Chapter 199 In the snow, Sakakihara Raku made a choice
"I said it was an accident, do you believe it?" Kanwara retracted his hand in embarrassment. This hand was still a bit unruly, and after leaving, he unconsciously moved it back.
"What do you think?"
"..."
"In fact, it was an accident."
"It doesn't matter if it was an accident or not. What's important is that you have betrayed your sister one more time." Tianhai Qimingyue pulled the quilt over her neck, "Do you want to do it again?"
"I really did it, Qi Mingyue, are you afraid?"
"You can give it a try."
The two of them just looked at each other under the covers.
Qimingyue...
Having just escaped from the dream, and now facing the blue eyes of Tianhai Qimingyue, Kanbaru felt a sense of nostalgia in his heart.
Probably... I feel distressed.
He thought so.
"Qi Mingyue really wants me to be a scumbag?"
"It's not that I want to. It's that you are."
Kanbaru felt a little depressed in his heart, but he tried to smile and said: "I also think I am the kind of complete scumbag, the kind of scumbag who can put aside all feelings and never be timid. But you understand Qimingyue, right?
, I have never been like this. If I were, it would be impossible for me to have such a good relationship with Ah Ling now, and it would also be impossible for me to get back together with Jiuliuli."
"You are right, but you are still a scumbag, just not that deep."
Scumbag...
Kagura Raku feels like she really wants to be a scumbag now.
He is absolutely uneasy about Jiuliuli.
The Seven Bright Moons in the Sky and the Sea...the same applies.
She is different from ordinary people. She is a person who will always make progress even after being rejected in every possible way.
She is special.
Unique.
She put down her self-esteem again and again and expressed her feelings to herself again and again.
She remembers everything she did to her when she was a child.
She remembers every promise he made to her.
That little girl in the rainy season adores, admires and loves herself so much.
So much so that her every move and every word of encouragement deeply affected her, and she worked tirelessly to achieve it.
Chilled potato chips, reading books, sharks, and being a confident and knowledgeable person...
These are all.
If you say that in your previous life you were a poor guy who didn’t care about anything.
Then in this life, I have actually gained what I want most.
To be loved, to be cared for, to be respected...
I just didn’t realize it.
——At this moment, once again facing the gaze of the seven bright moons in the sky and sea.
Kagura Raku felt as if he was in that real dream again, seeing the poor little girl who stretched out her hands to him on a rainy day and asked him to abduct her.
"Why do you look at me like that?" Tianhai Qimingyue's eyes were as cold as ice, "Are you secretly using me for lust again at night?"
"?"
Qi Mingyue's direct words put out all the emotions he had been brewing for a long time with cold water.
Obviously, I wanted to apologize to her just now.
But the way she looked made me want to block her mouth.
That’s fine, Kambara doesn’t want to make the atmosphere so heavy.
He smiled and replied:
"Auntie, don't think you are so perfect, okay? I have paranoia every day."
"Oh, I don't know where someone put their hands just now." Tianhai Qimingyue was even more disdainful.
"I was dreaming just now, it was an unconscious behavior."
"You mean you don't have to be responsible if you raped me while you were sleepwalking?"
"This wouldn't have happened if you hadn't come to my room?"
"Weak person," Tianhai Qimingyue raised her eyes with a contemptuous expression, "You are just deflecting the conflict."
"Then if you let me touch you again, I promise to take responsibility."
"You can touch me if you want? You have to understand that you can only listen to me. This is what you owe me."
"Okay, okay, whatever you say," Kagura Le took the initiative to surrender, and then his eyes became serious, "But Qi Mingyue, you are right, I am a scumbag. I want to treat everyone with my heart, and I still look at it
I can’t bear to see people sad, and I can’t bear to see people lonely... As a result, I feel sorry for everyone."
Tianhai Qimingyue felt like she was looking at an idiot: "It seems that what I said yesterday was not clear enough, and you did not understand what I meant."
"No, I understood it yesterday, but I didn't think it through. Now I have figured it out."
"So, what are you going to do? Decisively cut off my feelings for you?"
"I will never do this." Kambara is quite firm.
The meaning of his words is self-evident.
"..."
Tianhai Qimingyue was quiet for a long time. During this period, she glanced at Kaname Yuara several times with an expression that was indescribably complicated.
But she quickly sighed and said:
"It seems that I still underestimated how much of a scumbag you are. I didn't expect to accept it so quickly. Tell me why you suddenly became like this."
"This is not the state you expected?"
"Having said that, I think you should have an acceptance process."
"What process can this take?"
Tianhai Qimingyue thought for a while, then took his wrist and put it on her face and said:
"You faced my feelings but didn't want to betray your sister, but you really couldn't control your scumbag nature. After getting into deeper and deeper contact, you began to do whatever you wanted to me, without thinking...
...Then, one day, my sister accidentally discovered our relationship, and you stood up naked, pointing at me in a panic and explaining to your sister, 'No, Jiuliuli, no, it's not what you saw.
That way, I thought that was——'"
"Stop, stop, wait, brake quickly."
"Isn't it interesting?"
"How interesting is this? Really, Liuli would have to stab me eight hundred times, the kind that penetrates me from front to back."
"Liu Li?"
"...This is so normal."
Tianhai Qimingyue suddenly lost interest, sat up, and lifted her hair back.
The girl's fair neck is exposed.
"Are you going to get up?"
Because Kambara was lying next to her bed, seeing her getting up like this, he felt like an old married couple.
"I probably understand what you mean," Tianhai Qimingyue answered the question. She tied her hair with an elastic band and said, "Although I don't understand why you suddenly changed so much, and you don't want to explain it, the fact is that you obviously don't want to
Give up on me, right?"
"That's it.
”
The girl, who only wore a suspender dress on her upper body, had her back to the window, and her snow-white skin was illuminated brightly.
Tianhai Qimingyue tied her hair into a ponytail. She put down her hands, looked at Kambara and said:
"Then are you prepared to completely betray your sister?"
"Not prepared."
Tianhai Qimingyue withdrew her gaze, obviously unhappy, and even her tone became colder: "Then you still have a long way to go. After what happened before, neither I nor my sister will give in to the other party.
."
"What about harmonious coexistence?"
Kanbaru Raku's words directly caused Tianhai Qimingyue to give him a very cold and condescending look. The stare sent chills down one's spine.
"That depends on whether you have the ability."
......
Seven Bright Moon.
Seven Bright Moon.
Seven Bright Moon.
Seven bright moons in the sky and sea.
The name was repeated in my mind, and along with it was that face that had almost no calm color.
She has long flaxen hair, gold-rimmed glasses, and long black silk legs under a pleated skirt. While she likes to hold a book, the girl doesn't care about the people and things around her.
He is condescending, looks down on others, and likes to tease others.
She has a complex personality, is cold, arrogant, a little devil, and has a poisonous tongue...
There are too many elements.
But it was this kind of person who followed him behind him every day when he was a child, always shouting "Brother, brother, brother...".
She used to really want to see herself, and she was eager to see herself.
Before leaving, she even regarded the gift she gave her as a treasure.
She also remembered a casual word of encouragement from her when she was a child and made it her lifelong goal.
The reason is that what she is doing to herself now is the fruit of her own sowing.
Kanbaru placed his hands on the edge of the open window and followed the road with his eyes, looking at the bus stop with only a black dot on the roadside in the distance.
It was obviously a dream.
Some scenes seem like yesterday.
A week has passed since I remembered what happened when I was a child.
The relationship between myself and Qi Mingyue has not changed.
I began to understand and learn to accept her feelings in my heart.
She——
Well, she still hasn't changed anything.
Although she expressed her love to herself, she and Jiuliuli had the same idea and would not give in to each other because of the relationship between sisters.
Kambaraku now needs to consider two points.
First, how to tactfully inform Jiuliuli of her thoughts and try to prevent her from being hurt more.
Second, how to handle the relationship between two people tactfully so that they can reach a level of...acquiescence.
......
Well, Kanbaru himself feels that he is too shameless.
It's so shameless that I want to slap myself.
But isn’t that what a scumbag is?
He doesn't want to give up, so the only way is to become a scumbag.
Let’s not talk about whether it can be successful, what the result will be, the reaction of uncle and mother...but we have to try.
......
I was trying to persuade myself, but I still felt a little uncomfortable.
Next, Kanbaru believes that we need to find a goal for ourselves, a goal that can grow.
Make yourself qualified enough and worthy of that status.
How did you say that sentence?
Yes, bid farewell to the once cowardly and hesitant self.
What you gain on this road is not only the value of life, but also the sublimation of confidence.
"It's time to change things a bit, Kanbaru Raku."
Kanbaru looked at himself in the mirror and let out a sigh of relief.
Why does this sound so middle-class?
Today is the time for grandma to be discharged from the hospital.
This time we returned to Matsuyama City and after picking up grandma from the hospital, we will return to Tokyo from our hometown.
In the hospital.
While the mother was taking the two of them to go through the discharge procedures in the hospital, the grandmother, who seemed very energetic after her recovery, took her grandson alone and asked, "Last time, didn't you go to the movies with July Girl?"
"Grandma, you want to ask how it turned out, right?" Kanbaru smiled.
Grandma looked at him with a silly smile on his face and said in a strange tone: "Is your silly grandson enlightened? Tell grandma quickly."
"The process was many and long. I went to see a movie and then went shopping, and also went to an amusement park... In the end, I kissed her."
"She agreed?"
"Hmm."
"That's good, that's good, that's good."
When grandma heard this, she nodded with joy, her grandson had indeed become enlightened.
"Did she agree?"
"Well, not yet. But grandma, you have to keep it a secret from me."
"I know you young people like to play sneaky. Well, grandma will keep it a secret for you."
The old lady was a little nostalgic, and she talked about the old story of how Kambaraku and Tianhai Qimingyue met when they were young. Kambaraku knew that the old lady wanted to find someone to talk to, so she listened to everything.
The old lady said how the little girl came to see him like this, how she secretly looked at you from behind, and how she looked like she wanted but didn't dare to say anything in front of you.
Later, the girl also brought a lot of money, hundreds of thousands of yen in cash. When grandma asked, she said it was for her brother. How could grandma dare to accept it, so she gave it back to her mother.
He was quite surprised.
——Because this is something Kanbaru Raku doesn’t know.
After picking up grandma and returning home, Kanbaru and her mother cooked a reunion dinner for everyone, and grandma also wanted to join in.
Naturally, only Qi Mingyue and A Ling were waiting in the living room.
They are a little uncomfortable now.
Wait...it seems like they were not easy to deal with before.
Always against each other.
Grandma seemed very enthusiastic at the dinner table, always picking up dishes for Qi Mingyue and telling her many things.
This made Ah Ling full of jealousy and made her mother confused.
However, she thought that the old lady probably liked her nominal granddaughter, so she didn't ask too many questions.
Early the next morning, the four of them packed up and put on their clothes and stood at the door of grandma's house.
The heavy snowstorm of the past few days has stopped, and the sky has cleared up. The sun pierced the clouds and slanted down. The vegetable patch covered with a film at the door was illuminated brightly.
Snow has been shoveled away from the door of every house, clothes are hung on the clothes-drying rods, firewood is piled up to the door eaves, orange cats are lying on top and taking a nap, and smoke drifts upward from the chimneys behind the black roof ridges.<
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"Hey, Meihe, you have changed a lot now. You have a lot more temperament. No wonder that young master likes you."
"Mom, Maodian doesn't like this statement."
"Looking at you and looking out, I feel that you have been the same since childhood."
The old lady is a very optimistic person. When she heard that several people were going back to Tokyo, she didn't feel sad at all.
Instead, they kept saying, "Go away quickly, don't worry about me."
Instead, my mother began to feel a little reluctant to part with her mother:
"Mom, please take care of yourself. Your health is the most important thing. Don't tire yourself out just for a few cabbages. Now we don't lack the material things we need in life."
"I only have this kind of fun, so what's the difference between money and money? What's more, the material things in life, the fine things in life, aren't they just money?"
"Why don't you come and live with us in Tokyo?"
"Tokyo? That place is not good," the old lady shook her head after hearing this. "The air is not good, and you can't grow vegetables. Living there is not as comfortable as in the countryside. I will recuperate and wait for the old man to come back. I will listen to him and go out for a trip."
."
"Okay, that's fine. Remember to ask dad to take you out for a walk. You will be in a good mood. Also, mom, eat less salt. Don't get high blood pressure again."
"I know, I know."
"By the way, brother, why didn't grandpa come back?" Kanbaru Suzu asked quietly from behind Kanbaru Raku.
She is indeed an idiot sister.
"It snowed heavily a few days ago. We had to watch the time when we were going out by car. Do you think my grandpa will be able to come back from traveling abroad?"
"Oh, that's it."
If it wasn't a snowy day, Tianhai Jiuliuli would actually come over.
She told herself about this online.
Mom and grandma argued for a long time about whether to go to Tokyo, but in the end mom lost to grandma.
According to the grandmother, she has lived in this place all her life, and her feelings and roots are here. She and the old man also met on this land. She can't leave and doesn't want to disturb her daughter's life.
She knows that as long as her daughter is living well now.
"Mom, let's go."
"Oh, let's go, let's go."
"Grandma, goodbye."
"Goodbye, grandma!"
"Goodbye, grandma."
"Okay! Goodbye, come back when you have time, and I'll ask the old man to make some seafood for you."
Everyone waved to grandma who was standing on the snow, saluted, and got back on the bus bound for the city.
"Brother, I'm sleepy~"
"...Why do you sleep in every day? What did you do at night?"
"A girl's secret."
"I still have a boy's secret, okay, okay, you go to sleep."
"Brother, it's better to be nice to me~ I'll sing to you when I get back."
"I'll be thankful if you wash two more dresses."
"There is nothing you can do. Who asked you to raise me to waste?"
Tianhai Qimingyue was sitting by the window, and there was a thick and warm light outside the window. The bus set off along the country road and drove towards the city. The black roofs of the village gradually disappeared, and the sky gradually became clear and snowy.
The countryside and white mountains flash into view, and the light shines through the car window from the east side of the mountain ridge line to the ground far away inside the car.
Half of the girl's beautiful cheeks are bathed in light, and her flaxen hair is so smooth that it shines brightly.
The vehicle continues to drive.
In the sound of the engine, the scenery of the road flickered. Tianhai Qimingyue, who had no color in her eyes, suddenly seemed to sense something. She raised her head and looked involuntarily towards a rural platform that was getting closer and closer in front of her.
.
Under the rural platform, a little girl in a blue dress was sitting there quietly with her head bowed.
Tianhai Qimingyue saw the little girl in the distance ahead.
The station is getting closer and closer, but it is moving, becoming more and more blurry.
The bus is approaching.
Tianhai Qimingyue had an impulse in her heart that she hadn't seen for a long time. As if she wanted to try hard to see something clearly, she subconsciously and involuntarily put her hand against the window and looked back.
But the little girl just flashed by, drifting away, and for a moment, she was no longer visible.
Tianhai Qimingyue seemed to have suddenly lost something in her heart. She lowered her eyes slightly and wanted to look away.
But at this moment, the sparkling waves slammed against the coast on the other side of the pastoral, and the white residual light splashed out from the waves made her squint her eyes.
When she got used to it again, she suddenly discovered that in front of the seat, in front of the gap between the window and the back of the seat, Kanbaru Le was also leaning against the window, as if looking at something far away, maintaining the same posture as him.
posture.
When the girl looked at him, he turned his head back just in time.
Vision through the narrow gap.
The four eyes meet.
"...Are you okay?"
Tianhai Qimingyue's heart trembled.
That call suddenly emerged from the depths of her memory, and for a moment, she seemed to have returned to that afternoon soaked by the rain.
It was on that afternoon that a strange boy, carrying a hatchet and tape, spoke to her for the first time in the rain.
"Seven bright moons?"
Tianhai Qimingyue's heart began to tremble for a long time. She avoided looking, but she couldn't help but want to take another look at the gap.
He smiled.
Just like the boy before talking to me, smiling.
Tianhai Qimingyue sighed, closed her eyes, and sat up straight again.
......
Kanhara Raku in front looked at her for a while, then withdrew his gaze. Soon, his phone received a message that just popped up.
[idiot]
Kanbaru smiled when he saw the message. While letting Aling lie on his lap to sleep, he tapped the screen with his fingers and replied:
[Should it be followed by, ‘I like you’?]
......
[idiot]
Kagura Raku turned around and looked at the girl behind him through the gap in the seat.
She looked at herself, her cheeks bathed in light, and her hair flying in the breeze.
......
Kambara pointed the phone at the gap between the car seat and the window.
Katcha.
[Sure enough, I still think you look very beautiful while riding in the car, and I can’t help but want to take a photo.]