Chapter 463 Tianhai Zhixue wants to be with Qiyues mother
Clean this up.
It is basically always Raku Sakakibara's job at home.
I remember it was when my father ran away and my mother started working multiple jobs part-time, he took the initiative to take on the housework.
Day after day, year after year.
After a long time of cleaning, it has become a habit.
"Aren't you tired of having fun?"
The holidays are coming to an end, and in the dog days of summer, Raku Sakakibara is busy cleaning his home.
The floor-to-ceiling glass windows were a bit difficult to clean, so Sakakihara placed a bucket beside him. He stood on a small bench and reached out to wipe the dirt above.
Amami Nozuki sat quietly on the sofa, putting her hands on both sides, tilting her head and looking at the busy Sakakibara Raku.
"Obviously it's Saturday after a long time, and I only took the day off after work."
"You can't be idle even on vacation."
Raku Sakakihara wrung out the dirty rag and looked up at the floor-to-ceiling glass window illuminated by the sun. The city outside the high-rise building was distorted by the heat wave.
"If these things are not wiped off, they will accumulate for a long time and become mold spots that are difficult to remove."
"Le, aren't you tired?"
"..."
"Le must be very tired."
Sakakihara sighed helplessly, "Yuki, you have asked me this question five times!"
At this moment, Qi Qi, Liuli and the others were still cleaning the bathroom and corridor.
Zhixue just wants to help.
But she is a bit clumsy, and she always forgets where she put things, and the more she organizes them, the more messy she becomes.
Sakakihara was so happy just now that he simply let her sit and rest in the living room.
This is pretty good.
Can...
Next, she looked at herself with a helpless look, and kept asking herself if she was tired.
This made Rakuzu Sakakihara feel a little guilty.
Are you isolating her? Let her rest alone and turn a blind eye to her request.
This is not possible.
Seeing that the glass in the living room was almost wiped, Sakakibara wringed out the rag, washed his hands again, and came back to sit next to Amami Yuki.
"Ahem, yuki."
"here I am."
The girl's long beige hair fell behind her shoulders, her eyes were looking at herself motionlessly...she looked quiet and cute.
The big white flower that I handmade for her seems to have become an accessory that Yuki will wear every day.
Sakakibara reached out and grabbed a chocolate candy placed on the coffee table, unwrapped it and put it into his mouth, and asked with a smile:
"How is yuki's recent condition?"
"Very good." The voice was very small.
"Where is the disease? Is it still serious?"
Tianhai Zhixue shook her head, "The doctors said that she is in good condition recently, but she just needs to exercise less, but I can do the cleaning! Just let Le and I clean together."
Sakakibara selectively ignored her next sentence, "Doctor?...Yes, you still have to go for regular check-ups...is Suzu accompanying you?"
Tianhai Zhixue nodded.
Facing her sincere little face.
Raku Sakakihara suddenly remembered the problem he had faced with Qijiu recently...that is, he didn't care enough about either of them.
Seventy-nine times I don’t care anymore.
yuki...Isn't this even more true?
Did he really neglect her?
As a result, I even forgot about her going to the hospital for a check-up.
Wait... Calculating the days carefully, Yuki will also have to go to the hospital today, right?
...
Due to Yuki's personality, she likes to stay quietly. When everyone is talking, she can't interrupt, and she doesn't know what to say.
This makes her have no sense of presence among everyone, and she can easily be left out.
After this back and forth, Sakakihara Raku felt a little more distressed when she was staring at her for a long time.
He reached out and touched the girl's head.
"What have yuki been doing recently?"
"Practice music, make videos, play games with sister Liuli and sister Qiyue, and occasionally go out to play basketball."
"...How are you doing?"
"very good!"
"..."
Even though that was her answer, Sakakihara Raku didn't quite believe it.
The reason... lies in the way she looks at him.
Admiration, expectation, liking...these emotions are all there...
What is Yuki looking forward to and thinking about now? Sakakihara Raku feels that she has already made it clear by looking at him.
He smiled helplessly and said, "How about we continue cleaning the balcony together?"
"good!"
Tianhai Zhixue stood up immediately, as if waiting for him to say this, she quickly went to the place where she had just put her things, and took the broom and dustpan.
"Yuki, you forgot your apron."
"apron..."
Tianhai Zhixue lowered her head and glanced at her clothes, then quickly went back to find her apron.
When she came back, the apron was already on her body, but the knot at the back was not tied well.
Sakakihara asked her to turn around, tied her apron again, and tied her hair into a bun.
"Le, now we can clean together!"
"It's just cleaning, what are you looking forward to so much?"
"Because I can be with Le."
As Amami no Yuki spoke, she enthusiastically carried the broom and dustpan, and took Sakakibara Raku to the balcony.
She was so enthusiastic that Raku Sakakihara felt a little unlike her.
...
The balcony outside the living room is relatively large. There are flowers and plants that Sakakibara brought back before and they are placed nearby. There is also a small sink.
There is already a lot of moss under those flower pots, and there are also some mildew spots where the moss extends, making it troublesome to clean.
Amami no Yuki removed the dirt in the corner and swept the floor... Sakakihara Raku was wiping the balcony with a rag. Occasionally he saw her clumsy hands and feet using waterproof sandpaper to wipe the sink, so he smiled and told her that she should
What to do to save effort.
With two people working together, the efficiency is much higher.
Halfway through, Sakakibara discovered that Nanami Nanami suddenly stood in the living room at some point, quietly looking at the two people outside.
July?
Raku Sakakihara was a little curious about Qiyue's sight at this time. He looked back at Amami Nozuki who was in a serious state, then opened the glass door of the balcony and walked inside.
"Is the bathroom almost done?"
"It's almost done. My sister is spraying detergent. We have to wait for an hour before continuing to clean."
Sakakihara stayed on her expressionless face for a few more seconds. She also tied up her hair during the cleaning today, with the same bun.
He captured something special about July.
"...What were you looking at in Qi Qi just now?"
"Look at the snow." Tianhai Qimingyue answered decisively.
Sakakihara looked back at Shimoyuki again, not understanding, "What's wrong?"
"Look how serious she is."
Tianhai Qimingyue didn't have many words, but the look in her eyes at Yuki clearly showed that there were many words in her heart that she hadn't yet spoken out.
After a moment of silence, she suddenly sighed and said:
"I have been thinking about our relationship during this period. I don't know, brother, if you feel that the relationship between Zhixue and I has become much weaker than in the past."
"There's nothing we can do about it," Sakakibara Raku said.
Tianhai Qimingyue shook her head, "It would be fine if it was from both sides, but the problem is... Zhixue is still as good and fond of me as before, and she still feels guilty for me... Her feelings for you are even more
It’s so small that it’s so discreet…”
"Qiyue, you feel it too..." Sakakibara looked into her sky-blue eyes.
"Isn't it right now to see that? Just because you can accompany her to clean the house, she is very happy and enthusiastic. How can I not understand? During this time, you have been neglecting everyone, and my sister and I can feel it.
Got...my sister and I were able to get some responses, and yuki...just needs you to stay with her for a while."
"..."
What I said in July is so heartbreaking to hear...
Zhixue's emotions have become so small that just cleaning with her for a while can make her happy for a long time.
And her heart is always sincere and sincere...without any distracting thoughts.
Sakakihara Raku was silent.
Tianhai Qimingyue also closed her eyes, "It's very contradictory... I obviously can't accept that your feelings are shared, but I feel worried about Yuki's current situation... I think of what you said before, you are right
, there are too many similarities between me in the past and yuki now. I see my own shadow in her - my hope that she will be happy also comes from this..."
"..."
Sakakibara was not happy to receive the words from July.
July used to be very contradictory...
She obviously wanted to save the "July" in the past, but because her feelings for herself were too deep, the two ideas had irreconcilable conflicts.
She could neither tolerate her own betrayal, nor could she bear to see Zhixue suffer forever.
...Sure enough, people are always complex and multifaceted.
Sakakibara suddenly remembered something.
"How about you take Yuki for a checkup in the afternoon of July? It just so happens that she has to go to the hospital for a review today."
Tianhai Qimingyue understood what he meant and looked over, "You have to understand that the person Zhixue is most eager to accompany her for a check-up is you... I also visited Zhixue when she was sick... But even though she just
After the operation, I was still in anesthesia and coma, but I still shouted your name."
Having said this, Tianhai Qimingyue saw Tianhai Zhixue who was still trying to wipe the sink outside, and remained silent for a while.
"I wonder if you still remember Yuki's mother's diary?"
"Remember."
"Grandma, what she missed most during that time was Yuki who was not yet born. She was worried that she would lose a lot of emotions because she didn't have a mother... She also told Grandpa to be nice to Yuki when she was born...
.You also know the subsequent result. Grandma passed away, and the family was more or less angry at Zhixue, who didn't know anything."
"...That's right. Yuki's autistic character is somewhat caused by her sisters' dislike, right?"
Tianhai Qimingyue acquiesced in this answer, "It can be said that for Zhixue, the only things that cared about her in the first half of her life were the few words in the diary left by her mother. This is why she valued the guitar and diary left by her mother so much.
Important reasons.”
"This is also the reason why Zhi Xue likes guitar..."
Sakakibara heard that something was wrong in Qi Qi's tone, "Qi Qi, why are you suddenly saying this?"
Tianhai Qimingyue sighed:
"I don't know if I have been affected by something, but I have been dreaming about 'mother' recently."
"..."
This is July and she... wants to be a mother?
"I dreamed about Bertha, and I also dreamed about my grandma whom I had never met. Needless to say, my mother's impression of grandma was from Zhixue's diary. You also know that my relationship with her is
Xue is the same age, and we had not grown up when grandma passed away, so to me, grandma is more of a mother figure."
Sakakibara Raku: "...the one left for Yuki, the final diary?"
Tianhai Qimingyue nodded:
"What was written in the diary were what grandma wanted to say to Zhixue when she was pregnant. She knew that she would probably be gone, so she wrote her blessings for her little daughter in advance in the diary... She told her
Be brave and hope that she can find her own happiness in this world. Even if she is gone, her mother will always smile in the sky and watch her grow up..."
"Then...? Does this have anything to do with your dream in July?"
Tianhai Qimingyue continued:
"Recalling the words of mothers who care about their children, I had a very strange dream... I dreamed that my grandma was in the sky, looking at the snow all the time... but there was no smile in it...
She saw her growing up alone... saw her growing up alone, saw her family not caring about her, saw her grandfather paying no attention to her, saw her being so confused that she was at the age she is today... saw how hard it was for her.
She found someone who could truly take care of her and care about her in life, but this person... still had to leave her."
Sakakihara Raku did not speak and listened patiently.
"This dream has always conveyed a picture to me - if you, brother, leave completely, grandma will see the old snow again, and then she... must be so uncomfortable..."
...
After patiently listening to Qiuyue's words, Sakakihara was not happy to answer.
"So, what do you want to do in July?"
Tianhai Qimingyue replied naturally:
"...I think now that I have accepted Yuki's current situation, I shouldn't treat her with the same attitude I had at that time... I was obviously so good to her before, but I treated her more or less because of those things
A little neglected. I think... no matter what, I must make Yuki's guilt towards me disappear."
The relationship between these people is really awkward.
There are too many things and emotions wrapped around it.
But no matter what, the fact that Qi Qi has this heart now means that there is hope for her and Yuki to return to their previous state.
...
Sakakibara thought of something again.
"In July, do you think Zhixue has nothing to do..."
"You mean planning?"
"You're already in high school, shouldn't you have any plans for the future? I still remember when I was divided into classes in my second year of high school, didn't I submit an application to the school? Everyone wrote in, but Zhixue didn't."
Tianhai Qimingyue thought carefully, "That's true. But yuki doesn't like playing basketball very much?"
"She only treats basketball as a hobby and has no lifelong pursuit of it."
"music?"
Sakakibara laughed, "That's right. In fact, our band was quite good last time... But there is a problem. We are all busy with our own affairs, and we don't have time to accompany Zhixue to do this during this time.
band."
Tianhai Qi Mingyue understood what he meant, "You want to say that since you don't have time to accompany her, why not let her find something related to do on her own?"
"That's it. My idea is related to Ling. It just so happens that Ling has been working as an idol trainee recently. How about we take Yuki over and take a look?"
It is related to music, and at the same time it fits the characteristics of Yuki, a little lonely person who likes a lot of attention.
Well...it does work.
By the way... Speaking of A Ling's idol, I haven't seen how she is doing.
I just happened to take some time to see how A Ling was doing.
Sakakibara then told Amami no Yuki about this idea, and Amami no Yuki nodded blankly.
Then I heard that today’s check-up was in July and I would go with her.
There was more happiness in her eyes.
Raku Sakakihara could clearly see this mood from the side. Didn't Yuki's look mean that she always wanted to be with Qiyue?