That is a memory that has been sleeping for a long time...
When I was a child, I lived a very lonely life.
My mother died of a special disease that could not be treated before I learned how to remember. This is what my father told me.
I didn't question the authenticity of my father's words. Rather, questioning was in vain. Even if my mother was still alive, I didn't have the energy to accept a mother who had no feelings for me.
My father works as an ordinary news interviewer, that is, a reporter who travels all day long.
However, the newspaper company where my father worked was doing very poorly. Yes, a newspaper company that was still stubborn in this era of innovation was destined to be submerged by the torrent of the times.
It's a pity that my father's brain was not bright enough like the newspaper company. He stubbornly chose to stay and save the newspaper company instead of quitting his job and looking for another job.
Because of work, the time my father spends with me is not fixed. Sometimes we see him every day, but sometimes we don’t see him even once for a long time.
Due to the unstable working hours and the ups and downs of the newspaper office, my father was always hot and cold towards me and moody.
Although it didn't reach the point of turning one's back and not recognizing the person in an instant, the experience made me, who was still young at the time, feel an indescribable sense of loss.
In order to satisfy his inner loneliness and confusion, he turned his attention to school.
School is a small social environment, which seems more fair to me, who is born with disadvantages.
As a result, I continue to expand my circle of friends, and when I meet people I like, I will take the initiative to get to know them.
I have gradually come to enjoy the relationship between best friends and friends. Compared with the ever-changing atmosphere at home, it is obviously the stable and long-term campus relationship that attracts me more.
However, my young self was short-sighted and had never tasted betrayal, which made me more vulnerable to a fatal blow after experiencing betrayal.
——Her best friend betrayed her! She even held the hand of another best friend affectionately, slandered her in front of the whole class, and cut off the relationship with her.
I couldn't bear the betrayal of my best friend, and during that time I became very nervous.
That was also the darkest period when I was in elementary school.
Later, in the process of constantly getting along with all kinds of people, I learned the way of waiting for others without any guidance.
At that time, I defended myself with a sentence I didn't know who said it. - You can only say three sentences to someone, but you can't give them all your heart.
One day, his father's words broke his relatively stable life.
"Xiao Ling, tomorrow my father will go outside the capital to search for fresher materials for interviews. You may not be able to come back for half a year. You have to be careful on your own." His father said this.
I could do nothing but nod silently.
Before leaving, he left behind what little savings he had left.
In the days that followed, I lived alone in an empty commercial building for several months.
I unexpectedly discovered that living alone was not as difficult as I imagined. On the contrary, I did not blame the person who betrayed me, and I felt no restraint at all.
Basic interpersonal relationships in school can be maintained for a long time with just a little effort. Once I get home, it's a carnival that belongs to me alone...
It was a stormy night.
Although it was dark outside the window, the rain made a sound.
Rainy days always make me feel a sense of comfort. Compared with the indifference of human beings, the raindrops who insist on their true intentions make me trust them more.
The unpruned clivia by the window has wide leaf stems filled with dew.
He stretched out his palms and felt the cool water flowing through the gaps between his fingers.
When I am bored, the sky I look at is blurry.
"Dong dong dong..."
The rapid knock on the door made my heart sink and I became alert.
The humans who can visit us at this time are either evil-minded or unreasonable.
He carefully moved behind the door and carefully opened the communication device.
"Hello, please explain your purpose of visit and the necessary supporting information." A mechanical female voice came from the door.
That's Federation's smart door control technology.
"I came today to meet a little girl named Yu Ling. She is my brother's daughter and I am her uncle." A hoarse baritone voice came from outside the door.
I peeked through the door hole through the camera and saw the appearance of the man.
Suddenly, my heart skipped a beat and my heart beat faster.
It was a face that was very similar to his father, but he looked more mature than his father.
Keep a vigilant heart and enter instructions on the smart panel yourself.
"The homeowner has understood the basic information, why do you want to see your niece?" the mechanical female voice continued.
"Yu Ling, I know you are behind the door. Please stay calm and listen to me." The person outside the door ignored the smart door control.
There is nothing to do anyway, so you might as well listen to the chatter of the man who calls himself your uncle.
Thinking of this, I sorted out my mood and stood at the door.
"Your father was declared missing by his companions half a month ago. If there is no proof of your father's location within the next month, he will be identified as a missing person."
Hearing this, he suddenly opened the door of his house and yelled: "What does this mean? You came to my house in such bad weather to talk about this?"
"Niece Yu Ling, don't be impatient, I haven't finished speaking yet." The man outside the door did not panic, but said calmly.
"Once a person is determined to be missing, unless there is a valid explanation prepared in advance, all his assets will be temporarily handed over to the government. Fortunately, my brother was cautious and wrote a certificate. If he disappears, he will be
All your assets are mortgaged and auctioned, and your only daughter is temporarily entrusted to my care. In order to fulfill your brother's long-cherished wish, please feel free to follow me."
I was stunned for a moment and didn't react for a long time.
Later, I obediently followed the man who claimed to be my uncle.
After all, no matter how willful you are, you will still be unable to maintain your exclusive paradise if you lose your financial resources.
This is my first separation.
I moved from the fringes of the capital to the suburban residential areas of the capital.
The house has been transformed from an ordinary one-story commercial house into a small villa with great charm. After the transfer, the school has also become more upscale than before.
The uncle brought him to a new family.
There are three members in the family...not including myself, there are four in total, aunt, uncle, myself, and a cousin, who is their only son.
Standing at the door was an aunt with delicate features and a cousin with a head longer than mine.
"Yu Ling, this is your cousin Yu Chen."
"Yu Chen, this is your distant cousin Yu Ling. She will be our family from now on. You must live in harmony with her from now on."
My cousin and I both said "hmm" symbolically.
The following days are days for a family of four to stay together.
My external performance is very good, and my uncles and aunts often praise me.
Obviously my aunt and uncle treated me very well, but I was afraid that excessive affection would bring unnecessary trouble, so I chose to downplay my feelings.
My inner withered self gradually became a little numb.
, although he looks cheerful and obedient on the surface, behind the scenes he has long withered.
What surprises me is that my uncle and aunt treat me no differently than they treat my cousin. Instead, they let my cousin give in to me at every turn.
My cousin is a very optimistic person. Even if he accidentally falls and gets scratched, he will still laugh strongly.
I feel that he is really good to me and treats me like a biological sister. Every time my family goes out to play, he always follows me and protects me in all directions.
Yu Chen: "Yu Ling, remember to follow me closely and don't get lost."
Self: "Cousin, you are too worried. I am already a teenager and I am no longer that ignorant child."
Yu Chen: "In my eyes, Yu Ling will always be a child."
My cousin's unabashed smile and sincere attitude toward others made me both admire and envy him.
This seemingly strong but actually very fragile relationship was interrupted by God...
That day was also a rainy night.
The four members of Yuchen's family gathered around the dining table on the first floor to eat.
"Yu Chen, Yu Ling, I'm sorry! There is something I have been putting off and haven't told you two." Auntie showed a troubled expression.
According to my intuition, something bad is going to happen.
The uncle stopped the fork in his hand and said: "Tomorrow the two of us will set off from the capital to carry out a secret mission in a relatively remote area. We may not have the chance to return to the capital for a long time."
Although he had a premonition, he was still very uneasy and said hurriedly: "Then shall Cousin Yuchen and I stay at home?"
"That's the best way so far. You are all still studying in school, and your studies cannot be affected by our work."
As if seeing his own scruples, the uncle continued: "It's okay. Although that task is very important, it is not very dangerous. We will return to the capital safely after we complete it."
"Mom and dad, please be careful. I wish you a safe journey." Cousin Yuchen showed a calmness that surprised me.
Why? According to common sense, it is obvious that they have a closer relationship with you! But why is it me who is most afraid of losing them and not you?!
"Then you two should be careful, especially Xiaoling. Yuchen, you must take good care of your cousin when you are almost an adult and don't let others bully you." Auntie looked at us worriedly.
Yu Chen patted his chest confidently and said, "Don't worry, if you want to touch Yu Ling, you have to step over my body first."
"Oh, I almost forgot. We used some small connections to get Xiaochen to be admitted to the famous college [Canghai College] in advance. Xiaoling also asked the school to transfer to the best class. Don't waste your studies. Don't worry.
Study."
Finally, I was forced to make a conclusion: "Uncle and aunt, we understand."
After the affairs were handed over, the next morning was the final time to say goodbye.
Facing the rising dawn, my uncle and aunt dragged a large suitcase out of the villa, and cousin Yuchen and I followed behind them.
We saw him off until we reached an open space three kilometers away.
At this time, the aunt turned her head and smiled and said: "Just send it here, someone will come to pick it up soon. It's still early, you two go back and sleep for a while."
We nodded and turned to go home reluctantly.
Halfway through, I felt very complicated.
"Okay, the farewell is complete." Yu Chen looked directly at me, "Then I will take care of your daily life as your best cousin."
"Who is the best to you? Don't be too sentimental." He cruelly dropped the hurtful words and turned around to go back to his room.