, but on her, it felt lifeless and sad: "You want to say,
Am I not worthy?"
Li Tianlan squinted his eyes, his expression was still calm, but his voice became a little cold: "She will be fine."
"Thanks."
Li Xi whispered: "If...no, forget it."
Li Tianlan nodded: "If nothing happens, I'll leave."
"I thought you had something to ask me."
Li Xi laughed at herself again: "Did you already know, or..."
"What do I ask you for?"
Li Tianlan looked at Li Xi quietly: "Are you my mother?"
Li Xi's palms clenched suddenly, seeming a little nervous: "Am I?"
"What do you think?"
Li Tianlan laughed.
Li Xi stared silently at Li Tianlan's eyes, which contained a smile without any emotion.
"Yes and no."
She said softly.
Li Tianlan nodded and said yes.
"When did you know that?"
Li Xi asked.
"After the chaos is over, when I return to Youzhou, I have asked many people about Moormans, but...it doesn't matter anymore. I don't know anything yet, and I don't want to know anymore. It's not important."
"escape?"
Li Xi's eyes were a little deep: "I refuse to forgive them, or maybe..."
"You think too much."
Li Tianlan smiled: "I don't hate anyone, let alone whether I forgive or not. I don't want to know, and they don't seem to want me to know. When things have reached this point, there is just no need to point it out. I know it well.
Well, I have suffered a lot since I was a child, but my grandpa was very good to me, and I don’t have any resentment in my heart, not at all. Besides, there is no need to change some things. No matter if my surname is Li or Dongcheng..."
He was silent for a while and said calmly: "We are all together and we are all a family. Is there any difference?"
Li Xi lowered his head silently.
Li Tianlan waited for a while, and just when he wanted to leave again, Li Xi spoke, but what he said was a topic that had nothing to do with his life experience.
"Actually, back then, I think I really liked Gu Xingyun, and even loved him."
She spoke softly, her voice sounding like she was talking in her sleep.
Li Tianlan raised his eyebrows.
"So maybe I am really a frivolous woman. My father wanted to rise to the top. Things like luck actually do exist. He could see that Gu's luck was strong at the time. According to what he said later
, even if there was no treason case at the beginning, the Li family was destined to fall..."
"So during the days when Gu was humbled, I was sent to Kunlun City by him. At that time, Gu Xingyun was not as..."
She thought about it, and suddenly realized that she had no specific impression of Gu Xingyun over the years, and couldn't help but laugh again: "He was very simple at that time, and although he was a little ambitious, it was in the ordinary category, and he was not as serious as he was later.
A lot of resentment, I think he also liked me at that time, very much, but later, I appeared next to Li Kuangtu..."
"In fact, Li Kuangtu didn't really want me at that time. He just met me once in a while at Gu's. He smiled and said that I was beautiful. He didn't even ask about my name. It's just that at that time, Gu's was
A dog is a cautious dog lying under the Xuanyuan Terrace wagging its tail and begging for mercy. So that night, I was sent to Li Kuangtu’s house by Gu Dongqing. It was logical that that night, I got into Li Kuangtu’s bed. Although it was a little uncomfortable.
I'm willing, but I can't resist. Gu Xingyun resisted, but one of his arms and one leg was broken. At that time, Gu Dongqing told me that if I serve Li Kuangtu well, I must satisfy him, otherwise he will let Gu Xing
Yun's life is worse than death."
Li Tianlan said nothing.
He had no impression of Gu Dongqing, but he seemed to have heard of this name. He was the previous patriarch of the Gu family, the uncle of Gu Qianchuan. When he was the patriarch, Gu Xingyun's lineage was not outstanding, and Gu Qianchuan's lineage was not outstanding.
This is the orthodoxy of the Gu family.
Li Tianlan thought about the information he had received from the Liu family in Huating, as well as the piece of He's Bi, and his thoughts began to swirl for a while.
Li Xi's voice was unhurried as she said: "At that time, although I was with Gu Xingyun, my body was very clean. Li Kuangtu looked very satisfied, as if he had gotten a new toy.
, I could say that I tried my best to tie him to me. About four months later, I walked into Li Kuangtu’s circle of friends at the time and met Wang Tianzong, Lin Fengting, and Xia Zhi.”
"A year later, I met Li Honghe, the then God of War in Central Continent."
"The day after I met Li Honghe, I returned to the Gu family by myself. You can't imagine what kind of emotions I felt when Gu Dongqing, who was once aloof to me, bowed to me. I saw Gu Xing
Yun, Gu Dongqing is indeed a good dog. He was afraid of what would happen to me and Gu Xingyun, so he watched closely during the whole meeting."
"I made a request to them. I can stay in the Li family, but the Gu family must do their best to cultivate Gu Xingyun."
"Stay in Li's..."
Li Tianlan's tone was incomprehensible.
"It's true that I stayed with the Li family. You might not believe it if I tell you."
Li Xi smiled.
Her voice was a bit mocking: "Gu Dongqing is really a good dog. He not only wag his tail and beg for mercy to Mr. Li, but also has an almost perverted loyalty. You haven't heard that he is loyal."
"Li Kuangtu just said that I was beautiful, and he could send me there that night. If Li Kuangtu was not talking about me, but his daughter or his wife, Gu Dongqing would be the same
She can also send them there. During those years when I stayed with Li Kuangtu, her only request from me was to serve Li Kuangtu well and take care of his daily life. She had no other requirements at all."
"The day after I met Mr. Li, he was able to bend down and salute me. It wasn't just me. You should know that at that time, Situ Cangyue and the current Phantom Sword Master Yun Qinxi of Shushan were also Li Kuang
Gu Dongqing was already an invincible master at that time, and he would bow down to the women who were still young. In the eyes of others, it was servility, but for the Li family, this kind of loyalty was undoubtedly what the Li family and his son liked.
, so at that time, they almost completely trusted Gu."
"Go on."
Li Tianlan didn't know what he was thinking, so he spoke quietly.
"In those few years, I have been following Li Kuangtu. Occasionally I would meet Gu Shi and Gu Xingyun. Everything that happened after that..."
She shook her head and thought about it quietly: "After Gu Dongqing died and Gu Qingfeng became the head of the Gu clan, everything changed..."