In the dead of night, Feng Yu was not sleepy at all, and stayed by Xie Xun's side. She held those white, soft, calloused hands.
She is pampered and does not touch the spring water with her fingers. This is her hand.
Now 'she' is lying on the bed, her face is pale and bloodless, and she looks even paler and weaker than when she first jumped off the cliff. She thought she would have a strong enough body and bones in Xizhou and would no longer be so weak. Unfortunately,
, her health was like a flash in the pan.
"It's really an embroidered pillow..." Feng Yu couldn't help but laugh at herself. She couldn't help but think of her childhood. Most people's memories of herself when she was four or five years old were hazy and thin, but Feng Yu was different.
The memory of that time is particularly profound. There was a time when she was very ill and was protected by her grandmother and sister in her boudoir. She could not leave the house. Even the windows in the room were tightly closed for fear that she would catch the cold due to the wind.
It's like a withered plant that can't stand a little bit of wind and rain.
The summer in Ningzhou that year was hot, so their family was demoted to Ningzhou. Although they were still wealthy, they were not comparable to those in Kyoto. Ningzhou was short of supplies, unlike in Kyoto where they could use ice when it was hot. Houses in Ningzhou
The layout is also very stuffy, there are only two windows in the room, and there is no breeze at all.
Xiao Fengyu was lying on the bed, feeling hot and stuffy, almost breathless. The maid was fanning her, but she was slacking off because she was sick and dying soon, so the wind was blowing on her body.
Feng Yu couldn't bear the heat, so she sneaked out of the room while the maid was lazy. She saw her eldest sister playing and running in the shade with Feng Yu, and she felt very envious.
The maid quickly found her and dragged her back to the room impatiently. As Feng Yu walked away, she looked back to see her elder sister and Feng Yu chasing each other.
The maid impatiently lectured her, saying that she was too weak and sick to live long and that she should not cause trouble for them. If she ran away and caused any trouble, it would be the maids who served her who would suffer.
Feng Yu was taciturn and well-behaved since she was a child. Due to her frailty, she was very good at reading people's faces and almost did not dare to offend the maids who served her.
She listened sadly to the group of maids scolding her, saying that she had a bad life. Although she was a lady and had no worries about food and clothing, she was a sick child. Even if she was lucky enough to survive to adulthood, which wealthy family would be willing to have a sick wife?
.A girl from an aristocratic family who is extremely sick will not be taken seriously by her parents.
In the marriage of aristocratic families, many children cannot marry as they wish. It is all dictated by the parents and the matchmaker. In essence, it is a powerful alliance and an exchange of resources.
The sickly legitimate daughter of an aristocratic family was worthless than a concubine. She was doomed to be alone and find someone to marry at will. They even teased her throughout her life. Even if she was lucky enough to survive to adulthood, she would still be a childless widow.
Feng Yu was too young that year, and most of the maids were girls with haircuts and strong bodies. They would not take a four or five-year-old girl to heart at all, and they would speak without restraint.
Those harsh words left an indelible shadow in the young Feng Yu's heart. As she grew older, her health showed no improvement. No matter how many treasures her grandfather found for her, he still couldn't save her. Feng Yu gradually accepted it.
He has a tragic fate of not being able to survive the age of eighteen.
She is not willing to give in!!
She desperately wanted to live, wear the best clothes, wear the most expensive jewelry, eat delicacies from the mountains and seas, and use the best medicine to extend her life. Even if she did not live to be eighteen, she would still enjoy these eighteen years.
.
When she saw through that Xie Xun liked her, she refused him even though she said she would not live to be eighteen. Although her tone was lighthearted and like a joke, she was the only one who sadly knew that maybe this was fate.
She even repeatedly told Xie Xun that I would not live to be eighteen, so don't waste your time on me, as if this could persuade Xie Xun to quit.
The eldest son of the Zhenbei Hou Mansion, the man who will support the Ningzhou cavalry in the future, his wife is definitely not a sickly woman like her.
He needs a woman who can take on her own role outside, accompany him to lead the troops in battles, and be able to have children inside and take charge of the family affairs. No matter what, she does not meet Xie Xun's criteria for choosing a mate. She even thought about Xie Xun and her.
It's just the weak connection between the soul-suppressing beads that creates a confusing heartbeat, and it's not true love.
Therefore, she refused, retreated, and was unwilling to admit that she was moved by the young Marquis in his passionate and straightforward love. She could not sleep at night and resented her weak body. If she could have a healthy body, she would
Perhaps he has long accepted his wanton heartbeat.
Later, Feng Yu, who had given up on her body for many years for Xie Xun, learned from Xie Xun's habits, practicing swordplay for an hour and horse racing for an hour every day. When Xizhou was not so busy, she would take her maids to climb mountains together.
She would sow seeds with the tenant farmers, and she would try every means to break the curse and make herself healthy, even if it meant living a few more years.
When little Ruyi came to them, she looked at Xie Xun's relaxed and happy expression when teasing Ruyi. She had even extravagantly hoped that if she was not destined to live long, it would be nice if she could give birth to a son and a half for him before she died.
After her death, Xie Xun would not be so sad if she had a child.
It turns out that everything is a luxury.
Her heirs are unlucky!
When Dugu Jing kicked her, and when she was lying in Shuncheng not knowing whether she was alive or dead, Xie Xun already knew that she was not destined to have an heir in this life, but he still liked her without hesitation, wanted her, and asked Emperor Jianming for a marriage.
In fact, Feng Yu never knew that she could not have children. She had doubts, so after the marriage, she asked Dr. Zhou. Dr. Zhou had been taking good care of her body and knew her condition. But Dr. Zhou said that she was just a little weak.
, no harm to heirs.
How could a doctor with such superb medical skills and proficiency in gynecology not see what was wrong with her body?
Xie Xun must have said hello to Dr. Zhou and didn't want her to worry about it, so he deliberately kept it from her. Feng Yu herself felt that when she was in Xizhou, she had very few friends, and the only one she could confide in was Fang Lingjun.
. But they were all unmarried girls, and they themselves had little knowledge of many of the problems faced by women. After arriving in Xizhou, Feng Yu often worked with Mrs. Zhang Hu and others.
The group of married women spoke freely and occasionally said dirty things. Feng Yu listened to it and took many of their words to heart. Zhang Hu had a concubine who was very close to Mrs. Zhang Hu. She was very
It is difficult to have children and is always depressed. Feng Yu listened to their chat and knew why this concubine lady had difficulty in giving birth. Yue Xin alone was different from others. Feng Yu even asked carefully and found that she and this lady
Almost exactly the same.
Moreover, her body was very cold regardless of spring, summer, autumn, or winter. At that time, she avoided others and asked a doctor. The doctor once said that it was difficult for her to have children. Perhaps because of her status, the doctor spoke more reservedly.
Feng Yu only came back to her senses now.
But Xie Xun doesn’t care!
Does he really not care?
"Ah Yu, why are you crying?" Xie Xun woke up from the unbearable pain in the middle of the night and saw Feng Yu holding his face, sitting by the bed and crying.
Feng Yu's cries rarely make a sound. When she is sad, she always sheds tears silently. Her tears roll down her face, and her expression is sad. If I were to use her face, I would feel pity for her. Xie Xun wishes he could take all the treasures in the world
They all held it in front of her, just to make her smile happily.
But if it was against his face... Xie Xun would feel very complicated.
