Chapter 1715: Confused, heading to Shaoxing Mansion
As the car rolled along, Yan Rui burst into tears.
In fact, she has become very nostalgic for this home, or in other words, she has already regarded this place as her own home, and regards Xiangling and others as her family.
However, as Xiang Ling said, she is fundamentally different from others.
And the reason why she decided to leave was actually for two reasons!
The first reason is that she really wants to walk around and take a look.
The world she saw following Shen Tang was completely different from the world she had understood before.
In the beginning, she was high-spirited and unparalleled in talent and learning. The Song Dynasty was the holy land in her heart, while other places were barbarians.
Just like an angry young woman, she spoke freely with some close friends, talked about government affairs, criticized political affairs...
But what she encountered next and what she saw and heard among the people and officials made her doubt this holy land. Is this really the outstanding, wealthy and beautiful Song Dynasty that she imagined?
If she had not met Shen Tang, she would have died in the rebellion. If she was lucky, she would have been treated as a female prostitute.
After entering the Shen Mansion, she discovered that there was such a family and such officials of the Song Dynasty.
The composition of the Shen Mansion is really strange. There are daughters of officials, pearls of wealthy businessmen, princesses from the Song Dynasty, the Jin Kingdom, and Dali, as well as beauties from the barbarians.
Shen Tang, in particular, had a greater impact on her.
Shen Tang respected the royal court and cared for the people of Li. His military exploits were unparalleled and he was invincible! He had great literary talent and was the number one scholar!
However, in addition to these, Shen Tang's body is also full of many contradictions.
He was a Zhongwuhou of the Song Dynasty, but he was also a general of Fengguo conferred by the Jin Kingdom.
He made the princess of the Song Dynasty fall in love, but he also married the princess of the Jin Kingdom.
This was completely different from her previous worldview! Especially this trip north, it almost subverted her cognition.
In her worldview, the Kingdom of Jin was the mortal enemy of the Song Dynasty! The Jurchen clan occupied half of the territory of the Song Dynasty, leaving the Song Dynasty in a corner, and there was no way to reconcile the two sides. The final outcome would be the death of you and me.
However, Shen Tang and the soldiers and horses of the Jin Kingdom got along harmoniously, and the imperial court even sent Shen Tang to lead troops to aid the Jin Kingdom.
This was something she couldn't understand, and in some ways, it was even hard to accept.
How could the Song Dynasty, the mighty Song Dynasty, provide help to the enemy?
Shouldn’t the Jin Kingdom’s suffering be something that one would like to hear about?
Shouldn't we send troops north to regain our homeland?
The people of the Song Dynasty in the north were living in dire straits. They were waiting for the troops of the Celestial Empire to come to rescue them. What was the court waiting for?
There are hundreds of thousands of soldiers and horses in the northwest route alone. Is it possible that they can't defeat the Jin Kingdom in crisis?
Right and wrong, good and evil, black and white, there was a fierce conflict in her cognition.
However, when she entered the Northland, she discovered that the Song people here were not living a difficult and miserable life as she had imagined.
Although it was not very good, she could still live a stable life. The soldiers and horses of the Jin Kingdom were not as cruel as she imagined. To the people of the Song Dynasty in the north, these soldiers and horses could be said to be innocent.
This was a little hard for her to accept.
Yan Rui is undoubtedly a smart person, but she is like the angry young people of later generations, who only sees black and white. When she really sees the truth of certain things, her worldview completely collapses.
This is not the world in her poems, or the world in the book.
So, she is confused!
She wanted to really take a look at what the world was like. If she couldn't get the answer, she would have trouble sleeping and eating! Maybe in the eyes of others, this approach was a bit unbelievable, or even a bit ungrateful.
After all, she had food and drink in the Shen Mansion, and her life was more noble than that of Miss Pearl waiting for everyone. Such a life was just a matter of wandering around, but it was exactly like this that she was Yan Rui.
In addition to this reason, there was another reason. She suddenly discovered that she seemed to like Shen Tang.
From the very beginning of admiration and curiosity, she fell into decline bit by bit. Although she still couldn't see clearly, she found that her originally closed heart had been broken in by her open fire, breaking her heart and breaking her heart. The last defense.
However, she also has her own pursuit and desire for love.
Facing Xiang Ling and others, she didn't know where she should put herself.
Or maybe she didn't know how to face the Xiangling girls, or how to face Shen Tang.
In this case, if we can't help each other, then let's forget each other in the world.
If we are destined to meet again, we will work hard regardless of our own safety.
If she has no chance to meet again, then she should regard herself as a passer-by and the experience as a past, and such an experience and thoughts are enough for her to remember for the rest of her life.
So, she chose to leave. Even she herself didn't know whether this separation was temporary or for a lifetime...
"Miss, we have left Daming Mansion and don't know where to go next."
Yan Rui hesitated for a moment, "Let's go to Jiangnan! Shaoxing Prefecture, Shanyin County!"
The wheels rolled south, and Yan Rui leaned on the frame, her eyes a little dull, "I don't have the opportunity or qualifications to experience your past, but I can walk the road you have walked and see everything you have done." The scenery I have seen.
If one day I find the answer I want and understand you, then I will go find you no matter where you are in the world!"
"If you can never find the answer and can't see the way forward clearly, then I will always follow behind you and move forward step by step until the end of the road..."...
Besides, after Bi Zaiyu and others captured the Dangxiang fortress, they recovered Tuke and some of his troops!
After inquiry, I learned that the rear grain and forage team usually leaves in about ten days.
Seven days have passed since the last time the grain and grass team passed by here.
In other words, if everything goes normally, it will only take another three days for a new grain transport team to arrive.
Moreover, these fortresses are indeed where the food transport teams are stationed and supplied. In this way, as long as Bi Zaiyu and others plan carefully, it is not impossible for the soldiers and horses transporting food to defeat them without any blood.
Generally speaking, the number of soldiers and horses transporting food in the rear is not large, probably only about a thousand people. After all, this is in the heart of Xia Kingdom, and there are similar fortresses every one or two hundred miles along the way. ,Therefore, it is naturally unnecessary to send a large number of troops.
After asking about everything, Bi Zaiyu and Zhong Yan once again promised Tuke that after this incident, whether they wanted to return to Dangxiang or follow them to the Kingdom of Jin or even the territory of the Song Dynasty, they would never They will stop them and even send people to protect them all the way and take them back.
As I said before, many people in this era do not have a strong concept of country and race, and in the face of life and death, it is not surprising to actually make any choice.