The night was low, the sky was dark, there were no stars or moon, except for the cold wind blowing slowly at night, which blew away some of the smell of alcohol in her.
Her face was buried in the shadows. After a long time, she said softly: "Did you know? In fact, it was me who deceived him. It was me who didn't tell him my true identity. It was me who did something wrong but still blamed him for cheating.
Me, let me down."
At this point, she burst into tears again, but continued, "If I had told him my identity, maybe the result would not be like this. I once thought that if he stayed with me because of my identity,
Together, that’s not what I want, but..."
She shook her head and shed tears. She wiped them away, but more came out. She seemed to be unable to control them. "But, I, I have figured it out now and regret it. I often think that if he knew my identity at that time, he would be with me."
We are together. I am still me, and he is still him, so what’s wrong? Identity is identity, and identity can be used. It’s better than nothing. Why was I so stupid in the first place, why couldn’t I see this clearly?
I thought they would not be so kind to me if they knew my identity, so I deliberately concealed my identity. How could I be so stupid?!"
She buried her head between her legs. The more she talked, the sadder she became. The more she talked, the more she wanted to cry. "Everything is irreversible now. There is no way to make up for it. Why is this happening? Why is this happening? Everything is mine.
It’s my fault, my fault!”
At this moment, she just wants to find someone to talk to, no matter who that person is. Maybe Nalan Xuyan is not her friend, but now only Nalan Xuyan is by her side, and only Nalan Xuyan can understand her.
What are you saying.
Her words were a little messy, but Nalan Xuyan understood it clearly. He leaned against the door, half-hiding his eyes, and whispered: "You are not wrong, even if you confessed your identity to him from the beginning, he would not
Choose you.”
Nalan Fengjin raised his head when he heard this, and looked at Nalan Xuyan in confusion, seeing that he was uncharacteristically at this moment, showing a lack of interest that was different from the past.
She actually thought he would laugh at her, but he didn't. Not only did he not, but he was also very weird. She asked with doubts: "Why? Am I not worthy of him?"
Nalan Xuyan shook his head and said: "No, you are worthy, but your identities are always on opposite sides. You are the crown prince, the legitimate heir to the country, and she is the younger brother of the imperial concubine and the strategist of the imperial concubine.
There is no room for two tigers in a mountain to usurp the throne. Only one of you and the imperial concubine can be left. If he chooses you, he will have to give up his sister and his family. If he chooses Lu Yanran, he may be able to compete with you. Therefore, even if Du Yuze knows that you
Compared with the two identities, he will still choose the Lu family and marry Lu Yanran, but even if you are not abandoned, you will be in a more embarrassing situation in this matter."
Nalan Xuyan did not continue, Nalan Fengjin nodded and said: "I understand..."
The wind in the winter night made her more and more sober. The alcohol had dissipated, and the sobriety left behind made her feel bitter. She just snorted softly and said mockingly: "I thought my identity was very important and easy to use. Although
My identity can make the whole world change its color, but it can't keep a man. Haha, it's so ridiculous. It turns out that I am nothing, and I overestimated myself so ridiculously."
Nalan Xuyan was sitting behind her, looking at her side face in a daze. At this moment, she was not disguised, and her hair had not been combed for a few days. It was scattered randomly behind her, making her look a little more downcast and a little more careless.
lazy.
But even she was so beautiful in this dark moonless and lightless night. His voice became gentle unconsciously, and he said softly: "Don't belittle yourself, your identity is very important, but you are not Du."
The bargaining chip that our family needs most right now.”??