Chapter 232 In confusion, Sakakibara determined his new goal for the first time
"Le, let's create a band."
"Le, let's create a band."
"Le, let's create——"
"Stop!"
In the campus cafeteria at noon, Kanhara Raku withdrew his hand to stop Amami Nozuki under the gaze of many classmates and seniors. He crossed his arms, closed his eyes and lowered his eyebrows. After waiting for the students around him to no longer care about this place, he continued to face the person opposite.
The girl who suddenly came to talk to me said:
"I generally understand, Zhixue, your desire to form a band."
"Then join." Tianhai Zhixue blinked.
"It's not that simple." Shen Yuanle shook his head.
"Why?"
Kanbaru folded his arms and was silent for a long time. After thinking for a while, he opened his eyes slightly and looked at the natural and beautiful girl sitting opposite him. "The main reason is that I don't want to treat something as important with other than pure purposes."
Tianhai Zhixue tilted her head slightly to express doubts.
Kanbaru Raku explained: "Before you entered this school, in order to maintain attendance, I stayed in the music club for a while. For this purpose, I also learned piano and participated in an orchestral ensemble at the cultural festival."<
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"Oh." Tianhai Zhixue seemed to have not completely listened.
"However, after that, although I still like the piano, and although I still like to use my own hands to play the music I like, although I still can't help but feel itchy when I see an open piano in a shopping mall, but for me
Say...my love for the piano cannot compare with the instrumental nature of the piano for me. I don't really like to turn a hobby into something so utilitarian."
"Le has clearly said before that he wants to form a band."
......
Kagura Raku felt that what he just said was in vain.
"A Ling told you, right? This is different. When I asked Qi Mingyue and Jiu Liuli to form a band, the purpose was just to bring them together and create a certain space for them to get along. It was also a bit of a joke.
It means, after all, I don’t think we can really bring them together with a band.”
Kanbaru put down his hand.
"But if you ask me, Yuki, the meaning of this band will be completely different. Judging from your behavior of touching a guitar every day when you turn off the lights, I know that you really like rock and roll. I don't like music that much, and
It's not a wise choice for a newbie who doesn't know anything about rock music to join your band."
"..."
Kozuki didn't speak for quite a while.
So Kanbaru asked: "Do you understand?"
Tianhai Zhixue nodded.
"Then it's good that you understand," Kambara breathed a sigh of relief, "Then this matter——"
"Let's start a band."
"..."
"Yuki, can't you understand what I mean?"
Tianhai Zhixue nodded flatly without emotion: "Yeah."
"Then you——"
"Happy."
"Huh?"
"Obviously as long as we form a band, we can bring Xiaoqi and Xiaojiu in."
"So, Zhixue, the problem is not here. It's that I don't want to waste your love because of my affairs."
"Why waste?"
"..."
"Obviously Le's troubles can be solved as long as he agrees to form a band. He obviously doesn't have to think about so many things. Le, why don't you agree."
Why not agree?
Kanbaru was thinking about this question in his mind.
On the one hand, as he said above, he doesn’t want the things Kozuki loves to become his tools.
On the other hand, he no longer wants to give up on something halfway.
What he needs is a goal, a long-term goal that is as important as the first half of his life and even his whole life, just like senior Qingya.
What he actually needs most now is this.
Instead of trying to make do with each other to create a band in the short term to bring Jiu Liuli and Qi Mingyue together.
That would be too childish.
Seeing that Amami no Snow still didn't understand what he said, Kanbaru expressed his meaning to her as briefly as possible and explained the reason why he couldn't agree to her.
But after hearing this, Tianhai Zhixue still had that slightly tilted head and a confused expression.
"You still don't understand." Kanbaru sighed. He didn't really expect Yuki, a girl with a blank slate, to understand his thoughts.
"Happy."
"Well..."
"I don't understand what Le said."
"I know, but you just need to understand that I won't be passionate about forming a band with you now."
"Did Le refuse?"
"Yes."
"Obviously I don't have any goals now."
"Of course it is——"
Wait...
Amami no Yuki's words suddenly made Kanbaru fall into deep thoughts again.
That's right, even though I don't have any goals now, I can definitely take the band thing seriously, so why do I still refuse?
Kanbaru frowned.
It seems... not quite right again.
He himself doesn’t know whether he loves music or not. He has the energy to pursue this hobby as a goal just like running.
Can I really join a good band and help Zhixue form the band?
What's the use of forming a band without passion and perseverance?
In the midst of right and wrong, Kanbaru felt that he seemed to understand, but also seemed not to understand.
The questions swirling in his mind made him so depressed that he couldn't think of how to answer them.
So, he had no choice but to say to Tianhai Zhixue:
"Zhixue, wait a moment and let me think about it and answer you."
"Oh."
*
Kanhara Raku has been thinking about this problem all day long.
Going to class, after school, running, making dinner...
This kind of depression followed Kanbaru all day long. He wanted to find someone to learn from, but he could never find a suitable person to start this topic. After all, it involved trying to bring Qi Mingyue and Jiu Liuli to reconcile...
.At this stage, it is really my best choice to talk to them.
After dinner, Kanbaru was alone on the balcony, looking at Tokyo Tower under the night sky, and at the buildings in the city that were illuminated by lights inside the glass curtain walls.
"Why should I start forming this band?"
I still couldn't figure out the answer to this question in my mind. As the glass door of the balcony was pushed open, I thought it was Tianhai Jiuliuli who came to talk to me after a rest, but I didn't expect that it was Tianhai Jiuliuli who was wearing square-framed glasses, with a handsome face and a handsome dress.
Shimonori Amami, who was wearing a blue-collar suit and walked to the balcony.
He is here to collect clothes.
I happened to see Kanbaru Raku looking back.
"The balcony is very cold." Tianhai Maodian looked at him and said.
Kanbaru Raku heard a hint of Qi Mingyue's words from his uncle's tone.
Should I say they are worthy of being father and daughter?
Although the relationship is not too close, there are still some similarities.
The uncle's words were actually asking him what he was doing on the balcony.
"Looking at Tokyo Tower." Kanbaru replied with a smile.
"Looking at Tokyo Tower?" Amami Shigenori glanced at the dark sky five kilometers away under his square-framed glasses, and finally returned to Kambara's face, "It looks like you are thinking about something."
Kanbaru was surprised at his uncle's keen intuition, and replied with a normal expression: "Indeed, there is."
"What are you thinking about?" Tianhai Maodian asked directly, and casually took off his and his mother's clothes, "About Qiyue and Liuli? They quarreled because of you recently?"
It feels very awkward to talk about this in front of my uncle.
He always had the feeling that his uncle was actually very dissatisfied.
——Even the future father-in-law still looks as normal.
"No," Kanbaru said truthfully, and quickly added, "But it does have something to do with them. Because of my affairs, Qi Mingyue and Jiu Liuli have been in a cold war attitude. I really want to repair them.
relationship."
"Tell me what you think." Amami Shigenori was still putting away his clothes, but judging from his words, he was a little interested in hearing how Kambara wanted to repair the relationship between his two daughters.
After that day, in his understanding, his two daughters were in a state of being unable to let go of their feelings.
Kanbaru said rather bitterly: "Uncle, to be honest, I don't know how to reconcile them. All I can think of is to let them get close to each other, and through proximity, they will accidentally develop a certain affection."
Amami Shidenori paused, "Well, this idea is reasonable, close the distance, and then what? What are you going to do?"
"I have been asking them to run in the morning before... It seems to have had a little effect, but now they are running all the time."
"Failed."
"Yes."
Amami Madeni put down the hand holding the clothes and pondered for a moment: "But I feel that you are not thinking about this matter. There are many ways to bring them closer, so that you will not worry about this matter." p>
"Yes." Kamigahara nodded and told him about the conversation with Zhixue at noon today.
......
Amami Madenori was holding several pieces of clothing in his right hand, and finished listening to the series of words Kambaraku explained to him just now.
"The summary is that you don't want to take advantage of Zhixue's hobbies, and at the same time you are confused about what kind of long-term goal you should set."
Kanbaru opened his mouth and sighed in his heart that he was indeed an elder, the eldest son of the Tianhai family.
After listening to it, the words spoke to my heart.
He nodded: "Yes."
"So A Le, let me ask you, do you have your own goals now?"
My uncle has almost the same meaning as Zhixue at noon!
——This idea came to Kambara's mind for the first time.
"No."
"No need to do anything?"
"Looking for."
"Then are you looking for it?"
After Kambaraku heard this, the cold wind outside the balcony seemed to penetrate his brain, and he shrank suddenly.
Tianhai Maodian continued:
"Ale, your confusion comes from your confusion. You don't know how to move forward, and you don't know how to move forward. Such confusion limits your steps, and it also limits your thinking.
"Zhixue has taken the initiative to open up a path for you, a path that allows you to find your own goals.
"Joining a band is not about taking advantage of the band. Joining a band and wanting to reconcile Qi Mingyue and Jiu Liuli through the band is not an impure purpose. What people pursue on a path is never simple, just like if you love running,
But you will also use running to relax stress, use running to get the enjoyment that attracts your attention, and use running to improve your body and persistence."
Amami Madenori raised his head to the clothes drying pole again, stretched out his hand, and slowly took off the remaining pieces of clothing one by one.
"Loving something does not require lofty ambitions or noble moral character. Sometimes it is just a very simple reason - 'money', which brings you into contact with this path.
"This is the beginning, what about the end? If you just want money at the beginning, can you deny your love for this thing in the future?
"People are on the road to searching for something throughout their lives, and it is not necessary to clarify everything before they can start. What you lack is just an opportunity.
Uncle's words came into my mind slowly.
It was like an enlightenment that completely awakened Kamigahara.
Yes, why do you have to deny everything from the beginning?
Why do you have to characterize the idea of using the band to reconcile the two sisters as mere exploitation from the beginning?
No one’s purpose is pure.
Just like Zhixue, he will use his own music to contribute to video websites in order to gain fans and attention!
Even if you have no goals, you may be able to feel the love through this band and feel the motivation to work hard!
They will even work hard to get this small band to perform at the Tokyo Budokan!
And you can also gain a lot from it.
With Jiuliuli, Qi Mingyue, A Ling, Zhixue...their companionship and growth.
Witness them as they climb up with you?
Witness your small band supporting each other along the way and reaching the pinnacle of your dreams?!
Companion.
Isn’t this what I look forward to and cherish most in my entire life?!
......
For a moment, Kagura Raku felt that his mood was agitated and heated.
He seems to really know what he should do and what he should aim for.
Tianhai Maodian stood in front of him, saw his silence, and placed the last piece of clothing on the hanger on the pile of clothes on his left hand: "It seems that you have figured it out."
Kanbaru let out a long sigh of relief and tried his best to calm down his excitement, "Thank you, uncle, for being willing to say these words to me."
"I didn't do anything. In fact, you always knew it in your heart. I just missed a sentence or two to help you clear your mind."
Amami Madenori continued to look at his stepson, "I won't say more. After all, it has been decided long ago that you can handle your relationship yourself. But as a father, I still hope that you will not regret the feelings of either Liuli or Qiyue.
Especially the child in July..."
Kanbaru Raku looked at his uncle who was feeling inexplicably emotional.
Just listen to him say: "When I was five years old, I dared to run across half of Japan to find you, and I have never forgotten you all these years... The more she did this, the more clearly I understood that Bertha and I had
How sorry I am for her.
"And Liuli, even at the age of fifteen, she still regards her mother as her goal in life. Even if she knows that Bertha is lying to her, she will still believe it and do it.
"I ignored their existence. As their father - a person who has ignored them for too long, what I want to see most is that they can get the happiness they want... This is when I started to relax
One of the reasons why their lives will not stand in the way of you, Ah Le, do you understand?"
In the neon-lit city of Tokyo, my stepfather’s words on the balcony were serious and heartfelt.
"Maodian, haven't you taken back your clothes yet?"
My mother’s call came from the living room corridor.
"I will do my best." Kanbaru replied solemnly.
"Hmm."
Amami Shigenori reached out and patted Kambaraku's shoulder, took the clothes he just took off, pushed open the sliding door of the balcony, and walked in.
Kanbaru looked back at his stepfather. This was the first time he felt the care from his father.
Uncle Tianhai is actually the kind of person who has a cold face and a warm heart, right?
He is also a bit arrogant. He could obviously buy some gifts for Qi Mingyue and Jiu Liuli on their birthdays to make up for their feelings, but he shied away from giving them gifts on the grounds that "it is no longer appropriate". This old father wants to lose face.
I really can't say the words "I actually love you very much, and I'm sorry for my previous negligence" to my daughter.
Can you say it yourself?
Kanbaru couldn't help but think so.
He began to imagine his daughter in the future.
If he had a daughter, when faced with this situation, he would pat her on the back carelessly, smile and say to her, "Dad actually loves you very much." to ease the embarrassment, right?
Kagura Raku returned from the balcony to the living room with a smile the whole time.
This smile was also seen by Tianhai Jiuliuli, who helped her mother clean the housework.
"What are you laughing at?"
Kanbaru didn't think much, and was still deep in his own thoughts, so he answered casually: "Ah, I was thinking about how I should apologize to our daughter if she gets angry in the future."
"Ah...?! How, how could you suddenly say this..."
Hearing the words "our daughter", Tianhai Jiuliuli's cheeks turned red and she tightened her grip on the mop.
This was originally a good conversation starter. Kagura Raku realized what he had said and saw Tianhai Jiuliuli’s reaction and didn’t feel anything strange.
But when he saw Tianhai Jiuliuli standing behind him and looking at his mother with a strange look on his face, Kaname Yuara's expression suddenly changed.
Why is mom here?!
"What are you talking about, silly boy?"
"I..."
Just as Kagura Raku was about to explain, he suddenly noticed that Amami Qimingyue, who was sitting on the side sofa not far away and reading a book, lowered his book, revealing an unusually cold face wearing gold-rimmed glasses.
The seven bright moons in the sky and the sea stare at me coldly.
"..."
Finished.
Kanbaru tried to avoid everyone's gaze and looked around.
He found that his mother, Qi Mingyue, and Jiu Liuli were all staring at him with different expressions and eyes. Only Kanbaru Suzu, who was watching TV on the couch with a carrot doll in his arms, was so happy that he forgot all about it and danced happily.
.
"Pfft~ I'm laughing so hard. This heroine has nothing left, and the hero has run away and she's still happy here. It sounds like she understands the hero. Hahaha, brother, brother! Come on, come and see.
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Kanbaru Suzu smiled happily and stood up from the sofa with her carrot doll in her arms. She laid her hands on the backrest and waited until she saw clearly that Tianhai Jiuliuli, Tianhai Qimingyue, and her mother were all looking at her brother.<
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The smile on the girl's face also fell.
This scene...
Wait a minute, why does she suddenly feel that the heroine in the TV series just now looks like herself?!