All kinds of emotions came to my mind. They were too complicated to be comprehended, and I was left with only sadness.
"I'm really, a bit stupid."
She said helplessly to Xia Baitian, "I treat you as a brother, but you keep laughing at me."
Xia Botian's calm eyes became confused again.
"Jiaying..."
"Xia Botian, I think you are very good.
But I think you have already made your choice: you definitely cannot accept me continuing to pretend to be a man."
she says.
Xia Botian was silent.
He didn't deny it.
At this moment, lies were not suitable. Ye Jiaying was too transparent, and she would not believe a very lame lie.
"Why do you have to pretend to be a man?"
Xia Botian smiled bitterly, "You must have had a last resort before.
But if you go to Guangzhou, I can solve all these problems for you.
Jiaying, you also want to be yourself, right?"
Ye Jiaying said nothing.
She doesn't want to be a woman again, being a woman is too inconvenient.
In this world, a woman is destined to be inferior, and her ability and reputation will be questioned.
And now, she really wants to be a woman again.
There is no other reason, just for Xu Yinjie.
Xia Botian was also tall and straight, but he never gave Ye Jiaying a sense of security; Xu Yinjie was different.
Maybe Xu Yinjie is stupid and doesn't understand what "weighing" means. He just treats her well, always stands by her side and supports her unconditionally.
She couldn't deny Xia Botian's problem.
"...Commander Chu knows my thoughts and can also see that you are a woman.
It will also be convenient for him.
Jiaying, can you consider it?"
Xia Botian's voice was soft and soft, as if he was coaxing her.
His eyes were focused and hot, and he was sincere and unfailing.
"Sorry, I want to formally reject you."
Ye Jiaying was also very sad.
She has always regarded Xia Botian as a good brother.
Now the break was too sudden, which made her feel endless reluctance.
It's all Xu Yinjie's fault, he messed up everyone's rhythm.
Ye Jiaying believed that Xia Botian definitely didn't want to express his love so hastily and without any preparation or foreshadowing.
Xia Botian smiled bitterly again, his smile astringent.
"Can you think about it again?
I will return to Guangzhou in ten days."
Xia Botian's eyes entangled her, "Jiaying, think about it again, okay?"
"Okay, I will seriously consider it again."
Ye Jiaying couldn't bear to see these bright eyes dim, so she was very cautious.
Xia Botian and his feelings cannot be allowed to be underestimated by anyone.
However, I still felt very sad.
Ye Jiaying walked out.
Xia Botian sat alone, holding a coffee cup, like a wood carving and clay sculpture.
He always remembered that when Ye Jiaying first arrived at the camp, he went to receive the group of military doctors and saw her in the crowd.
At that time, a ray of sunshine fell on her eyebrows, and Xia Botian was shocked to find himself blushing and heartbeating.
It's just that he controlled it very well, and no outsiders noticed anything strange.
Afterwards, he was worried: Was he abnormal? How could he have such strong emotions towards the male doctor?
From then on, he paid special attention to Ye Jiaying.
Soon he discovered the clue: she had a bit of a feminine look, and she looked like a heroic and beautiful woman, so he lost control in front of her.
During that drinking session, Ye Jiaying was very drunk, but Xia Botian didn't drink much.
She got her clothes wet, and he wanted to change her coat; but after unbuttoning it, he saw her slender and long neck, with no Adam's apple; her collarbones were delicate, and her chest was white, wrapped in a thick bra.
His guess was correct.
Afraid that Ye Jiaying would wake up and become suspicious, Xia Botian buttoned up her clothes and did not continue to change.
It's not too wet.
Somehow, he lay on the same bed with her and hugged her tightly.
From then on, his thoughts often showed through his eyes, which caused a lot of rumors in the camp. It was not until he beat the gossipers half to death that these rumors were stopped.