Chapter 344 Tianhai Jiuliuli’s concession to her sister
It’s April and the temperature is getting hotter.
Even when eating at the beach, I can't help but feel that the temperature has risen to such a level that it's depressing.
After lunch, Tianhai Jiuliuli declined invitations from all her classmates to go out for a walk in the afternoon and went back to her hotel room to take a lunch break.
But the strange thing is that no matter how much I want to go to bed... I can't fall asleep.
In the past few days, a voice has been echoing in my mind.
That Kagawa Raku suddenly agreed to his promise to fly him to England to see Maple Leaf Avenue.
Every time I open my eyes and look at the ceiling above my head, I will think of his serious expression when he promised me.
You can definitely take me there.
You will definitely take me there.
Lejun will definitely abide by the agreement.
......
Tianhai Jiuliuli always hints at this information in his heart.
Sometimes these hints wash over her nerves like a torrent, causing her to open her eyes immediately and her chest to rise and fall restlessly.
When I reacted, there were already a lot of sweat drops on my forehead.
......
Myself...what's going on?
Don't understand.
I don’t understand the origin of these inexplicable anxiety.
Tianhai Jiuliuli couldn't understand something at all, so she lay on the bed with her hands spread wide and took several deep breaths.
After her body and mind relaxed for a while, she reluctantly propped herself up, leaned her back against the wall, and sat up from the bed.
The girl grabbed her phone, opened LINE, glanced at the sky with flying seagulls outside the window, and finally turned her attention to the two commonly used contacts in LINE——
Kanhara Raku and Tianhai Qimingyue.
Her finger hovered over the avatar ID of Kaname Yuara's account for more than ten seconds, and then she suddenly closed her eyes.
......
......
She chose Tianhai Qimingyue.
Pressing the video call button with her fingertips, Tianhai Jiuliuli hugged a pillow into her arms.
All...all...
After a few short communication sound effects, the video was connected.
The mobile phone screen soon showed the face of Tianhai Qimingyue that was similar to his own, but looked extremely tired and calm.
She wore an off-the-shoulder summer dress and seemed to be sitting in a seaside restaurant, with the azure sea and lush strait behind her.
Tianhai Jiuliuli was stunned when he saw his sister's appearance.
"Why don't you seem to have slept in July?"
After hearing this sentence, Tianhai Qimingyue on the mobile phone took the initiative to switch the front and rear cameras of the mobile phone and put the camera angle on Tianhai Zhixue who seemed to be sitting opposite her.
Tianhai Zhixue seems to be eating coconut crab meat rice, she is quiet and gentle.
Qi Mingyue is using the camera to explain why she seems to have not slept.
Okay...
Tianhai Jiuliuli understands.
The screen perspective returns to the face of Tianhai Qimingyue again.
[It’s even more strange that my sister took the initiative to call me... My sister found out because of her conscience, and now she wants to switch classes with me? Is it because we are so far apart that she feels the mental pain of your twin sister?]
"That's not true." Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled at her sister on the phone.
[Sister is really a cruel woman, she actually doesn’t care about your sister at all.]
Tianhai Jiuliuli took the initiative to ignore Qi Mingyue's complaints and said to her: "Is it convenient for Qi Mingyue to talk to me alone now?"
[...]
The seven bright moons in the sky on the screen obviously lowered their eyes a little more, like beautiful dead fish eyes.
[The person opposite me is my sister?]
"Of course."
[Sister, don’t you think what you said is strange?]
Tianhai Jiululi's white legs were propped up together, with her back against the wall, holding her mobile phone in both hands and putting it on her knees, "It's very strange, after all, we had a huge quarrel not long ago."
Tianhai Qimingyue in the mobile phone screen put the mobile phone on the dining table.
The phone was then stood up, and she alternated her hands and lay on the table.
[Sister, are you planning to give in?]
"What do you think of July?"
[It’s impossible to think about it...but my sister took the initiative to call me, which proves that she has something very important or something she wants to discuss with me.]
Tianhai Qimingyue, who seemed to be framed in the mobile phone screen, closed her eyes, lazily resting her arms on her arms while turning her head sideways. Her delicate white fingers tapped on the table, making a sound.
[Also, you are talking to me on the phone instead of talking to your brother. This is the first time in more than ten years.]
Qi Mingyue's words "This is the first time in more than ten years" made Tianhai Jiuliuli feel emotional.
Just as she was about to speak, Qi Mingyue immediately said another sentence, blocking what Tianhai Jiuliuli was about to say.
[I know what my sister wants to say...but no one should explain it to me. I understand that my sister always likes to show off her strength in front of me.]
"About this...I have always hoped that you would understand in July."
[Of course I understand. After all, she is my sister who is five minutes older than me. As a sister, I have to help her share everything. I don’t want her to touch physical activities at all. Whenever I encounter difficulties, I will avoid her and never do anything.
Will take the initiative to talk to her and speak openly.]
What I said in July is also true.
I don’t want my sister to see myself as weak, I don’t want to see my sister as not good, and I don’t want her to worry about me instead of saying that I can’t help her as a sister.
...Looking back carefully, Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly felt that the previous relationship with Qiyue had become more and more distant.
She closed her eyes. Except for the waves coming from her hands, the area around the hotel was so quiet that she couldn't hear anything.
[Why did my sister suddenly stop talking?]
"I'm calling you now mainly because there are some things that I still don't quite understand."
[Then why don’t you look for your brother, but me?]
"These emotions are not suitable to be shared with him...I am a little confused and not very clear."
[Why? Because my brother always comforts you, my sister, unconditionally?]
"...Probably, I always feel that the more comfort Leju feels, the more I feel sorry for him."
[Why do you think so?]
"Don't you think in Qiyue that this is my brother who has been taking care of me...? And what have I given him?...A few days ago, he even took the initiative to tell me that he would definitely take me to...that place.
.....The more these thoughts take root in my head, the more out of breath I feel...It seems that I have nothing that Lejun needs..."
Tianhai Qimingyue stopped tapping her fingers on the table.
She turned her head and looked at her sister in the video conversation again. Her tone was correct and her emotions were normal, but when she said this, she turned her face away.
Everything is obviously normal.
But it seems that at this moment, my sister is full of anxiety and uneasiness.
While feeling anxious, my sister was still trying to control her inner emotions, which is why she said these words to herself now.
[My sister has really never changed.]
"What?"
[Sister is still as weak as ever.]
"Weak as ever..."
Tianhai Qimingyue deflected her sight again, and her fingertips continued to lightly hit the wooden board of the table:
[My sister’s uneasiness comes from not understanding my own value, and from the fact that my sister will deny your own value, sister... But my sister has never thought that my sister herself has value. Even if she is standing still, what will she do?
Even if you don’t do it, there will still be people who will love you and people who will want to care about you.
[The first thing my sister needs to understand is that everyone has his or her own value and meaning of existence. It does not require external affirmation or approval. It is also a value to oneself.]
"..."
Tianhai Jiuliuli doesn’t know if it’s because he’s not very clear-minded.
I can’t quite understand Qi Mingyue’s words.
[Sister thinks that your brother has given you a lot of unrequited care, right?]
"Yes."
[My sister also thinks that she can’t give anything back to her brother, right?]
"Yes."
[As I said just now, my sister’s inner anxiety and uneasiness stem more from her doubts and denial of her own value... My sister has lived in the goals given by others for a long time, and it is difficult to find someone who pursues her brother.
target, but because of his brother's love, he felt that he could not pay corresponding care. Instead, he allowed his brother to accommodate and take care of him...
[Because of this, my sister feels uneasy and anxious.
[Sister, I have been feeling guilty and blaming myself.]
......
After Qi Mingyue said this.
Tianhai Jiuliuli seemed to understand where the anxiety in his heart came from.
She smiled softly, and she had previously talked to Lejun about debts and debts, and canceled them all...
In the end, I still couldn't help but think that I was sorry for his past.
......
As a third party, Tianhai Qimingyue can better understand her sister’s current mentality.
As a person who has lacked love since childhood, when have you ever seen a guy like Kanbaru Raku who is unconditionally willing to give care and warmth to others?
Love gives people warmth.
It will also put pressure on people.
For my sister, the love he gave me was magnified several times... This caused my sister to feel pressure from this "love".
My sister, who once experienced abandonment, is very sensitive in matters of emotion.
Facing the promise that her brother had given her once again, which she had longed for since childhood, it was inevitable that she would be worried...
[Actually, it’s very simple for my sister to alleviate this emotion. Since my brother’s love for you, sister, is too heavy, then just let me go and I will help you, sister, bear your brother’s overly heavy concern.]
"This is free."
[Eh? Don’t you even have the slightest thanks for receiving the favor from your sister? Shouldn’t wishing your sister happiness be what a sister should do?]
Tianhai Qimingyue on the mobile phone screen turned her head, with that contemptuous smile like a little devil, Tianhai Jiuliuli couldn't even remember how long she hadn't seen it.
"It's different now, July."
[Sister, do you want to say that you have become bad?]
"Not really...I don't quite understand how I feel now. I don't want to admit defeat, but I am reluctant to let go of my relationship with Qi Qi... Even when the quarrel is at its worst, what I want is to let Qi Qi go."
Yue, please surrender yourself and quit on your own initiative. If possible, I will repair the relationship with you again... Until now, my previous thoughts were too naive."
[...]
Tianhai Qimingyue didn't speak at this moment, but what was in Sister Cai's mind at this moment.
Could it be that sister... is trying to give in?
Do you want to let go of part of it?
It is true that Tianhai Qimingyue never thought about killing her sister, but every time she saw the two of them together, she couldn't help but frown.
I will care about these in my heart.
Nowadays, she has been in a conflict between "I don't want to break up with my sister" and "Sister, let me go and let me win".
The same is true for Tianhai Jiuliuli.
"Thank you July... This is the first time I have talked to you... Although I don't want to admit it, I am still very happy."
[Sister, still can’t let go of being a big sister?]
"After all, I am your sister who is five minutes older. Please allow me to be so willful."
[Then can I understand this sentence as - my sister always wants to be my sister?]
"That's it."
......
Video, hung up.
Tianhai Qimingyue looked at the forty-three-minute call time with her sister in her hand.
My heart is full of speculation about my sister’s current attitude.
Sister...are you agreeing to your own existence, or are you agreeing to your brother’s unreasonable conditions?
I can't understand...
"Xiaoqi, I've finished eating."
Tianhai Qimingyue put down her mobile phone, supported her delicate and beautiful face with her right hand, and looked at Tianhai Zhixue who was wiping her mouth across the table.
"What should we do next?"
"Shopping."
"Shopping again? Don't you still want to eat?"
"Buy clothes."
Tianhai Qimingyue nodded, "You can also buy clothes."
Lunch break at noon.
The air conditioner in the hotel room is blowing.
The midday sun illuminates the entire room.
Kanbaru Raku was still finishing the god research report on his school trip. Just as he was about to stretch, he was lightly tapped on his shoulder.
When he turned around, he discovered that it was Tianhai Jiuliuli who was smiling.
He was a little surprised, but also happy that Tianhai Jiuliuli would come to him suddenly.
"When did Liuli come? And how did she get in?"
"Lejun was so busy that he forgot to close the door. When I came, I saw there was a crack... so I thought of giving Lejun a surprise and checking out what Lejun was doing."
Kagura Raku is very happy that she can say this: "She feels like a decent girlfriend."
"That's not true!"
"What's wrong? You're smiling so happily."
"It's nothing... I just feel like I've figured out something again."
Tianhai Jiuliuli said and suddenly became sticky.
She took the initiative to hug Kamara before she even moved.
The thin skin of her arms rubs against the flesh of her neck...different body temperatures come into contact with each other, bringing a soft feeling.
"What's wrong?" Shen Yuanle smiled, and with her Nian Huhu's hug, he turned the direction of the chair. Then he hugged her waist from behind and asked her to sit sideways on his lap.
"Miss you."
Facing each other, Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled again and took the initiative to hug his neck.
When she hugged her, Kanbaru could clearly smell the girlish scent on her body.
Soft and fragrant.
Refreshing.
Kagura Raku didn’t resist her coming to cling to him, patting her petite back:
"...It's not like we haven't seen each other this morning, it's like we haven't seen each other for many years."
"Lejun, you have always been kind to me." Tianhai Jiuliuli pushed him away, held his shoulders with both hands, and looked directly at him.
"Huh? I like you, shouldn't I be nice to you-"
Before Kambara Raku could finish her words, her mouth was immediately blocked by Tianhai Jiuliuli's waxy lips.
At first...Kanahara Raku was a little surprised that she was so enthusiastic and proactive...but this was not the first time this happened, so he took the initiative to welcome her action.
......
Why is Liuli suddenly so clingy, and why does she suddenly do this...
No need to think about it, just enjoy the moment...
When the lips meet, they will occasionally make a slight sound like sucking jelly...
......
After separation, my body felt a little hot and dry.
Kaname Yuara looked at her and asked doubtfully: "What's wrong?"
"It's nothing." Tianhai Jiuliuli pursed her lips, as if recalling the taste he left behind.
"This doesn't explain why Liuli is so abnormal. I feel like holding your hand will cause you to have a lot of psychological activities."
"Lejun knows me so well?"
"Of course... this is also a required course. If I don't try to understand you, how can I like you?"
"Lejun is very good to me."
"...It's just so so. As a boyfriend, there are some things I can't avoid."
Tianhai Jiuliuli said seriously: "But... regarding those things a long, long time ago, Lejun was really good to me."
"Huh?"
"I understand, I like you very much, Lejun... Whether it's guilt, gratitude, dependence... they are all factors that constitute liking Lejun."
"..." Kanhara listened carefully.
Tianhai Jiuliuli took the initiative to hold his hand and interlocked with his: "If you like it, you like it. This is an irrefutable fact...I...actually have been avoiding some facts all the time.
The fact has been changed. Lejun really...really likes Qiyue?"
"Before I did this, I would have hesitated whether I felt sympathy for her. But now it is like this, and I also... like her."
Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly smiled, "You can tell that Lejun didn't want to say this to me in front of me, and it was the same for July, right?"
"When you really feel that she likes you, you will."
"That's good... In this case, I have to accept the fact that 'Lejun has indeed become a scumbag'. There is no doubt that as a boyfriend, Lejun has neglected his duty."
"I'm guilty." Shen Yuanle admitted his mistake.
"Will Lejun change it?"
"No."
"Do you really have to insist on this?"
"Yes... We have come this far. If I give up on anything, I will be a scumbag."
Tianhai Jiuliuli: "Then Lejun is planning to give up on me?"
"A scumbag is a scumbag, and what I want is to have two different things."
Tianhai Jiuliuli: "I have been struggling with whether I should accept the fact that Lejun is a scumbag... I have always avoided this matter, but now... I can see it clearly."
"Liu Li is leaving?"
"It's normal to leave, isn't it?"
"That's right."
"Then what do Lejun think?"
Kanbaru sighed, feeling helpless in her heart: "I definitely don't want you to leave, but I'm sorry that I can only give you half of my love. If you really choose that, I will respect you."
"I...there is no lie in my liking for you. I...want myself to make certain concessions...I'm sorry, this is not to agree to Lejun's unreasonable request, but compared to July,
I have done too little..."
Tianhai Jiuliuli seemed to be struggling with his own psychology, "Besides, if I quit voluntarily, wouldn't it mean that I lost to Qiyue?"
"..."
Kanbaru didn't even know how to answer her.
"I don't want to let go, but I can't change you, I can't change July, I can't hurt you, I can't hurt July, and ultimately... I can't win against July... Actually, there is an answer that has always been in my heart.
I have always thought about it, but I have never been willing to admit it."
"..."
Seeing her dodgey eyes, Kanbaru understood what she was thinking.
Liuli...Do you want to agree?
"I disagree! What is Lejun thinking! No one wants to share the person they like, and the same is true for Qiyue... It's just that she is better than me and can be more tolerant...
”
"So... Liuli is...?"
"...I still can't let go...because I only have Lejun in my heart...so I can't let go. I know that as a human being, I should become independent...but it's hard to do that.
So, so——"
Tianhai Jiuliuli said this for a long time but could not express it clearly.
So much so that Kanbaru gradually understood the entanglement and uneasiness in her heart.
"So...Lejun, you...understand what I mean...?"
"Agreed?"
"...It's not a promise. Qiyue didn't agree to live in peace with me... This doesn't mean that I agree with Lejun, your scumbag idea... It's just because Qiyue made more concessions than me.
, I don’t want to be inferior to her..."
"How come Liuli has also begun to learn Qiyue's tough talk?"
"It's not really...it's just that although I understand it, I really am not that transparent."
Kanbaru became serious: "What Liuli means is that you have to start now and learn to let go?"
"...That's right, that's what it means. As for the final result, it's hard to say...so I can't make a decision first..."
Understand, there is always a process for acceptance.
Fortunately, Liuli finally has some signs of compromise. As for whether she can get along with Qiyue in the future...