During the meal, the atmosphere was not very harmonious, but it was not that tense.
Pei Shanshan accidentally ate a peppercorn and felt numb. When she was about to get the cup, Daniel had already handed her the water.
Pei Shanshan didn't care so much, took the water and drank a few big gulps, and choked a few more times.
Daniel patted her back and said in a slow tone, "Don't drink water in such a hurry."
After saying that, he gave her two more pieces of steamed pumpkin: "It will be better if you eat this."
Pei Shanshan put down the water glass and was about to speak when she realized that the other three people on the table were looking at them.
When she looked over, Zhou Cishen and Ruan Chen calmly looked away, while Ruan Xingwan lowered his head to eat.
Pei Shanshan: "..."
Her face turned red, and she felt like her spirit was going to explode.
In the past, when I watched Zhou Cishen and Xingxing show off their affection, I just felt like they were being fed dog food. How come I feel so tired and awkward when I am here like this?
Pei Shanshan whispered to Daniel: "Eat your own!"
Daniel was very innocent, but he didn't know why he made her angry again, or was it because she didn't like pumpkins?
In my impression, she didn't seem to be so repelled by this food.
After dinner, Pei Shanshan took the initiative to wash the dishes. Seeing Daniel following him, Ruan Xingwan silently withdrew.
She pulled Ruan Chen to the balcony and asked softly: "Are you sick?"
Ruan Chen nodded: "I've taken the medicine and I'm almost fine."
Ruan Xingwan looked at him and said nothing for a while.
Growing up, Xiao Chen rarely got sick, but every time he got sick, it was because of excessive emotional backlog that made the body unable to bear it.
Ruan Chen coughed a few times, turned around, and his eyes fell into the fine rain curtain: "The temperature has dropped in the past two days, so you should pay attention."
Ruan Xingwan changed the subject: "It was Xu Wan who took care of you yesterday?"
Ruan Chen said "Yes": "You asked her to come to me, right?"
Ruan Xingwan pursed his lips and nodded.
Ruan Chen leaned over, put his arm casually on the balcony railing, and said calmly: "I know what you want to say, but it's really not necessary.
I have always told myself that if Ruan Jun dies, I will be free, but it is not until today that I understand that it was never him who trapped me, but the hatred accumulated in my heart."
"I have hated him since I was a child, hated why I was his son, and hated everything he did.
So for everything about him, I was not only disgusted and resisted, but also terrified.
I'm afraid that one day, I will become like him without knowing it."
"When he died, I would dream about him every night. I dreamed that he told me that I would never be able to get rid of him. Even if he died, the same dirty blood as his was still flowing in my body.
He is his only relative in this world."
"He seems to have lived in my body and become my dark side. I'm afraid that one day he will suddenly control my mind and make me become the second him."
Ruan Xing said late: "Xiao Chen..."
She knew that Xiaochen had been living in Ruan Jun's shadow and torture, especially after discovering that she was not Ruan Jun's biological child. His last life-saving straw in this world seemed to have been lost.
If Ruan Xingwan didn't know him too well and told him clearly immediately, he might really put himself and Ruan in the same category and stay away from her.
Ruan Chen continued: "Now that I know that he and I have no blood relationship, it's good, at least I no longer have to think that my destination is him.
As for the rest..."
He paused, and the night covered all the emotions on his face: "You should also have discovered that I have no feelings for them, including when I found her body before, and until the funeral, I didn't even feel sad at all.
To me, they are just strangers I have never met.”
After a long while, Ruan Xingwan finally spoke: "I understand, and I will never force you on this matter again."
Ruan Chen said: "Everything should be the same as before. There is no need to make any changes, and you don't need to deliberately alienate them for me."
Ruan Xingwan knew he was referring to Daniel.
She was silent, but still told him: "William will return to Nancheng after a while."
Then there will only be more opportunities to meet.
There's no way to avoid it.
Ruan Chen said: "I don't want to see him, I just don't know what to say, and I have nothing to say. I'm afraid you will be in trouble."
Ruan Xingwan breathed out: "Let's talk about it then."
all will be good.
Now William doesn't even know about this, and he hasn't met Xiaochen yet.
She was trying to find a sword here, but it couldn't have any effect.
Ruan Chen glanced at the time: "It's getting late, I'll leave first."
Ruan Xingwan said: "It's still raining outside, and you're sick again. Let me drive you."
Ruan Chen said: "No, I'll take a taxi..."
Before he finished speaking, a gust of cold wind hit him, and he coughed twice quickly.
At this time, Zhou Cishen's voice came from the balcony: "I'll send him off."
Ruan Xingwan turned his head and saw Zhou Cishen leaning on the wall behind them, standing there for who knows how long.
Not far away, Pei Shanshan and Daniel were wiping the table and kept looking over here.
Zhou Ci took a deep look at Ruan Chen, turned around and walked forward with long legs: "Let's go."
Ruan Chen didn't say anything and followed him.
After the door closed, Ruan Xingwan sighed silently.
She walked to the dining table and said to Daniel and Pei Shanshan: "Stop wiping, you will wipe the table bald."
Pei Shanshan put down the towel in his hand and smiled awkwardly.
Just when Daniel was about to say something, Ruan Xingwan said: "You should have heard what he just said. That's it. Don't force him anymore."
After a few seconds of silence, Daniel said: "William's side..."
"I'll think about how to tell him."
Daniel said: "Otherwise, let Cheng Wei speak in person.
Although it can't make up for anything, but..."
Ruan Xingwan knew what he meant. Although he couldn't make up for anything, it was still a way to deal with the consequences of the mistakes he had made.
She really doesn't know how to tell William that Xiaochen is actually your biological son, but he has never seen you since you were born and has no feelings for you. He would rather live alone than recognize you?
Daniel added: "I guarantee that he will send the results of the paternity test to William this time and explain everything clearly to him."
Ruan Xingwan also felt a little exhausted and nodded: "Okay."
Pei Shanshan saw that she was very tired, so she pulled Daniel: "Okay, let's go."
Daniel put down what he was holding, nodded to Ruan Xingwan, and then left with Pei Shanshan.
The room became quiet again.
Ruan Xingwan sat on the sofa and couldn't help but sigh again.
She always felt that she knew Xiaochen well enough, but now it seemed that she still didn't care enough for him.
If she could have spent more time with Ruan Jun when he died, his emotions would not have been so suppressed and out of control.