I know everyone is well-intentioned, but as the saying goes, mother and daughter are connected, if the mother and concubine pass away, I will be the most sad and painful. But sometimes people's ability to adapt really becomes stronger when they are stronger. After more than two months of
Shiji, my mood has gone from initial shock to irritability, and finally calmed down, painfully choosing to accept the reality.
What's more, precisely because I am a biological daughter, I can feel that it is the mother and concubine who does not want to live anymore.
At the end of August, my mother-in-law was on her deathbed. That night, she woke up like a flashback and gave me loving instructions for a while, which made me burst into tears. Then she told me about all the things she had saved over the years.
Think about the good things, which ones are left to me, and which ones are given to Rujuan and the others.
Finally, she said: "After I die, Pei'er, please remember to cut off my hair. When you marry outside, remember to burn it at the Yingwu Temple."
I was surprised that the "Yingwu Temple", where the fallen generals of the Great Zhou Dynasty were buried, had anything to do with my mother and concubine.
The mother-in-law nodded, but she was unable to explain anything. She turned her head to look out the window and murmured: "It's autumn again, just such an autumn. My hair first covered my forehead, and I took a seat in front of the door with folded flowers. Lang Qi
The bamboo horse comes and goes around the bed to make green plums. We live together in a long distance, and there is no suspicion between us. Lu Li, A Li."
Lu Li, I seem to have heard this name before. But what shocked me even more was how could my mother-in-law mention a name that was obviously a man's. Before I could change my mind, my mother had already swallowed it with a smile.
Angry. Completed her thirty-five years of life.
My tears instantly flowed down and I couldn't care about anything else.
On August 30, the 10th year of Zhengzhang, the empress dowager Jiang died at the age of thirty-five. The empress dowager planned to give her a posthumous title of Huai because of her meritorious service in giving birth to the emperor's concubine, and she was buried in the late emperor's mausoleum as a virtuous concubine.
In the eyes of others, my mother-in-law's life was so smooth that she was silent, and even her posthumous affairs were silent. But Lingxi Xuepo and the others were afraid that I would be too sad, so they came to stay with me every day. Xuepo even asked me quietly,
If she is willing to leave Sanshou Palace, she can ask the Queen Mother to open a small pavilion for me to live near Fanghua Palace.
I know she is not being polite, but sincerely hopes that she can share something with me. To be honest, I am very touched. After all, we are half-sisters. Over the years, I have always been sincere when getting along with Xuepo. Sometimes I am really sincere.
I was really annoyed by her princess temper, but there was still a layer of distinction between concubine and concubine. But now her concern is really touching. After all, she sincerely regards me as a sister.
But I still declined her kindness, firstly because I was reluctant to leave this place that held so many memories of our mother and daughter, and secondly because her strange words before her death made me full of doubts.
Could it be that besides the late Emperor, my mother-in-law has someone else in her heart? This is a suspicion that I dare not express even to the end of my life, but I still couldn’t help but investigate.
I also asked someone to inquire about it. If it is Lu Li that my mother may know, there is indeed one. He is the deputy leader of the Prince of Qi's palace who was killed in the refugee battle. In his early years, he served as the escort of Pingyang Prince and the leader of the Yulin Army.
Ji Lang, the palace guard, finally arrived at Prince Qi's palace, where he stayed for ten years. It is said that he was highly regarded by Prince Qi, and even married the maid of Princess Xu of Qi. But in general, he was just a mortal.
, there would be nothing different if he did not die for his country in the end.
But coincidentally, his death coincided with his mother's illness at almost the same time.
But I still noticed that he, like his mother and concubine, came from the Pingyang Palace. At that time, he and his mother and concubine were both fifteen or sixteen years old. Moreover, the mother and concubine had not married in the seven years since they entered the palace.
Marry, until the King of Qi acts as a matchmaker and cannot refuse.
I searched carefully and found that on the bedside of the agarwood-carved bed of the concubine, there were dozens of crooked "Li" characters carved in different shades and colors. It seemed that they were not completed once or twice.
I suddenly remembered the six lines of poetry my mother-in-law often recited before her death:
When my concubine's hair first covered her forehead, there was a drama in front of the door.
The man came riding a bamboo horse and went around the bed to make green plums.
Living together in Changqianli, the childhood sweethearts guessed
If we go further, it will be about the life of a business woman after marriage, but the mother-in-law has never recited it, not because she is not a good student and cannot remember it, but because the subsequent stories have nothing to do with her.
She is a concubine from a royal palace, how could she have a young man who loves her endlessly?
This guess was confirmed a few years after I got married, when I met my mother-in-law’s maid, Aunt Bixi.
It turns out that such a quiet mother-in-law also has such deep and persistent love, even though it is not for her father.
Although it is hard to accept, I know that my father has had many concubines throughout his life, and he has no shortage of women. But my mother and concubine are so helpless that they can't even say that they like someone. As a daughter, how can I not care about her death?
Where is the little moment of sorrow?
Mother and concubine, Mr. Lu, I say in my heart, I hope you will never be so helpless in your next life.
The days have to go on, the spring breeze brings warmth to Tusu, and Zhengzhang ushered in his twelfth year. Although being beaten at the door of the house made the imperial brother lose his dignity, it is an indisputable fact that Tie Le was at the end of his fight.
In the winter, thousands of old and weak people and countless cattle, sheep and horses starved to death on the grassland, leaving the already barren Tiele to a dead end. Even with powerful cavalry, it was no longer able to fight the Great Monday and had to surrender and seek peace.
This collegial meeting confirmed the emperor's fledgling achievements, and also marked the arrival of the "zhengzhang rule" praised by later history books.
During that time, the harem was quite uneasy. Concubine Jing had completely fallen out of favor. Fortunately, she gave birth to an emperor, so that the emperor still remembered her as a person. However, she was not convinced and became more and more obsessed with pretending to be in the hope of returning to favor. As a result
Of course, it was just her imagination. Xu Xiaoyi, who was originally favored by the Holy Spirit, was implicated by her uncle Xu Kechang, and her original concubine position was ruined. But after all, she was not as good as a human spirit, so she inevitably showed some grievances in her daily life. The emperor's brother had to
After knowing this, she was naturally unhappy and gradually ignored her.
And Xun Jieyu's uncle took over Jing Zhaoyin's position, which was considered a great joy. Comparing the two sides, these good sisters who originally entered the palace together and comforted each other when Jingbi was favored, finally moved away. And Xun Jieyu
I also have my own troubles. The most important thing in the palace is not the glory at this moment, but the son's health. However, she has been in favor for more than a year but there is no movement at all. From time to time, the palace people joke that she went to ask for medicine again. I feel like
I understand that 80% of this news came from Jing Concubine. Although there are always rumors in the harem, they may not be without reason.
On the contrary, Concubine Jin, who is pregnant, is raising her baby peacefully in the house and does not get involved in these things.