"What's the point? I've experienced it since your mother and I separated and you've long been used to it." Chu Tianjiao pursed his lips, "And it's true that I only care about children, not raising them. That's right.
, you and your mother are the most qualified people to say this, so I never said anything back no matter how she scolded me before. Arguing with women and children is not what a man should do."
"No, I mean that night." Chu Zihang shook his head and said, "I'm sorry for leaving you alone on the elevated road that rainy night and letting you face those things alone."
"What are you talking about? Why did you leave me alone? I told you to run away!" Chu Tianjiao said to Chu Zihang with a somewhat unhappy expression, "You don't think I want to be the last person.
Stay there and pretend to be a hero and act cool? Silly son, it's a good thing you ran away. I'm still happy. If you stay there, I'll have a headache. Then we'll both die in that place where birds don't shit.
, none of them can survive, how wonderful it is now, we are all alive, and as long as we are alive, we will have the opportunity to meet."
Chu Zihang was silent for a while, and then slowly said: "But living alone in the world is actually very tiring."
Su Qian looked sideways, and so did everyone else. Caesar was a little surprised by this sentence... This was probably the first time he heard the word "tired" from Chu Zihang's mouth, and it was also one of the few times when he confided his most important words.
True heart.
Lu Mingfei looked at Chu Zihang like this and smiled knowingly.
"Who said you are alone? Don't you still have your mother? Don't you still have so many friends?" Chu Tianjiao stared and said, "Why are you so pessimistic, kid? What would you have done if you lost your mother?"
Sad? How worried should your friends be about you? If you disappeared, wouldn’t your stepfather’s family’s wealth be left to others to inherit? "
Chu Tianjiao seemed to have turned into that middle-aged man who was always talking about things and had no integrity, but Chu Zihang seemed to be immune. He knew that men just used this method to hide their complicated emotions, so Chu Zihang lowered his voice
He said loudly: "I understand what you said now."
"Huh? Which sentence are you talking about?" Chu Tianjiao raised his eyebrows, "Are you a mature man who should give way to beautiful women? Or are you a bastard who doesn't take advantage of your stepfather's family property? Your father, I still
He has said a lot of wise words. Although it may sound a bit ridiculous at first, but if you think about it carefully, it definitely contains rich philosophy of life. Did you know that our boss used to like to chat with me when I was driving, and he would treat me when we were happy?
Make midnight snacks and wash feet..."
"If you are no longer here, only I can prove your existence." Chu Zihang gently interrupted Chu Tianjiao's chatter, "Because I am the last thing you have left in this world, and my body is full of blood.
Half your blood."
Chu Tianjiao suddenly became speechless. He looked at Chu Zihang, and his eyes were a little lost for a moment... He suddenly felt that the son in front of him was a bit strange. Yes, after seven years, Chu Zihang had changed more than just him.
His appearance, as well as his personality and outlook on life.
"Oh, why are you so sensational all of a sudden? At that time, I really thought that I didn't live long, so I just wanted to be cool before leaving." Chu Tianjiao waved his hand, "Oh, I thought what you said,
So it’s this sentence. This sentence sounds quite bluffing at first, but when you think about it carefully, there are actually quite a lot of loopholes. You are a human being, how can I say you are a thing..."
This man's level of bad talking can probably compete with that of Lu Mingfei and Fingel. No one here really knows his past, and they don't know if he is born with a bad talking personality... In fact, no one is born with a bad talk.
It’s just the character who likes to tell bad things. Many times, people like to tell bad things, but they just don’t want others to see their true inner feelings.
"I haven't finished speaking yet." Chu Zihang said softly, "I understand what you said, but I think what you said is wrong."
Chu Tianjiao was stunned, not knowing what Chu Zihang would say next.
"I feel that when a person is alive, he does not need others to prove his existence." Chu Zihang whispered, "To live is to live, to die is to die. For a person, his life is only when he is alive.
It is meaningful, and nothing will be left after death. What is left is not proof, but sadness."
Someone has said that a person will die three times in his life. The first is death in the medical sense. Your diagnosing doctor will issue a death certificate for you. The second is death in the social sense. Your loved ones, relatives and friends
, your brothers and sisters gathered together and cried in memory of you at your funeral. The third time you were forgotten, no one in this world remembered you, and you were truly dead.
Chu Zihang couldn't remember where he saw this passage, but he always kept it in his heart. He also never forgot what the man said to him... Half of the man's blood was flowing in his body, and only he
Only by living can you prove that a man once existed in this world. If he also dies, the man will really be forgotten by everyone.
But is this really the case? If the man is really dead, what can I do if I remember him tightly? He is no longer here, only living in his own memories, but I can't mention this to anyone else.
A memory, no one would care about a man who no longer exists in this world. Every time he thinks of it, he will be overwhelmed by the tide of regret and sadness.
Memory is a double-edged sword, sometimes it is sweet date sugar, sometimes it is deadly poison... If a man is still alive, those memories may be precious past, but if the man is dead, those memories are sharp edges.
, it will cut your heart every silent night and make you regret it.
Chu Zihang understands this feeling deeply.
So he tried his best to remember the man. He even wanted to go back to that rainy night again, but he couldn't do it. So he had been desperately searching for the man's whereabouts over the years. This was his deepest obsession. He had to know who the man was.
Alive or dead... Even if you chat with him privately, you have to personally confirm the news of his death.
Otherwise, memories will always wander between regret and regret.
"No, I really think so." Chu Tianjiao became a little anxious, "I can die, but you have to live. You are my son. Isn't it natural for father to protect his son? If you are not here either
It's impossible for you to survive alone. How do you want me to face your mother? She will kill me!"
"Don't say such irresponsible words." Chu Zihang looked into Chu Tianjiao's eyes and said, "The only person who can prove a person's existence is himself. Only by living can he prove his own existence. There is no need to leave your own affairs to others.
Do."
"No...but..." Chu Tianjiao opened and closed his mouth several times, but this time he was really speechless and couldn't say anything. He looked at Chu Zihang's face, which in his memory still looked childish.
There is no trace of childishness on his face anymore, replaced by stubbornness and maturity.
His son grew up to be such a stubborn, silly boy because of his words back then.
Chu Tianjiao seemed to understand what Chu Zihang wanted to say to him. Just like he always concealed his true thoughts, Chu Zihang was not very good at expressing his feelings. The father and son were actually the same stupid people in this regard.
Aren't these words Chu Zihang's response to him? He said that he wanted Chu Zihang to live, because Chu Zihang was his son, bleeding from him, and only if Chu Zihang was alive could he prove his existence... He
He handed such a huge responsibility to Chu Zihang, but he never thought about what Chu Zihang would be burdened with. Just like what he said to Chu Zihang, if he chatted privately, his second son would still be alive, and he would be alone.
He felt like he couldn't survive. Even if the woman didn't kill him, he would hate himself like that.
From the perspective of a father, he must let Chu Zihang survive, because it is extremely painful for a father to lose his son... But what if, on the other hand, a child loses his father? Isn't this something worthy of sadness and sorrow?
Is it enough to become his lifelong obsession and indelible shadow?
"Uncle Chu, senior brother has a habit over the years of doing homework every night before going to bed." Lu Mingfei suddenly spoke, and he said to Chu Tianjiao, "The content of these homework is to recall the things he doesn't want to forget.
, Senior brother and I have ice cream on this point, so I understand. To be honest, this feeling is quite uncomfortable. Senior brother, he has really been trying his best to find you in the past few years."
"I..." Chu Tianjiao looked at Chu Zihang, speechless. This man who had always been eloquent and mercurial suddenly became mute at this moment, as if he had lost his ability to express himself.
Chu Zihang turned his head and signaled Lu Mingfei with his eyes to stop talking.
"Senior brother, I understand your character. It's not easy for you and your father to see each other again. I hope you can be more honest with each other. There are some things you won't say. Let me speak. You can just think that I am talkative." Lu Mingfei
After speaking to Chu Zihang, he then said to Chu Tianjiao, "Uncle, in the past few years since you have been missing, you have indeed been forgotten by the world."
"Forgotten?" Chu Tianjiao muttered these words, as if he hadn't really understood what Lu Mingfei said.
"It is forgetfulness in the true sense. Odin has the ability to modify cause and effect. Your existence has been erased from the new world line. The only people in this world who remember you are my senior brother and me." Lu Mingfei looked at Chu Tianjiao and said
, "Senior brother didn't know about it at that time, but he has been trying his best to remember everything he had with you. I understand the feeling of regret. He regretted it from the bottom of his heart. He left alone that night. He even felt that he should die there.
That night."
After Chu Tianjiao was lost for a moment, his eyes were slightly red and he said, "You silly boy."
Chu Tianjiao's voice was a little hoarse.
"Actually, you can tell me some things." Chu Zihang whispered, "I can pretend that I don't know, and I won't tell my mother."
"It's not that I want to hide it from you...well, it's that I want to hide it from you on purpose." Chu Tianjiao sighed, "Remember, son, since you entered junior high school, the number of times we have seen each other has become less and less.
Yes, sometimes when you ask me to go to your school, I will find reasons to shirk it, because I always feel that the danger is getting closer and closer, and one day it will come, so I want to stay as far away from you and your mother as possible."
"I am always a dangerous person. Although I know that I should not have a family and I know that it is wrong to do so, I do not regret being with your mother, nor do I regret having you with your mother. I love her very much,
I love you very much too, you are my pride." Chu Tianjiao looked at the ceiling, his eyes a little hazy, "These are my inner thoughts. In fact, I shouldn't have picked you up that night, but it rained too much that night.
, I'm worried that you won't be able to go home alone, and I think I haven't seen you for a long time. If I didn't pick you up, you probably wouldn't have encountered these bad things, and you wouldn't have been so miserable these years. I didn't.
I can’t believe this day has come so quickly.”
"Rather than being kept secret, I would rather know the truth from the beginning." Chu Zihang paused, "I know you have your difficulties."
"Maybe I have lived a comfortable life for too long, and I have relaxed my vigilance." A wry smile appeared on Chu Tianjiao's lips, "I definitely would not have made such a stupid mistake when I was young."
"Uncle Chu." Lu Mingfei interrupted at the right time, "What do you mean by 'this day comes so fast'? Did you know that Odin would find you?"
"Yes, I know." Chu Tianjiao nodded and admitted directly, "I came to this city just for Him. I have stayed in this city for so many years. In fact, I just waited for Him to come to me. I know He
He will definitely come to me because I have what he wants in my hands, but I didn’t expect that Chu Zihang would happen to be in the car that day when he came to my door.”
"Is your mission to protect the things in your hands?" Lu Mingfei couldn't help but ask, "Or is your purpose to use the things in your hands as bait to wait for Odin to show up?"
"My mission..." After Chu Tianjiao thought for a moment, he shook his head and said, "I'm sorry, I can't tell you this, and I can't tell Chu Zihang. Not only is it for everyone's safety, but the things involved are real.
Too many.”
"What about your thing?" Lu Mingfei asked in a low voice.
No one would be curious about something that interests all "gods".
"Sorry, this is also an absolutely confidential part." Chu Tianjiao paused, "But what I can tell you is that the things I carried with me at the time were actually incomplete. Odin probably had them when I was defeated.
It has been so many years, and I don’t know if it has achieved its complete goal.”
Listening to Chu Tianjiao's words, Lu Mingfei lowered his head and pondered slightly. Although Chu Tianjiao kept the content of his mission completely confidential, Lu Mingfei seemed to have vaguely grasped some clues.
"Have you ever entered the Nibelungen?" Chu Tianjiao suddenly asked Lu Mingfei and the others.
"We... some of them have gone in." Lu Mingfei looked at the others, nodded to Chu Tianjiao and said, "But it shouldn't be possible to enter now. This Nibelung has temporarily lost its owner. There seems to be no way.