From a general perspective, Li Hui firmly believed that his decision was correct. Unless the place he traveled through was not a real historical space, but a parallel time and space, then all the advantages he had would mislead him.
But judging from my experiences over the past year or so, everything is developing in an orderly manner according to the known historical process. For example, Huan Wen’s third Northern Expedition, the defeat of Fangtou, and the current situation of the Jin Dynasty are all related to myself.
The known historical processes corroborate each other.
Of course, he does not exist in real history. Perhaps the flapping wings of a butterfly will cause chaos in time and space and change the course of history. But from the current point of view, the impact does not seem to be big.
Moreover, his arrival did not appear out of thin air, but his soul traveled through the body of Li Hui. In other words, even if he did not travel through time, Li Hui still existed. This should not cause any major changes. Unless he
He did something that changed the course of history, such as running to kill a big shot like Huan Wen, or killing a big shot who influenced the course of history in this era.
But how does this possibility exist?
His arrival may have no impact on the course of history so far. It may not even have any impact in the future. The river flowing to the future time and space will not stop flowing or turn around just because there is one more wave.
It can be seen from this that his decision should be correct. Staying away from the Huan family means staying away from disaster. This is the reason why Li Hui firmly made his choice. He cannot stand on the side of the Huan family, and he must also draw a line with the Gu family who is dependent on the Huan family.
Clear boundaries.
However, after watching Gu Qian leave today, Li Hui found it hard to be calm and stable. Although the decision was right, he couldn't be calm emotionally all of a sudden. Li Hui couldn't do that yet.
Hard-hearted. Maybe you can't do it in this life.
Although he is a time traveler, his body's memory is extremely clear and real. His emotional entanglement with the people here and his integration with the times have gradually deepened. Although the Gu family has brought him many unpleasant memories, no matter what,
His mother took him to grow up in the Gu family. No matter what their attitude towards his mother and him, Gu Qian still took in his mother and himself. Otherwise, his mother and himself might have wandered without knowing where they were, and he didn't know what the outcome would be.
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Although Gu Qian is a stubborn person who is motivated by self-interest and family interests, without him, he really would not be able to get ahead. Although he and the Gu family seem to have a relationship of mutual use, it cannot be said that there is no emotion in it.
communication and entanglement, but a relationship of naked exploitation.
Because of this, Li Hui felt uncomfortable and painful.
From Gu Qian's point of view, he was actually not wrong. He was even willing to marry Gu Qingning to him as a means to win over him. For him, this was already a great recognition of himself. He hoped that
It's just that he can become someone that the Gu family can use in the future.
This may be a kind of use, but from his point of view, he has lost nothing. Instead, he has gained the opportunity to marry the Gu family and rise in status. He has gained the opportunity to use the Gu family as his backer and obtain more resources. This is indeed
It is a real gift.
Anyone with Li Hui's identity and position would not choose to refuse given this choice. That's why Gu Qian would be so angry after being rejected. Li Hui could see that Gu Qian felt
Until he was humiliated by himself.
And Li Hui couldn't tell Gu Qian everything he knew, and he couldn't tell Gu Qian that he knew what the Huan family would do in the future, so he couldn't stand on the wrong team with them. Although he had finally said something to remind Gu Qian, it was obvious that Gu Qian
Gu Qian was unwilling to listen. Gu Qian had to obey the family's decision. On this matter, even though he had reservations, he would still put the family's decision first. Even if he told him his identity as a time traveler, he didn't know the future.
If you use it, you may be regarded as a madman by Gu Qian. Instead, you may cause huge disasters by leaking the secret.
The disparity in the amount of information and identities between the two parties has caused the current situation. However, it is helpless and cannot be solved.
In addition to emotional uneasiness, the situation that followed after the official break with the Gu family was another reason for Li Hui's uneasiness.
Gu Qian made it very clear. In the past, others regarded Li Hui as a descendant of the Gu family. For the sake of the Gu family in Wu County, they would naturally take a look at Li Huigao. But now, the Gu family will send a message to the world's nobles to break with themselves.
So now I have become a completely helpless and poor family.
In such an era, the living space of a small and poor family can be imagined. Do not think that you are now prosperous in Juchao County, but in fact, you have no foundation, no basis and support, and no ability to withstand the wind and rain.
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Li Hui couldn't help but doubt himself. In order not to board the Huan family's pirate ship, had he done too radical a thing and made it self-defeating? Even if the overall decision was right, he would probably die because of this choice.
.Is what I am doing foolish or wise?
Rejecting Gu Qian this time was actually tantamount to rejecting Huan Wen's solicitation once again. After I rejected Huan Xu before, I felt that Xie Xuan seemed to be protecting me that day, and Huan Xu might have had evil intentions that day. So this
What about once? Will he get into trouble soon? Will he be killed?
The Huan family is not a good man and a believer in women. Huan Wen has different ambitions and he may be afraid of the Wang Xie family. He will never tolerate a low-level official like himself who dares to go against his will. He will definitely kill the chicken to scare the monkeys and kill himself.
If they really do this, what can you do to resist them?
The more Li Hui thought about this, the more upset and unsteady he became. One moment he felt that he had done something stupid, and the next moment he felt that his choice was the right one. The next moment he comforted himself that since he had made a choice, there was no need to worry.
After a while, he really felt the tremendous pressure and danger. He felt that he should do something about it. But he didn't know what he should do.
This is probably the most painful moment that Li Hui has encountered since time travel. Even when he came to Juchao County to fight for his life and went to the railing to meet the enemy, he had never experienced such suffering. At that time, his goal was clear, but he had no other focus. But he didn't know why.
Now I am so anxious about gains and losses.
The autumn leaves were cool, and Li Hui's clothes were thin. After midnight, the autumn dew began to condense, and Li Hui felt a little chilly.
At this moment, a robe was draped on Li Hui's shoulders. Li Hui looked back and saw Ah Zhu's small figure standing behind him, looking at him worriedly.
"Why are you up? Did I wake you up?" Li Hui said with a smile.
Ah Zhu shook his head and said: "No. I woke up when the young master got up. I have been watching the young master from the window. I saw that the young master was thinking about something, so I didn't dare to disturb him."
Li Hui smiled and said: "You silly girl, what are you looking at me for? You can just sleep in your room. When I came out, I was very cautious, because I was afraid of waking you up. I saw that your door was closed and the lights in the room were closed. If it goes off, I know you are asleep. Who knows, it may still wake you up."
Ah Zhu said softly: "Young Master, you have been out of bed at night. Don't catch a cold. It's better to go back to your room and rest. Although Ah Zhu doesn't know why the Young Master is troubled, you can't ruin your body."
Li Huidao: "How do you know I have troubles?"
Ah Zhu said: "Young Master has sighed dozens of times this hour. Ah Zhu is not a fool."
Li Hui smiled bitterly and was speechless. It turned out that he was standing in the yard sighing, but he didn't know it.
"Master, are you worried about what the Gu family's grandson said this morning?" Azhu asked.
Li Hui smiled and said, "Yes. Dong Weng wanted to betroth Qing Ning to me, but I thought of you, so I refused. So, this is all your fault."
Ah Zhu was startled and said hurriedly: "Master, just marry her. Don't refuse because of Ah Zhu. Ah Zhu can't afford it. Ah Zhu has no wrong intentions."
Li Hui originally made her happy, but when he saw her panic, he laughed. He reached out and pulled her into his arms, and said softly: "I am teasing you not because of this matter, but because of other things. You don't have to You know, I will figure it out myself."
Ah Zhu breathed a sigh of relief, snuggled tightly into Li Hui's arms, and said softly: "Master, don't worry, everything will be fine. Ah Zhu believes that Master can turn misfortune into good fortune. No matter what happens, Master, there is no need to worry." I'm afraid, Ah Zhu is with the young master, so he may not be able to help, but he will always accompany the young master."
Li Hui said softly: "What if I die?"
Azhu said softly: "I will die together, and I will be able to serve you on the road to hell. When I reach the underworld, I will not be alone."
Li Hui held Ah Zhu's petite body tightly in his arms, caressing her warm and soft body. He suddenly understood why he was so concerned about gains and losses, and was not as determined as before.
Because I have something, I can't let go. Unlike before, I had nothing, so I have nothing to fear.
Things in this world are often like this. The more you have, the more you worry about gains and losses.