If things continue like this, maybe Russell will gradually become an important character in some horror comic.
It was his boss who changed everything.
He was a tall but thin man with dark skin, but he did not have any black characteristics. He always showed a hearty smile, and was often complained by Russell's roommate Annan, saying that "combined with the name of our company, he always makes
I feel like my boss is the human form of some alien god.”
In the beginning, the reason Russell was recruited... was because he was touched by his words.
Russell wasn't interested in making games, nor was he obsessed with games themselves.
His understanding of games is all about making them "interesting". Rather than seeing them as a product of entertainment and recreation, he appreciates them as works of art.
But he doesn't consider himself an artist...and he doesn't need to base his soul on games.
"Himself" is the most fun game.
But at that moment, he came into contact with the man.
Looking back now, I can't even remember his specific appearance.
But Russell clearly remembered... what his boss said when he saw him for the first time.
At that time, he was recommended by Annan, his roommate and senior, to come for an interview.
The boss was interested in him and showed a smile that frightened him inexplicably:
"In fact, you are more suitable to be an actor than to work here. I think you can become a very good actor... If it were in a world with gods, you might be able to become a saint who descends from the gods."
But Russell naturally rejected his nagging proposal and immediately wanted to run away... If he hadn't been forced to stay by his roommate, he would not have joined this company at all.
He felt an extremely strong fear at that time.
Now that I think about it, it should be the fear I feel when my true nature is revealed at a glance.
This is also normal because "Russell" has never learned about theatrical performance and does not think that he is good at acting.
He thinks he is sincere... His emotions and emotions at every moment are sincere and not false.
This is indeed the case.
But the problem is that the personality of "Russell" itself is a fabricated mask, even deceiving himself.
Because Russell himself just wants to be a popular ordinary person.
As an ordinary person, he believes that he does not have the talent to be an actor, so he is really "not good at acting".
Until now, with the surging emotions in my heart...
Russell analyzed everything in his past piece by piece, and finally captured the abnormal feeling at that time.
"It turns out that from the very beginning..."
"Russell" is exceptional.
He plays Russell, and he also plays "Russell".
In his previous life, because his parents rated him as "useless", he worked hard to become a useful person;
Because his roommate wanted him to work with him, he joined the company and became the head of the public relations department at a young age;
In this life, because Alice hoped that he could become a big shot, he became the "Hero Ultramarine" and "The Godfather Barber";
Because Deer Head Statue and Bad Sun hoped that he could find the truth of history, he became a mage...
So.
What does "himself" really want?
Or rather...
How much is left that truly belongs to him?
Just be aware of it.
His face once again burst into cracks like broken porcelain.
But this shouldn't be...
Because he can feel the tail behind him.
At this moment, he is exactly "Ultramarine". He is his original, real body in this world.
It’s not a false identity created by a mask, but the real self
But when he stretched out his trembling hand to touch his cheek, he was very clearly aware of the existence of the crack.
That's the crack that appears on the face of "Ultramarine".
If Russell himself is also a mask... what will be underneath this mask?
The strong fear of his own existence caused him to be severely shaken.
……No.
But this wavering only lasted a moment.
Because he realized... it didn't matter.
It doesn't matter what you are, what matters is what you do.
He has indeed fulfilled Xiao Liuli's wish, and he is indeed transforming the lower city... Now, he is indeed helping the poor to free themselves from the fate that binds him.
Now, he is also ready to inherit Morgan's wish.
It doesn't matter even if I am empty and nothing...
Everything he has done and everything he will do is absolutely not false.
"What exactly am I...let others judge."
Russell whispered, the fear in his eyes gradually dissipated.
He stretched out his hand and slowly touched his forehead, his eyes gradually became firm and pale flames gradually ignited from the bottom of his pupils.
"It doesn't matter what I say. It's better to let... future generations comment on everything."
If you don't know who you want to be.
"Then at least become a useful person.
"Such a wish, I think...
"Nothing wrong."
The next moment, he waved his hand suddenly and vigorously.
Like taking off a barber's mask, he suddenly took off Ultramarine's mask.
Pale flames suddenly rose from under the mask, and the flames of each candle became suddenly fierce.
The fire was like a sea, overturning and sweeping, covering the entire room with graffiti.
When the flames dissipated again, he was no longer in the dark "mourning hall", and there were no longer those "portraits" on the table.
The surrounding environment turned into a sun-drenched church cloister.
Huge mirrors were hung in a row in front of him.
A red curtain hangs on the mirror at the back, while four huge mirrors in front have their curtains lifted.
He walked to the first mirror and saw an old man with a compassionate face and silent tears.
He reached out and touched his face, and indeed felt real tears.
Then he slowly walked to the second mirror and saw the young man with a long blue ponytail.
He quickly walked towards the third mirror and saw a girl with cat ears and a gentle smile wearing home clothes.
He walked briskly towards the fourth mirror.
Looking sideways, he saw a cheerful boy with cat ears.
"ah."
The young man in the mirror smiled and said, "You found me."
"[Vessel of God]."
Russell replied very definitely: "This is your name."
"This is our name."
Russell in the mirror smiled and replied: "In my opinion, you are the person in the mirror."
As Russell stretched out his hand, wanting to touch himself in the mirror.
But when he was about to touch the mirror, he clenched his fist.
The fist surface and the fist surface were lightly touching each other through the mirror.
"First meeting."
Russell said seriously.
"haven't seen you for a long time."
"Russell" replied with a smile.
The next moment, the whole world suddenly shattered.