The lights in the elevator were still so bright, and the underground living floor after stepping out was still so dim. The chaotic graffiti and rust stains made it difficult to think of beautiful things, but Heshia was still very happy.
Because life is no longer the same.
Walking among the stagnant water and garbage, she jumped briskly, like the hopscotch game she learned in childhood.
The body jumped up lightly, spinning slightly in the air. The skirt swayed in the wind, and then fell down again.
People always use dirty environments and dilapidated ruins to express the sadness and cruelty of the world, but this is wrong.
People who really live in such an environment will not think so. They know that the restaurant that is filled with smoke is actually the boss who cooks good food. Although the ground is full of garbage and water, it is still so stable and there will be no mud pits or collapses. The streets
The pedestrians who make outsiders feel uneasy are actually acquaintances they have known for a long time, and they can talk to them at any time.
Those who have truly experienced this for a long time have long been accustomed to it. They do not think it is suffering, but just a part of life.
Maybe this is also a kind of numbness and mistake, but at least this mistake will allow them to live in such an environment without too much sadness.
Rabbits that are too sensitive will die early.
Heshia thought of this sentence inexplicably. The original meaning was probably not like this, but it was not a big problem to think so.
She has long been accustomed to being inconspicuous in life. Being bullied and laughed at are very common everyday. The worse the environment, the more violent people are. Her classmates cannot be said to be very good, but she understands that if everyone
They all have a very generous family environment, and they may be elegant and polite.
She had seen such a world when she was a child.
The place where my sister goes to school is the legendary aristocratic school where all kinds of young ladies and children of the rich gather. When she was a child, she was taken to some activities by her sister and experienced such an environment.
It is precisely with such memory and cognition that she can draw some conclusions through comparison.
Anxiety in the family can be passed on. Because life is difficult and resources are scarce, parents are more likely to argue over trivial matters, and this impatience will also be passed on to their children.
If you do not study well or perform poorly, you will be scolded. This is the most labor-saving way of education. You do not need to be patient to analyze and understand the reasons, and you do not need to understand the fragile and troubled spiritual world of the child. It is simple and crude.
After a hard day's work, people's emotions and energy are seriously exhausted. Don't expect such parents to devote a lot of energy to educating their children. Even if they do, I'm afraid they will be irritable and desperate.
Because of being introverted and timid, Heshia always tries to learn and think, or slowly licks her wounds in a corner, and then constantly looks for ways to understand this chaotic world, because only after understanding the reasons, her heart will
The anxiety will slowly dissipate a little.
The unknown is always scary, and once you know it, even if you can't change it, you can at least gain some peace of mind and the direction to solve the problem.
Thinking about everything that happened during the day, Heshia had returned to the house before she knew it.
Oops, I forgot about something while walking today.
She looked at the narrow door in front of her and thought of going to Grandma He's house.
However, since you're here, let's go in and take a look. She hasn't lived here for almost a month.
Opening the dusty door, Heshia softly called out, 'I'm back.'
But naturally no one responded inside. She took off her shoes, found the slippers she had placed before, walked into the dark room, and turned on the light.
There were some sundries placed in the small living room, just as when she left, and there was a little dust on the floor and table.
She walked all the way into the innermost room, which used to be the bedroom where her parents lived, but is now her room. After her family members left, she became the only owner of this home.
Opening the door, the layout inside is still the same as before. Photos of the former family are hung on the wall. The mother is smiling softly, the father is slightly hesitant, the sister is looking to the side, seeming a little cold, and he is in his mother's arms.
At a loss.
He turned over and groped around on the bed, then found a small box under the mattress.
Hesia sat on the bedside and opened the small box. There was a small lamp holder inside.
Input the magic power, activate it, the lamp base lights up, and then automatically projects a realistic image, in which a family is laughing and talking on the grass, and then points it at the camera.
The whole process lasted only 30 seconds, but the laughter and laughter seemed to be something very far away, giving people a sense of strangeness.
After watching silently for a while, Heshia turned off the lamp holder. She no longer shed tears like she did when she was a child.
There is also a diary at the bottom of the box, which was left to her by her mother. It records the growth of her and her sister sporadically. Her sister takes up three-quarters of the page, while she only has a quarter.
Compared to her dazzling sister, she was still young at that time and didn't have much to say.
[Themisia went to St. Ingo Academy today, the No. 1 high school on the Emerald Skirt Planet. I am very worried about whether she can adapt to the environment, because most of the students there are born with extremely outstanding talents, or are rare.
genius.]
[The half-term school activities have begun, and I was finally able to visit this school. To my surprise, Themisia is very popular in the school. She commands the classmates like a big sister. That kind of
Pride is a trait I don’t have.]
[The teacher called me. Themicia has great talent and may become a big shot in the future, so she wants me to restrain her more because some parents complained that Themicia was too strong in school and caused their children to get hurt.
.]
[I asked Themicia, and she said that the other person provoked her first, and she just retaliated. After knowing that the teacher called me, Themicia seemed very unhappy.]
[The matter was resolved. It was the parents of the other party who apologized to me on the phone, saying that they did not educate their children well.]
[I don’t know what happened. Themisia said that it was probably the other party’s idea. Although this reason is far-fetched, I also vaguely realized that this child is no longer under my control.]
[Themisia's growth rate far exceeded her father and I's expectations. At the Winter Festival Gala in her second year of school, I saw her take first place in both the arena and the center of the stage. The whole school was stunned.
There were cheers, and teachers and principals congratulated us, saying she would become a legend, a rising star.]
[As graduation approaches, Themisia goes with the group to the Feiyu Starfield in the center of the Federation to participate in the admissions assessment of the top federal universities there.]
[The admissions assessment was over, but Themisia was not happy when she came back. She asked about Hesia's situation for the first time, and then looked at Hesia's bedside for a long time.]
[Themisia locked herself in her room for several days. After she came out, she began to say some strange words to us, as if she was going to a distant world soon. Perhaps she knew that the prosperous central star field was far away, and in the future
You can’t be with us anymore.]
[Themisia is no longer here...]
Hesia closed the diary and put it back in the box.
After the death of my sister, my mother became ill and spent most of the family's property. In order to leave the place that made my mother sad, they also moved to a lower-class residential area in Payin City.
The image of her sister has gone through several stages in her mind. When she was a child, she was a reliable sister and a reassuring family member. She would take her out to play and buy her some small gifts. However, as her sister entered junior high school and high school, she gradually became indifferent and seemed to have no regard for herself.
His character is kind of sad and impatient.
However, during the last period of my sister's life, she suddenly changed her temperament and became extremely gentle. She told herself many things in school, taught her how to deal with bullying by others, and how to use the power of various adults.
Wait, it’s a pity that Hesia didn’t learn these things.
Finally, my sister ended her life at home without leaving any suicide note.
After she left, everything in the family began to change drastically, until it looks like today.
"I didn't encounter any misfortune or bad things. It was just because my birth was an accident... Heshia must not understand, but you are different from me. You will have a more brilliant life."
These were the last words left to her by her sister Themisia.
Lying in bed recalling the past, Heshia fell into a deep sleep without realizing it and didn't wake up until half an hour later.
She got up and went to the bathroom, planning to pour cold water on her face to wake herself up, and then go to Grandma He's house, otherwise she would worry if it was too late.
The water moistened her face and fell down. In the dark room, Hesia closed the faucet, then raised her head. Another Hesia in the mirror smiled at her, with a lavender brilliance in her eyes.
This is!
Hesia's heart was shocked and she blinked desperately, but the scene in the mirror at this time was normal. Even if she used her own magic power to reveal her talent, only blue eyes and long black hair appeared.
The scene just now was like an illusion in her mind. After trying for more than ten minutes in front of the mirror to no avail, Heshia gave up trying.
Maybe it's because I miss those people in my memory too much.