Xue Han was stunned for several seconds and couldn't react.
My mother's words just now made several profound marks on her tender heart, and it hurt and numb.
Cheng Tianfang didn't dare to meet his daughter's pure big eyes, and lowered her eyes to wipe her tears.
"Xiaohan, these are all my mother's faults and have nothing to do with your father. After I had a strange intention with him, I looked for opportunities to quarrel with him all day long. Later, he was afraid of going home, and he was decadent and uneasy. Seeing him like that
I got even more angry. I had a bad temper and was too emotional. It was because I didn’t know myself deeply enough, and I betrayed our marriage and got along with the scumbag…”
"At that time, I was obsessed with the thrill and madness, eating, drinking and having fun with them, wandering around all day long, spending money like flowing water, but I always thought I could make it back soon. Unexpectedly, the scumbag lied to me and fooled me and took mine
All the money, and the money your father gave were cheated, and even doing illegal things in our store. I was foolish and believed him. Later, I was caught and he took away some of the money and ran away.
I just woke up, but unfortunately it was still too late, and everything was too late."
"As soon as the matter was revealed, everyone was so angry. Your grandmother was so angry that she was so angry that she refused to pay attention to me. Your father was heartbroken and got drunk on the street and almost got drunk. The scumbag even ran away
On the mall, my grandfather found out that he had bad intentions and was stabbed to death by the scumbag. I was locked up at that time, and I didn’t know at all... I couldn’t even see your grandfather for the last time."
"At that time, I just wanted to die... I felt that I had no shame to live in this world again. Later, I was rescued by suicide. Your aunt tried every means to bring you to see me, so that I could live well for you and start over. But life is a long time.
It’s life, where does it come from? What started from scratch? If there was really a medicine for regret in the world, I would rather trade my life for it…”
Speaking of this, she cried so hard that she could no longer speak and hugged her daughter.
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Mom really sorry for you... I'm sorry for all of you... If you didn't grow up in a single-parent family, you won't be sensitive and delicate. If you have your father and mother raising you, you won't be either.
We will lack the company of our relatives, and we will pursue excitement and fun. We ignore you and don’t care about you... Woo woo! Xiaohan, after all, it’s all my mother’s fault! It’s all my mother’s fault!"
Xue Han was stunned, afraid to swallow.
"Mom, you just said that my grandfather... was killed?"
Cheng Tianfang knew that she was scared and stroked her back gently.
"Yes... the scumbag I provoked stabbed my grandfather to death. It was because of this that my grandmother refused to pay attention to me. It was not until the previous two years that she was willing to see me, had dinner with me and chat with me. Your uncle was not willing to do so.
Still angry with me and almost refuse to talk to me. My family connection depends on your aunt's help and your father. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be able to hold on to today. All of this is all
I deserve it!”
Xue Han was so scared that his face was pale and he kept trembling.
"Mom, you...you didn't lie to me? Are these not true? They are not true, right?"
Cheng Tianfang sobbed: "No, it's true, I didn't lie to you. It's just that your aunt and your father have never dared to let you know over the years, and I dare not tell you either, so you are kept in the dark.
You have grown up and you almost happened to meet someone wrong. I think you should tell you... Children, once a person indulges himself and once he gets along with a bad person, he may lose a lot in the end, or even
life."
Xue Han was afraid and swallowed his saliva.
“…really? Are they all true?”
Cheng Tianfang finally looked up and looked at her eyes with tears in her eyes.
"Yes, every sentence is true. Xiaohan, don't make mistakes when you are young, otherwise you may have to spend your whole life paying off your debts, or even repaying them. If I hadn't led the wolf into the house, my grandfather wouldn't have been stabbed to death.
Now, as soon as I think of it a little, I feel so guilty. Even if your grandmother and uncle resent me for the rest of their lives, I will not dare to say anything, because I deserve it, I harm others and myself. If it weren't for me, your father would have to do anything,
You won’t divorce me, and you won’t always live in a single-parent family..."
Xue Han cried so hard that she burst into tears and choked: "Mom, stop talking, stop talking."
Cheng Tianfang gently wiped her tears and murmured: "I didn't dare to say anything before, I didn't dare to say anything in front of you. I was afraid that you wouldn't understand, I was afraid that you would blame me, and I even more afraid that you wouldn't want me to dislike me. But this
Once, I have to say it. Xiaohan, once some mistakes are made, the stains may not be washed away for the rest of my life. Don’t learn from your mother, don’t learn from it... It’s too painful, too much lost, too much
Now.”
"Mom, I understand." She nodded slightly.
Cheng Tianfang kissed her forehead and whispered: "You must remember it in your heart..."
Xue Han repeated: "I will remember it in my heart."
Cheng Tianfang wiped away the tears hard, helped her daughter lie down, and gently covered her with a quilt.
"Xiaohan, go to bed well. Fortunately, you stopped at the cliff and it was still time to do so. When making friends in the future, you must keep your eyes open. We only make friends with classmates who love to study and are sunny. You are a student now, so you should study with them.
For the sake of the matter, don't think of any messy things."
"Mom..." Xue Han asked in a hoarse voice: "If...I mean, if I am not suitable for studying...what should you do? Will you be as disappointed with me as your father?"
"No." Cheng Tianfang shook his head: "Your father loves you very much and treats you as life hurts. As long as you correct it, he will not be disappointed with you. You study hard and study hard. If you can't learn well, you can't be that way.
We won't blame you even if you are excellent. There are thousands of people in this world, and not everyone can have the talent for studying. Just like your cousin, your second cousin is not very good at studying, and he is usually average
Level. They are all born to the same father and mother, but there are still exceptions. If you read it carefully, we won’t care too much about the outcome. For your father and you, you can grow up healthily, have strong psychological qualities, and be sunny.
Growing up cheerfully is more important than any academic achievement.”
"Thank you, mom." Xue Han nodded: "I will definitely read it carefully and read it seriously. I promised my mother that I will not be friends with messy people anymore. I am a student now, so I will study hard first."
Cheng Tianfang smiled with relief and whispered: "Be good, close your eyes and sleep well. Don't worry, mom will accompany you to study in the future. Also, mom will help you take care of your father and let him recover soon."
"Mom, can you... remarry your dad?" Xiaohan asked nervously.
Cheng Tianfang was slightly stunned, and then smiled sadly.
"We are good friends now, and it's good enough. Remember, no matter what our relationship is, we love you and love you."
Xiao Han said "Oh" in disappointment, closed his eyes and fell asleep.