Chapter 444 Two people who can only be tough-minded
"what about now?"
...
Raku Sakakihara, who was straddling him, stared straight at her beautiful face, her calm eyes as clear as the blue sky.
...July?
wrong.
July shouldn't be here.
If July is here, it means that the one who flew with me has always been July.
When I came to the UK, I said I wanted to visit Maple Leaf Avenue, take care of myself, and accompany me to visit the sights in London. It was also in July...
The fundamental problem is not her appearance, but all the behavior of Tianhai Jiuliuli during this day!
If...if Qi Qiu can even imitate these things so that he can't see the flaws, then it would be——
"too exaggerated?"
Amami Kuruuri seemed to see through Sakakihara Raku's thoughts through his eyes. She stretched out her hands, placed them on both sides of his head, leaned over and looked directly at him, still maintaining the unwavering expression of Furui, "Brother, you are so
Did you forget it so quickly? Or maybe you have a bad memory to begin with. I remember I said that if I pretended to be my sister seriously, even my father wouldn’t be able to tell the difference between us."
"..." Sakakihara did not take the initiative to speak, but just looked back into her eyes.
I actually said this in July, a long time ago.
"That being said, how can I be sure that it's not Liuli who is pretending to be Qiyue?"
Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled again, "Lejun is a little smarter and started to use my words to question me... Well, indeed, if something cannot be judged, asking the person who asked the question is also a way. Yes.
Yes, maybe I am Liuli, deliberately testing Lejun to see if you recognize me."
...
Raku Sakakihara is a little confused.
She spoke with Liuli's tone, but the content was words that only Liuli could say to herself.
It was just like the interaction she had with him at the hotel door just now.
"I still don't believe you are July."
"Don't believe it? Lejun, what's the basis? Facts always need some basis, right~"
"Actions, words, tone of voice, micro-expressions."
"Lejun, these... can actually be disguised." Tianhai Jiuliuli replied, deliberately lowering his voice and dodging his eyes, "Why doesn't Lejun accept the reality...?"
...
Sakakibara closed his eyes and admitted that he couldn't tell whether the person in front of him was Ruri or Qiyue.
If he had been at the hotel door just now, he would have immediately identified it as Liuli... That kind of shy, timid, a little angry, but not really angry character cannot be faked. If Qiyue can really fake it
After coming out, Sakakihara Raku could only admit that this was the brilliance of their twins.
However, it is not without methods of falsification.
...
Sakakibara turned over with force and pushed Tianhai Jiureli onto the hotel bed.
Her head was resting on the pillow, her hands were released outwards, facing upwards, and her two pairs of white thighs, wearing only a pair of shorts, were tightly closed inward.
Her expression at this time was the same faceless look she usually had in July.
His tone was also cold and calm.
"Are you angry? Are you going to use violence against me?"
"I think you are thinking too much."
Sakakihara stared straight into her eyes, put his hand on her waist, and then lifted up the thin pajamas she was wearing to take a look. He saw——
The white belly is pure and white.
really.
It's July.
Sakakihara turned his eyes back at once, leaned over, and faced each other. He couldn't help but increase the strength of his hands to suppress her. He frowned and asked:
"When? Where's the scar?"
"Tear it off after taking a shower. It's uncomfortable to wear."
"..."
"Why, you don't welcome me? I don't know who wanted to take care of me just now and kept saying nice things to me."
"Obviously, very unwelcome."
Tianhai Qiming ignored his answer. Even though he was pressed under him, he still had that expressionless face, "Aren't you tired of speaking with a straight face and working so hard?"
Sakakihara Raku only found it funny, "Compared with this, some people told Liuli that they would treat me like nothing in this life, but they still pursued me all the way to England and engaged in such a thing as deceiving others."
Tianhai Qimingyue: "Do you think I want to come? If my sister hadn't been begging me, I could even hand over the matter of you accompanying her in the UK. Do you think I am willing to see you again? Listening to you say so much is useless
if?"
Good...good...good.
After hearing this, Sakakihara Raku was 100% sure that she was July.
Sakakihara Raku found it unbelievable that Ruri could say those words at the door of the hotel... Ruri who said those words that he couldn't bear could actually be Qiyue in disguise.
"Do you feel uncomfortable being deceived? Do you feel that the words that can be the pillar of your heart suddenly collapse and your heart is blocked? Brother, can't you understand this emotion?"
"Ah."
Sakakihara felt even more ridiculous, and did not avoid her gaze at all. He suppressed her hands with much more force, "I don't know who found my heart-to-heart words annoying. Since you don't agree, why bother letting me do it now?"
Will I sympathize with you again?"
"Have I ever denied your idea of comparing one's heart to another's? I have always only asked you to have less contact with more people and to use less of your overflowing compassion."
"I didn't? Did I have casual contact with other people?"
"Isn't it Snow?"
"Zhiyuki is in the same situation as you! July!" Raku Sakakihara raised his voice slightly.
"What's the same? You want to accept more women. As your girlfriend, shouldn't I supervise you and ask you to make corrections?"
Sakakibara regained his composure, let go of her suppressed hands, and closed his eyes in front of her, "...Sure enough, Qiyue, you still haven't realized what I said about you and Zhixue's similarities.
Where...what are you denying about me as a human being?"
"Is it wrong to ask you to restrain yourself?"
"That's right. In my previous answer, I also admitted my mistake."
"Then why don't you correct it? Why do you still want to recruit Zhixue to your side?"
This chapter is not over, please click on the next page to continue reading! "I don't want to repeat it anymore, July. The thing is very simple, Zhixue still needs me, no one has ever been willing to give her a correct guide. Just like no one has ever
I really care about you, but I still want to respond to you. The essence is the same."
"You know that Zhixue won't meet anyone who can give her the right guidance?"
Sakakibara found it funny and left her, sitting on the edge of the bed with his back to her, "Then Qiyue, why did you bother to worry about me in the first place? It's not impossible that there will be someone who treats you well in the future. Why do you still insist on it?"
You want to pester me after I have rejected you countless times? Force, threaten, beg... Why don't you just be Liuli's sister? Why do you still come to me and want me to be responsible for your feelings?
"
...
The quarrels and arguments are endless, and neither of them can convince the other with a single word.
Even Sakakihara Raku himself realized that he was settling old scores with Qiyue, bringing up past mistakes again and again, blaming the other party, and trying to completely refute the other party in terms of "correctness".
By the end of the argument, Raku Sakakihara felt dizzy, and he stretched out his hand to hold his head.
I tried my best to suppress the depression in my heart. I was full of exhaustion.
"That's enough...that's enough...July. I don't want to argue with you anymore..."
"Admit defeat?"
Sakakibara looked at her face again. No matter whether it was her or himself, there was no expression on it.
"...In July, my life is already tiring enough."
"What, do you mean you don't want to be responsible?"
"How do you see that I don't want to be responsible? It's because we can't get along now, I can't be responsible, our life concepts are no longer compatible, and you can't agree with my current approach... I'm tired of dealing with your...
Being rejected for the first time and being tired...it’s normal, isn’t it?”
"..."
At this moment, Nanami Nanami didn't speak. She noticed that Sakakibara Raku's back suddenly seemed to have aged more than ten years, full of fatigue.
"Tell me why you came to me."
"I said it because my sister begged me to go and listen to you by myself."
"...So what if you heard it now?"
"nothing."
"...Yeah, it's nothing," Raku Sakakibara stood up, went to the sofa, picked up his clothes, put them on, and draped his coat over his shoulders, "In the end, you were just forced to come here to meet me by Ruri...
....Is there any reason why you would want to see me?”
Sakakibara pulled his jacket over his chest and glanced back at Amami Nanamigetsu sitting on the bed.
"Just like what I just said. If you want to say that I am wrong, how can I not be wrong? Of course I know that I have made a mistake... What really makes me angry is that you choose to deny me as a person...
.July, do you understand it yourself? When you believe with all your heart that there is someone who understands you, supports you, and encourages you to move forward... but in the end it is this person who denies you, how you feel... That day I
I guess you know how Liuli felt when she heard her aunt say those words."
Tianhai Qimingyue saw him zipping up his coat and taking away his mobile phone and wallet, and asked, "Why did you say those words to me that day?"
Sakakihara was inexplicably silent for three seconds. He walked at the door of the hotel bedroom without looking at her. He smiled and said, "What else could there be? It's just because you denied me and I hate you."
...
Sakakibara left alone.
Walking alone on the streets of a foreign country, meeting unfamiliar people, walking on an unfamiliar road, and looking at the unfamiliar bricks and tiles under my feet.
Sometimes he looked up at the black sky, sometimes he looked sideways at the citizens and tourists walking in front of Starbucks...
He kicked the Coke cans that were everywhere under his feet and felt that the Japanese people on YouTube were lying when they said that all the streets in the UK were clean and beautiful.
The world is the same everywhere, there are good and bad everywhere.
Just like July, who had a quarrel with me just now, there are good things and bad things.
I...are all useless disadvantages hidden under the "good" surface, right?
Even the words I heard today were made by Qi Qi disguised as Liuli to deceive herself...
While walking, Raku Sakakihara came to the bank of the Thames River. Next to the upper left is the iconic British building - the Clock Tower, also called the Elizabeth Tower.
He squatted on the shore, not looking at the bell tower of the civilized world, but quietly staring at the featureless water of the Thames.
After waiting quietly for a long time, I suddenly wanted to find someone to chat with... so I contacted Ah Ling.
I made an international call but was hung up before I could answer the call.
...Probably, she is still busy.
I found Zhixue's phone number again, but she never got through.
...Based on the time, it's probably... She just went out not long ago and was playing basketball in the park next to the apartment.
There are actually a lot of people playing golf there during the day. Two days before she left, Raku Sakakihara had already seen her starting to learn to play ball with strangers.
Sakakihara wanted to find Ruri...and then remembered that Ruri's cell phone was in Qiyue's hands.
I turned around to look for Qiyue's account, but found that Qiyue had already deleted her contact information...
"Everyone, isn't this great?"
After a moment of silence, Sakakihara burst into laughter on the bank of the river.
Ah Ling took the initiative to hang up the phone, indicating that she was busy with her career.
Zhixue didn't answer the phone, which meant that she also had someone who could play with her.
The fact that Liuli didn't come to England with him meant that she could be independent long ago and didn't care about the agreement with him at all, so she gave the opportunity until July.
July...?
Not to mention!
She had a lively quarrel with herself just now. She has been busy with her company and living her own life a while ago. She is so good that she has become independent a long time ago!
What do you need to worry about?
Mom, I'm traveling around the world with my uncle.
Hmm...very good, everything is very good.
...
Sakakibara smiled, lowered his head, and relied on the weak street lamp beside him to see his own reflection undulating in the river.
This chapter is not finished yet, please click on the next page to continue reading the exciting content! He stared at his face that gradually became calmer until it became completely calm... as if he saw another shadow.
A... face that I should have forgotten long ago.
A face that no one remembers... from a previous life.
Sakakihara Raku was completely silent.
What is this life to me?
In my previous life, I was used to being alone. No matter what I did, I was alone... I sang to myself, encouraged myself, and told myself that I just need to work hard.
If you work hard, you will definitely win the game... However, the fact is that no one cares about how hard you have worked. Everyone, the audience, only cares about the results.
On the Internet, in reality, negative emotions are constantly being conveyed to me. I can bear all these voices, and I can also blame all my mistakes on my lack of hard work.
It's okay to bear these negative emotions because you don't have enough strength.
It's fair to bear the insult, because I didn't meet everyone's expectations of "definitely being the first" and won the first place in the competition.
These negative emotions can be tolerated.
But if you get used to this kind of emotion, you will inevitably long for it, fantasize, and imagine that someone different from everyone else suddenly appears in front of you, someone who is willing to give you infinite light, infinite care and warmth in times of suffering.
..to look forward to the little bits of light seen in the gloomy life.
Unfortunately, there was no such character in the previous life, and some of them just had boring endings of being shot to death by the river.
I can be sure that my parents, who have not been involved in my life for a long time, will not hold a funeral for my son who was born unexpectedly.
...Well, it's quite miserable.
This life is good, I have a real family in this life, and I have a sister who can hold my legs and call me brother.
This kind of kindness and warmth that I had never experienced before made me swear when my father ran away. I had never met someone who was full of infinite light and warmth in my previous life, so I would become such a person...
Let my sister and mother no longer feel the indifference I felt in my previous life.
You should focus on helping everyone and your family.
I have to start as an ordinary person and work hard and work harder. Let my sister know that she still has her brother supporting me, and let my mother know that there is a son in the family who is working hard to live with everyone.
These feelings and thoughts... have continued to this day.
And therefore, because of these thoughts, the people around him, including Qiyue, Liuli, Ling, Zhixue, etc., were all hurt by him.
...Strictly speaking, we are not wrong. What is wrong is that we want a relationship that can be 100% responsible after being illuminated by the light.
Yes...no one is wrong.
It was my fault that I was unable to devote 400% of my energy to taking care of them perfectly and handling them harmoniously and harmoniously.
...The fault lies with you.
Raku Sakakibara suddenly stood up in front of the Thames River. He took two breaths of the coolness of the night wind and silently stared at the turbulent cold river surface.
...
"That's it, do you want it to end?"
...
There was a sudden call, and Sakakihara Raku knew who was standing behind him without having to think about it.
"What are you following me for?"
"I just wanted to see what you wanted to do. Now it seems that your guess is pretty good."
Sakakibara closed his eyes and responded calmly, "You thought I was going to jump into the river. You thought I was too fragile. In fact, it wasn't for that. I just wanted to leave and didn't want to see you again."
"Tough talk."
"Oh, everyone has the right to say that about me, but you, who was squatting in front of Tokyo Bay back then, don't have the right to say that."
"Oh, I never thought about it that way."
Sakakibara turned his head and looked straight into the eyes of Amami Nanami, "You have a tough mouth."
"well..."
A sigh suddenly sounded behind Tianhai Qimingyue. Another girl with long flaxen hair, wearing the same white dress during the day, sighed and walked out. Her eyes swept over the two of them and said unhappily, "
It’s really... each one is tougher than the other... In Qiyue, wouldn’t it be nice if you softened your attitude towards Lejun?”
Tianhai Qimingyue looked back at her sister, "Why? What I said was not wrong."
"...Then it's not like you don't agree with what Lejun said in Qiyue. Why are you so stubborn?"
Amami Kuruuri hung her hair that was blown away by the wind by the river behind her ears, looked at Raku Sakakibara in front of her, and tried her best to explain: "Raku-kun too, why are you so stubborn? You obviously still care so much about Qiyue."
Sakakihara Raku saw the two of them appearing together. Although he was confused, he didn't want to ask at the moment.
"I just hate her."
"I know, Lejun hates her the most."
Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly pinched Tianhai Qimingyue's arm and motioned for her to step forward and speak for herself.
Although Tianhai Qimingyue looked very dissatisfied, after her sister glared at her, she still stepped forward extremely reluctantly.
"I - actually - very -"
"Oh, Qiyue actually wanted to ask Lejun a question. She doesn't want to admit it in her heart, and what Keke did is particularly in line with this mentality."
"..." Tianhai Qimingyue looked very embarrassed.
Seeing that there was no movement from Sakakibara Raku, Amami Kuruuri had no choice but to take the initiative to speak, clearing his throat and raising his voice:
"Lejun, actually in Qiyue, as soon as she heard me tell you about your recent situation, she was eager to come to the UK with me! It's not like I strongly asked her to come with me, but she lied to you again!"
Tianhai Qimingyue held her forehead awkwardly, "My sister is just talking nonsense, it's not like that at all. Besides, doesn't it mean that my sister has to drag me here? When I heard that I was going to come to England with this guy, I was really angry.
I didn’t want to talk to you, sister, at that time.”
"...What? Isn't that what it is?"
"No, okay...sister, please go down and I will go on my own."
"...Don't believe it. You guys are definitely going to quarrel again."
"I try not to talk about him."
"You said so in July, I promise."
"...ensure."
...
The two of them muttered for a long time, and Sakakibara just waited without any emotion. It was not until Amami Nanamigetsu was pushed in front of her with great reluctance by her sister that the two of them looked at each other face to face under the bell tower.