"What a tired fate." Yuan Zhisheng said softly. He slowly opened his eyes. For a moment, the kerosene lamp above his head made his vision blurry.
Lu Mingfei also looked sideways at this man who was only a few years older than him. He could feel Yuan Zhisheng's tiredness, because fate is indeed a thing that likes to play tricks on people. Living in this world, few people are easy.
Ordinary people have the sadness and pain of ordinary people, and big people also have the unwillingness and blood and tears of big people. Lu Mingfei has not had an easy life in these years, otherwise he would not have the opportunity to sit at the ramen stall with Eri and eat noodles today.
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Lu Mingfei really wanted to pat Yuan Zhisheng on the shoulder and say a few words of comfort. He said that in fact everyone is like this. Chu Zihang, Fengjian Liuli, including him, Lu Mingfei, who has it easier? A father can't be found.
, a child who had no father or mother and was stabbed to death by his favorite brother, whose parents are not around all year round is already a coward in itself, but also has to save this damn world... What a damn world, people who are suffering are better than happy people
Too much, some people enjoy it and others deserve to be tortured.
But no matter how fucked up the world is, so what. No matter how miserable and tiring you live, you can’t die. There are more pitiable people in this world. What kind of man is it to feel sorry for yourself? When two good brothers are sad, they hug each other and cry.
The meal was over. At worst, I drank some wine and stayed hungover until dawn. When I woke up, it was a brand new and beautiful day. But Lu Mingfei still didn't do it... After all, this was a rare occasion for a strong son to open up his heart and vent his bitterness to his father.
In this tender moment, it would have been too unsightly for him to suddenly come up and interact with Mi Ni.
Uesugoshi's heart also surged with sadness. Listening to Minamoto's words, inexplicable guilt arose in his heart.
"Children, I'm sorry." Uesugoshi said softly. He was thinking that if he had not missed the lives of his children, they would not have to endure so much suffering.
Yuan Zhisheng was stunned. He looked at Uesugi and shook his head: "Dad, you don't need to apologize. These are not your fault."
"Herzog is an out-and-out bastard, but I have to admit that the Tachibana Masamune he played has really educated you into a very good person, who is strong, moral and responsible."
Uesugoshi whispered, "But to be honest, if I were by your side, I wouldn't be able to educate you into what you are today."
"What do you mean?" Yuan Zhisheng was stunned and asked in confusion.
"Which father doesn't want his child to be successful? I'm probably the only one who's weird. I don't think my child needs to achieve much to become a great person. I think my child is safe, healthy, and happy, and that's enough.
Okay." Uesugoshi raised his head slightly, "I'm probably the only one in the world who thinks it would be better for my children to sell sunscreen at a nudist beach than to be the leader of a powerful yakuza family with more than ten thousand people. I really think this is the case.
Life is great. To be honest, when I heard someone say that your dream is to go to a nudist beach in France to sell sunscreen, my first reaction was that it was funny, and my second reaction was that I thought this was worthy of my Uesugi.
The seed of Yue."
Being called out again, Lu Mingfei shrank his neck again, while Yuan Zhisheng was completely stunned. He didn't expect that his father would say such words to him... Yuan Zhisheng was probably surprised.
He didn't know Uesugoshi well enough. He felt that Uesugoshi had stayed in Tokyo and sold ramen so close to his family for so many years because of his complicated emotions towards his family. He was both resentful and guilty. Uesugoshi couldn't get out of his heart.
shadow.
This is indeed part of the reason, but not all. Uesugoshi entered a new stage of life only after becoming a ramen chef.
"There's actually nothing wrong with being a ramen chef. You meet a lot of people every day. Some are here for the first time, some are regular customers. They are happy or complaining. Every day you hear different things happening to different people." Uesugi Koshi.
Said, "Ramen chefs don't have to worry about anything except whether their craftsmanship is good or not. They will be sincerely satisfied when they hear the compliments of customers or the sound of happily eating noodles. They can make money with their own hands and there is no psychological pressure at all when they go to the izakaya for entertainment.
, sometimes flirting with the charming landlady, and watching DVDs by myself when money is tight... I think this kind of life is more free than being a mafia emperor."
Minamoto was silent. Listening to Uesugoshi's words, a slight emotion appeared in his heart... Yes, freedom. Minamoto pursues freedom, and Eri also pursues freedom. She wants to sell sunscreen on a nudist beach in France, isn't that the same?
Do you want to pursue freedom? Just like George, the tortoise of Pinta Island. It is an endangered and noble orphan species, but maybe its dream is just to crawl back to its own puddle and roll in the mud.
Some people are on the road to freedom, and some people spend their entire lives fighting for freedom.
"My mother was a nun, and everyone called her Grandma Chen. When she was living in the French church, Grandma Chen would tell her children that if she had children, she didn't need her children to be promising, just
His life was peaceful and joyful." Uesugoshi said fondly, "My mother always glanced at me when she said these words."
"Grandma's words are for you." Yuan Zhisheng said.
"Yes, I am Grandma Chen's child. At that time, I could not understand my mother's words. It was not until later that the family found France and took me back to Japan. On the cruise ship back home, I told my mother that one day I would
She really became the emperor of a country, so I took her with me to enjoy the glory and wealth." Uesugi Yue said softly, "But my mother's expression was not very happy. When she left the port, she said, 'A Yue, not everyone
Everyone pursues a life of glory and wealth. At least I only need a little peace and joy in my life. If you want a glorious life, Grandma Chen supports you. If you are tired one day, just set up a stall to sell ramen.
If a man can lose everything, he will be very happy if he gains a little later."
"So you have really been selling ramen all your life?" Yuan Zhisheng was surprised, "Because of my grandmother's words?"
"It was only after selling ramen that I realized what my mother said. It's not a bad thing for a man to have ambition, but if I had to choose again, I would rather stay in France, stay in that small church, and guard a little bit of peace and joy with my mother.
." Uesugi Yue looked at Minamoto Chisao, "As a father, I will support my child no matter what life he chooses, whether he wants to get ahead or be mediocre, as long as he does not harm nature, but as a father, no matter what kind of life he chooses, I will support him.
No matter what life my child chooses, I hope he will not lose his last bit of peace and joy."
So a little bit of peace and joy... Minamoto thought silently, his father's peace and joy is probably his ramen stall and the memories of his nun mother, and the child's peace and joy is probably being able to continue to delve into his beloved Kabuki and Eri clothes.
Peace and happiness probably means being able to see the outside world, but what about your own? Maybe you really want to go to a nudist beach in France to sell sunscreen. In short, you won't be sitting in the position of a mafia boss worrying about the country and the people, giving advice on the country.
"You have been selling ramen all your life. I don't know if I can do one thing for the rest of my life like my father." Yuan Zhisheng whispered, "But my current wish is indeed to sell sunscreen on a nudist beach in France, at least
That won't make me so tired."
"Then why not do this?" Uesugoshi asked softly, "Children, with your authority, you can now buy a ticket to France tonight. The first ray of rising sun in the morning shines on the sand of the naturist beach.
, you can walk on the golden sand, watch the women rolling around, and sell your sunscreen."
"Because... going to France may not be said to be my wish, but an escape." Yuan Zhisheng took a deep breath, "Those who run away will be labeled as cowards."
"But I think as long as my children live happily, there is nothing wrong with being a coward. If you say that, then I am also a coward. I am shameful but I am happy. Does anyone stipulate that a person must do something when he is born?" Uesugi
Yue Chongyuan asked naively, "If the sky falls, there will be someone taller to hold it up. But if the taller person doesn't want to hold up, he can bend his knees slightly. Even if everyone is killed, everyone in hell will blame you."
, you can just say that it's not your responsibility, it's all your bastard father's fault for giving birth to you so tall."
The bastard father with the "Emperor's blood" gave birth to a son with the "Emperor's blood". Naturally, his son became the "tallest" person in the entire family, supporting everyone.
"I am a contradictory person, father. I will be tired if I stay in the family and continue to be the head of the family. Sometimes I am so tired that I want to sleep without waking up, but I will also be tired if I leave the family." Yuan Zhisheng whispered,
"It's a kind of mental fatigue. I'll worry about Yasha being so reckless in doing things, and whether Crow will be taught a lesson by the Sakurai family master for being clever. I'll worry about whether Sakura is always performing dangerous tasks. Eri's life is better.
Whether I am happy or not, I am afraid that the lives of my people will return to dire straits... I can’t worry about you either, father."
Genzhisheng looked at Uesugoshi bitterly. This is the fundamental problem. He is such a contradictory guy. He is afraid of taking responsibility, and he is also afraid of hurting others because he does not take responsibility. People's expectations make him want to
Avoid but cannot escape.
"That's not right." A voice suddenly interrupted Yuan Zhisheng.
Yuan Zhisheng turned his head in surprise and found that the person speaking was actually Eri Yi... Eri Yi looked at him seriously.
"Hui Liyi?" Yuan Zhisheng said in a daze.
"No." Eriki repeated, "Once there was trouble at home. They said we couldn't live without my brother, but my brother couldn't come back in time. After you came back, the trouble was solved."
Eriki's description was very vague, but Minamoto was able to understand it. It was probably an emergency that the family had encountered before. The family elders believed that only Minamoto could solve it, but at that time Minamoto was on other missions.
By the time Yuan Zhisheng came back, the troubles he had to deal with would have been solved long ago.
"I understand what Eri said. Zongsheng, I also understand that you have fallen into a misunderstanding, that is, you are the leader of the family. If the clan members are unhappy, it is your responsibility." Uesugi Yue said gently.
Shaking his head, "Maybe it's because Tachibana Masamune has too much influence on you, or maybe you think you are such an amazing person, but naive, you have to know what a person can do in a limited life.
It is also limited. As Amaterasu and the head of the family, you have led the Snake Qihachi family through the most difficult period, how great do you want to live?"
Yuan Zhisheng was stunned. He thought carefully about Uesugoshi's words. He became the director of the Executive Bureau with his extremely high combat effectiveness and decisive character. This is what he is best at, but now in the era of peace and the era of war,
Different, can he really become a wise king?
Maybe not, maybe Kotaro Fuma or Nanami Sakurai manage the family better than him. They are more experienced, experienced and far-sighted. If he himself does not have the ability to bring such great happiness to his clan, but he keeps forcing himself,
How is this different from those incompetent mediocre kings in history?
Or maybe the tribesmen don’t need so much happiness at all? Those so-called expectations may be the responsibilities imposed on themselves by Yuan Zhisheng. Maybe more tribesmen are like their father and only need to guard a certain part of their lives.
Are they satisfied with just a little peace and joy?
"Although I don't like families, such a behemoth that has lasted for thousands of years is not as fragile as you think. If a family declines because of losing someone, then this is the inevitable fate of the family." Uesugi Yue said.
, "Actually, Zhisheng, you can't worry about those people you just mentioned, right? Your situation is different from mine. I was alone when I left the family, and it would be the same after selling ramen for so many years. If it weren't for Zhisheng,
When you three appear with Eriki, I have nothing to be reluctant to leave this world suddenly."
Minamoto Tatsuo fell silent again, because as Uesugi said, he really cares about those people, the two bastards Yasha and Crow, the loyal Sakura, his sister Eri and the lost brother Minamoto Tatsuo,
And his father, whom he finally got to know... these are his real family members. Leaving Japan and escaping from his family is equivalent to escaping from these people. It is a free life, but he is also alone.
"Why don't you bring everyone with you?" Uesugoshi asked softly.
"Because this is the life I chose, not everyone else's." Yuan Zhisheng whispered, "It would be too selfish to let everyone around me change their life trajectory because of my own wish.
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"But have you really asked them?" Uesugi asked Minamoto, "I mean, have you really understood the thoughts of these people? Do you think you understand their wishes? Do they really think that they should be treated differently?"
Being in the family is better than going to France with you. Does following you mean they have given up their own life?"