Chapter 248 The final diary of Tianhai Zhixue’s mother
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The air was so quiet that Kanbaru just wanted to slap her face.
He immediately wanted to understand the meaning of Zhixue's nod to him last night.
She didn't understand her feelings at all, or the two of them were not on the same channel at that time. Kambara wanted her to understand her feelings clearly, but she thought her expression was not formal enough... p>
However, Kanbaru will still stick to the principle he had last night. He can agree to what he can agree to, and decisively reject what he can't agree to.
So when he met Tianhai Zhixue's gaze that was motionless and as pure as snow, Kagura Raku looked like he was deep in thought, closed his eyes, crossed his chest and said:
"I refuse."
The girl holding the guitar was not sad because of being rejected. She just blinked, and her exquisite little face continued to look at Kaname Yuara's heartless state with her eyes closed and her chest folded. Her body leaned slightly forward towards him.
"But, I like music very much."
"No."
"Do you still need me to play a confession song?"
"No, the problem is not at all."
"You can rub your breasts every day."
"Don't tempt me with this. If it doesn't work, it won't work."
Kambara sighed helplessly in her heart. Whether in life or in love, this child's purpose is too simple and easy to guess. She may have a good impression of herself, and Kambara also has some friends with her.
She also likes the experience of taking care of her, because Zhixue is very obedient and well-behaved, and she always trusts and obeys what he says.
But these feelings are not out of love, and are completely different from those of Seven and Nine, so even if he has become a scumbag, he cannot play with other people's feelings casually.
Of course, the above are just Kanharale's own emotions. For Tianhai Jiuliuli, this news is undoubtedly shocking.
"Le, date me."
"Zhixue, when you talk about dating, you want to eat fried ice cream every day, no."
"Wait a minute, wait a minute!"
Tianhai Jiuliuli interrupted the conversation between the two, and took the initiative to look at Tianhai Zhixue under the sight of Kambaraku and Tianhai Qimingyue.
"Xiaojiu has something to say."
"..." Tianhai Zhixue's move turned the tables and stunned Tianhai Jiululiwen for half a second. She tried her best to smile and said to this girl of the same age who was her own aunt, "Aunt, Lejun is now
He's my boyfriend."
"I'm enjoying dating Xiaojiu." Tianhai Zhixue seemed to be lost in thought and lowered her eyes.
"That's right." Tianhai Jiuliuli saw Tianhai Zhixue's eyes as if she understood, and instantly felt relieved.
"I know."
But Tianhai Zhixue raised her head and answered, causing her brain to fragment again.
Know?!
"Auntie, you know this and you still do this?"
"I don't mind."
"..."
This is...Auntie, do you mind?
Well, Tianhai Jiuliuli had long known that her aunt was lacking in common sense about life, so she tried her best to be patient and try to explain to her why it was impossible for her to confess successfully now and why Kanbaru refused so decisively. p>
Although Tianhai Jiuliuli has explained the matter quite clearly, Tianhai Zhixue has been in a state of incomprehensible confusion for some reason.
"Because Xiaojiu is dating Le, so I can't confess..." She lowered her head and muttered.
"Yes." Tianhai Jiuliuli nodded, patted his chest, and thought to himself that he finally made his little aunt understand.
"But, Xiao Qi obviously——"
"Zhixue!" Kanbarara instantly realized what Zhixue wanted to say, and immediately opened his mouth to stop her.
"Aunt."
Amami Qimingyue, who had been watching, spoke up first to interrupt Amami Zhixue's words. Kambara Raku's frightened heart at that moment also calmed down again.
Fortunately, Qi Mingyue also understands.
I almost fell into the cycle of death completely.
Obviously the relationship between the two sisters has only just been repaired.
"Xiaoqi."
"Auntie, come out with me. I have something to tell you."
In less than three minutes, Tianhai Qimingyue walked out of the bedroom with a very confused face and bare feet, and closed the door.
Only Kambaraku and Tianhai Jiuriuri were left in the messy bedroom.
"Brother..."
Kanbaru noticed that Tianhai Jiuli's sky-blue eyes had been looking at him. He sighed and explained: "It seems that Zhixue watched some TV series with A Ling yesterday, which made her think that she can keep eating until she confesses to me.
Delicious food. Don’t worry, Liuli, Zhixue is not a sincere confession."
Tianhai Jiuliuli is not the kind of girl who gets anxious when things happen. On the contrary, she is very calm and can think.
Tianhai Jiuliuli is of course very happy to be his girlfriend when the person he likes is confessed and he can decisively refuse. But the identity of the person confessing to him is a bit special and he has a good relationship with her, so she has to consider more things.
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After getting rid of one level, can’t we get rid of two levels?
Unless you abandon all your family members and fly away.
Kanbaru Raku couldn't do it. And during this period, as the person being liked, he must have felt very comfortable and enjoyed it.
Nonsense, who wouldn’t be happy if three beautiful girls liked him at the same time?
Kagura Raku has completely understood himself. He just likes beautiful girls. In other words, who doesn’t like them?
Even now, he likes the feeling of holding Qijiu in his arms and kissing her.
I just try to take care of their feelings and their experience.
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After discussing with Tianhai Jiuliuli for a while, they did not come up with any useful results. Soon after, Qi Mingyue and Tianhai Zhixue entered the house again, and this time Tianhai Qi Mingyue motioned for him to talk to him alone.
Kambaraku turned back and glanced at Tianhai Jiuliuli, and she agreed.
Kanbaru followed Tianhai Qimingyue to the corridor.
Recently, July has not been so cold, and usually prefers the emotionless Sanwulian, which is similar to Zhixue.
However, she is much smarter than Zhixue, who is naturally stupid, and her dull eyes can see through a lot of things.
"What's going on?" Tianhai Qimingyue asked first.
"Just... take care of Zhixue, take care of me, and she will have a good impression of me..."
"Then do you know that you haven't even taken care of your sister yet?"
"You mean...I've got you in July?"
Tianhai Qimingyue half-closed her eyes and stretched out her hand to twist the flesh on his waist, but Kambara grabbed her wrist directly.
The girl was suddenly pressed against the wall by Kagura Le, and under his close gaze, she raised her head.
"What do you want to do?"
"It's nothing." Shen Yuanle smiled, "I just suddenly felt that I really like you in Qiyue."
"Don't think that you can cover up your thoughts by saying nice things, and don't think that I don't know what you are thinking. You want to hug me on the left and my sister on the right, right?"
"Yes."
"That's very honest, but you are a scumbag."
"Well, yes, I am a scumbag."
"Then do you think I would like such a scumbag?"
"No, in July, you are definitely the kind of person who is dedicated to feelings and single-minded."
Otherwise... In July, you wouldn't treat the words of encouragement I said to you as a lifelong support in July.
Kanbaru sighed in his heart.
"Then why do you ask me to share with my sister?"
"I like you, July."
Kanbaru is requesting that he has no choice. Qi Mingyue doesn't owe him anything. All he can do is to express his thoughts and feelings to her as much as possible.
"Do you know how long I have been waiting for your words?"
"Know."
"But that's not why you can kidnap me."
"This is my request, July."
Although through the previous agreement, Qiyue can now take the initiative to make some intimate actions towards Kamihara Le, because this is included in the "pursuit". However, Kamihara Le itself still has to keep a distance, otherwise Jiu Liuli will see something.
Clues are coming.
But at this stage, it is still impossible for Tianhai Qimingyue to accept sharing the same relationship with her sister.
"Kiss me." She suddenly said this to him.
"Now? We are in the corridor now. Jiuliuli is separated from us by a wall. Maybe she will open the door and come out later." Kanbaru reminded.
"Cut the nonsense."
"...Okay then."
Since it was Qi Mingyue who asked for it, Kambara kissed her anyway.
The taste is like eating a green apple that is green, slightly sweet, and fragrant.
Kagura Raku probably understands how she feels about wanting to kiss her now, just because she can't compare to Jiu Liuli on the surface and is very unconvinced.
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Tianhai Qimingyue tucked her slightly messy flaxen hair behind her ears, revealing her fair and beautiful profile. She pursed her lips that had just been touched.
Kagura Raku felt that she probably felt a lot better after being kissed.
"By the way, we are not discussing Zhixue?"
"What?"
"I want to ask Qi Mingyue what you think."
Tianhai Qimingyue leaned against the wall and said in a dull tone: "As far as I know, brother, there are many girls in school who have a crush on you, right? Some people have taken the initiative to ask you to confess."
"There are some."
"Then you have to agree?"
"That's definitely not the case. That's all sentimental. I'm not that kind of person."
"So my point of view is very clear. Even if your aunt really likes you, wouldn't it be fine if you don't agree? Her situation is different from mine."
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July and I completely agree.
After talking to this point, Kagawa Raku probably understood the battle strategy of Qi and Ninth, which was to make sure that Kagura Raku would not agree and let the snow of the sky and sea be freed.
It was obviously a sincere confession, but Qi and Jiu were not regarded as opponents at all. She didn't know why, but she actually felt pity for little Yuki.
It seems that no one cares about her.
"By the way, what did you say when you pulled Zhixue out just now?"
"Just tell her not to talk about the relationship between you and me. But in fact, she didn't mean to say it. She just wanted to say that if I Qi Mingyue likes you, then she can also like you...
.How did she know about our relationship?" Tianhai Qimingyue raised her eyes again.
"...what she saw."
Kambara remembered that after she told Zhixue about the relationship between the two people, she also specifically told her not to tell her.
It turns out that Snow has always been remembered.
"Okay, that's it for today. As long as you tell your aunt more about what you can't accept, she will understand."
Tianhai Qimingyue is about to go back to the room.
"Wait a minute, July."
"Is there anything else?"
"What does snow mean to you and Liuli? In other words, what is the relationship between you two?"
This question made Tianhai Qi Mingyue think about it for a long time, "My sister and I... My sister and I haven't met our aunt too many times. She calls us Xiaoqi and Xiaojiu just because we are the same age, because of seniority.
There is a certain gap between us. To be honest, I usually feel a little weird when I call her aunt, but I have been calling her aunt for many years, so I just call it out... My sister and I have the same idea." After Kambaraku patiently listened to what Tianhai Qi Mingyue said, he extracted one key point from it, that is, Qi and Jiu did not seriously treat Zhixue as their peers.
No wonder...No wonder A Ling, whom I met later, had a better relationship with Xue.
No wonder Zhixue comes to find herself most of the time instead of looking for Qi and Jiu.
Probably Zhixue was vaguely aware of the subtle state between herself and Qijiu, so... she rarely troubled the two of them.
[乐.]
I don’t know why, in Kambara’s mind, the image of Amami Nozuki’s bare feet and hands on the wall suddenly appeared in the corridor when she returned home, watching her quietly changing her shoes when she returned home.
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After Kambara rejected Yuki, he planned to let her calm down alone for a while.
This also means that the fried ice cream that I usually make for her is gone.
Kagura planned to talk to her about this, so he took the initiative to knock on the door of her room at night.
Tuk Tuk.
The door opened after knocking twice.
In the crack of the door is Tianhai Zhixue’s little face.
She also saw the person outside the crack of the door.
"Happy."
The door is open a little wider.
"Good evening."
Kanbaru thought that her ruthless rejection today would make her relationship with Yuki particularly awkward, but Amami no Yuki didn't seem to care at all. After knowing that he wanted to enter her room, she let him go.
Go in.
He didn't want to waste too much words and planned to make his purpose clear to her directly.
"Zhixue, the main reason I'm here this time is to explain a few things to you, which is about your recent video clips and the recent help you make fried ice cream. I may need to put it down for a while - wait, you
What are you doing? Why is the ground so messy?"
Only then did Kagura Raku see a lot of messy colored cardboard stacked on the floor in Amami no Yuki's room. These scattered colored cardboards combined with the already messy bedroom made her kneeling in it feel very...
There are some characteristics of children.
"Make something for fun."
"What is it?" Kanbaru couldn't tell what the messy things in her hands were.
"I don't know."
Kanbaru approached her curiously, sat beside her, picked up the cardboard that she seemed to have folded, and looked at it, and finally understood what she was folding.
"What are you doing folding paper cranes?"
"...Thousand Paper Cranes?"
She looked confused as if she heard an unfamiliar word.
"You know Thousand Paper Cranes, right?"
"I don't know." The girl didn't pay attention and continued to fold the things in her hands. Her legs in a duck-sitting posture were folded inward and became slender, and her feet were white and shiny, soft and delicate.
"Have you heard the name at least?"
"Oh."
"Oh what do you mean?"
"I haven't eaten it."
"... Paper cranes are not for eating."
"That's it...ah, I've made another one."
Tianhai Zhixue said this without emotion, raised her hand, and reflected in the warm-toned light of the bedroom, she was holding a paper crane that looked nothing like a paper crane.
"It doesn't look very tasty."
"..."
Kanbaru has already lost to her and doesn’t want to complain at all.
"This is fun."
"What are you giving it to me for?" Kanhara Raku saw what he could barely call a thousand paper cranes that suddenly appeared in front of him.
"My mother said that when you meet someone who treats you well, you can fold this out and give it to him."
Mother?
Speaking of which, Kanbaru never knew about Yuki's mother's condition. She only knew that Yuki died during childbirth. From now on, Yuki will be in a state where she has no friends and no peers are willing to understand her.
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"But Zhixue, your mother... isn't she gone a long time ago? How did she say these things to you?"
"In a book."
"In the book?"
"There are many words written by my mother to me in the book."
A suicide note...
Kanbaru Raku probably understands what's going on. Many mothers will write down a lot of things they want to say to their children when they are still pregnant.
Maybe she already knew that she might not survive, so she wrote those contents to Zhixue in advance?
"Can you show me?"
"Okay."
Tianhai Zhixue just glanced at him, ran to the bookshelf, stood on tiptoes, and brought down a wooden box.
She opened the lock with the key in a familiar manner, and then handed the book inside to Kanbaru Raku.
It's said to be a book, but it's actually just a diary with yellowed pages.
Kanbaru turns it over and takes a look.
The front are some pregnancy diaries, which roughly describe the inner journey I went through when I was pregnant with Zhixue.
It states that there was actually no intention for Zhixue to be born in the first place. After the parents learned that they were pregnant, they were in a tangled state of reluctance to abort the baby and wanted to abort it because they were afraid that pregnancy at an advanced age would cause fetal malformations.
[I know it may be wrong to do this, but maybe this child will want to come out and see the world? Will he feel resentful because he was taken away before he was born? But every time he feels another little heart in his belly
When you feel happy, you will feel that this child is looking forward to coming to this world and watching this beautiful scenery with me. I think that no one can deprive the child of his right to happiness after he has some consciousness.
This child will have a life of her own in the future, a path of her own, and someone who is willing to love her... After she experiences the beauty of the world, she looks back
Now, you will also be grateful for our decision now, right? I don’t know...I don’t know...I don’t know...]
Turning to this point, Kanbaru was also thinking that because of the prominent Tianhai family, he was actually willing to believe that Zhixue would be happy after he was born.
After all, her starting point is already the ending point of many people.
So it was written in the diary that after learning that the fetus was developing well and without any abnormalities, the parents decided to give birth to her.
The risks faced by older mothers are also quite high, and the probability of dystocia is particularly high. Judging from the current results, this is indeed the case. Mothers definitely know this.
But in the second half of the diary, there is no entanglement and melancholy in the previous part, and the record is full of the beauty of life, the joy and comfort of the sun shining on your face when you wake up in the morning.
Some of the messages written at the back to Zhixue are also full of mother's care.
She wrote down the youth and troubles that may arise at every age in advance at the end of the diary.
It can be seen from between the lines that the mother's mentality at this time is sunny and upward, full of affection and love, and full of blessings and expectations for the children she has not yet met.
In the book, in the mother's imagination, Zhixue is definitely the kind of sunny and positive little girl.
However, the fact is that Zhixue has been squatting at home for more than ten years...except for Qijiu, family, and no friends of the same age...
Kanbaru turned the pages slowly, and suddenly a white paper crane fell out of the book.
When he picked up the paper crane, he also looked at the diary in the book.
[Zhixue, I don’t know what kind of person you will be in the future. But I think you will also have someone you like, someone who can treat you well? I have always hoped that you can find someone who can truly
The person who will accompany you all your life, the person who can give you a sense of security, the person who can give you warmth, the person who can deeply remember your happiness and sadness. The most important thing is that I hope you can find it.
Someone you can truly fall in love with.
[When you feel that someone is sincerely treating you for the first time, please fold the folding method of the paper crane I drew in the diary and give it to him... This is how mother and your father can come together.
token... I hope you can also get what you want...]
——Winter, the ninth day of the lunar month, stay.
"Happy, here you go."
Kanbaru closed the diary and looked at Tenkai Nozuki who was still folding paper cranes for herself, feeling an indescribable feeling in her heart.
What makes him sad is that he is the first person to make Zhixue feel good. What makes him sad is why he has to choose him...