Chapter 406 In front of Yukis ward, Raku Sakakihara chose to go home and seek death.
Raku Sakakihara was not surprised by his grandfather's sudden appearance.
In other words, when he came to see Tianhai Zhixue, he was already mentally prepared to face his grandfather.
So after seeing his grandfather appear at the door of the ward, Raku Sakakihara did not look particularly flustered like his sister.
Soichiro Amkai walked into the ward with a steady pace and a calm expression.
His face with criss-cross wrinkles showed traces of time, and his eyes were dull and serious. He stood quietly in front of Raku Sakakibara, silently staring at the young man standing beside the hospital bed in front of him.
Sakakihara stood very straight, with a straight posture, and looked back without any evasion.
Although silent, Soichiro Amakai's inspection continued for a long time.
The two of them just looked at each other...
atmosphere...
It suddenly became quiet and there was something strange everywhere...
Sakakihara Suzu hid behind her brother and peeked her head quietly. Her eyes wandered back and forth between the two of them. She seemed to find an invisible boundary between her brother and her grandfather...
This silent stare is like the calm before the storm.
A bit scary...
Seeing Yuki secretly will probably make grandpa angry!
I have never seen the old man angry...
...
"It seems like you knew I would come at this time."
In the silent atmosphere in the room, Soichiro Amakai was the first to speak.
On the contrary, she was not as angry as Sakakihara Suzu imagined.
The old man's attitude was rather calm.
Raku Sakakibara: "I just thought that if I secretly come to see Yuki, grandpa will find out sooner or later. I just didn't expect to be caught right away."
Amkai Soichiro found Sakakihara Raku's reaction at this time very interesting.
He clearly did something that he couldn't let himself know, but he didn't show any guilt at this time.
"You still know that you came to visit Zhixue behind my back?"
Amkai Soichiro glanced at his little daughter who was sitting by the hospital bed observing the two of them, and then returned his gaze to Sakakibara Raku's face.
This young man is much taller than me.
"Why are you here?"
"..."
This question is not easy for Raku Sakakibara to answer, because essentially——
"Yes...it's me -" Sakakihara Suzu raised her hand, like a child who made a mistake, and stepped out from behind Sakakihara Raku, "I asked my brother to come with me."
Sakakihara Suzu thought that the old man would be angry because of this, and even give him a slap in the face.
But no, the old man just slowly turned his gaze back to his face.
"So, you came to visit Zhixue this time because of Ling's urging?"
"...This is the cause."
"Hmph," Amkai Soichiro snorted coldly, his expression immediately becoming sharp and unhappy, "If you are willing to come to visit Zhixue, it would make sense in terms of motivation, but you are here now just because of what your sister thinks. Don't you think
This is ridiculous?!"
"It's ridiculous."
"Then you still have a reason to stand here?"
Sakakibara closed her eyes... What she was thinking about was the memory of seeing the phantom of snow everywhere in her life in the past two weeks...
"No reason."
Amkai Soichiro's expression became even more displeased: "You know in your heart that you have no reason to stand here."
"yes."
Just when Raku Sakakihara thought Soichiro Amkai would blast him out, he put his hands behind his back again and walked to the window, facing the vast tall buildings in the rainy night outside.
"Don't you and Qi Mingyue like to reason with me? Why do you have any reason to stand here now? If you understand, just get out of here."
"happy!"
Amakaizuki suddenly shouted, and Amami Soichiro's attention was immediately attracted to her.
The girl sat quietly by the bed, took Raku Sakakibara's right hand, and took the initiative to meet Souichiro Amami's gaze.
"Le...came to visit me..."
Sakakibara looked at Amami Yuki who was holding his hand by his side.
Amkai Soichiro sighed to his little daughter and said, "He was just forced to come here."
"That's not the case. Uncle is lying again... Ever since I started taking the medicine, uncle has been saying that happiness will never come... but now happiness still comes."
"Nazhixue means to go home with him?"
"Well, I only know Le. As long as I go home with Le... Although you are all very nice to me, I don't know you in the first place."
do not know...
Tianhai Zhixue's words silenced everyone present.
Amkai Soichiro even choked for a long time.
strangeness...
What Sakakibara felt in Amami Nozuki's eyes and expression was the strangeness between her and her father.
Compared with the distance in age, this kind of weak emotional distance makes people feel far away.
Although she is still connected by blood, she is so unfamiliar that she only wants to call her father "uncle"...
She protects herself as a family member and rejects her biological father as an outsider...
Although the old man must have known about this a week ago.
But as a bystander, Sakakihara Raku still felt an unspeakable feeling in his heart when he heard this.
...
Seeing his youngest daughter's actions and hearing her words, Soichiro Amkai didn't say anything more. He just closed his eyes, remained silent for a moment, and then said to Raku Sakakibara:
"Do you know how many times this situation has happened to Zhixue?"
"...Probably...from childhood to adulthood."
"Reiji, this is the first time that I have forgotten everything like this!"
Sakakihara Raku: "..."
"Who do you think is responsible for this?"
"I."
Amkai Soichiro shook his hand and his expression suddenly became calm.
It's like trying to suppress anger.
"Forget it... you and Qi Mingyue and the others like to reason, so I will reason with you. After all, you have the same right to 'free choice' as Maodian. I am tired of arguing with that brat.
I'm too lazy to have another encounter with you, a kid.
"I won't completely blame you for Zhixue's current situation. The reason is that I failed to fulfill my obligations before she was ten years old. You and her were also my own active choices in the beginning.
She is sent to you.
"Since I am the cause of this, then this is the situation now, so naturally I also need to bear part of it."
Pause for a moment.
"But, if you have made your own choice in your relationship, you should not come to her again. I remember I said before that if you can't deal with your own emotional problems, you should not come to Zhixue again.
Being around him can only make her uncomfortable.
"Why, do you selfishly want her to follow you and suffer for the rest of your life?"
"..." Sakakihara closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
"Let her go, then you kid, go home and live the life you deserve. I will find another place for Zhixue and try my best to give her a good place to live. You two should not meet again in the future."
Makes sense...
Can't refute...
Totally irrefutable...
I really can't give Zhixue anything now.
When I come to visit her now, I just have a memory of her, and I am just following the trend with A Ling behind me, adding fuel to the fire.
Sakakihara Suzu was nervous and suddenly whispered:
"Really...do you really want yuki to leave?"
Amkai Soichiro did not answer, Sakura Guizhong replied tactfully:
"Miss Ling, Miss Zhixue can only choose this way due to her current situation. Even if Miss Zhixue will feel uncomfortable... there is nothing we can do about it, but for the time being, Miss Zhixue will one day forget the past.
"
"..."
Sakakihara Suzu was dejected.
She really wanted Zhixue to stay.
But she also understood that in the current situation, it seemed that it would be better to let Zhixue leave.
...Although I don't mind her relationship with my brother at all, my scumbag also has his difficulties... He has already made a promise to Qijiu, so how can he have the nerve to go back on what he said in the past?
No need to think about it, even you know the consequences of doing that.
Sister Qiyue and Sister Liuli will both leave...
By then, not only Yuki will be gone, Sister Qiyue and Sister Liuli will also disappear...
Although living with someone is quite good, after experiencing so many things, the two foxes suddenly want to leave... I feel quite reluctant to let go...
Compared to the silence of a few people.
Tianhai Zhixue didn't care at all what the few people exchanged just now.
He just asked Sakakibara: "Can you go home today?"
Ying Guizhong couldn't bear to see this scene, so he deliberately reminded her: "Miss Zhixue, have you forgotten? You said it yourself, you want to go home."
"I... said I wanted to go home...?"
"That's right! Miss Zhixue, when you went home that day, you also told the master that you would not see the young master again in the future. Miss, have you forgotten?"
After hearing these words, Tianhai Zhixue lowered his head and murmured.
She first looked at Raku Sakakibara beside her, and looked at his profile for a while before lowering her head again:
"...Yes, I can't see Le again..."
Tianhai Zhixue seemed to slowly remember something, her eyes wandered over the faces of everyone in the room... She saw A Ling, saw her father, and then looked at Le standing in front of her father.
Suddenly... I feel guilty.
Even though she didn't remember it clearly, she found that she... seemed to be embarrassed again... in front of her father...
Let Le come visit me again...
The girl looked at Sakakihara Raku's side face and suddenly said anxiously:
"Yes... I'm sorry, Le... I've caused trouble to Le again... I... I shouldn't have said that I wanted Le to make fried ice cream... I've been... always troubling Le...
I have always let Le take care of me... I'm sorry... Le, I'm really sorry... I made it difficult for Le... and let Le... If I wasn't around Le, I wouldn't give it
Let Le cause trouble, but...but let Le...I'm sorry...I'm sorry——"
Tianhai Zhixue said anxiously that something was not right at the end.
She had shortness of breath, like asthma.
"Yu...yuki...?" Sakakihara Suzu looked concerned and stretched out a hand to her.
Sakakihara Raku also wanted to rush to see how Yuki was doing, but he didn't expect that Sakura had already called the doctor who was in a hurry.
Before they could ask any more questions, the two brothers and sisters were temporarily asked out by the arriving doctor.
...
Sakakihara Suzu was waiting at the door and asked anxiously: "...Brother, what's going on with Yuki?"
"...I'm not sure, maybe it's a complication?"
"Yuki just forgot something. Yes, is it that serious?!"
"...Zhixue has congenital amnesia. The essence is that she was born prematurely...or the cause of her amnesia...is originally a brain defect...When Yuki was hospitalized before, I got to know her a little bit.
Condition."
"What do you mean?"
Sakakibara turned his head and said to his sister: "...In other words, if Yuki is sick for too long, it may cause other things... Didn't the doctor in Hawaii also say it before? Yuki needs to maintain her mood.
Stablize......"
After hearing this, Sakakihara Suzu was unwilling to accept this reality.
Then he looked anxiously at Zhixue's ward.
Fortunately, the doctor left after only a few minutes.
Uncle Ying then walked out.
Sakakihara Suzu asked eagerly: "How is Yuki...how is she?"
"It's not a big problem...it's just that the previous symptoms have returned."
"Didn't Yuki's previous symptoms... just forget things?"
Ying Guizhong replied: "...Miss's illness is not a serious illness, but it may get worse as time goes by. I was just a little anxious just now... Just take some alprazolam."
"Yuki, does she have an anxiety disorder?"
"No, Miss Ling doesn't need to worry too much. It was Miss Zhixue who put too much psychological pressure on herself, which caused her anxiety. It's not that Miss Zhixue herself has an anxiety disorder."
This chapter is not over yet, please click on the next page to continue reading! Sakakihara Suzu felt relieved, "That's okay..."
Sakura Takatada looked at Sakakibara Raku again:
"Young Master, Miss Zhixue has always forgotten things since she was a child, which has led to her always being suspicious of the relationships between others... This kind of suspicion has never been established by Miss Cui Jiuxue before she was ten years old.
The person who has the relationship...
"The young master has tried before, but no matter how much he interacts with Miss Zhixue, she will always forget it... Not to mention the relationship between Miss Zhixue and other ladies... is particularly delicate...
"Because of the above reasons, until Miss Ling came to Tianhai's house on her birthday, Miss Zhixue had never had any close friends... and she had never experienced a real family and real care...
"I heard Miss Jiuliuli talking about your daily life, young master... There is no doubt that it was your daily care, young master, that stabilized Miss Zhixue's mental state and improved her condition.
Getting better and even showing signs of recovery.
"There is no doubt about this. Both I and the master are grateful to you, young master.
"That's why I won't blame you for Miss Xue's current illness.
"You didn't do anything wrong, you just made your own choices.
"Sir, he originally wanted to embarrass you, but after learning about your attitude towards Miss Zhixue, he changed his mind.
"Miss Zhixue's illness is her own, and she needs to deal with it on her own.
"Thank you, young master, for your concern for Miss Zhixue these days... But the matter has reached this point, and there is no alternative... I can only say a sad word that Miss Zhixue's wish cannot be fulfilled..."
Speaking of this, Uncle Ying suddenly became formal.
He put his hand on his chest and made a standard butler's salute to Sakakibara Raku.
"Young Master, thank you for accompanying Miss Zhixue through the happiest time in her life, but you still have your own life. Please let Miss Zhixue walk alone for the rest of the journey."
Sakakibara stared at Sakura, who was moving very solemnly in front of him.
Because of his words, I remembered that in the past, Yuki had called her "乐" again and again at home.
Suddenly...I don't know what to say.
Go down alone...
That weak and fragile girl...can she really go on alone?
Her heart longs for affection and sincere treatment...
She is a little lonely herself... Is it really okay to leave it to her sister who once disliked her?
Sakakihara Suzu was speechless. She just watched Uncle Sakura inexplicably return to the ward after bowing and saying goodbye.
...
The time is already approaching eight o'clock in the evening.
Sakakibara knew that Qijiu had already asked with concern on the line where he and A Suzu had gone.
"Brother..." Sakakibara Suzu turned her head and stared at Sakakibara Raku's side face, her tone was very disappointed, "It seems that this is the only way, I can only say goodbye to Yuki."
"...bell."
"Um...?"
"Ling, you really don't want to lose this friend, right?"
"of course."
"What do you think of my recent performance?"
"...It's very bad...Although I understand that you have your own difficulties and reasons...but I still feel that you are too hesitant..."
"Yeah... I'm too hesitant. What exactly do I lack now?"
"...I don't know. Don't ask me."
"Ring..." Raku Sakakihara took a deep breath and closed his eyes, "I suddenly remembered the snowy night that Qi Qiyue and I spent in our hometown..."
"Oh, that time when Sister Qiyue came here out of nowhere."
"I was thinking that day, and I was also in pain and entanglement. Even though I agreed to Jiuliuli, I still felt sad and sad for Qi Mingyue's past... I sympathized with her, and wanted to cherish her. I knew I shouldn't be like this.
, resisting my inner thoughts.”
"...I don't quite understand what you want to say, brother."
Sakakibara took a deep breath, "I mean. I have been resisting my heart because of something that cannot be violated at all."
"Isn't this normal? If you can't violate it, you can't violate it."
"...Indeed, this is normal. But it also goes against my own heart... Where does the sadness come from, where does the nostalgia for the past come from? Where does the sympathy come from? I am a scumbag, and I am not scumbag enough.
clear..."
Sakakihara Suzu heard her brother say this about herself.
I actually feel a little uncomfortable...
Because in her mind, my brother will always be her brother...the one who didn't know how to write a diary when she was a child, so she can ask for help...
He is great and secure in his own mind...
As he said, he is a bit bad...but in his own eyes, he is not really bad...
It's really hateful, why does everyone he meets have to treat him with the most sincere feelings?
What a rotten guy like him can't stand the most is someone being sincere to him.
Sakakibara Suzu was feeling sad, but suddenly she noticed something was wrong with Sakakibara Raku's expression.
"...What are you doing? Brother, what do you want to do?"
"The hesitation comes from the uncertainty in my heart. Because of the constraints and commitments, I always deny the ideas that I dare not think about... There is nothing wrong with this, but it clearly exists, but I don't dare to confirm it at all... Really, I
Enough of feeling this way."
Sakakihara suddenly slapped himself hard, and then said energetically:
"Very good! I feel great!"
"Brother! You...couldn't you be——crazy?!"
Raku Sakakihara suddenly turned around and walked towards where he came from.
"Hey, hey - what are you doing? You stopped talking again, and you're about to leave without saying a word."
Sakakibara Suzu immediately grabbed his hand, but saw him touch the back of her hand holding him with an extremely serious expression. The temperature of his palm even made Sakakibara Suzu blush a little.
"You, you guy! Tell me clearly, what kind of trouble are you going back without saying a word!"
"A Suzu." Sakakibara turned around.
"What, what are you doing?" Sakakihara Suzu's eyes became evasive.
"Why do you think I've been in a trance these past few days because of..."
"Aren't you talking nonsense? You just miss Yuki... She used to sit behind the gym every day and watch you play basketball. Yuki is gone, and you will still visit that place these days."
"Yes, this is nostalgia. There is no doubt that this is nostalgia... Even when I go to her room and see the doll I gave her, I will miss it... There is no doubt that this is emotion..."
"so...?"
"So, I will go back and tell Qijiu that I must bring Zhixue back!"
Sakakihara Suzu blinked: "...Are you crazy?"
"I'm not crazy, I'm very conscious." After Raku Sakakibara said, he dragged Suzu Sakakibara back to where he was going.
"Hey, hey, hey... you are absolutely crazy! If you want to go back to die, don't take me with you!"