In the small apartment unit in the urban village, the sound of water flowing from the showerhead flowed for a while, and then stopped.
Because of the message replied by Sister Hua, Lei Yue ran all the way back from Fulong Market, found a set of clean clothes in the bedroom, and went straight to the bathroom to take a shower and change clothes.
[Sister Hua: I remember you, the one with the weird and scary look, right? You can come over and try, cover your face, as long as you can endure the hardship]
At this time, Lei Yue was standing in front of the wash basin in the narrow bathroom, looking at himself in the mirror.
Pair a gray hooded sweatshirt with jeans. As long as you pull up the hood of the sweatshirt and add medium-short hair, you can almost cover the bad half of your face.
In fact, he no longer wants to cover it up...
The body is an actor's creative tool. If you want to be an excellent actor, you must face your body and constantly train, explore and control this tool.
Actors cannot escape or escape from their own faces.
Lei Yue really doesn't want to be as secretive as before. Of course, in order to play different roles, some makeup, modeling and body modification are necessary.
Therefore, some good actors will be praised by everyone for knowing how to "transform". When they play one role, they are extremely fat, and when they play the next role, they become extremely thin.
He didn't want to cover his face, he just wanted to accept himself, his new self...
No one wants to see your face.
"Really, is that so..."
Lei Yue muttered softly in front of the mirror, frowned, stared, and grinned. His rotten face, half covered with purple scars, looked hideous.
Suddenly, he suddenly pulled out a black and silver heavy pistol from his arms, acting like a gangster in a police movie, holding the pistol in his right hand and pointing the muzzle at himself in the mirror.
"You shot me in your dream, you'd better wake up and apologize to me." Lei Yue said a classic movie line in a nonchalant tone.
After freezing for a few seconds, he shook his head with a chuckle, sighed, and hid the pistol in his arms.
Then, Lei Yue walked out of the bathroom, came to the living room, and walked to the ancient carved mahogany cabinet.
On the shrine are electronic incense candles, a bowl of fruit tribute, and three enshrined photos: his father, mother and grandmother. They are all smiling in the photos in black-bordered frames.
"Mother-in-law, parents, good morning." Lei Yue clasped his hands together and bowed to the three of them. He had already burned incense in the morning.
"Don't worry, my crow friend will guide me and I can stand up - I'm going to the film and television city to work as a sidekick! Uh, I know, I know..."
Looking at the three photos, he laughed teasingly at himself:
“To still want to be an actor when I grow up is definitely overestimating my abilities, being unrealistic and wishful thinking.
"But actors need to look different. If I can't play Prince Charming, can I still play Voldemort?"
He glared with a ferocious look, "Who didn't know that the children in the village would be frightened and cry when they saw me? If I just act like a bad guy and go to the set, oh, I'll save all the makeup fees."
"You said that, right?" Lei Yue's laughter became softer and softer, and his eyes moved towards his mother's photo.
"To make money, to take care of food, to avoid the limelight, to study that gun... there are any number of reasons, but actually I don't fully understand why the crow wants to take me on a path that I have never been able to go on?"
As he spoke, his voice was almost murmuring, "Why not another way? Why does it have to be performance? What does performance mean to me..."
Gradually, Lei Yue fell into thoughts.
The first time I performed on stage was at a talent show in kindergarten, where I played the role of a brave little boy warrior. The cape and battle suit were sewn by my mother.
That performance was a success. He still remembers it clearly. His mother, father and grandmother in the audience all smiled so brightly and clapped their hands so enthusiastically.
And when he received praise from teachers, other parents and others, they were so proud.
It was from then on that Lei Yue experienced the joy of acting and discovered his talent.
He likes to pretend to be other people, and also likes to bring various feelings to others because of his performance. He likes to make his grandma and parents proud of him.
At that time, he solemnly made a vow to them: "When I grow up, I will be an actor and a big star!"
Children's "my dreams" are usually bullshit, but he was seriously pursuing it from then on.
However, the arrival of the fire completely changed his world.
With the encouragement and support of his mother-in-law, he clung to the remaining dreams of the old world.
But just because he didn't give up on this dream, he couldn't remember how many people he encountered were confused, looked down upon, and laughed at.
And he still insists on "not knowing how to be ugly" and "not taking pictures of himself by peeing in the urine". One of the reasons is...
Lei Yue had always had some doubts about the fire.
Although the police found some unknown human tissues belonging to his parents from the ruins of the fire scene, they were unable to find complete body parts. The police believed this was because the two victims had been burned to ashes.
Even though over the years, Lei Yue had long accepted that his parents were dead and had been paying homage to them every day.
But in his heart, he had other thoughts since he was a child.
My parents may have disappeared, but they are actually still alive in this world...
If you become a well-known actor and a big star, and your figure is exposed everywhere, what if your parents will see him on the big screen? What if it is a TV appearance, what if it is a newspaper interview...
Lei Yue was thinking at this time, and some pictures popped into his mind.
Then, parents no matter where they are, can know his condition and see that their son has persisted in his love and fulfilled his childhood vows. Even if the fire disfigured him and turned him into a "monster", he was not defeated.
No matter what the reason or difficulty was for them disappearing, it was enough to be relieved, and even the whole family could be reunited one day because of it.
This idea came about in his childhood. Lei Yue didn't talk to his grandmother much before, for fear of making her sad.
When he grew up, he understood that this idea was full of naivety and absurdity, and he was even more afraid that he would only increase his hopes, so he never talked about it more.
But this idea has always been in my heart, never forgotten, never given up.
"Huh." At this time, Lei Yue took a deep breath and continued to hide these thoughts, suppressing the weight of one sentence that emerged in his heart: No one wants to see your face.
No matter how difficult it is to achieve, he still doesn't want his dream to come to an end.
Because performing is the driving force of his life, and it has always been.
"Don't tell me, that black bird really understands me... just listen to it."
Lei Yue mustered up his energy and said seriously to the three photos on the cabinet: "The future has infinite possibilities. I have to give it a try while I'm young. Maybe it will happen?"
As for another reason for having a meal, he didn't say much. In fact, after breakfast, the exact figure of his total net worth was 1,975 yuan.
"Then I'm leaving. I may spend the night in the film and television city tonight, so you don't have to worry."
After Lei Yue said that, he went to the sofa and took an old brown backpack and put it on his back. He hid a pistol in his arms and walked out with his rotten face raised, "Let's go."
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