Delphinium held her hands and looked at the sunset, which was not dazzling but weak.
For a moment, she was a little confused.
What is the purpose of life?
I just want to live such a dull life... Why do I have to do my best to live?
Just investigating Russell's family made her think a lot.
His father had already become a celebrity while other children were studying and taking classes. His childhood was already a turbulent one. Later, he chose to commit suicide after suffering years of intense bullying, and was saved by others.
Plastic surgery... The one who took action at that time was probably the Tower of Babel.
It can be said that Russell's parents have never been mediocre. The same is true for Russell himself. They are both born extraordinary people.
But Delphinium always feels...this seems a bit pitiful.
This life is so exciting, with ups and downs, and there always seems to be some force pushing them to take action.
The legion of children who can fly freely, has been hyped by newspapers for several years as traffic news, was valued and accepted by the criminal organization Babel wanted by the dragon, and took the appointment of the elf director to be his daughter's tutor - the other side
It's the same thing. The murderous and charming lady saved the elf director from the assassin, got the initial type of psychic weapon, and then taught another elf director candidate, convincing him to deviate from his destiny and choose Ba.
Other tower...
There are so many things that can be said.
But the disaster that Delphinium encountered was so ordinary. It could be completely summed up by just two words: "no money." Other than that, there was nothing else to talk about.
——But she felt that the Russell family was far less happy than her own family.
It's really strange.
In this world, the richer people should be, the happier they are. But the Russell family, rich and powerful, talented and well-connected... should not suffer such misfortune no matter what.
So, what is the source of their family's misfortune...
Delphinium thought a little confused.
She gently stirred the pan and skillfully turned the steak over without using a spatula.
Because of some distraction, one side of the steak was slightly burnt. But this level was better than just right. The crispy shell could just lock in the delicious gravy, and the rich meat aroma came to the face. Delphinium's cheeks were burned
The oil warmed her up and turned slightly red. However, in the winter, when her body was plagued by the curse called menstrual period, the heat in front of the stove actually made her feel that the parts that were not coaxed by the heat became colder.
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She stretched out her hand, breathed a sigh of relief, rubbed her hands a little, and began to take out the steak and put it on a plate.
Unlike Russell, who likes to sprinkle garlic powder and barbecue sauce, and then pour it with hot oil.
If you eat the delphinium by yourself, just sprinkle it with a little fine salt. Let the steak wake up a little, and when the difference between the surface temperature and the core temperature becomes smaller, the muscle fibers can lock in more moisture. Even if you cut it
When you open the steak, the juice will not flow out, and the taste of the meat will be further improved.
This is a little trick that can effectively improve happiness.
Although the price of synthetic meat has become very cheap in this era, there will always be people who cannot afford it.
When Delphinium was a kid, there were very few opportunities to buy this kind of high-quality synthetic meat. Every time you cook, you have to prepare carefully, and you have to carefully check the differences between different brands and models of synthetic meat. Every time you cook, there are
It took several times the preparation time, but the happiness she got in the end always made her smile at a young age.
And this sense of ritual is also a rare adjustment in the boring and ordinary life, and it is a silent resistance to my busy and inactive repetitive life - even if I have to waste time, I will invest it in something that makes me satisfied and satisfied.
Happy relaxation instead of anxiety about work.
So far, Delphinium cannot confirm whether the chairman has noticed her.
But she has already investigated everything she wants to investigate. Important information has been placed in her private space. If something happens to her, she can send it to Russell regularly.
She is living in fear of approaching death.
But the only regret in her heart at this moment... was that she hadn't been able to marry Russell.
Specifically, what does it mean to be married or not? Anyway, everything that needs to be done has been done.
The feelings and relationship between them will not change as a result.
However, what Delphinium values is precisely that unique sense of ritual. That sense of ritual can soothe the subtle anxiety in her heart... It is not that she is worried about whether Russell will not love her, but about this.
The feelings are not sufficiently engraved and rooted and feel empty.
"...Anxiety, and engraving."
Delphinium murmured.
She was holding a sharp knife and her hand cutting the steak suddenly stopped.
She seemed to understand a little better.
The reason why the Russell family is so outstanding, so powerful, so rich...but still "not happy enough".
Because their goals and what they want to achieve have exceeded the limits of what "wealth" and "talent" can achieve.
They indeed have much more things than ordinary people like themselves, but their goals are also higher, and the great achievements they want to achieve are equally difficult - they are both imprisoned due to the disaster of "not getting what they want".
Constantly tortured.
What makes them suffer is precisely the overly strong "hope" and "love" - if they can choose to go to the side of doing whatever they want and simply abandon the shell of morality and "you should", then
I won't feel pain about this anymore.
——The bottom of the delphinium has an iridescent light that ranges from light blue to deep purple and is constantly flowing.
Behind her, the huge flower demon appeared silently.
Delphinium's whole body was entangled in thorns, and the pain of the thorns stinging her skin allowed her to stay awake from this compassionate emotion.
Silently, her spiritual power has taken a further step.
The eighth level of redshift - reaching the same state as Russell and Bad Sun.
But the irony is that "lethal love" does not advance because of feeling "love".
On the contrary, she felt the misery and sadness of her fate.
Inexplicably, Delphinium thought of the huge statue of the chairman in Tianen Park.
She has a beautiful face and a compassionate expression... Until today, Delphinium and Russell agreed that that compassion was nothing more than crocodile tears, the persona of an idol. It was a crispy sugar shell specially created for destruction - fragrance.
, sweet, fragile, false.
But now, Delphinium inexplicably felt some resonance from that face.
That kind of compassion may be sincere.
"All living beings suffer..."
Delphinium murmured to herself what her mother once said once and she remembered it firmly: "Birth is suffering, old age is suffering, illness is suffering, death is suffering, love and separation is suffering, resentment and hatred are suffering, not being able to seek is suffering, and the five yin beings are suffering...
…”
She suddenly had an impulse - a mindless impulse driven by psychic energy and irrational.
She couldn't stay where she was, waiting for Russell's action and the protection of her companions.
She cannot always be a tool, a gear, a fragment, a dreamer, a shadow... She should also have her own, innate mission. The awakening of psychic powers is proof of this.
——If you raise your head and look directly at the stars, the satisfaction and happiness of the past will be far away from you, and who can say that that "meaningless misfortune" is not another ritual of pursuing the true self?
She wanted to understand why Russell and the others gave up, what they worked hard for, what they risked their lives for... and what they cried for.
She wants people to ask themselves, even though they were born ordinary, can they become such a person one day?
She had to make this answer herself——
She tried to make changes based on her own determination and desires.
It is not to become a vassal of others, nor to become a mediocre and nihilistic person, nor to become a boring shadow.
She wanted to meet the mysterious and dangerous chairman Sai Lun in person.
