Delphinium suddenly choked when Russell whispered her confession in her ear without any warning.
She completely did not expect that Russell would not change his expression during the meeting, and would remain as calm as ever...as if he was explaining the truth, he would casually say "I love you" on this occasion.
In the "suicide note" Russell sent her before, there were only words like "I like you."
Later, when the two of them kissed for the first time, Russell only expressed his love in an extremely euphemistic way - reciting the ancient love poem.
From then on, they confirmed their love for each other. The relationship that was already somewhat ambiguous suddenly became clear, just like cocktails with distinctly layered colors gradually melting into each other after being left for a long time. They had more ideas.
Intimate actions, until they cross that line... The two people, who were already passionate about each other and had strong desires, finally let go of everything and became passionate and entangled in an instant.
It's like warm liqueur with syrup, chocolate, coffee and cinnamon.
It's so sweet, so fragrant, and so hot. After one drink, you can't help but drink again. You feel the warm warmth pouring from your mouth and tongue, sliding across your chest, sinking into your lower abdomen, and then flowing throughout your limbs.
Skeleton. It is so sobering and so intoxicating.
They use poems, ballads, opera arias, and lines from movies and TV dramas to euphemistically express their love.
I also used a card full of graffiti, a carefully cooked meal, some messy childish gifts, and two equally childish smiling faces; I used a warm hug, a nearly suffocating kiss, and an emotional scream.
.
But so far, they have never said "I love you" clearly.
Delphinium was a little disappointed by this, but also somewhat looking forward to it.
That was the expectation of a young girl... She was waiting for Russell to solemnly say these words on a more solemn, more romantic occasion that would make her unforgettable in her lifetime.
Until now.
Hearing Russell say this sentence in a daze, she felt happy on the one hand, but also felt a little regretful on the other hand - why did she say it so lightly?
When I had never heard it before, I would feel disappointed... but now that I have heard it, I still feel disappointed.
She stretched out her slender white fingers, tapped Russell's cheek gently, and complained softly:
"This is the first time you said "I love you."
"I thought I said that."
"No! I remember every word you said, except this one."
"At the beginning, I was shy...and I wasn't sure about your feelings, so I didn't dare to move."
Russell's head emerged from the quilt, and his voice became clearer.
"What happened next?"
Delphinium asked, "I didn't say anything later...did I forget?"
"Although I didn't say these three words, I seemed to be saying, I love you, every moment."
Russell said softly: "Because I love you all the time.
"It has become a part of my life, the flesh and blood of the new me. I don't need to repeat it to emphasize anything to you, I don't need to emphasize it to declare something, and I don't need to declare it to gain anything.
"Because I have already got you, completely you. What I say "I love you" is not to get anything from you. It is because I really love you."
I have never said it before, but now I keep saying it——
"Uh-huh-huh..."
Delphinium covered her slightly hot face and moaned meaninglessly.
On the other hand, Russell opened his eyes completely, as if he had discovered something, and his eyes suddenly lit up in the evening.
Because Delphinium didn't actually intend to force Russell to wake up directly, she didn't turn on the light... She had quietly left room for Russell to "sleep for a while". Therefore, Russell's turquoise pupils suddenly lit up at this moment.
It shines so brightly in the darkness, like two gems and a bright lamp.
"You
So pure..."
Russell clicked his tongue and marveled, "I didn't expect that you actually liked hearing this.
"Then I can tell you every day. Once when I wake up in the morning and once when I go to bed at night. I can take you to the Ferris wheel or travel to the snowy mountains with you. I remember I said in the bad day that there are many places on Taoyuan Island.
Zoo and aquarium. Or do you think Yongquan Island is a good tourist attraction?"
"...Aren't you able to penetrate people's hearts?"
Delphinium glanced at Russell from between her fingers, but she still hadn't taken off her hand yet - she was still using her hands to cool her cheeks, "Then why don't you look at me more..."
"Except when we first met, I would never look at you with those eyes. That is disrespectful to you."
"The beginning?"
"That's the first day."
Russell added, "Before I became Ultramarine."
"You kid..."
Delphinium suddenly came back to her senses: "You are targeting me on the second day after you go to work? Are you saying that you are not just looking for sex?"
She pointed at Russell's cheeks in a physical sense, and secretly sighed in her heart that Russell's skin felt really good.
"Sex is real sex..."
Russell's voice was blurred when he was poked, "But one thing to say, I don't often use that kind of talent to people close to me."
"Why?"
"This is a lesson I learned when I was young."
Russell's voice became deeper. "At that time, I understood one thing when I was still very young... everyone has malicious intentions. Friendship is like a gem, it does not exist forever.
A perfect diamond without any cracks or stains. No one can find a perfect person in this world, let alone absolutely pure feelings.
"Contempt, contempt, jealousy, greed, misunderstanding, anger... Even if you are with your best friend, as long as you get along for a long time and get along with each other in many scenes, there will always be dissatisfaction. A person may not even be the same person as he was yesterday.
If you hate them all, how can you always be satisfied with the friends you made yesterday?
"It's just that people use reason and love to suppress those bad thoughts...It's just that they forgive or forget those unkindnesses in the past.
"...but I can always catch "bad thoughts" when they arise in people's minds. No one can hide their secrets in front of me. I arrogantly became everyone's friend and took away
Their "social status" may not necessarily mean they don't have revenge. Because I know what kind of ugly people they are in their hearts, so when I was young, I wanted to carry out "revenge that no one knows about".
"It's like a Kamen Rider, a masked hero. No one knows his identity, no one knows his abilities, and no one knows what he has done, what he punished, what he saved... You may not know.
But every boy has a similar dream when he was a child, but I had the ability to realize it the moment I just had this wish."
"Sounds dangerous."
"That was indeed dangerous. But fortunately, I didn't grow crooked in the end..."
Russell sighed, "One of the compromises I made is to choose tolerance for those who accept and approve of me.
"Seeing the people I love and trust having ugliness that is completely different from what they appear to be in their hearts - that is a huge, extremely violent shock. It will bring a strong sense of disappointment... Ah, that's right.
.It’s like discovering that the private image of the celebrity or idol you admire is completely different from the fabricated persona, or even the opposite.
"It took me a long time to understand that...it is not a person's inner voice that can represent his "truth".
"A true, complete person is the ultimate fusion of the thoughts in his heart, his self-restraint, and his final actual behavior. Without any part, he is not a complete person.
"People judge other people's souls by looking at their outer shells. This is a kind of judging people by their appearance and preconceptions... But I can hear other people's voices and touch other people's personalities, and I regard this "original wish" hidden deep in my heart as theirs.
The essence of it. Isn’t this just a preconception?”
He looked into Delphinium's eyes and said softly: "In the past, I had an ignorant feeling for you.
"Then I'm even more afraid to listen to your voice. Because I'm worried that I will hear... something that will disappoint me."
Hearing this, Delphinium sighed softly.
She raised herself up with her elbows, took Russell out of the cup, and put his head into her arms.
"Then now, just listen. You can listen as much as you like."
Mixed with her powerful heartbeat, Delphinium's gentle voice came: "Seriously, listen to my heart completely. From today on, you can always listen to my heart.
"Listen well and remember clearly...this is the love I have for you at this moment. In the future it will become other colors and different shapes, but at its core it is still my love. I
Let me return this sentence to you first. I want you to find a good place and a good time to say it to me again seriously...
