Chapter 126 Don't use other people's mistakes to punish yourself
The heater is on in the car.
Yu Ruanruan and Huo Xu sat side by side in a century of silence, so quiet that only the sound of wheels grinding on the snow echoed in the car.
Yu Ruoruan felt that it was quite unexpected for her to come here to find him on impulse.
But she doesn't regret it, just a little embarrassed.
Because Huo Xu didn't say a word since he got in the car, he just closed his eyes and rested his mind. The ice and snow on his coat melted and became wet, and the tips of his hair were still dripping with water.
He didn't speak, and Yu Ruanruan didn't know how to speak.
She once thought that she was the person who knew Huo Xu best in the world, but in fact, she didn't understand him at all.
The secrets of the Huo family and Huo Xu's past pain were all hidden too deeply by him.
For him, this is a memory that hurts his bones and is a scar that cannot be touched.
Yu Ruoruan found it very funny, and she suddenly began to reflect on herself.
In her previous life, she was crazy about Huo Xu, followed him, investigated him, and said she loved him. But in the end, she and he were inseparable for several years, but she didn't even have the most basic understanding.
If you don't know someone well, how can you say you love them?
At that time, Huo Xu must have thought she was stupid and ridiculous when looking at her, right?
So even if she hit the south wall and her head was covered in blood, she still wouldn't get a response from Huo Xu.
But what did she do wrong?
When someone deliberately wants to hide something from you, even if the whole world knows the secret, you can't know it.
In an instant, Yu Ruanruan's head, which felt hot, returned to calmness again.
You are not the right person for him after all.
"Ahem..." A cough interrupted her thoughts.
Yu Ruoruan found that Huo Xu's face was pale, his lips were bloodless, and his hair was still wet. If he continued like this, he would definitely get cold.
Although she understands that others may not appreciate her attentiveness, she cannot sit idly by and ignore it.
"If your body is wet, you'd better wipe it off."
Yu Ruanruan took out a dry towel from the locker, bent her legs and half-knelt on the seat, moved closer to Huo Xu, then put the towel on the man's head, held it with both hands, and wiped the ends of his hair.
of water drops.
She only wiped half of it. Seeing that the man was indifferent, she stopped and handed the towel to him, "You can do it yourself."
Huo Xu grabbed her wrist and held it tightly. His hand was as cold as ice. Even though he had been in the heated car for more than ten minutes, it still hadn't warmed up.
He looked at her, his narrow phoenix eyes dazed and confused, "How did you know I was there?"
Yu Ruanruan sighed, took out the amulet from her pocket, put it on Huo Xu's neck, and asked without answering, "This thing is very important to you, isn't it? Don't give it away casually anymore."
Huo Xu was startled, looking at the amulet that the girl put back with her own hands, like a helpless, abandoned child, "You know everything?"
"Well, Zhang Mian told me everything."
Yu Ruanruan wrung her hands and sat up straight. She wanted to say something, but she felt that she had no position to express her opinion.
After all, everything she thought she knew in her previous life was all an illusion.
Zhang Mian said that she was the only one who could persuade Huo Xu.
Is it really?
Yu Ruoruan has no confidence in herself, and the experiences in her previous life have made her dare not have any extravagant hopes.
However, the man's deep and melodious voice asked her softly, "Ruanruan, did I do something wrong? Was it that I shouldn't have been born from the beginning?"
Huo Xu opened his lips and stared at the girl with his bromine-black eyes, as if he was caught in some kind of obsession.
"No, Huo Xu!"
Yu Ruanruan raised her head suddenly and held his hand, "It's not your fault, it's your father's fault. He has no responsibility and sense of responsibility. He is not a competent father. When everyone is born,
The little angels sent by God to earth, you are no exception. It is the elders who are wrong, it is their selfishness."
Yu Ruanruan felt that the man's palm was still bitingly cold, so she simply intertwined her fingers with his and held it tightly.
"Huo Xu, Aunt Huo loves you, but in that environment, she herself was in pain. She couldn't find a way out and couldn't protect herself, so she got angry at you. It's because she failed to control her emotions. You
There is nothing wrong, you are innocent from beginning to end."
The girl stared at him with her big almond-shaped eyes, filled with anxiety.
Huo Xu listened to her soft and urgent consolation, his breathing trembled slightly, and the ice layer in his heart that had been frozen for more than ten years cracked and light came in.
Sprinkled in the deepest part of the darkness, the face of the little boy huddled up covered in blood.
He held his breath and stared at the girl's face, as if he was repeatedly confirming whether her words were sincere or to comfort him.
"Am I innocent?" Huo Xu opened his thin lips and asked this hoarse question in his throat.
"Yes, you are innocent, so don't use other people's mistakes to punish yourself, okay?"
Yu Ruanruan held Huo Xu's hand. At this moment, she felt so distressed that she couldn't breathe.
She was actually able to sympathize with him.
Although their experiences are not the same, they are so similar.
Just like in her previous life, when she returned to the Yu family, she tried every means to please but was ignored. She also doubted herself over and over in her heart, had she done something wrong?
Shouldn't she have come back and ruined the peaceful and happy life of the Yu family?
Should she die outside and let the truth sink forever?
But after resurrecting her life, she suddenly realized that the person who was wrong was never herself, and there was no need for her to feel wronged because of other people's mistakes.
Yu Ruanruan opened her arms, hugged Huo Xu's shoulders, and patted his back with her palms. She had never reasoned with him so gently and patiently.
Never in her previous life, because she didn't even understand it at that time.
Never in this life, because she has always been resentful and complicated towards Huo Xu.
"On this day every year, when you stand in the wind and snow, what are you thinking about? Are you thinking about why you didn't accompany Aunt Huo in the car accident that year? Or are you thinking about why it wasn't you who died?"
Huo Xu's body froze violently.
After a second, he hugged Yu's soft waist, tightening his arms tighter and tighter, as if he was hugging the only warmth in the world.
He said nothing and buried his face in the girl's neck.
This action made Yu Ruanruan understand that she was right.
It is because of his unfortunate childhood that Huo Xu is wary and guarded against everyone. He is a perfectly paranoid, dark and yandere man.
"Ruanruan, will she regret it?"
The man's hot breath sprayed on her collarbone, and because his face was buried in the crook of her neck, his voice became a little muffled.
"Yes." Yu Ruoruan said firmly, "The moment something happened to her, when she was on the verge of death, the person she owed the most to was definitely you."
"Yeah?"
Huo Xu remembered that more than ten years ago, in the overturned carriage, a woman covered in blood stroked his forehead and called his name in a daze: "Xiao Xu, Xiao Xu, Xiao Xu..."
He closed his eyes forcefully, and said hoarsely with a pale face, "All the people I love and those who love me are destined to leave..."
This sentence is not a rhetorical question, but a declarative sentence.
Yu Ruanruan was dumbfounded, "Why do you think so? In this world, at least grandpa sincerely treats you without asking for anything in return."
"But love is mutual. No matter how much love you have, it cannot withstand all kinds of neglect and hurt."
Huo Xu was stunned.
Is that so?
So, if he treats her a thousand times better, will she still fall in love with him?