Chapter 234 Sakakihara Suzu’s troubles and the changes she wants to make
Study, review, study, review...
Kanbaru Suzu straightened her back and stared at the piles of homework and textbooks as thick as a dictionary that her brother and teacher had assigned her with a very reluctant expression. She was in a daze that was about to despair.
Why, why do you have to write so much!
And there’s also yesterday’s homework here.
The girl's heart was roaring with filial piety, but because she was in the classroom, she had to maintain the expression on her face.
Calm down, Aling, you need to calm down.
She kept repeating this hint to herself in her heart.
But in the end, she found that it was of no use.
Why do you have to write so much?
Isn’t it possible not to write?
Are you a failure if you don’t write about your life?
I really want to be lazy, I really want to go home and take a nap, I really want to eat beef curry rice...
Kanbaru Suzu fell into a state of extreme despair.
Otherwise, should we give up?
I don’t know how comfortable it would be to give up.
"Ling-chan, you really worked hard..."
Accompanied by the soft voice was his friend, Kai Qian Tian, who was sitting next to him and had just gone to the toilet.
She saw the homework spread out in front of Kanbaru Suzu and the gel pen in her hand, and sighed at her good friend's efforts.
"No...no."
This...!
Well, in order to maintain my image, it seems I have no choice but to continue writing.
It’s obviously lunch break time, okay!
About ten minutes later, Kanbaru Suzu finished writing a paper and was going to rest for a while.
As soon as he turned his head, a piece of small sausage went directly into his mouth.
Kanbaru Suzu was startled, and turned around to see that it was Kai Qian Tiannan who was smiling and feeding herself the contents of her lunch box.
"How does Suzu-chan taste?"
"Very, very good."
"Hehe, right? My mother's craftsmanship has always been very good." Kai Qiantian moved the stool to Kanbaru Suzu's table and brought the lunch box and wrapping cloth together, "We will divide it next year.
It’s time for class, Suzu-chan, are you going to choose science or liberal arts?”
"I'm not good at liberal arts and science."
Kanbaru Suzu suddenly found Kaisen Tianno staring at her for several seconds. She felt strange and asked: "Why is Tiano looking at me like this?"
"Do you want to be assigned to the first class, Suzu-chan?"
"That's right."
Kai Qiantian continued: "But Suzu-chan has been very busy recently. She doesn't even have time to study her homework, and her grades have dropped to around fifty."
This is a fact. The last monthly test of Kanbaru Suzu was almost at this level.
This is the result of my brother helping her to make up classes urgently.
"With these grades, it would be difficult for Suzu-chan to be placed in the first class, right? It's very likely that she would be assigned to an art class or something like that."
This is also true.
But Kambara Suzuxin was so tired that she no longer wanted to study.
Kai Qian Tiano continued: "I have heard a lot about Kanbaru-kun at school recently."
"What's wrong with him?" Kanbaru Suzu asked with concern, she only heard a little bit.
"Everyone is speculating whether Kanbara-kun is dating Tianhai-kun, and whether he is also dating the new guy. The two of them can often be seen sitting together in the cafeteria eating together."
Kanbaru Suzu knew that her elder brother had a good reputation in school.
He has a handsome face and a very good figure. Every time he plays sports, he can compete with the boys in other classes by himself. He plays basketball, volleyball, baseball, etc., and he is always at the top level...
Many girls admire him.
This is all external.
Damn, a bunch of superficial women!
"Well, Tianno, you don't have to listen to their nonsense. Zhiyuki and my brother are just ordinary friends." Kanbaru Suzu replied with a normal expression.
'Suzuki-chan doesn't seem to understand what I mean at all...'
Jie Qiantian was thinking in her heart.
As for Suzu-chan, her good friend, she has not been very happy recently, and Kai Qiantian can definitely see it.
[Why are you unhappy?]
During this period of time, Jie Qiantian asked insinuatingly several times, but to no avail.
But through the eyes of Suzu-chan who often saw her brother smiling and communicating with classmate Tianhai Jiuriuri from a distance in school, Jie Qiantian understood.
Suzu-chan, I haven’t been cared about lately.
Kanbaru-kun focuses too much on his two classmates, Tianhai.
He didn't even notice that his sister was no longer as energetic as before.
Because I wasn’t paid attention to by my brother, I always had no energy.
As a good friend, I must think of a way.
"I see...that's how it is," Kai Qiantian smiled and put her hands in front of her, "Suzuki-chan, how about... Anyway, our work has become less recently, why don't you try to work together?
?Work hard to become the best class in the second semester?"
Kanbaru Suzu didn't react, "Why?"
"Because... Suzu-chan, you see, the two Tenkai classmates have always been first in the exam, and Kanbaru-kun has always been in third place. They are only a few points behind the two Tenkai classmates. They must be going
I was assigned to class one..."
"What are you going to do in class one..."
"Suzuki-chan must be going to class one, right?"
"I don't want to go..."
Kanbaru Suzu muttered, relaxed her shoulders, and sighed deeply: "If I go there, I can only be a light bulb..."
It's better to buy something to eat and sit together with Zhixue after school.
"Kanahara-kun, someone is calling you." An unfamiliar classmate interrupted the conversation between the two.
Kanbaru Suzu looked towards the door and found Amami Nozuki with long straight black hair standing at the door.
What is she doing here?
Are you asking for food again?
Kambara Suzu has a very good relationship with Zhiyuki. As good friends, they often go out to buy food together.
After temporarily speaking to Tianno, Kanbaru Suzu walked out of the classroom and saw Amami Nozuki's plain and delicate little face.
"What's wrong?"
"I have something to tell Ling."
"Huh? What happened."
"Join the band."
"..."
Kanbaru Suzu was not sure if she heard correctly, "Join what? Join...the band...?"
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"Yeah."
"What band?"
"Rock band."
"..."
Amami Zhixue plays rock and roll at home every day, and during that time the police were even so loud that the police came. Of course, Kambara Suzu knew that Zhixue liked rock music.
"But... why did you suddenly find me and ask me to join a rock band?"
"Because I can't find anyone, Ling is easy to talk to."
"..."
It’s a simple and easy-to-understand reason.
"Joining the band...well, no problem, but I don't have time recently. I'm about to face the end of the semester, so I have to study hard."
"Le Shuo Ling can put his name on it first."
"That's no problem." Kanbaru Suzu nodded. Of course it's no problem to help a good friend. You know, Zhixue will give her her favorite things to eat!
"Wait!" Kanbaru Suzu suddenly realized something again, "Zhixue, are you saying that my brother told you that you can put your name on it first?"
"Yeah."
"He's in the band too?"
"Happy."
"Where are Jiuliuli and Qimingyue?"
"Xiaoqi and Xiaojiu will also be here."
"...Then I won't join." Kanbaru Suzu suddenly became depressed, but recovered quickly.
"Why?"
"Zhixue, you don't understand. Anyway, if the three of them are together, I won't join, because... I have nothing to do..."
"Got it."
As soon as Tianhai Zhixue finished speaking, she turned around and left without emotion. Her figure drifted away at the other end of the corridor.
This made the unresponsive Kanbaru Suzu quite messy.
"Here, are you leaving like this?"
Kanbaru Suzu, who didn't understand, stood there for a minute.
She really didn't want to understand, so she had to go back to the classroom. She explained the situation to Kai Chitian and talked for half an hour about the second grade topic, and it was time for class.
On why he didn’t agree to Zhixue joining the band.
Kanbaru Suzu knew that she just didn’t want to see the intimacy that those few people might show in the band.
I don’t want to see it, not at all.
I won’t join in!
......
It's time for school to end in the afternoon. Because there are two more classes, the time is much later than before.
"Ling, join the band."
After Kanbaru Suzu said hello to her classmates, she met Amami Nozuki in the shoe changing room.
She didn't want to target this good friend, but she felt she should refuse.
"No."
"Well, I'll ask later," Tianhai Zhixue, who was carrying a small schoolbag, nodded slightly, "Then let's go to the convenience store to buy something to eat?"
"Why don't you ask again later... You can eat, this is good."
After walking out of school and going to the convenience store to buy sweet chicken steak and teriyaki skewers, Kanbaru Suzu thought that Amami Yuki would continue to ask whether she wanted to join the band, but she didn't expect that she would just eat quietly at the bar table.<
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The side facing the street.
"My brother asked you to create this band?"
"I created it myself."
"Why do you suddenly want to start a band?"
"Because I want more fans."
"Oh...Nazhixue, how is your video?"
"There is no fire."
"I think so...how could I become famous as soon as I came out," Kanbaru Suzu said with emotion, "I used to think that as long as I had the strength, I would become popular. Everyone should be able to hear my efforts, but in fact? There is nothing.
People care about me. I spent the first year playing small roles, and I had to prepare and be nervous for several days just to audition."
"But Le also wants to help me continue to make videos." Tianhai Zhixue continued the topic, "Le wants to help me get more fans."
"Why is he helping you so much?"
Tianhai Zhixue thought for a while: "I don't know..."
"Forget it if I don't know. Anyway, it's a central air conditioner. That's the kind of person he is."
"Le also said that he wants to find his own goals through the band."
"Humph, that's really gratifying, but I won't join in." Kanbaru Suzu twisted both ends of the teriyaki chicken skewers with both hands and took small bites. It was full of fragrant heat.
"Le also said that he likes Ling very much."
Amami Nozuki's light words almost made Kanbaru Suzu choke, and she hurriedly asked:
"Did he really say that?"
"The band, the bell is the most indispensable thing." Amami no Yuki imitated Kambara's words at that time, her voice was as thin as withered ice.
This sentence made Kanhara Suzu feel strange and warm, and it also reminded her of many scenes.
The clearest thing is the time when he ran away from home... I went to find him by myself, and he smiled and cooked himself a king crab dinner to entertain himself.
Not only do you not have to wash the dishes, you can even fall asleep on his lap boldly when you are tired.
That was the happiest dinner that Kanbaru Suzu had had in recent years.
But what about recently?
Recently I have paid less and less attention to myself.
He doesn't pay attention to himself at all now, why would he want to get himself into some band?
"Tsk...tsk! Just, even if that's the case, why doesn't he come and invite me? I won't go!"
"The music invites the bell, will the bell come?"
"No way! Sorry, this is not directed at you, Yuki-chan, but I won't join."
Kanbaru Suzu stood up and looked like she was about to leave. She packed up the boxes of leftover food and picked up her schoolbag.
"Okay, okay, that's the end of this topic. Anyway, I won't join, that's it."
......
Kanbaru Suzu escaped from the convenience store.
Even she herself didn't know why she ran away in a panic.
Looking at the darkened sky above, the tram makes the sound of running on the elevated track, and the glass curtain walls of high-rise buildings are filled with bright lights like glass.
Kanbaru Suzu was carrying her small schoolbag in despair, pulling the shoulder of the schoolbag as she walked through the large shopping street filled with cold air.
My head is filled with memories of a certain stinky guy.
[A Ling, actually I like Jiuliuli]
[A Ling, Qi Mingyue seems... to like me too]
[Aling, actually I don’t like Tokyo very much. If possible, I will go to Kyoto to study in college]
...The words that sounded like memories made Kanbaru Suzu purse her lips.
She is so annoyed, obviously he only cared about herself before.
But now...
I am not taken care of at all.
Why, why should we be so nice to everyone?
Why, why did you still forgive Jiuliuli at that time?
Why, why didn't you think about it because of me? Think about staying in Tokyo to study because of me?
Am I that unimportant?
Why, why can't you see through my thoughts?
All kinds of uncomfortable thoughts fermented in the cold wind.
Kanbaru Suzu walked into the residential area, entered a nearby children's park, and sat down on the sand pit covered with snowflakes and the swing between the slides. Sitting here like this makes no sense, but this is the only place.
The cold corners without light made her feel more comfortable.
Kanbaru Suzu remembered a certain guy's reaction to her.
...Perhaps...my thoughts have been seen through long ago.
He understands, and so does he.
But it was precisely because of his understanding and clarity that he did not express other thoughts to himself. He always took care of him, caring with a doting meaning.
I have been indulging my unreasonable behavior and my character.
"Pfft..." Kanbaru Suzu laughed humorously, "It's better not to know..."
As soon as she finished reading this sentence, Kanbaru Suzu fell into a state of silence again. She began to swing the swing and let her body follow the swing.
Squeak...squeak...
The cold friction sound driven by the chain is the only sound in the cold wind.
What should I do?
Should and how to do it?
Should, how can I not feel uncomfortable?
Thoughts popped up in Kanbaru Suzu's head, but the more she thought about it, the less she knew what to do.
How about... disappearing suddenly?
If he disappears, it won't have a big impact on him, right?
Will he come back to find me?
How long will it take to search?
Probably...I don't care about my own existence at all...
The creaking stopped, the girl's hand holding the chain disappeared, and the figure on the swing raised its head to the sky.
The girl's purple eyes reflected thousands of neon lights, glowing with crystal light.
After five minutes of silence.
Kanbaru Suzu sniffed, stretched out her hand to erase all the things that obscured her sight, and then smiled at the sky:
"Really, am I going to cry like this? I'm not crying, no!"
After shouting like this, no one answered her.
No one responded to her.
"Smelly Lele..."
The cold wind makes people's cheeks feel cold and their bodies tremble.
Sitting on the swing in the children's park, she seemed to want someone to come out to find her, tell herself that I care about you, tell herself not to catch a cold, tell herself to go home quickly...
Kanbaru Suzu was very sad, but she didn't know why, but there was always a force in her heart that made her not want to be so sad.
I want to change, I want to change, at least I don’t want to not be remembered.
"That guy Qi Mingyue said he liked that guy since he was a child... I'm afraid he would have had the same mentality as me, right? In front of Jiu Liuli...?"
The more Kanbaru Suzu thought about it, the more she thought about it. How did Qimingyue do it?
How did she treat Jiuliuli?
If she chooses to escape... there will be nothing left.
......
"Bell."
After ten minutes of silence, Kanbaru Suzu raised her head and realized that it was Tianhai Zhixue who had found this place.
She was also carrying a school bag, looking at herself like a piece of blank paper.
Kanbaru Suzu stood up when she saw her.
"Sorry, you keep looking for me."
"Why did Ling run away just now?"
"Angry... That guy didn't even come to call me when he called Jiuliuli and Qi Mingyue... But thinking about it carefully, he probably didn't think about it in this regard. I don't want to be the kind of ghost who only complains. I want to
Just take whatever you have... No matter what happens, you must keep your position!"
"What are you talking about?"
"What I mean is that I will change my policy in the future! If I am passive, I will only get beaten and won't get anything good! The two of them keep bullying me, and I've had enough!"