Chapter 154: Face to face, aunt reveals the real Jiuliuli
"2 minutes and 50 seconds, amazing Kanbaru."
"It's okay. Is there nothing going on next?" Kanbaru looked towards the distance of the playground, and at this time, her aunt had disappeared.
"It's gone temporarily."
"Okay, I'll buy a bottle of water."
"ok."
Kanbaru Raku said hello to Nishijima Ohgi, who was counting scores, and began to walk towards the atrium. In front of the shoe-changing area of the teaching building, he saw Aunt Bertha and Principal Tachibana in suits and ties, who seemed to be talking about something.
Auntie and Principal Ju are already related. Jiu Liuli and Qi Mingyue privately call the principal uncle.
"Just looking for the principal...? No, that shouldn't be the case."
Kagawa Raku continued to wait and see, secretly observing their conversation from a distance.
You can see Principal Tachibana looking a little embarrassed in front of her sister, but he still nodded.
Aunt and uncle are now in a state of opposition. As the uncle of two nieces, Tachibana Kiyohara is caught between her sister and brother-in-law. It seems that she is in a dilemma.
After Mrs. Bertha said a few words to him, Principal Orange left and entered the teaching building.
In less than five minutes, Kanbaru saw Principal Tachibana and Tianhai Jiuliuri walking down from the teaching building. Jiuliuli followed behind with his face lowered the whole time, looking like he was not in a good mood.
This is different from the way Kanbaru has seen her these past few days.
Although Jiuliuli has been hiding from her these past few days and will not answer her questions with a smile when she meets her, she always smiles to herself, which makes her seem to be in a good mood.
Now...
What did you find?
Kanbaru's eyes have been focused on Aunt Bertha in front of her. Her long flaxen hair is so beautiful that she looks like the profile in the painting, with confident mouth corners and sky-blue eyes, all of which are quite familiar.
More or less, there are shadows of Qimingyue and Jiuliuli.
Principal Orange brought Jiuliuli to Aunt Bertha. Aunt Bertha smiled and nodded to him, and then Principal Orange left.
Tomato
Facing her daughter, Aunt Bertha showed her gentle and beautiful smile.
The distance was a bit far, and Shen Yuanle couldn't hear what they were communicating, but Jiu Liuli lowered her head in front of her mother the whole time.
Aunt Bertha said a few words to Jiuliuli and guided her towards the back garden of the school.
Kanbaru followed quietly.
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"Are you still practicing at school recently?"
Hiding behind the bushes, Kagura Raku heard these words that Bertha Hekeya said to her daughter by the Houyuan Lake.
"No... I've been quite busy lately."
Kanbaru looked through the leaves of the bushes and could only see the two people standing by the artificial lake. The tall buildings in the distance were reflected in the school's lake.
"Busy? So, what are you busy with? I remember I contacted you by email recently... You have been practicing piano for almost thirteen years, what else could be more important than this."
"..." Tianhai Jiuliuli was silent for a moment beside her mother, and then replied, "Things about the Kyudo club, things in the class, I usually have homework, and I have to cook in the morning...
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"Liuli, you have to know how talented you and Qiyue are at the piano. I won't talk about Qiyue because of what happened before, and Liuli, your talent is even higher than hers... You,
Do you know the weight of your ability?"
"I know...Mom has said it many times."
Tianhai Jiuliuli's voice seemed very weak when she answered her mother's words.
"You leave the duties of squad leader to Qi Qi. Just buy two rice balls for breakfast and cancel the club. There is no need for this kind of thing."
Tianhai Jiuliuli looked up almost instantly and explained to her mother: "But, but that...that's not mom, you——"
"Are you still obsessed with the past?"
"But mom, you clearly told me before -"
"Jiu Liuli, memory is extremely ambiguous... Looking back on yourself eight or nine years ago, don't you just feel particularly naive?"
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"Do you really want to withdraw...?"
"Retired."
Bertha Hekeya held her forehead in trouble and sighed. Her tone could be heard as she was trying to be as calm as possible.
"Liu Li, it's really not necessary. Since you can't go abroad and can't focus all your energy on the piano, you have to spend more time at home... You know what I'm worried about,
The Chopin International Piano Competition held every five years is not far away. If you miss this time, you will have to wait until the next five years, and the next five years. How much time will be wasted?"
"I, I know..."
"Because of Maodian, I can't see you often, and the guidance I can give you is limited. Practice more, and nothing else is important... Do you understand?"
"I understand, I will do what my mother says..."
Kambara couldn't stand listening to this anymore. He knew that his aunt valued Jiuliuli's piano talent, otherwise her aunt wouldn't have mentioned this matter to Jiuliuli many times after the divorce.
But what is this?
As a "daughter", does Jiuliuli only have a "piano talent" value to her aunt?
"As long as you understand. Are there any questions?"
"No more..."
"Well, you go back," Bertha Heikeya glanced at the ladies watch on her wrist, "I still have work to do, so I just took time out to meet you. If I hadn't told your uncle
, I guess Maodian called me again, okay, you can go back."
"Well..."
Kagura looked up again and looked through the bushes at Jiu Liuli, who was bowing her head beside her mother. She was usually gentle and generous, almost a perfect person. But now, she was just a little girl bowing her head beside her mother.
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Have you considered your daughter’s thoughts on this matter?
Jiuliuli always wanted to say something to her mother but didn't dare to say anything.
Kanbaru inexplicably read her inner discomfort from this lost expression.
Qi Mingyue said that her sister was very sad the day her mother left by plane.
Jiuliuli has always regarded her mother as very important, because to her, her mother has always been the window to her soul. She would take her out when she was very young, take her out to eat and see the outside world.
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After that, he would even run to his father's study in the middle of the night, look through the window in the direction where his mother often came in, and keep waiting, hoping that she would come to visit him.
Bertha Heikeya watched Jiu Liuli return to the teaching building and then turned around.
However, when she shifted her gaze to the other side, she saw a person.
A faint smile suddenly appeared on her face, her head tilted slightly, and her blue earlobes shone:
"It's Xiaole, aren't you in class now?"
"Good afternoon, Auntie. We are currently in class, but my period happens to be a physical education class."
"Oh, so you went out for a walk after warming up?"
"A walk?" Kanbaru shook his head, "It's not a walk, Auntie, I just saw you enter the school on the playground. I was very curious about your purpose and followed you here."
"You mean, stalking?" Bertha Hekeya half-smiled.
"Yes."
"Why are you following me?"
"As I said just now, I'm curious about your purpose...but the answer is similar to what I thought. You are indeed here to find Jiuliuli."
Bertha Hekeya speculated with great interest on the purpose of his appearance in front of her, "I came here just to let Jiu Liuli keep practicing the piano. Unexpectedly, the matter at the airport was arranged by that girl in Qiyue. At present, I am not
You may have taken Jiuliuli abroad, from this point of view, you can rest assured."
Bertha Hekeya's tone was very gentle...but it was this gentleness that made Kanbaru feel angry.
"Mrs. Bertha, I want to know what kind of existence Jiuliuli is to you?"
When Kanbaru asked this question solemnly, Bertha Hekeya hesitated slightly.
She guessed the purpose of Kanbaru coming to her.
His expression quickly returned to normal.
"Beloved daughter." Bertha Hekeya's answer was simple.
"Madam, do you know your daughter's feelings for you?"
"Let me think about reluctance, dependence... and the feelings built by the memories of the past together. Let's call this part mother-daughter love."
Bertha Hekeya's tone was very frivolous, as if she was talking about a very ordinary thing.
"Then what did you do with this part of your feelings?"
Bertha Hekeya laughed gently: "You kid is really funny, you actually asked me this question... But I can tell you clearly, I am using this part of my feelings to let Jiuliuli
Try to move closer to the direction I want."
"You are too selfish."
Bertha Hekeya smiled even more: "Yes, I am very selfish, but I don't think there is anything wrong with it. At least Jiuliuli can get the happiness she wants by my side."
"You're just taking advantage."
Bertha Hekeya turned around, faced the mirror-flat lake, shook her head and said: "Xiao Le, why do you care about using or not using, isn't mutual benefit correct? You are happy, I am happy, Jiu Liuli wants to be close to her mother,
And I also hope that she will shine in the piano world. In terms of results, this is absolutely correct."
"You are just trying to satisfy your own selfish desires. Have you ever thought about what Jiuliuli wants for you? Raise an excellent daughter and add a beautiful footnote to your unfulfilled dream. Compared with your mother, I feel that Mrs.
You are more like an agent."
Even if Jiu Liuli did something wrong, I was still angry with her, but the matter was settled in the same way.
What makes Kanbaru Raku angry is that the woman in front of her takes her daughter hostage in the name of mother to accomplish something she doesn't want to accomplish. What is this? Is this also a mother?
For her, Jiuliuli is just a tool to achieve her desired goals.
The corners of Bertha Hekeya's mouth rose, and she had no reaction to his offensive words. She was dull. She could only describe her tone as seeing through everything, "Xiao Le, it seems you still don't understand what I mean."
Through these things, Jiuliuli gained the closeness of her mother, which is the happiness she needs."
"Even if this is all a false illusion?!"
Bertha Hekeya faced him again, crossed her shoulders with her hands, then stretched out an arm and continued to say to Kamarale: "It's not an illusion. Jiuliuli got what she wanted. This is the fact."
"You keep telling the truth and don't care about your identity at all, do you?"
"You want to say 'mother'? Xiaole, I think I have already said that to Jiuliuli, I am still her mother, no matter what my actions are."
"Mrs. Bertha, Jiuliuli still doesn't know that you are no longer the mother she remembers, right? Ms. Bertha."
Bertha Heikeya's face froze after being said.
Kagura Raku continued to refute: "In Jiuliuli's view, her mother is the one who gives her care and love, her mother's love for her, the warmth her mother brings to her... Now when she was a child, Jiuliuri was a caged bird, and
Madam, for Jiuliuli, you are the wings that take her out of the cage, the window through which you can see the world... Now you are, at best, just a liar who uses your past self to deceive your daughter." p>
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Bertha Hekeya also laughed, her shoulders swaying as she laughed. She stretched out her hand and lightly covered the corner of her mouth, and the jewelry in her left ear seemed to sparkle with her laughter.
"So, Xiaole, do you think I did something wrong?"
"No doubt, wrong."
Bertha Hekeya raised her beautiful chin, and the single earring on the left side shone brightly under the reflection of the light on the lake, "Xiao Le, I don't deny what you said. It doesn't matter whether you call me a liar or selfish.
Okay, it doesn’t matter if you are not worthy of being a mother... Your purpose is nothing more than to want me to take less care of Jiuliuli’s affairs, but if she loses me, do you know what this means?
"She will lose her goal and the happiness she wants. Even if this is my deception, this is the goal she needs... For her, whether it is the piano or the kyudo,
It was all because of me, she was just responding to my expectations... What would she have if she lost me? Who could give her anything? Maodian already owed her and Qiyue, in the current situation
, let alone asking her to do anything!
"She is different from Qiyue. She doesn't have anything she wants. All she can do is spread her tenderness and let everyone feel how good she is, and then gain the feeling that she is needed.
"In the final analysis, Xiaole, you still don't understand Jiuliuli well enough."
Kanbaru felt an indescribable depression in his heart, and a fire of ignorance was slowly rising in his heart.
He knew he was angry, so he tried his best to suppress his voice from shaking.
"Mrs. Bertha, even if what you said is true, even if Jiuliuli needs you to give her a goal, as a mother, as a mother, don't you think you are going too far?!
"As a mother, is Jiuliuli just a tool to you?!"
Bertha Hekeya's expression is still calm, so calm that she seems to be fully aware of her mistakes and can continue to implement them:
"If my news is correct, you don't have a good relationship with Liuli at the moment, right? You even moved out on purpose... That kid from Jiuliuli said it was his fault... That kid from Jiuliuli
As long as you are wrong, you will definitely run to apologize, and you haven't gone home yet, which proves that you haven't forgiven her yet. In this month, Jiuliuli must have apologized to you countless times?...
.Aren’t you hurting her more than me?
"As a 'persecutor', I can still give Jiuliuli a target and the sense of presence she needs.
"What can you give Liuli?"
What can I give Jiuliuli?
Bertha Hekeya's words were like a sharp blade, piercing straight into his chest.
Yes...yes, what can I give Jiuliuli?
Aren’t you still angry with her and hating her?
In the face of her sincere apology, she said such cruel words as "Don't pester me again."
The words were very serious and heartless, and Jiu Liuli cried because of it.
Qi Mingyue also said that her sister went home and cried alone for a long time...
But the next day, Kanbaru saw Jiu Liuli with a smile on her face. She took out the bento she had made early and gave it to her with biscuits.
I was still feeling angry at the time, and the first thing I thought about when I got Jiuliuli's stuff was to throw her biscuits into the trash can...
Now that I think about it, hahaha, this is really a childish approach.
Kagura Raku was not only angry at Bertha Hekeya's unselfconscious attitude as a mother, but also at her own childishness in the past.
It can be said that I have let go of the previous things and can deal with them calmly.
But facing Jiu Liuli, who wanted to sincerely apologize, he still said such heartless words to her as "Don't pester me again."
No wonder Jiuliuli immediately and decisively agreed when faced with her request to keep making bento.
Not only does she feel guilty that she has done something wrong, but she also feels that she is needed.
She couldn't stand her mother's behavior and took the initiative to point out the other party's mistakes... But in the final analysis, Bertha could still give Jiuliuli a goal, but she... couldn't give her anything.
What on earth are you doing...?
Bertha Hekeya had a gentle expression and shook her head: "If there is nothing else I want to ask, I will leave first...I have no hostility towards you, Xiaole. Even what you say makes sense to me.
We all understand, but the reality is this, that child Liuli is in need of love."
Lack of love...?
Indeed... no wonder Jiuliuli, who has always been gentle and generous, said thank you to herself at the beginning for cooking for her.
No wonder Jiuliuli always wants to help herself and doesn't want to overwork herself.
No wonder Jiuliuli works hard to take care of herself when she is sick.
No wonder Jiu Liuli would cast a different look when she let A Ling act coquettishly.
No wonder he went to buy himself a set of clothes and put them on himself after dating him.
In the final analysis, Jiuliuli lacks love and her own sense of existence.
That's why she thinks about everyone, and the only sister who understands her.
And therefore made a mistake...
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Kambara becomes complicated again. She made a mistake, why should I care about her mood?
Why do you have to stand up for her and refute your aunt after you don't like what she said?
Jiuliuli feels uncomfortable, isn’t that what she wants to see?
No, no, no, absolutely not.
Cheating...
Kagawa Raku seemed to be cheerful and figured it out.
Yes, I have been deceiving myself.
Say you don’t care, just face it calmly.
I will never forgive Jiuliuli, just live your own life.
This is completely contrary to my own heart.
In fact, I have been escaping all the time, even when Kiyosawa Otoye suggested that I take the initiative to face Jiuliuli, it was all escaping.
The real confrontation should be to face one's own heart.
Bullying others, taking advantage of others, and making others uncomfortable are never things that I want to see.
"Auntie," Shen Yuanle, who had thought everything through, calmly raised his head and looked at Bertha Hekeya again, "I will not admit what you did."
"Oh? Then what do you want to do? Our relationship now is actually closer. Let me think about how to say that word, by the way, accomplice."
"Auntie, we are completely different from the starting point. I am deceiving myself, and you are deceiving others, and you are still using your own daughter. No matter from any angle, we are far from being accomplices." "In terms of results, we are all doing the same thing."
"I always believe that the process is more important than the result."
"Without results, the process is dispensable. Only results can explain the problem."
Kanbaru smiled relievedly and said: "I am not denying consequentialism, and I have no intention of correcting your ideas. I think I have gained enough from you, thank you."
"What?"
Bertha Hekeya watched with her own eyes as he bowed slightly to her, turned around and left.
"You have gained the most from me...? What do you mean..."
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Kagura Raku turned around and left the artificial lake in the back garden, and Bertha Hekeya also turned around and walked towards the school gate a few seconds later.
Stepping on the cobblestone road of the Islamic teaching building, Kanbaru carefully recalled the conversation he had with his aunt just now... There is no point in correcting her right or wrong. What is important now is how to make Jiuliuli realize her true thoughts.<
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Anyone who is respected and loved says she is just a tool would feel uncomfortable, right?
So...how to make Jiuliuli recognize and accept this calmly?
...While Kanbaru was thinking about it, he suddenly stopped.
He put down the hand holding his chin and looked at a young girl with her legs in surprise, squatting behind a shrub and flower bed.
The girl in Western-style school uniform is leaning against the flower bed, her head lowered, her flaxen hair hanging down behind... There is an indescribable haggardness and sadness on her small face...
Kaname Yuara subconsciously opened his mouth and shouted her name: