It has been raining for a day and has not stopped yet. The light rain is falling, hitting the leaves and falling into the green river, making little ripples.
The Qinghe River runs through the city and is the main source of drinking water for the entire city. At a quiet river dam, Xu Yuezhen sat quietly on the edge with a black umbrella beside her, letting the rain fall.
He held a letter that was wet with rain in his hand, while the farewell video of Meng Ziming and Su Qing was playing on his phone.
A pair of black headphones hung around his neck, and in his arms were a small speaker, a keychain and a yellowed mobile phone case.
This was a gift specially given to her by Su Qing and others before they left after dinner. It even included a total of five videos from three years ago and today.
After they separated, she walked aimlessly and unknowingly found this remote place. She looked at the five farewell videos and the letters in her hands over and over again, and her face seemed to have no expression of sadness anymore.
The rest is just numbness.
It was said that they were in college for four years, but in fact the two were classmates for only one year. In the remaining year, Meng Ziming fell ill and took a leave of absence. During this period, the two only communicated through WeChat.
At that time, she did not know what kind of illness the other party had, she only knew that it was not serious, otherwise she would not have suspended school, but she never thought that he would die.
Until some time later, Meng Ziming suddenly lost contact one day and disappeared from her life in an instant.
She was frightened and uneasy, and went crazy looking for someone to ask. But they were just classmates at the time, and she only knew that the other person was from Jiangcheng. Besides, she was only a student at school, so she was powerless in many things.
Just when she was at a loss, a courier arrived at the school for her to sign for. When she opened it, she found that there was a letter inside.
That's right, as the girl Meng Ziming liked, she didn't receive a farewell video in the end, only a letter.
These days, with the popularization of mobile phones, no one has contacted by letter without signature, but she still couldn't wait to open the letter.
She recognized Meng Ziming's handwriting from the first line of the letter.
"Xiao Xu, seeing a letter is like a face
I'm sorry, I may not be able to go back to school. When you receive this letter, I should have gone to another world. Although I know it is not good to disturb you like this, I still decided to send this letter because
In my limited life, there is not much I can do.
To this day, I still remember the moment I saw you for the first time. As described in the novel, a tsunami occurred in my heart, but I just stood quietly and didn't let anyone know.
Secret love is really an unknown landslide. During the year of college, I became a thief, always secretly paying attention to your daily life, although you have always been alone because of the reason on your face, like
You may seem small and transparent, but in my heart, you seem to be a big sun.
In those ordinary and unsurprising days of that year, you shone into my world like a ray of light. I should thank you, even though we had no story.
Although I don’t want to tell you all this in this way, I have no time and my body can’t support it. I liked you, but you don’t need to feel bad about it. I just want to tell you that there was once a person who liked you.
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It's funny, I recorded a farewell video for everyone around me, but I don't have the courage to face you. Maybe it's because I don't know how to say goodbye to you. This is the best way I can think of.
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I hope you don’t feel inferior because of the birthmark on your face. Over the past year, I’ve been very happy to see you gradually become more cheerful. Just hold on. It doesn’t matter even if you don’t remember me. I believe you can live a happy life without me in the future.
good.
I really want to see the snow with you again, even just once.
Meeting you is the proudest thing in my life. Unfortunately, I just walked with you through a fruitless journey and will not bother you for the rest of my life. Thank you for bringing an end to my youth.
The last sentence, girl, good night, there will be no good morning in the future, I wish you no illness, no disaster, and peace in the future."
The letter was unsigned and unsigned, but there were traces of dried tears on the paper, which made her heartbroken.
She also likes him, just a little bit away, just a little bit away from catching the light in her life.
Her family conditions are very poor. She has three children. Her parents divorced and each took one away. She and her grandfather were left alone to depend on each other. Because when she was born, she had a red birthmark on her right eye, which made her originally delicate face look dull.
It's a bit scary. Because of this birthmark, she has had low self-esteem since she was a child, has almost no friends, and has even felt the disgust and disgust of others, so when she grew up, she covered one of her eyes with her hair.
She could barely pay for college tuition. She thought she would be like this in the future, but she didn't expect that in her freshman year, a boy stumbled into her world.
Boys would specially find her, a transparent person, as their dance partner in physical duet classes. Whenever she was concerned about her hair, the boys would always comfort her and say it was okay.
The boy's family background is very good, at least to her, but he still goes out to work with her every day after school, saying that he wants to work and study, but she knows that he just wants to accompany her.
After a year of getting along, the relationship between the two became better and better. Not only did she earn enough for tuition, her personality became more and more cheerful. She even tied her hair with the encouragement of the boy, and she fell in love with it.
Boys just dare not express themselves because of their low self-esteem in the past.
Just when she was looking forward to everything, the world seemed to be playing a joke on her and took away her only light. At that moment, her sky... collapsed.
Obviously I have never owned a moment, but I feel like I have lost it thousands of times.
From then on, she became taciturn and covered the birthmark on her right cheek with her hair again. She just wanted to make more money after graduation so that her grandfather in her hometown could live a good life. But just this year, her grandfather, who depended on her for life, also passed away.
Already.
For a moment, she couldn't even find a reason to live, so she wanted to come here and see him.
Through letters, she learned that Meng Ziming had left farewell videos to others. She has come here every year for three years. She also asked many people, but none of them had such so-called videos, and Su Qing and others did not.
appeared until today.
After meeting the person she had been thinking about for three years, it seemed that everything had nothing to do with her. She knew that these videos were his last traces in the world, and she had no regrets.
So when she separated from Su Qing and others, she didn't let them see her off. She said she wanted to go back to the hotel by herself and leave tomorrow so that they didn't have to see each other off.
But she didn't book a hotel at all, let alone leave. She quit her job before coming.
There were drops of water on her face, and she couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears. She strung several gifts together with earphone cords, tied them tightly to her hands, and then put the letter that she had read so many times.
She folded the letter solemnly and put it into her arms. Finally, she glanced at the brightly lit city in the distance. She smiled and said softly:
"I'm not leaving. It's very nice here. I like it so much. This city with you is so beautiful!"
A gust of wind blew by, blowing up the girl's bangs, revealing a dark red birthmark. Despite this, the girl's eyes were full of tenderness and light. At this moment, she was extremely beautiful.
This city is very big, and although she does not belong here, this quiet corner should be able to accommodate a foreigner like her.
Just when she wanted to stay here forever, there was a series of footsteps behind her, which was the sound of leather shoes hitting the ground.
"Fortunately, you chose to jump into the river here instead of running to the viaduct or jumping off the building. Otherwise, I really don't know how to advise you."
At this moment, a voice came from the shadow behind her.
Xu Yuezhen turned her head and found a person standing not far behind her, holding an umbrella in his hand and looking at her quietly.