"Qin Feng, when you read this letter, I have already left Bishan. Don't waste your time looking for me. I said that if I leave, I won't let you find me."
"Coming to Bishan was just a temporary decision of mine. Work came second and it was more about relaxing. Before I came, I had agreed to only stay here for two years, but now the two years have passed, even if I want to continue to stay.
I won’t allow it, and I have to leave regardless of whether I agree with it or not.”
"Of course, the biggest reason why I insist on leaving is not them, but you."
"You like me and love me. I can see that. You said you were going to marry me. I'm very happy because I found that I have begun to fall in love with you. But there are some things you can say but not do.
It can’t be taken seriously.”
"You are twenty-five years old and I am thirty-five. By the time you are in your prime, I am already gray-haired. I have been married but cannot have children. I am not a good match for you. I cannot give you a perfect wife."
Home."
"I have completely despaired of marriage and relationships, even to the point of fear. I will never have the courage to take that step again in my life. And your youth, your life and your world have just begun. I can't delay you, let alone
Destroy you."
"The first one and a half years in Bishan was the quietest and most peaceful period of my life, and the six months since you came here have been the happiest and most exciting six months of my life. I originally thought that I would
It would have been a black and white landscape painting, but I didn’t expect that your occasional stop would leave a striking color on my black and white paper. For me, this is enough.”
"In Bishan, I am just a passer-by, and to you, I am just a passer-by in your life. You may be sad or sad after I leave, but time will drown everything, just like the ancient city of Loulan in the desert, no matter what happened
How wonderful it is. When the wind and sand blow, everything will return to memories."
"..."
Qin Feng held the letter in one hand and a cigarette in the other, sitting on the ground beside Hu Jiayun's bed, leaning against the edge of the bed, smoking one cigarette after another.
It was dark outside, and the room without the lights was getting darker and darker. The dark room was quiet, with only the cigarette in Qin Feng's mouth glowing slightly, reflecting half of his haggard face.
Face.
Time seemed to have stood still, and for Qin Feng at this moment, time had no meaning.
I don't know how long it took, but with a snap, the room suddenly became brighter. Qin Feng couldn't open his eyes due to the dazzling light. He stretched out his hand to block his eyes. After getting used to it, he put down his hand and saw a person.
The woman stood at the door and looked at him.
"Why are you here?" Qin Feng tried his best to force out a forced smile.
Hong Yue felt very distressed when she saw Qin Feng's haggard appearance and the mountains of cigarette butts on the ground. She put the lunch box in her hand on the table, then slowly walked over and gently took half a cigarette from Qin Feng's hand.
The cigarette was taken away and put out on the ground.
"Smoking too much is bad for your health. Eat something first!" Hong Yue said softly.
Qin Feng nodded, stood up, walked to the table and opened the lunch box, which contained food cooked by Hong Yue himself.
Qin Feng ate, although he had no appetite.
Hong Yue took a broom to clean up the cigarette butts Qin Feng threw on the floor, then sat next to Qin Feng and watched Qin Feng eat.
Hong Yue could feel the pain in Qin Feng's heart, and she could also guess that Qin Feng and Hu Jiayun were not siblings. From the moment she walked in and saw Qin Feng's painful look, she knew how much Qin Feng loved Hu Jiayun.
deep.
Although she was sad, Hu Jiayun had left, and she couldn't let go of the man in front of her, especially at such a difficult time for him.
"It's delicious, and the cooking is very good, but... I'm not very hungry." Qin Feng took a few bites, but really had no appetite, so he said to Hong Yue apologetically.
"It doesn't matter, I know you have no appetite." Hong Yue nodded.
"Thank you!" Qin Feng said gratefully.
"I... don't know how to comfort people..." Hong Yue said with some self-reproach.
Qin Feng smiled: "It's the greatest comfort that you can come here."
"I can see that you love her very much!"
Qin Feng did not deny it, but said to Hong Yue apologetically: "Sorry!"
"I will tell my brother that I don't like you and ask him to stop getting involved with you and me." Hong Yue gritted her teeth and said. When she said this, she wanted to cry, but she held it back.
Qin Feng was surprised by Hong Yue's words. He had so many thoughts in his heart that he finally moved his lips several times before saying, "I'm sorry, but thank you too!"
"Since you can't eat, I'll go back first." Hong Yue stood up and packed the lunch box.
"I'll see you off." Qin Feng also stood up.
"No, although Bishan is remote and backward, it is very safe." Hong Yue shook her head and continued: "You should go to bed early and don't smoke so much."
"Okay!" Qin Feng nodded.
Hong Yue put away her lunch box and walked out. Qin Feng sent it outside the corridor and watched Hong Yue leave alone with a flashlight.
From the moment Hong Yue turned around, she left Qin Feng with a strong back, but her face was already filled with tears and her breathing was a little painful.
That night, Qin Feng did not leave Hu Jiayun's house, nor did he turn on the lights.
Early the next morning, Qin Feng returned to his room to pack his things, and then rode his motorcycle to the dormitory assigned to him by Hong Haifeng last time.
When Qin Feng walked into this dormitory, he realized that this was not a dormitory at all. It was an apartment with two living rooms, one bedroom, one kitchen and one bathroom. The most important thing was that it was finely decorated and fully equipped with all kinds of furniture and appliances.
Later, Qin Feng found out that this dormitory also belonged to Chang Yong. At that time, in order to please Qin Feng, Hong Haifeng gave Qin Feng all the office and dormitory left by Chang Yong.
Qin Feng glanced at the house and shook his head helplessly. With Chang Yong's house decorated like this, the standard of Wang Yunfei and Xu Guoli's house must be higher than this one.
Qin Feng heard from Li Dejun that the renovation of the leadership dormitory was done with the 300,000 yuan that Wang Yunfei left for road construction in Niujiaoshan Village.
In Niujiaoshan Village, a road related to the life and safety of all the people in the village could not be repaired for more than ten years because of lack of money, but the leaders of the village lived in extremely luxurious housing. Isn't this the biggest irony? Qin Feng suddenly had an interest in this house.
An inexplicable disgust.
Qin Feng sighed, put the things in the room, closed the door and went to the office without packing them away.