Delphinium was keenly aware of the smile on Alice's lips.
She stretched out her hands to hold Alice's cheeks, pressed her thumbs on both sides of Alice's mouth, and smoothed out her snickering as if she had stolen a fish.
"Meet anyone you know?"
She asked in a low voice.
Alice didn't answer.
She just pulled out a data cable from her left forearm and handed it to Delphinium.
Delphinium suddenly understood, quietly took the data cable, and inserted it into her waist.
As a former eldest lady, Alice's degree of prostheticization is very low.
Her arm is not a prosthetic body, it is just equipped with an interface similar to that of an elf under the skin.
After completing the physical link with Delphinium, they can communicate spiritually.
【How to say? Is there something wrong with that person?】
Delphinium asked curiously, and at the same time there were mental fluctuations of worry and concern: [I see that he looks very surprised.]
[Probably an acquaintance of Alice]
Alice replied in her heart: [I sensed that in addition to guilt, there was also strong love in his heart]
【...Speaking of which, could it be your father?】
This thought flashed through Delphinium's mind.
The plot of "seeing her son grow up to look very similar to his deceased wife" suddenly appeared in her mind, and she subconsciously passed it on to Alice.
Then, she immediately realized what thoughts she had passed on.
Suddenly his face turned red and he covered his cheeks and remained silent.
Alice opposite was also shocked.
She was silent for a while, and decided to give Delphinium some face and not put too much pressure on her... so she brought up the topic lightly.
Naturally, such thoughts and decisions were also passed on to Delphinium.
This is the inherent shortcoming of physical links... because thoughts must move faster than reason.
The so-called "talking louder than thinking" refers to this situation.
This is why in an era when thoughts can be easily extracted, people still send more messages through virtual keyboards... Because the process of inputting text is actually a process of using the brain to think, consider, and sort out logic. Logic
The stronger the ability of a person, the more obvious the difference between language logic and text logic - so some video hosts who have made interesting videos, or authors whose works have extremely strict logic, may not necessarily be eloquent in reality.
people.
Because the part of the brain that responds directly to an event is not the same part of the brain that weaves answers through logic after careful consideration.
Relaxed chats usually tend to be the former, while discussions with customers tend to be more inclined to the latter. As for sending letters, cautious people will even check the text several times to ensure that the details and etiquette are correct, and this almost completely abandons the "instinct"
reaction".
But in a physical link, because the speed of message delivery is "instant", it must be 100% the former.
Therefore, if there is a physical link, you can even directly interrogate the other party - as long as you open a lie detection software, you can learn the real answer that cannot be concealed by analyzing the other party's instinctive reaction. It is the same as directly analyzing the other party through the instrument.
The brain waves are the same, and even self-deception is too late.
Only the most trusted friends, lovers and relatives will be physically linked to each other.
Completely pure friendship usually only appears among children. When people become more social, their views begin to become complicated, and subtle differences appear between friends... Whether they are friends of the same sex or opposite sex, the relationship between them will be different.
There can be no time without any complaints.
The vast majority of friends in this world are not an absolute match. Instead, at least one party is silently enduring, tolerating, and giving in... By accepting and recognizing the other party, and working hard to change themselves, the relationship is maintained.
In other words, sincere relationships are built on white "lies."
The physical link can dismantle all the false appearances composed of words, expressions, and actions.
The resentments, dissatisfactions, misunderstandings, and conflicts accumulated in the heart will all be passed to the other party in an instant without any reservation.
Therefore, physical links have another use that is most practical for the broad masses of the people.
——That is the quarrel accelerator.
Many times, the quarrels between the two parties are actually just caused by trivial matters. But in the middle, they may start to rehash old scores, or become emotional, which will eventually lead to anger and irritability - and in the middle and late stages of the quarrel process,
In fact, it is no longer dominated by logic, but by emotion. Because the rising anger will distort the original purpose... Anger attacks the heart, that's the truth.
And this requires a process and time.
Through the physical link, it is equivalent to finishing all the arguments at high speed in a few seconds. At this time, the body has not even reacted... Therefore, emotions have not overwhelmed logic, but it is easier to reconcile.
That is to say, when the body is not paying attention, the anger and the quarrel are over. When the two parties have reached a consensus, the anger that can blind the reason has not even been brewed...
On the one hand, it is to maintain health, after all, anger can really harm the body; on the other hand, it is because people do not have the time to quarrel.
Through the physical link, Delphinium fully experienced all the changes in Alice's mood.
She blushes, not just because of embarrassment or shyness, but also because this experience of close and sincere communication is really heart-pounding.
It's like putting a paper cup phone on your chest and transmitting the heartbeat sound into the other person's ears.
Although the two ends of the line are separated, it will be as if the other person is putting his ear on his chest and quietly listening to his heartbeat.
Obviously they are far apart. There is obviously air in between.
The distance between the two hearts seems to be closer than when they hugged each other.
So at this time, this line connecting the two parties... has become some kind of invisible line that represents "fate".
【Not that man】
Alice conveyed her same complicated emotions: [I can't forgive that man... I've seen pictures of him, and they don't match up at all. And I don't feel that way]
At this time, Delphinium keenly sensed that...contrary to what Russell said, the hatred and resentment accumulated in the pumping thread of emotions was actually not that strong.
The stronger emotions are actually confusion, grievance and stubbornness.
It's like...Russell never regarded that man as his real father who gave birth to him. But he also considered that man to be very important to him.
He just didn't understand what the other person was thinking, or what happened back then... so he felt confused.
And he was like an abandoned cat, with a faint, not obvious grievance in his heart. And this grievance was not all for himself, but also partly for the empathy of feeling aggrieved for Alice.
And the emotion that accounts for the most proportion is actually stubbornness. In other words, it is determination to prove oneself.
Compared with the hatred that killed the man, it was more like punching him hard, making the man who looked down on him kneel on the ground, looking up in shock at the cub that he had abandoned as a burden in the past. I felt that he had now changed
You have to be stronger than yourself.
It is a kind of stubborn mood called "not admitting defeat", which is quite like a big boy.
...It turns out that Russell also has such feelings.
Delphinium's first reaction was to have such an idea, and it was received by Alice simultaneously.
[Why can’t I have it? I’m also a normal young man]
The other party was obviously a little aggrieved.
[Because compared to your peers, I think you are more like a superior being who has never been in contact with the bottom]
In Delphinium's perception, things like "desire to win", "self-esteem", "desire for expression", and "sense of presence" seem to have never been associated with Russell... This kind of workplace leader can be used to easily whiten
The hot-blooded young man who had just graduated from prostitution, and the sweet pancakes that he had tried so well, could not be fed to Russell's mouth at all. No matter how he fed it, the cat always turned its head and said no, and could not stuff it in.
But now, he has very clearly shown his "self-esteem" and "pride", a desire to prove himself.
Now, Delphinium finally realizes...
Russell is not completely indifferent to fame and fortune, and does not care about that kind of thing at all. It is because the things he cares about are not actually in the workplace, fame and fortune.
He didn't become a hero because he wanted to be famous, nor did he want to be better than others to show off his extraordinary talents.
It is not for the empty reason of "proving yourself", or for the superior pity of "the strong should help the weak".
But it's extremely simple...raise your head and look at the sky.
Move unswervingly towards higher ground.
As for who he passed and what he crossed on the way...these "goals" that people value most are not of concern to Russell.
"……I see."
The delphinium murmured.
She finally understood why she always felt that Russell didn't care about anything, but he was not a willful guy like Bad Day.
Russell has always had very clear goals.
It's just that he doesn't regard surpassing others as an achievement and boast about it.
She finally understood why she fell in love with Russell.
...Because they are fundamentally the same type of person.
Delphinium is actually not greedy for the power of the position of minister, nor does she want to join the board of directors.
She never goes to the company cafeteria because she doesn't want to listen to other people's flattery; she doesn't like to go shopping because she doesn't want to be stared at with fiery eyes, let alone being talked to.
But apart from that, she works seriously every day... Even after the two angels entered the Special Execution Department, she is still the most serious employee of the Execution Department; although she never sees anyone, she puts on makeup carefully every day
and skin care, and the clothes she wears are always carefully selected. In her spare time, she will buy herself some clothes and cosmetics from the Internet. And if she eats unhealthy food or eats too much, she will seriously go to the gym.
Stay in shape.
Delphinium is not the kind of person who won't gain weight no matter how much she eats... Just looking at her father's body shape, you can tell that the genes of Ragdoll cats are still functioning very stably.
Although she is a glutton, she keeps exercising.
And she maintains her figure, dresses herself up, and puts on makeup seriously, never to please others—but to please herself.
She works hard every day and is even able to sacrifice herself for the sake of the people... It is not for fame or promotion. She is just doing what she thinks is right and treating it as a daily routine that she has to complete every day.
It's not to surpass anything, nor to defeat anything.
Not to prove or to show off.
——That is the lifestyle of the aloof and strong man. Everything is taken for granted.
The biggest difference... is the talent gap between the two. She is already a very good person, but she is still not as good as Russell.
If Delphinium were a man, then in her perfect form, she would be someone like Russell.
From a psychological point of view, it is called the "animus". It is a collection of male images in women's minds.
But they are not exactly the same.
This is also Delphinium's own self-confidence and self-esteem - she cannot be the mirror image of anyone else.
Because of this, she is similar enough to Russell, but different at the same time.
The biggest difference between them is that Delphinium's reliance on interpersonal relationships is relatively weak. She is the kind of person who doesn't need to say a word every day if needed, and can feel it if she concentrates on doing what she wants to do.
The type of peace of mind.
Russell is the complete opposite.
His ability to analyze other people's idiosyncrasies in an instant proves that he longs for true friends...people who can "understand" his own essence, and identify and accept him.
When Delphinium thought of this, she suddenly raised her head.
Alice, who was connected to her, also opened her eyes and raised her head simultaneously.
Through Alice's virtual image, she found Russell's shadow in her...
Yes, that is not an illusion.
——Only in the eyes of Delphinium, Alice turned back to her original Russell.
When Delphinium fully understood Russell, the shell that appeared on Russell's body suddenly became clearly visible in her eyes.
The person sitting in front of her was not Alice.
But Russell wearing the [Alice] mask.
No, that still doesn't seem quite right...
Delphinium stared hard into Russell's eyes, vaguely feeling like she was falling into a trance into the abyss of chaos.
She seemed to be in a bright church, looking at the light that looked like a window, a portrait, or a mirror.
From that, she seemed to see another person on a deeper level.
A boy she had never met before...
He has black shoulder-length hair, narrow and thin shoulders. He is thin and thin, with a quiet and timid temperament... He has the fragrance of orange peel and cedar on his body, and is a boy who is as beautiful as himself.
That is another side that is not exactly the same as Russell who is always full of confidence and seems to be able to do anything.
It is the most fragile "crab meat" hidden in a strong shell called "Russell".
...Is this the real Russell?
Delphinium suddenly understood. Then she felt relieved.
It turns out that the final corresponding point is here. What she really likes - the core of the soul that is deeper than "ultramarine" and "Russell", turns out to be like this...
Once upon a time... before she was forced to receive "a lethal amount of love", she was an ordinary girl.
The cowardice and ordinary core hidden under the extraordinary shell...and the correspondence between "desiring love" and "giving and giving love".
The two looked at each other calmly and almost simultaneously.
Delphinium suddenly felt as if she had returned to the time when they first met... through the prison-like window bars, she looked down from a high place and saw the confused Russell. At that time, the two were still strangers, and she
But there was a throbbing that even I didn't understand.
There is no emotion in his eyes, but a kind of tranquility.
[Yes, I finally met... someone who can truly understand me]
【My understander, the one who unmasks...】
Alice's voice and Russell's whisper sounded ethereal in Delphinium's heart.
Along with a feeling of relief and wanting to cry, it filled the hearts of both of them at the same time:
【You finally found me, Flotte】
Ah, yes.
I found you.
This is a two-in-one chapter~
I forgot to write the chapter name, so I put it at the back.