Ruan Xingwan has been standing on the balcony for an hour, with his hands on the railing and his chin tilted to the side.
Watching the scattered snowflakes in the sky become denser little by little.
Pei Shanshan came out of the shower and saw that she was still in the same posture as before. Even the way she looked had not changed. He walked over to her and looked at her along the line of sight: "What is so beautiful?"
Ruan Xingwan retracted his thoughts and smiled lightly: "It's nothing."
Pei Shanshan said: "You are waiting for someone."
As she said that, she sighed again, "That bitch man is really true. He said he would come to see you in the evening, but he hasn't come yet. I would be worried too."
Ruan Xingwan: "..."
She defended in a low voice: "I'm not thinking about it."
Pei Shanshan: "I don't believe it."
Ruan Xingwan looked forward again and exhaled: "Cheng Wei confessed his love to me yesterday."
Upon hearing this, Pei Shanshan immediately became alert: "How did you say it? How did you say it?
No, no, no, did you agree or reject?"
Ruan Xingwan shook his head and said slowly: "I should give myself a chance."
"That's true. It was originally true. Why did you hang yourself on that crooked-neck tree?"
"...That's not the case, it's just that I'm not ready yet."
"What are you prepared for? Love always comes quietly and unexpectedly."
Pei Shanshan said, "Xingxing, you just worry too much. Life is so short, so what if you fall in love a few times but don't get married? Just be happy."
Ruan Xingwan pursed her lips and said nothing.
Pei Shanshan looked at her and said: "Xingxing, actually I know the reason why you are so entangled."
Hearing this, Ruan Xingwan subconsciously asked: "What's the reason?"
"It's because you still like Zhou Cishen, right?"
Ruan Xingwan lowered his head, not admitting it, but not denying it either.
Pei Shanshan also leaned on the railing and sighed: "Sometimes life is like this, but it doesn't go as expected.
But Xingxing, if that child... is still alive, will you remarry Zhou Cishen?"
After a while, Ruan Xingwan said: "He also asked me this question."
"Then how did you answer?"
Ruan Xingwan smiled lightly: "It's like you said, there are so many dissatisfactions in life. If I could do everything over again, I wouldn't be where I am today."
"That's right. Anyway, if I could do it all over again, I would want to stay as far away from that bastard Li Ang as possible."
Pei Shanshan stretched as she spoke, "But what Cheng Wei said makes sense. You should give yourself a chance and always come out."
Ruan Xingwan nodded slightly: "I know."
Pei Shanshan said: "Then I'll go to bed. You can go back to your room and don't catch a cold."
"good."
After Pei Shanshan left, Ruan Xingwan stood there for a few more minutes. As soon as he closed the balcony door, his cell phone rang in his pocket.
When the call was connected, Zhou Cishen's voice rang: "Are you coming down or should I come up?"
Ruan Xingwan: "..."
She picked up her coat and went out.
Downstairs, Zhou Cishen was leaning against the car door, his dark eyes lowered, biting a cigarette on his thin lips, his expression cold and indifferent.
Ruan Xingwan walked over and stood in front of him: "Is there something wrong, Mr. Zhou?"
Zhou Cishen raised his eyes slightly, took off the cigarette from his lips, and stared at her with his calm black eyes: "Why don't you tell me what happened today?"
"Mr. Zhou is referring to..." Ruan Xingwan realized what she was saying as soon as she finished speaking. She said, "This is my own business. I don't think I need to report it to Mr. Zhou."
There was no emotion on Zhou Cishen's stern face. He said quietly: "What would you have done if I hadn't come?"
"I said, this is my own business. How I want to solve it has nothing to do with Mr. Zhou."
"You mean I'm nosy?"
Ruan Xingwan said: "Mr. Zhou is right to understand this."
Zhou Cishen looked at her calmly: "Ruan Xingwan, a person's patience has its limit."
Hearing this, Ruan Xingwan smiled: "Has Mr. Zhou's patience been exhausted?"
"Are you happy or sad?"
"If I say I'm happy, Mr. Zhou won't be sad, so it means I'm happy."
Zhou Cishen said: "You don't want to see me that much?"
Ruan Xingwan looked elsewhere: "It's not that I don't want to, but I think it's unnecessary."
After a pause, she continued: "Mr. Zhou, there is something I think I should make clear to you.
Cheng Wei confessed to me, I..."
"You agreed?
You said you didn't like him."
Ruan Xingwan said: "I haven't agreed now, but I decided to give him a try."
Zhou Cishen said word for word: "Ruan Xingwan, look into my eyes and speak."
Ruan Xingwan took a breath and turned to look at him again: "Mr. Zhou, let's stop here, your patience has been exhausted anyway.
I don’t know what you think, but I really want to start over and live the life I want.”
"What do you want in life?"
Ruan Xingwan opened his mouth, not knowing how to answer for a moment.
Zhou Cishen dusted off the cigarette ashes and said it for her.
"The life you want is without me, right?"
The dog man's guess was pretty accurate.
Ruan Xingwan said: "Actually, Mr. Zhou also knows that we are originally people from two different worlds. At the beginning, we were just..."
"Why not."
Ruan Xingwan was slightly stunned: "Huh?"
Zhou Cishen sneered: "That's right, I'm just an illegitimate child and not worthy of you. You're right, we are indeed people from two worlds."
"..."
Is this using strong words and changing the concept?
Ruan Xingwan closed his eyes and said slowly: "Mr. Zhou, I didn't mean that."
"In my opinion, that's what you mean."
Ruan Xingwan felt that the conversation between them had reached a dead end again.
Every time she wanted to explain things clearly to him, he would always do this and put the problem on her.
It makes people blame themselves.
After a few seconds, Ruan Xingwan said: "Mr. Zhou, I have finished what I should say. You should go back early."
Zhou Cishen said: "Why are you so anxious? I haven't said what I want to say yet."
"...please speak."
Zhou Cishen lit a new cigarette and said slowly: "Zhou An'an has come out of Zhou's house. She may come to see you, but the possibility is very small."
Ruan Xingwan looked at him in confusion, tilted his head, his beautiful eyes filled with confusion, waiting for his next words.
"I guess they may choose to send her abroad. Who knows what accidents may happen abroad."
Ruan Xingwan probably understood what he meant: "Mr. Zhou..."
"Ruan Xingwan, I am telling you this just to tell you that I have never been a good person.
You can be with Cheng Wei, this is your freedom, but no one can stop me from doing what I want to do."