No matter how open-minded a person is, he will still have obsessions in his heart.
If not, wouldn’t it be really heartless?
But Zhu Xiang was obviously not open-minded. She walked on this road that no one could tell or understand for eight years, and her thoughts became more and more profound.
She couldn't find a way to break the situation.
"You want to tear apart their faces and show your mother's pain in front of everyone," Lin Yunyan said, "What if those 'everyone' can't understand it?"
Zhu Xi couldn't help but look at Lin Yunyan.
"What your grandfather and uncle said is that if you can afford the expenses and take care of you without your hands, you have done your best," Lin Yunyan smiled bitterly and shook her head, "If you are a bystander, who can you understand? Who are you thinking of?" Zhu Xiang was silent.
Her vision was blurred by tears and she could not clearly see Lin Yunyan's expression, but the other party's voice was soft and delicate, like a bowl of warm tea, which made her relax a little.
She was able to calm down her grief and think seriously.
"There are many sufferings in the world. We have always served a few old people and patients. We have suffered from poverty and hard work," Lin Yunyan sighed, "but people in the world are not necessarily unable to move and live half-dead." p>
Even for Xu Jian in her previous life, her legs were completely disabled and she could only rely on a wheelchair to get in and out. No matter how strong her will was, there were still many things that needed to be shared by those around her...
But he is far better than the fourth lady of the British government who "can only breathe".
When Zhu Chan's mother has truly reached the point where she is unconscious, how can she still think and understand Zhu Chan's heart?
"Your grandfather and others may not really understand the pain of you and your mother. They just pretend to be confused, but once they are torn apart, their words are completely tenable," Lin Yunyan said, "Even if you sue Ci
Ning Gong reported it to the imperial court, and they were 'not wrong'."
Zhu Xiang pursed her lips tightly.
Why doesn’t she know?
It is precisely because you know too much that you are powerless and tangled with yourself.
"Yeah, no matter how loud I shout, not many people can understand, just like I didn't understand my grandmother back then," Zhu Xiang said with a trembling voice, "Only if you truly love the person on the sick bed, will you think of giving up.
."
Because giving up is much harder than persisting.
Carrying a human life, living in longing and repentance all your life, and facing the incomprehension and criticism of others, your heart will definitely not be peaceful.
"It's the effortless persistence that makes me feel so at ease. After all, I've tried my best," Zhu Xian curled her lips with a sarcastic smile, "So, if I don't give in, there's nothing I can do about it?"
Lin Yunyan asked: "If something happens to the British government, have you thought about what you would do?"
"I have thought about it," said Zhu Xiang, "I want to stab my mother with scissors, and I also want to stab myself too.
You see, I've thought about the dead end, so I'm not afraid anymore.
If the house is ransacked, you can still leave cleanly...
Princess, my only wish is that my mother can walk more smoothly, instead of dragging her along like this and becoming a tool for them to gain fame.
I also understand that to achieve this goal, there will always be some price to pay.
I will kill my mother, and the price will be mine.
If I can tear off their skin, I am a girl from the British government, so I must be part of the price.
It’s the same price, so why can’t I do the latter?”
Lin Yunyan held Zhu Xian's hand.
Zhu Xiang understood it more thoroughly than she did.
If you can see clearly and think clearly, you will be able to better understand your own weakness and powerlessness.
If this continues, it will be difficult not to go crazy.
Most of the emotions in his heart were vented, and Zhu Xiang felt much more relaxed.
Without talking to Lin Yunyan, she asked the waiter to bring a basin of water to wash the noodles, and ordered a table of dishes.
After she washed away the tears on her face, Lin Yunyan took out a box of ointment from the sachet at her waist.
This time, it was Zhu Xiang's turn to be surprised: "You still carry this with you?"
Lin Yunyan simply replied: "I'm used to it."
She is indeed used to it.
You won’t feel at ease if the seal is not kept close to your body.
Xu Jian has been sitting in a wheelchair for a long time. He must moisten his legs with balm all year round, otherwise he will get cracks.
After all these years, even now, she has not changed.
"Come and eat quickly," Lin Yunyan and Zhu Xiang filled a bowl of hot soup. "When you are full and have strength, you can cry as much as you want."
Zhu Xiang answered: "After you finish eating, I will take you to meet my brother who cannot return home."
Lin Yunyan responded.
After eating, Zhu Xiang pulled Lin Yunyan into his carriage and said something to the driver.
Just looking at her current appearance, she is as cheerful as usual. How can you see the gloom in her heart?
Zhu Cheng’s outer room lives in Liuguo Hutong.
The carriage drove straight in and stopped at the place Zhu Xian said.
Zhu Xiang said softly: "I'll just go down, and you can watch from the car, so as not to involve you inexplicably."
After saying that, Zhu Xiang jumped out of the car without moving his pedals.
Walking to the door, she raised her hand and patted the door panel.
Not light, but not heavy enough to break the door.
After a while, the door opened from the inside.
The person who opened the door was an old woman. When she saw that it was Zhu Xiang who knocked on the door, her face turned pale and she subconsciously wanted to close the door.
"You try to close it," Zhu Chuan stretched out his hand to block the door, "If you dare to close it, I will smash it."
The old woman swallowed her saliva and did not dare to close the door.
This is a valuable girl in the house. Regardless of the relationship between father and daughter, there are also grandparents and uncles above her. The girl's hand was really pinched. It may not be the same for the lady and young master who lives here, but she, an old woman, will definitely be in trouble.
Yes.
"You..." the old woman smiled flatteringly, "Why are you here?"
"I'm passing by. I'm thirsty. Come and get a bowl of tea," Zhu Xiang said. "Why, I can't drink your tea?"
Old woman: "This..."
During the stalemate, the queen from the outer room asked through the window: "Who is coming?"
"I'm here." Zhu Xiang replied straight away.
Mrs. Wang saw Zhu Xiang's appearance clearly and reluctantly walked to the yard: "Girl, since you are here, come in and sit down."
When the master spoke, the old woman opened the door and turned around to prepare tea.
Zhu Xian didn't mean to close the door at all, but opened the other door.
Taking the pedal from the handlebar, she swung it to the door and sat down like a crotch.
Seeing her like this, Mrs. Wang twitched her lips: "Girl, this is against the rules..."
"It's a rule," Zhu Xiang said, "Then let your son come over and salute me. The elders and younger ones should be in order, right?"
Mrs. Wang turned around and went back to the house. Not long after, she led a child out, followed by the nanny.
Zhu Xiang glanced at Madam Wang in surprise.
She originally thought that Mrs. Wang would refuse her request, but unexpectedly, she actually let the child call her "sister" in a proper manner.
Zhu Xiang asked: "Can you recite poems? You are five years old, can you recite some?"
The child naturally didn't understand the twists and turns between adults. After hearing this sentence, he honestly memorized the poem.
Zhu Xuan took the tea bowl and put it at her feet, but didn't take a sip.
She quietly listened to the child reciting one song after another.
